i have no one to really tell this to so i figured there's no better place than here to share the good news.
Long story short, i fell in love with this girl a few years after my fiance died, and she led me on for a really, really long time; two and a half years actually. Kept doing that dumb shit where she'd say we're too perfect for eachother and other annoying crap. Did this non stop for two and a half years, everytime i said lets try it or even if we were just kind of having a good time hanging out. I really should have left then, but I didn't it was dumb I know.
A few months ago, she told me she was going into the military to find purpose. She had been depressed and looking for a way to travel to "find herself," obviously I was a bit taken back by this, but I tried to show support as best I could. A few weeks had passed and she told me she was ready to be deployed, and needed help moving out. In a heart beat I said okay, if it was going to be my last chance I was going to see her and tell her I love her. I went to her apartment at around 5 pm after i got off work and we streamlined the process and got it done around 10 pm. Which isn't bad for moving an entire apartment out, especially when she was incredibly anal about how everything had to be packed. Regardless, we got it done quick and it wasn't all too painful.
I ordered a pizza for us after and we sat down for the first time all day and just took a minute to relax. Watched an episode of house sitting on the floor with the tv and ate our food. The entire time I had it in my head that this was my chance to tell her that I was deeply and helplessly in love with her.
The episode of house ended, and we opted out of watching another, which I was very okay with. We sat in silence for a moment and did that dumb fucking thing people do when they don't know what to talk about and I asked her "so you're really doing it?" and this lead to conversation about how she was actually going to do it.
So, is she ACTUALLY going to the military or is she just saying that so the instant you say "bye, baby cakes", she runs away on her hands and does a quadrupole back flip into Chad's corvette? Ride off in sun set?
Nathan Foster
She was actually really excited too, and who wouldn't be if your entire life up until that point had been a small house in kansas, and a run down apartment in orlando. I said I was excited for her, it's not often that a 5' blonde girl from kanses gets beheaded on national news. She really didn't appreciate it but boy can I only dream. We talked a bit more about it and she finally asked me if I thought she was doing the right thing. I said I don't know. She sat for a minute and said you never say that, and I think this is where she caught on that I didn't want her to go. A moment or so went by and she said "well it's not like there's anything for me here, so why would I stay?" and I didn't really have an answer for her. I was so ready to pussy out and let her just go. I pretended to be hurt and said "so it'd be just that easy to leave me, huh?" and she laughed with me telling me she couldn't wait to get away.
It was time, I had been sitting on this for almost three years and the truthfully I needed to do it. For my own sanity. Having only ever been with one person before and it was above and beyond the best thing to ever happen to me. I thought that just maybe there was a chance that I could be happier with her (Just realized I never said her name, her name is casey. I called her casserole because casey anthony was over done.)
So I had to do it, and I finally did. I told her I don't think she should go, and when she asked "and why is that?" without any hesitation I told her it's because I am so unbelievably in love with her.
She didn't even bat an eye at that and she told me that I didn't have to say that to guilt her into staying. I told her I'm not, it's the truth and I mean it. We went back and forth like we always did, she'd say we're just not meant for eachother, i'd ask her why and we went back and forth. We did that for maybe 2-3 hours, too. It was different than the other times and I was trying to be as serious as I could about it.
Evan Powell
>beheaded on national news
Wut
Pleez continue
Nathaniel Martinez
I know I'm a retard and said long story short and proceeded to tell my entire existence but i promise im going somewhere, anyway, went back and forth and she cried and said that I shouldn't be telling her that. I asked why and she told me that leaving is the hardest thing she's ever thought of doing, and that because of me she almost wasn't going to do it. Saying that I loved her made it even harder. I kind of just let her sit there for a minute and compose herself before I asked her why. She said that she loved me too, and she just wasn't ready to be with me and that whole bullshit speech about how she isn't really ready to be happy and that it would all just be so easy. Kinda dumb but whatever she's small and somehow bigger asshole than I am. I told her that's ridiculous, and asked her why leaving is what she thought she needed to do before we could well, be together.
She said she's always been an 'us' and she wanted time away from being an us. again i don't get that mentality but whatever, i said im not trying to force you into anything i just don't want you to leave. She kept crying and looking back, kinda annoying but whatever I let more time pass and I asked her if she would stay with me. She was consistent with the No and was hysterical at this point so i didnt push her any further. Just kind of sat there until she could calm down enough to keep talking. It's now maybe, 4 am and we've been at this for hours. She had stopped crying for a few minutes and she said she loved me too, which was pretty obvious but I really didn't expect that. She told me that she had loved me and that she absolutely needed to do this before we could be together. We kept fighting back and forth until she eventually got less hysterical, held my hand and said she just has to, but she'll be back and then we can be together. All that crap. I told her I'll wait longer if i have to
