Depression thread. Talk about your problems user

Right now I'm definitely going through some shit, honestly. Maybe a bit of mid-life crisis stuff.
For example: Not interested in my career all that much anymore and just want to quit my job and take it easy.
I've actually promised myself that I'd do that in a couple of years, which will give me a nice break. But the issue there is what will I do? Just sit at home doesn't sound fun. Hang out by the pool at my building? Meh, that'll get old pretty fast. Dunno.

Maybe travel? Should help to be in a new environment for some time. We wanted to do that. Unfortunately life fucked us again and our daughter became so sick she almost died. Not much of a holiday left after that.

Same, OP. From a dirt poor family and constantly trying to drag myself out just to get my funds raped by something random. It's an eternal struggle just to survive. I smoke weed when I get really down. It helps in the moment, but doesnt actually cure anything for me.

Unfortunately not legal here exept through docotrs who will rarely give that out and just in extreme situations. Cant afford to try illegally because we want to move the fuck out of our country. Not smokers anyway.

A few years ago my mom died suddenly, a long term relationship ended, and then later I got rejected by who I thought was the one. Went into an extremely low spiral, came very close to killing myself. After a while I started going to therapy and went on meds and things got better. Even with that, I still have lows, especially lately (the 3-year anniversary of my mom’s death is in a week). The bad days aren’t nearly as bad as they used to be, but they’re still there, and probably always will be.

Glad you recovered user. My SO unfortunately has some bad experiences with therapists and refuses to go there.

Also: sorry for your loss.
I know how you feel. Lost a lot of relatives in the past months.

That’s unfortunate. I was very lucky that the first therapist I saw turned out to be amazing, but that’s not everyone’s experience, and not everyone has the time and money to shop around. I hope your SO finds something that helps them.

I do, too. He was standing on a rooftop just a week ago and was contemplating jumping.

Maybe, but I just got back from a trip and had that same feeling while there. Just hanging out pointlessly.

I guess I'm just seeing things as more and more pointless. What do you do in that case? You're career is winding down, you're starting to feel different physically because of your age, and while you keep "on the go" and pursuing your goals, you are pretty much almost there with those too.

I'm just always feeling restless now and just trying to keep busy with my stuff only helps momentarily. I feel like I've lost the vision to just sit and enjoy some quiet time.