How you holdin' up, Yea Forums?

pretty good OP hbu?

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top fucking kek

Stop it.

That would be about 7 pounds a week, which means everyday you would have to eat at a deficit of 3500 calories. Basically, you would have to eat nothing and jog around 10 miles a day.
Why do you need to lose so much that quick?

Been binge eating alot, i lost 50kg once, i gained back 20, i don't fucking know how i did it, i can't stand eating healthy, IT'S FUCKING TORTURE, my workouts are sluggish too, i feel fucking horrible bros i fucking hate my body and my self, i've been having nothing but There Is A Light on repeat
>inb4 go to /fit/
i did go there with this but i barley got like 3 replies and they were fucking useless

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Not unless you enroll yourself in concentration camp

stressed to the end of five earths, almost failing out of college, barely awake enough to care. ive slept so long i still feel like im dreaming.

Still bad, always pretty bad

I had the same problem. My advice (if it means anything, lost 30 lbs, gained 10, was off for around a year, then lost another 20) is to focus on adjusting the way you see food.

Give yourself permission to eat whatever you want. Dont give in to your concious telling you "no no dont eat that, it's bad for you". The only rules are: A. Only eat when you are actually hungry. Never eat when you're just bored. Embrace hunger, it isn't the worst thing in the world. B. Whenever you feel like snacking/bingeing, fill up a big cup of water and sip it. It should fill you up enough to distract you.

intuitiveeating.org/10-principles-of-intuitive-eating/

This site is what helped me. Godspeed user, hope you feel better

thanks so much, god bless

Feeling better. Relationship getting better with the gf, learning to appreciate her more. Switched to a new medication for anxiety/OCD which has helped a lot, only problem is that i could have a seizure if i drink alcohol. Other than that everything's alright.

What have you user's been listening to on repeat?

what plants do you have? are they easy to care for? I'm thinking of getting one of my own.

It's been 4 months since I broke up with my ex, and it still hurts. Listened to Yo La Tengo for the first time, and it helped soothe me. Going for hikes really helps too. I figured I adapted my personality too much to her, and forgot to forge something of my own, which sort of complicates developing self-love and care since what the fuck am I going to care for if I have nothing.

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FUCKING HELP BROS!!!!!1!!!1!

my doctor cut me off of oxy a few months ago and I still think about it every day. weed and booze doesn't help.

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Yo La Tengo are one of the most underrated bands of all time. They have around a dozen legitimately great albums. That's something that very few bands can claim.

>do shit first semester at uni and have shit gpa but barely squeak by in all my classes
>just finished second semester and did way better, boosting gpa just above the gpa threshold where (at my uni) you can get a single room on campus for the double room price
>going back to school for summer on Sunday to finally pursue my dream of becoming a pilot
It gets better bros

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Everything’s due and I don’t know what actual fuck is wrong with me but I can’t bring myself to care or focus.

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For me, its been
>do shit first semester but barely squeak by
>do even worse second semester and get put on academic probation

Ditto

have you actually been trying to go to class and finish assignments? if not, you only have yourself to blame

I have done neither of those things and do have entirely myself to blame. I just sort of gave up, I don't know what my problem is.

Become a tranny. You're on the same path they all took.

if you want to change and get better, you will. if you don't, you won't. I hope for your sake you do want to do well so you can be successful. best of luck to you user

I really feel like jumping on someone's head

I'm a very nice guy usually though

having a hard time accepting that i will have to work for the rest of my life and i will never know what it's like to be carefree ever again.

how do i get prescribed opiates

>capstone due tomorrow
>won't start revising my first draft until tomorrow
it's going to be a race to the finish

Just smoke weed at work lmao

Thanks user I do want to get better and have a plan for it

weed fucks up my sleep too much to do it regularly

hold what up? lmao fucking idiot can't even talk right and stuff lmao I don't even know what I'm supposed to be holding up how am I supposed to know how I'm holding it up?? dumbass,

degenerate

Actually felt really good today even though my anxiety is through the roof. Felt like everything's gonna be fine, I'm just overthinking things

>going to uni next semester after quitting community college to be stoned and drunk constantly for a year
Feels based but also nerve wracking

I spent the majority of my 21st birthday crying and wishing I was dead.

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I've been drunk for bout a month straight
Feel like a g-ddamn champion

Can't live with em
Can't live without em

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guess what
it only gets worse

Just wait until tomorrow where you feel worse than ever and realize that you are a finished product. And you'll never stop being in a funk or an anxious fucking wreck.

I'm ok. Still lonely with no bf
Barely passed through my first year of college, now I'm stuck in a shitty house until september working part-time.
I'm slowly building a computer after being stuck with a shitty computer I've been using for 6 years. I'm pretty excited to build it and play games at a proper framerate instead of only playing the same few games at 20-30 fps. It is the only thing I look forward to in life right now.
As far as music goes, I've been listening to Sufjan Stevens a lot recently. Kate Bush as well. I''ve also fallen in love with Billy Joel's Glass Houses.

Every night I dream about cuddling with a cute boy and listening to music together, I'm too shy to talk to anyone though. This is a good place to vent.

me too

Glad to hear that ;)
I hope everything works out in the end
I don't speak in classes either, I wish I could, professors would probably pick up on that stuff idk

I spent my 18th bday like that, it sucks. I dont really have anything else to say :)

Hey Yea Forums bros why can't we figure our shit out?

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chill

I try user. I do.

Nice projections fag I'm doing great

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Yeah, but you're a fag.

girl or gay boy?

chill

No I'm a drumk

God if this ain't the feel

I think about killing myself constantly and at least half of it stems from not being able to accept how society works both literally and figuratively.

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I try user. I do.

I really do try

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH
why did i never learn an instrument? music is one of the only things that i really enjoy and i thought about trying to make some since like my teens
why am i so fucking retarded?
actually fuck that, why did i never pick up any hobby???????????????

About to be shipped off to the rigs for work. The money will be good, but its gonna kill me.

Going to work on my commercial pilot's license soon though, so I can finally have a job that doesn't drive me mad

Build model tanks bro. Kits are inexpensive and will take up a couple hours on the weekend. Also nothing stopping you from going to your local pawn shop and buying whatever shitty instruments they have and winging it.

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Why do you talk about it like you decide if you want to pick up a hobby and which ones you pick up when you're born?

Not well lads. Can't get hired anywhere, graduated college almost 6 months ago. Even fucking volunteer orgs won't take me. Best friend's gonna be leaving forever next year. I enjoy nothing alone. Gonna see a shrink in the next few weeks, see if I can't get some shit straightened out.

Also check out Chico Buarque if you haven't already.

What did you graduate with?

Now this is projection

>nothing stopping you
this guy is
am i?

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Is it really?

English, which should answer any further questions. Been looking into either grad school or the Peace Corps since clearly I'm not getting anywhere otherwise

I feel so sad and lonely

You should do some volunteer work at schools. Only advice I can give you.

>sad hot guy is depressed
"Wow look he's so misunderstood I wish I could talk to him!!!"
>sad ugly guy is depressed
"Lol what a creep incel"

>had a girlfirend
>admits she only went out with me because she as bored
Maybe..just maybe this love thing ain't all it's made up to me. There was a meme here about a disinterested girl and that was my girlfriend to a t. All this is just making my loneliness worse, how could you be with someone for over a year out of boredom? How could you continuously say you love someone directly in the eye but then say nothing never really meant anything?

I hate this world, i hate myself so fucking much.

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I'll look into it, user. I'd wanted to stay out of academia ("then why did you major in english??") but if that's what's available for now then so be it.

Hope 2019's been better for you, it's been fucking rough for genuinely nearly everyone I know.

Go your own way now user. Just don't come out the other side a bitter mess hating women.

i want to go to the pot store so fucking bad

Well you ask, why didn't I, why didn't I. Why not ask yourself "why don't I?"

I just got an interview for the night shift at the grocery store down the road. Hopefully some of my other applications pull through, but this is good for now..

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I don't hate women i just have a hard time trusting myself to open up to people. It's worse since the breakup.Tried going out with a couple guys in the office but i have to fake everything so hard. Everything feels like it's suffocating me.

Night shifts are the best dude. Well minus the higher chance of robbery part, the best people i ever meet were those that worked the dead hours.

You could also volunteer as a librarian or do ESL work (if you know a second language). Grad School isn't a bad option either considering it gives you another chance to gain experience and network but you should probably wait to do it.

'cause i wasted my opportunity to be good at anything
and i don't wanna be a no-talent, mediocre piece of shit

good post

Funnily enough, I did apply to volunteer as an ESL teacher (they said no experience required, but clearly that wasn't true). And I'd been looking to go to grad school to study library/info science or archival studies but I decided to wait a year and see what happened before committing to that. So far, nothing lmao. I do know other languages, but they aren't the target demographic so there's not much demand there

pussy no balls

That's right, Goy: the only way you can hate women is by being a "bitter mess". There are definitely no pragmatic reasons to do it. Enjoy your Nintendo Switch :)

I'm failing out of school for the second time and listening to the Strokes

mu, i'm not gonna make it

i'm right, tho

FOUND THE NERD.

hang in there friend you can make it

me too kid me too

Not too bad, lad. Feel depressed every goddamn day of my life for absolutely no reason but I'm trying to combat it by keeping busy and exercising. Not really working though. I'll find the solution to all this one day (I fucking hope). Otherwise I'm in for a long, shitty ride.

Listening to some techno
youtube.com/watch?v=Y0cNqzipsRE

to be honest she was probably lying to make it sound easy for herself, though I don't really know anything about the situation. You're only hurting so bad because of how happy it made you at the time. You cant be intimate without risk.

My gf just left me after 6 years together, I was pretty shit by this days but music and draw help me a lot. I'm not good but good enough to keep going alive.

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Just hanging out, playing Minecraft on the Switch. Bought like 500 USD of vinyl this week, am excited to work my way though all of it when it arrives. Work is starting to slow down, my wife and I anxiously await the construction on our new home to finish soon so we can move.

I'm doing great and hope all of you can/will overcome whatever bullshit is going on in your life. You can make it.

Not good. Failing school, got oneitis for a girl who isn't remarkable but showed me attention, so of course I became obsessed.

If that's something that you drew I like your style a lot.

Birthday is in 2 days, only have 2 or 3 people who will wish me happy birthday, but that's enough for me. Only one of them I will see in person because the others are across the country. I feel pretty isolated now that I work night shifts during the weekends for my IT job. The only thing I do when I'm off is play video games, watch videos, and do take after take of guitars into my DAW for an album I'm recording.

I wish I could smoke weed, but it makes it almost impossible to sleep even if I do it in the morning. I wish I could drink but I don't know when to quit and I don't want to vomit again. I wish my meds worked but so far the ones for depression, anxiety, and insomnia have done nothing. I wish I could win the lottery but I'm not the main character here

Fast

you're still a pussy for not trying

I've never been to draw, but I'm feeling so empty which I can try new things

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listen to Animals

damn son, thats a good rip

women bad

>started wellbutrin last week, wants to an hero more than usual
>flunking out of college due to drug abuse
>diet consists of solely beer and pop tarts

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thanks, man. you too.

I feel just ok sometimes, but out of nowhere a deep sadness comes in. Nothing makes sense to me. I can't understand anything; I never know why am I feeling the way I do. I'm tired.

By the way, I just had a very intense moment watching Beach House's Forever Still

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Let's use a Start Trek reference as a metaphor, because why not. So, you just suffered a photon torpedo blast from a Klingon vessel. Your ship is damaged. Power has been re-routed from all non-essential systems to maximize repairing the damage. Healing is your number one priority, and your body and mind are being focused on that. Your brain doesn't give a shit about your emotional well being, your desire to live authentically, your sex drive, your stamp collection, etc. It's shutting down all desire for those things and putting every ounce of energy in your body and mind into repairing the wound on your crotch. When your body is sufficiently happy with the healing process, it will begin restoring energy to those systems it shut down. Your sex drive will come back. Your desire to be happy will come back. Your desire to be congruent with your core self will come back. Just chill and let your body and mind do their thing. It's not a good idea to make big decisions or create beliefs about yourself when you aren't in a state of equilibrium or harmony. Here's another metaphor. If the power goes out in your house, after 1 hour you don't start planning how to forage for food. You don't start sharpening sticks to use as spears to hunt for food. You just wait. Right now you need to realize that your body is in a non normal state of function. Just take care of yourself and wait.

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>A deep sadness comes in
Same. I always have this lingering sense of sadness but somedays it hits hard. Where every time i'm alone I just want to break down and think about so much shit and off myself. I thought i'd move past this by now but here I am.

>want to kill self but too pussy
well atleast i can enjoy the music.

yo I had to stop wellbutrin not long ago, my anxiety was going through the fucking roof and it was making me a legit alcoholic

i'm trying to improve as a person and make friends but i still never approach people and i keep getting depressed for no reason

i was in a class yesterday and i kept imagining getting stabbed in the stomach with a pipe or my mechanical pencil, but it would stop once it was in my stomach and i would throw up

gggaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh

this :(

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1. start a small task that interests you and do it 1-2 minutes a day
2. channel your hatred and passion into that task
3. become skilled at whatever the fuck you want

also ignore women, but dont hate them either. Realize dating and marriage is futile in this day and age, and just work on accepting yourself.

if that's how you think then yeah

pick it up now. or produce, cheaper and gives you more versatility

I've become completely devoid of emotions brehs, and I don't know how to get it back. There is some positives though, like nothing really pisses me off anymore, and I can be a rational anchor for certain situations. But damn does it get old just feeling nothing all day, every day. Music is my only release where I can somewhat still stay in touch with myself.

found the incel

that's a really good pic

Drinking and smoking too much, some health problems to overcome and $500 behind on my rent. Other than that, $25,000 for the court case, he says if I can prove intent I could win. Tbh still looking for representation to get me going and make a go of it. It's not easy.

try to express little things. smile at dogs and dance

maybe everything is pointless, but the word "pointless" is inherently human. if our lives are pointless, then so are our words and creations. pointlessness is, in itself, pointless and contradictory. fuck everything, find out how you can live

if you really think you can win get on it right now. fencesitting is your worst option

thanks user, I try those things, but my brain just doesn't register happiness. I don't even feel sad anymore.either.

Just moved to a shittier city feelin pretty down. Just listened to Loveless for the first time and it's pretty good.

sorry user, that’s terrible. birthdays are hard for me too. it helps me to remember that 1) they’re not actually any more meaningful than other days and 2) chances are in 10 years if i try i will have a very different life