1) learn how to activate your parasympathetic nervous system (eg cold water swimming)
2) Exercise
3) Diet, vitamin d, omega 3
4) mindfulness (YouTube it)
5) develop mental discipline: challenge negative thoughts, distinguish what's inside and outside your control and worry about neither, perceive without making judgements etc.
No one thing will fix it and it will take time. Throw everything at it and you'll carry on getting slightly better.
The latter alone can fix it. The first 4\four are merely aids, and my personal opinion is that they only distract from the fifth -- which is where permanent solutions are found.
Life is meaningless, and that's a beautiful thing. you don't need to get stamped with a purpose, you just create one. You can choose freely.
Soiunds like you want to write for a living. Have you even tried wholeheartedly to pursue that, or have you jsut called quits early due to perceived barriers?
Yeah that fifth one seems to be a problem with me.
Just now I was in the kitchen and looked at the time and saw it was 4 PM and went
>Well good fucking job. You've wasted another day by procrastinating. Wonderful job. You haven't even done the fucking dishes yet, and you still have to move that damn shelf. Five hours of the day remain. You ain't getting any shit on x (programming project) done today it seems.
Then I felt a bit worse.
Writing is tricky with me.
Sometimes I enjoy doing it, but then the enjoyment dies quickly and I switch focus to something else, which is similar to how I feel I would react to a career: I'd get restless and bored and have to keep switching to something else.
I have this problem with programming too. I start one project and enjoy it for a week or so and then switch when I get to the point where it's presentable and never visit it again unless I am looking to reference something for a thing I'm working on at the present.
Then do the dishes and move the shelf. It will give you a natural high.
Doing small stuff like this can be a way of breakign out of depression.
So it's dicipline that is a challenge? If it makes you sad that you can't stick around with a project for a prolonged period of time, the obvious solution is to discipline yourself into doing so. Challenge yourself.
bro,just smile. Bro just take a shower. Just get a haircut bro!
He's right about getting out of Yea Forums though.
You are what you eat.
Stop thinking and start doing. Once you start thinking too much, the battle is lost.