Hello. I'm a normal late-20s dude in NYC with a full time job and functioning life who after trying almost every recreational drug, and being in an emotionally tough place, decided last month to try heroin.
I ordered #4 powder from a reputable vendor on a popular DNM who's product has no record of testing positive for fent. I used for four days straight, took a two week break, and just received another small amount yesterday. I just did 10mg and have another line ready to go. All of my pain and anxiety have started to melt away.
I have not experienced withdrawal, only a hangover after going on a binge the first night when I was opiate naive. I've quit a benzo and amphetamine addiction cold turkey, but I know how quickly this will spiral out of control. The best thing I have going are my life responsibilities, my unwillingness to buy locally even if I could find a connection because of fent, and the fact I refuse to IV anything.
Feel free to call me an fucking idiot/attention whore, ask general questions, or actually try and give me advice.
How did your addiction start? How soon after starting did it spiral out of control?
Samuel Diaz
this, OP is right in thinking that it will spiral out of control quickly. do yourself a favour OP - flush it and never have to learn what it's like to shoot up using the veins in your hands after your tolerance builds enough that smoking and snorting doesn't work and your arms are busted from repeated injections.
Ethan Price
The darkest I've dived into drug abuse before this was snorting and then eventually smoking meth on and off for a few months. Zero consequences aside from appearing tired at work and eventually stopping because the comedowns were emotionally devastating me. Physical dependency aside, how much worse is this?
Dominic Howard
Run it. If your gonna do it do it right. Sooner or later you will anyway and you’ll feel like you wasted all the shit you snorted
Charles Bennett
Just quit that shit now, I’ve lost too many great friends to that fucking cancer. Even strong willed men become yellow-bellied pussies once they start chasing the opiates.
Jose Reyes
Welcome to the darkside OP. Some people work with heroin better than others, you could be a functioning addict while others cant. It all depend of how much you use and how good it is, most heroin these days almost anywhere in the U.S is cut up to shit, mostly with fentanyl or dilaudid.
Just remember tolerance builds up quick and you would have to end up shooting it up.I know professional people that just snort it and they could function at work perfectly fine.
My advice is snort it for a while, if you snort and dont feel any relief anymore its time to stop.
Chase Nelson
heroin is much easier to overdose on than meth but it's not quite as neurotoxic or shadow people psychotic of course but will still bork your brain chemistry for potentially years after depending on how long you were on it. the withdrawals are much, much, worse than meth over the same period of time used; people stay on it partially because it becomes their new default mode of normal and because the withdrawals are frightfully bad and lasts for weeks. IV use with heroin is basically an inevitability - nobody wakes up one day and goes "boy, I sure am bored of having a stable life with no neurological diseases let's start shooting highly impure and astonishingly addictive diacetylmorphine into my bloodstream, hell yeah", but it happens eventually anyway. honestly, the first use is pretty underwhelming if you don't throw up and feel like garbage the next day but it has a subtle way of lulling you into a false sense of security to keep you using and finally hook you once your brain is used to it and can pick up the subtler aspects of the heroin high. I don't recommend it, on a long enough timeline you're either going to overdose or get clean and end up back where you started sans lots of cash and now you have a lifelong addictive disease and get to play resist the relapse while you pick up your life back into a normal, healthy state.
