Zoloft doesn't fucking work, wellbutrin doesn't work, nothing works

Idk man, I've been through it all. I've been through the fucking gauntlet of medications. Provigil, if you can get it, it's seriously the best thing. 2 psychiatrists wouldn't prescribe it, but my primary care physician did. If you have good insurance you can get it for $5, but if you don't, you can use GoodRX to get it for like $30 - 50. I tried Wellbutrin, I got up to the max dosage and it worked pretty well with Buspar for 4 - 5 months, but it stopped. Provigil definitely beats all of that shit I've been on, but I've been fucking it up with booze and weed so it's not as effective. If you won't be a fucking idiot like me and just do that, I highly recommend it. Some people can get by with

This is fucked up on so many levels

I went on Wellbutrin like 2 months ago. I felt fantastic for the first month, but now it's been waning up to where I feel like I did in the last few months I took the Zoloft.

Nothing stops the sadness. It's always going to be with you. You eventually learn to channel your sadness into rage and your rage into action. Or just fucking kill yourself fagot.

nah how about you kill yourself

you can learn to live with it without turning to rage

Take LSD, will either make your shit 100x better or 100x worse. But at your point why not?

This. Be brutally honest with yourself. What makes you sad? Who are the people around you that pull you down? What are your bad habits? Are you where you want to be in life? How realistic are your goals and your image of yourself? The most common cause of depression and the most overlooked one is the lack of a goal to work towards, or an unachievable one. Work towards what makes you fulfilled, cut out the bullshit and you can aim high. Of course the go-to tips for depression are always valid like exercise, social contacts and if shit gets really bad a shrink plus meds. Especially the latter will do very little on its own though

Good post.

I guess that's it.
I'm not sure what I'm even pushing for anymore. I have no purpose. How do you get a purpose? I've always grown up being told that everyone has a reason they got put here or a calling, but I'm 22 and I have yet to be called to jack shit, so I know that was just a bold faced lie.
I enjoy programming but I don't want to do it professionally. I enjoy writing but I can't do that professionally (I'd rather not starve to death), and... That's it. I have nothing I want to do for the rest of my life. Even if I did pick something, I'd just get bored within 3 years, making getting a degree for that job useless.
There's trades - going into HVAC for a few years, then switching to fire and ems, and then something else. I don't know.

1) learn how to activate your parasympathetic nervous system (eg cold water swimming)
2) Exercise
3) Diet, vitamin d, omega 3
4) mindfulness (YouTube it)
5) develop mental discipline: challenge negative thoughts, distinguish what's inside and outside your control and worry about neither, perceive without making judgements etc.

No one thing will fix it and it will take time. Throw everything at it and you'll carry on getting slightly better.

The latter alone can fix it. The first 4\four are merely aids, and my personal opinion is that they only distract from the fifth -- which is where permanent solutions are found.

Life is meaningless, and that's a beautiful thing. you don't need to get stamped with a purpose, you just create one. You can choose freely.

Soiunds like you want to write for a living. Have you even tried wholeheartedly to pursue that, or have you jsut called quits early due to perceived barriers?

Yeah that fifth one seems to be a problem with me.
Just now I was in the kitchen and looked at the time and saw it was 4 PM and went
>Well good fucking job. You've wasted another day by procrastinating. Wonderful job. You haven't even done the fucking dishes yet, and you still have to move that damn shelf. Five hours of the day remain. You ain't getting any shit on x (programming project) done today it seems.
Then I felt a bit worse.

Writing is tricky with me.
Sometimes I enjoy doing it, but then the enjoyment dies quickly and I switch focus to something else, which is similar to how I feel I would react to a career: I'd get restless and bored and have to keep switching to something else.
I have this problem with programming too. I start one project and enjoy it for a week or so and then switch when I get to the point where it's presentable and never visit it again unless I am looking to reference something for a thing I'm working on at the present.

Then do the dishes and move the shelf. It will give you a natural high.

Doing small stuff like this can be a way of breakign out of depression.

So it's dicipline that is a challenge? If it makes you sad that you can't stick around with a project for a prolonged period of time, the obvious solution is to discipline yourself into doing so. Challenge yourself.

bro,just smile. Bro just take a shower. Just get a haircut bro!

He's right about getting out of Yea Forums though.

You are what you eat.

Stop thinking and start doing. Once you start thinking too much, the battle is lost.