Work/School Anxiety thread

Work/School Anxiety thread

>be me
>26 year old EMT
>work as EMT for a year and few months, go to school to become paramedic
>full time school, working 60 hours plus clinical getting to me
>fuck it its growing up and being an adult after putting it off
>Instantly lose social life while in medic school
>Slowly not doing anything besides ambulance shit
>Sets in I have no life outside of EMS
>try to talk to womens, works but they are interested only in what I do (I'm a Basic-EMT I don't do shit lmao, lie 4 pussy anyway)
>Friends only come around for medical problems, barely free to see them
>Work 911/transfer with cool people, but mostly work with other coworkers who are in the same class, all we talk is school. I miss my old partner who would talk about guns and /k/
>slowly losing grip on reality of things i liked outside of work.
>turns out medic class is ran by strict morons who can't teach, get mad and humiliate students that don't understand skills, threaten to dismiss students from class daily
>stress rising
>saving grace is adjunct instructors being amazing paramedics who like to teach
>Assign more and more bullshit that isn't used in EMS anymore to eat up what was left of my life outside of work and school
>no adjunct instructor can save me now
>Go literally months without seeing friends and family or people not related to EMS
>At breaking point of anxiety and depression from shit show school ran by shit show people.
>Jack off for first time in months at my home
>Got so desperate jerked off between calls at station on downtime
>Look for phat ass niggrus
>finds this
>"I mean shes fat but lets see where this go.... oh god"

I broke down crying for an hour.

I miss my family and friends, never had anxiety like this before, never had it on fucked up calls, watched people die and be okay but this lurking around me broke me

Anyone got some relatable anxiety stories?

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Yeah I stopped being an EMT the second I realized Id end up like that. Some people like it but honestly it's a terrible experience through and through.
Mellow the fuck out. Quit your shitty fly by night medic school and smoke a joint or something.

I honestly like it. School is whats getting to me honestly... I miss smoking weed a lot though.

you have to do something fun with friends

Why is so distressing that she is an EMT as well?

Think about being a medic. Watching people die and depriving yourself of sleep until your eventual blenderizing with HIV needles and barf into a paraplegic medic smoothiewhen your EMT falls asleep in the intersection and gets Tboned. All that fun but you'll never get to just kick back, light up a bowl and stroke it to some big booty bitches on pornhub.

It was weird. I saw it broke down in a cold sweat, fell over, started shaking, heart beating out of chest. visibly flushed, breathing labored like 12 times a minute.

Like finally being home and able to relax then seeing that just just made my heart sink.

All that death makes you weird. "it's" happening to you.

... I like it

Fair enough user. Not all of us are like you. I chose big booty bitches. I figured I was smart enough to do that I could get though engineering school and just get stoned and design buildings all day. Pays a little better too.