Feels thread

I remember this girl I was really close with growing up. She used to tell me she loved me a lot, and I thought I loved her. Now she basically acts like I never existed.
When we were teenagers I used to fantasize about making her the mother of my children. I've been over it for awhile but sometimes I can't stop thinking about her and I end up watching porn all day to distract myself
How do I remove her from my head bros

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I had the same type of girl growing up, we dated for a day in 8th grade and we broke up because I didnt like her that much, but the more and more she kept talking to me and laughing at my shitty ass jokes, the more I fell in love with her. Highschool came around and holy fucking shit. She was a goddess, a perfect 10/10. She decided to date this MOTHERFUCKER who was 1000 miles away, she kept telling how better he was compared to me, her and her stupid ass boyfriend got in a group chat and they both started making fun of me, now she doesnt even talk to me and it's been years, I even dream about her, I had a dream yesterday about her, the only advice I got was meet new girls, but obviously that's not happening

have you tried killing yourself yet?

I was still in 8 th grade when I was 18

Excuses and defeatism.
Work out, expand your skillset, grow your confidence, but first and foremost get off of Yea Forums until those things are done (yes, even /fit/).

Maybe you were cringelords.
Maybe those guys were better able to hack into the female wiring.
Maybe both. Stop dwelling on the past except when you're trying to do OODA analysis.

When I turned 18 I celebrated with a party with all my closest high school friends and got a blowjob from my girl best friend since elementary school.

Now I'm 36, live alone in a small apartment. I haven't talked with any of those mentioned friends in almost 10 years. My best friend hates me for a multitude of reasons. My girlfriend is a nigger and a thot and a gold digger who I found out recently is only 16.

You're still young. I was at a high and sank hard. You might feel low but you can turn things around, user. You got your life ahead of you to make it better or fuck it up.

I've started working out, I'm 4 weeks in, still going at it, but times like this when you just want to celebrate but you cant because America sucks, you just want to drink but you cant, I'm going to the liquor store and trying for the 3rd time, hopefully they dont call the cops on me

Was woken up early to sign up for selective services. Then Job Corp roomies jumped the fuck out me. Good times.

>you just want to celebrate but you cant because America sucks
celebrate by getting a workout high
>you just want to drink but you cant
do more fulfilling activities. join a meetup group for a new hobby.