Been secretly utilizing benzos, coke and opiates for a year or two(dosages so low its hardly even abuse...

>been secretly utilizing benzos, coke and opiates for a year or two(dosages so low its hardly even abuse, except for benzos)
>get a qt gf that I actually enjoy just being around and am generally pretty fond of, its not even a chore to hang out together
>always hid muh habits from her cuz shes super sucessful straight laced and smart
>decide to quit that shit because its shitty and gunna kill me
>the bad feelings come back
>she acts really distant
>tell her we need to go our separate ways (because sober im a fucking piece of shit that nobody can stand being around)

The only drug ive used in the past four days is booze and ativan to sleep, Ive never felt this bad in my life
I feel like a teenage pussy saying that, like usually I wouldnt care, I dont even blame her

WHat are some good tunes for this feeling?

Currently listening to
Gleemer -Gauze

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Nice blog Copernicus, ever hear of reddit.com?

your shit is fucked breh
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do psychedelics instead

Did you even explain anything to her?
I think you would owe her that

this is why you should be honest with people. just talk to her about the drugs.

They dont feel good tho

agreed, OP you should tell her the truth and continue to quit. benzos and opiates are awful drugs.

This, go to fucking reddit. Why do you faggots type out your life stories on here, you know you can't get upvotes right?

>. benzos and opiates are awful drugs.
Both are better than cocaine tho lol
Actually both are pretty gud, do you even comfy??

how do I upvote this?

you need a Yea Forums pass

I already have Yea Forums pass
No captcha for this nibba XD
but i ste\ill cant find the option

youd reflect on your shit and realize how much you fucked up.

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you must be shadowbanned

> both are pretty gud
Yeah no shit. They are the best drugs. They're still awful because they will destroy your life real fast

You are clearly addicted, obviously they feel good you retard. If you wanna live numb the rest of your life go ahead, but i guarantee you will regret it. I come from a lower class area so I know countless people who have abused benzos, opiates, meth etc. They all end up narcissistic, paranoid and unbearable to be around, which is what you sound like.
100% this, take some lsd and turn your life around OP it's never to late.

are all benzos like xanax? bc I don't see how that's fun you just fall asleep and forget everything

Fuck off I already hate myself and regret everything Ive ever done
all these fucking pop-psychology "mindfulness" retards are like
just reflect on yourself and be introspective" but none of them tell you what to do once you realize you're a despicable piece of shit(other than kill yourself i mean). "Just change bro" XD

>"Just change bro" XD
wow it's like you already know the answer but are too delusional to accept it. How am I not surprised.
You can change but you are too scared to face yourself and make that change.

Not really, valium is more easy going and pretty subtle

Opiates honestly feel good but are too expensive, benzos help fastforward through the gaps

also
>Doing drugs for fun
lmao, the point is not to have fun its to avoid killing yourself
Having fun was never an option

Thisx1000
Just be happy without drugs and shower daily OP

also watch Got and Marvel superhero movies :)

Stop trying so hard to fit in, no one cares. All you did was bump the thread and make yourselves look like reddit refugees by whining so much about reddit on a regular basis. I would never even think about reddit if it wasn't brought up here so much.

>I would never even think about reddit
ok this is hyperbole, lets be honests we all have accounts and browse and post on at least /r/music, /r/indieheads. and /r/news or something

I get pissed off at all the blogposts on here, this is the music board not fucking /r9k/. I absolutely loathe attention seekers and people who beg for pity.

>excuses
I guarantee I know people who have had 1000x worse lives then you and are sober. Get a grip you crybaby, benzos and opiates will never make you happy and will only slightly delay you killing yourself.
Things will get better if you make the change but its on you, noone else can help.
If you need something to take the edge off, drink beers or smoke weed til you can atleast regain control of your life.

>we all have accounts and browse and post
no

livejournal.com

lol looks like somebody got downvoted for their shitty takes and is mad at the entire websight
THose grapes sure are bitter huh buddy?