While I don't have a great life, I don't have a bad one either. I'm not poor, im not overly lonely, I have a good family, I'm not dumb, im not un-attractive... but the past few years have just really worn down on me.
I transitioned from being a NEET 5 years ago, to having a job, and it was great for a while... but life is just starting to feel empty and plain grey. Ive had a few relationships, and theyve all ended relatively uneventfully, except 2 whom cheated on me, and the recent girls I've talked to have either admitted to cheating in the past, or been open to cheating on their current boyfriends with me.
So, what's the point of it all? I'm earning money, but I don't have the friends or time to spend that money in enjoyable ways. I cant bring myself to date because women seem like such trash these days, and I don't even enjoy my job anymore. I just feel like I'm getting older and not really doing anything impactful. I'm only 26, so I know I'm still relatively young... but I couldn't imagine doing this for another 5 years without killing myself.
Right now I'm just staring at my screen at some work I need to do, and I'm just thinking "why even bother."
Anyone got any ideas or have a similar experience?
I'm into light BDSM, though mostly about master-mistress dom. It's fun but it still feels empty. Been there done that.
Samuel Williams
Nah, been trying to think of one for quite a while. I wouldn't mind offing myself but the problem is I don't want to hurt my family by doing it. Best Idea I've had is to go on an "adventure holiday" and "go missing."
Ryder Gray
same op, around the same age, great life ut worry about what I'll have to endure in the future and gives me severe anxiety. Feel really ungrateful but just creeps up on me.
Matthew Torres
Same with the family thing and also too much of a coward. Maybe drunk with a bullet? Access to a high calibre firearm is a problem though.
Joshua Parker
>feel really ungrateful Same. I feel like a dick because my life is "fine" but I still want to end it when I know people are so much worse off than I am. But I really can't be bothered with life anymore. And I don't see anything interesting to hold out for in the future either.
Julian Allen
That wasn't an idea for you, my own thought process.
Austin Sanders
British, no can do. And I woulkdn't be able to do that to my family. Watched enough suicide and gore videos to know how much of a mess it leaves.
