relationship-less 70IQ
Hey guys, its late and im having a hard night...
Aaron Lopez
Elijah Nelson
in the off chance that this isnt bullshit, ill give you some life advice coming from a ~30ish year old vet.
Your situation sucks, it really does and I feel for you. But it is also not unique, plenty of guys have been in your shoes, everyone knows about Jody for a reason. Life will go on and one day it will all just be a funny story you occasionally tell.
You probably won't feel ok for a while, but eventually things will get better and you will come out on the other side stronger than ever.
Use your GI bill. The hardest part about college is self discipline to show up to class and do the work, and you are way more equipped to handle that than any civvy. Even if you don't want a degree, pick an easy major and enjoy living on BAH and having few responsibilities for 4 years. Treat it as a fresh start if you want.
You're gonna make it bro, and honestly, I'm jealous of you. You still have the best years of your life ahead of you, you lucky mother fucker.
Levi Torres
>27
>virgin
>only female i ever 'loved' was my cousin
>event with mother and older boy who isn't my cousin lead her to send me to her family who have older boy cousin
>older boy cousin tricks young dumb me into a deal to do what he says to fuck female cousin who isn't his sister
>female cousin becomes the obsession of my young life, boy cousin rapes me, trust damaged forever
>i'll never forget female cousin asking why I'd trust him over her
>she wasn't there at the start, the only reason he could trick me was because i had no knowledge of sex or females
>20 years later my mother is still in denial and doubling down on her authority and lack of memory not just to blame me for my rape but also the molestation of my sister by the muslim she allowed into the house because her brother married a Canadian immigrant
>now im racist, sexist, homophobic, hopeless, and my father recently told me he's too busy with his own life to find me a therapist now that im recently open to pointlessly talking to a stranger about any of it
I hate my life and don't have any clue why i'm too weak to kill myself
>be me cleaning today
>start drinking and be retarded enough to pour cleaning vinegar and a cleaner with bleach down drain to clean smell out of apartment
i wish i was drunk or depressed enough not to realize what i'd done and just inhaled enough to die, there's a lot easier ways to go but i feel like such a jackass i'll have to be very drunk or accidentally do it
>fucking hate this place, coming here out of habit, captcha can fuck itself
Anthony Reed
Not sure, he made it sound like it went on regularly.
That sounds retarded
Yeah thats what im supposed to think but i dont know if me in 3 hours will agree
Cucks are human garbage and should be culled along with pedos and furries
It does get easier yeah but this will always be at the back of my mind.
Ignorance is bliss brother
I guess i somehow let myself think i was some special circumstance, whats my motivation to even bother with relationships now? Fuck any girl i date could be fucking 20 guys behind my back.
Lol and here i thought i was good in bed
Ian Cook
Dude, I'll just say, it would not be uncommon for someone in a situation like this to see a psychologist or therapist of some sort for some time. I think it would be more normal of you to see one rather than not. Definitely see some mental counselor about this because whether or not you can handle this yourself, you SHOULD NOT. It will be way easier and go by faster you so can be happy again soon. If you open up and be totally honest with mental help it can be like your band-aid and heal the would quick without scarring. Think about if you had to patch up your own bullet wound... A lot harder than if you had a doctor with you right? It is just about the same thing.
Jaxon Wood
best of luck to you, my friend
Cooper Gonzalez
Also, I strongly recommend you pick up an impressive hobby like investing, bodybuilding, or pool or something (just not gambling/drinking of course)
Get reallllly good at it, be one of the best, take pride in it, and get lost in it. I've been working out and investing all day most days since I got out of college. It looks like I can make serious bucks from all the practice I got, and rmight really become a bodybuilder. Its harder for you because you've had to do military duty so you havent had time to find hobbies, find out that one that will really help (reading would be really amazing too) and put everything into and when you look up, itll have been years. You won't care...
Adrian Phillips
the first action u can make is to kill everybody that made u some bad, get some reason to meet, bring a knife, get him to give u the back, slice the throat, just leave... u wont go to jail, u'll go to a mental center, they'll take care of u, u can behave normally for they to think u r recovering, start shouting at night for them to think u still bad inside, behave normally again and just spend ur life there... people already fucked up our lives so there is no point in behaving like nothing happen.
Ryan Nelson
A mental doc is fine and all but i dont have the money for that and if i do it on the corps dime i might get booted out on ad sep.
I do work out quite a bit aside from normal PT, and i have a gun collecting hobby. I guess those could work.
David Wilson
Look on the bright side bro, you didn't dodge a bullet, you dodged a fucking grenade, what if you didnt find out???