Live in my own personal helll

I get signs and unexplainable bad luck tho like it is beyond bad

Help

stop giving a fuck

Same boat as you OP. I use to pray. Life finally fell apart and I hit rock bottom last year. The final thread I had has been cut. I just stopped praying. I am going to commit suicide in the coming weeks. I really did my hardest but it all comes to this. In all thia time, all I ever wanted was freedom and peace. Now I see that there is only one way for me.

>praying
Welp, there's your problem right there.

If you're asking the uncaring universe to care about you at all, you've fucked up all the way. Bad shit happens, you either work through it and figure out how to mitigate it in the future, or you fucking kill yourself. Almost no 'bad fortune' is insurmountable. And if everything is so fucked that there's no salvaging it, why are you trying?

God is evil dude

Why put your life in the hands of a cosmic force that may or may not exist. Take fate into your own hands. Jesus ain't taking the wheel buddy. You'll end up dead with that slave mentality. You dont need God to make your life better. You need real action. Get up and go outside. Smile.

No only one who is trying to hurt you is you, you have to love yourself

I get signs all day long like too specific to be fake

Example?