Because of what u cried last time ?

When my grandpa died over a year ago. I got to the hospital about 5m too late

Mid-2018. Not because I was sad but because I was going through alcohol withdrawals that were really bad and they were excruciatingly painful. I blacked out several times and shed tears during an intense episode of chest pains.

Cuz i don't feel passion towards it anymore, like at all, i tried to start again several times, but i think this is just useless to try, the more i try the more i hurt myself from realisation that i'm just making myself to do that

life.

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My late son's 11th birthday was on March 23. Passed when he was 5, and then it hit me I've mourned him longer than the years he's been with me.

I haven't cried sober in well over 14 years, I'm 24 for reference. Since then I've only cried maybe 4 times and I was either really high on DXM or coming off of a benzo OD. I wish I was able to cry but I hate sadness and replace it with anger.

Because I've been struggling with addiction for 9 years. Almost 3 months clean. Im totally lost in life. My depression is getting worse I dont know how to be happy. And I dont know what to do. I cry often when I'm alone

just find right inspiration buddy, dont stop n take it only like a break, i believe u find it !

saved. thank u

i came here to laugh and not to feel

Actually I just realized I only cried once when my cousin killed himself. I only cried when I was at the funeral service, I had to leave the church it was bad

I've been trying already for more than year, it's hopeless friend...

I have not cried in a good 15 years. I am sad rather often, but I just can not cry

im sorry for your lost, but life goes on and yea i know, easy to say but.. Dont be so hard on your self..

Lololol

I was watching videos. Came across a video called "people in virtual reality share their biggest regrets" i watched it fully expecting the lulls. But got past the pepsi man...and had to listen to this man dressed up as a cute little panda tell this incredibly sad story about his mother. Had a few tears escape.

But other than that ill occasionally cry when im feeling super lonely and depressed. Havent had to in a while.

Yea Forums makes me cry every day.

U will prolly mourn him for life. My parents lost a child and I had a boss that did too. I see it affecting your life forever. I'm sure not like its affecting you know tho. U will get better over time.

Like by laughing so hard?

also

I have extremely severe anxiety, ADHD, and OCD. I've come to the realization that there is nothing more I can do to improve my mental health issues. I've found the right medication, done the proper therapy, and improved my life as a whole but I'll always suffer with the crippling illness. The daily pain and struggle to complete basic tasks such as reading or sleep will never come easy to me. This is the peak of my well-being and I'm absolutely miserable still. So I had a few drinks and broke down crying a few days ago. I'll never be free of my disorders. The dread of having more half a century left to experience this suffering is bearing down on me hard. I just want to wake up one morning in my life and not feel trapped in my own mind.

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Just a few days ago I cried for the first time in months. My best friend who I only know on the Internet had stopped messaging me for a few days and I really had no one else. I'm pretty sure my co-workers just put up with me because were short staffed and I work 6 days a week part time. My two actual irl friends one I haven't seen in months and the other years. I can't seem to make friends no matter what I try and everyone just ignores me. Just that overwhelming loneliness and having no one I fell actually cares about me is crippling and not even having my family to be around as when I got home from work at midnight and no one was home I just cried myself to sleep.

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>The daily pain and struggle

Life

Some webum I saw on /wsg/ with some feels music and WWII clips

Listened to the Adagio movement of Rachmaninoff's 2nd symphony and it made me think of someone I love who died. Shit was powerful.

why so many deranged fags actually browsing Yea Forums ?

/b has always been the shithole that attracts rejects like no other place

Broke up with my girlfriend 2 days ago, got really depressed at night that day.

but its kinda unhealthy for people with some psychic disorder to read tons of "stuff" here every day, heh ?

heard it now, piano is better

link?

yeah well, "healthy behaviour" is not exactly what those people practise anyways..

>those people
what about you ?

my eviction notice.

I stumbled onto Yea Forums somewhere around 2005 and kept coming back for porn and random bullshit. Somehow it became a habit.

I was watching This is England last week. I can't remember exactly what it was, but something in one of the TV mini-series got me.

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just pent up shit really, just been numbing everything as usual but it always comes to a head sometime

Well you were 5 sec too early for quads .

Speaking of, I got a bit choked up by this
youtube.com/watch?v=YIMvM8u9C-o

panic attack

literally same reasons, but since 2013-14..
my gfs never understood this habit over evenings.
Yea Forums is like a cancer, some part of it will really never disappear from our lives

Loneliness, depressed.

Was watching memoirs of a Geisha on Netflix this weekend, couldn't stop tearing up at the end and the story was coupled with a beautiful sound track, god im a guy and I still get emotionally destroyed, maybe I have low testerone..

Not the place to take advice. But try to focus on smth positive. I for instance started doing martial arts to be around people to get out my severe depression

I don't cry over loneliness anymore. I don't think I ever really did. Maybe once or twice. But I don't really know how to break the cycle. I think the key is to go against your instinct. Because your instinct says retreat but it's faulty. It's like a positive feedback loop, and the only place it'll keep you is in that lonely place.

Personally I'm in a transitory period right now so I can't make plans as of yet. But once I'm settled I think it might be good to do some volunteer work. It'll force me into a position where I'm interacting with others, and there's not as much pressure on me if I were in a job. But we'll see.

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yeah... it has always been there. When I first got here, I was in school. Now I am a married lawyer and I still come here way too often

My dads cancer diagnosis last week had me tearing up when I was at work, but the real one that gets me is every time I consider suicide I think of my sister having to tell my 10 year old niece who adores me. I would've done it long ago, but I'd rather suffer than have to put her through that.

sometimes you have to get lost first to find what u seek buddy

When Donny took my BUMP STOCK away.

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Snowflake

I should've mentioned, even though I still feel loneliness, and at times pretty extreme loneliness, not crying I think is probably not a good thing. It's like, I'm used to it. And you shouldn't be used to it. You want it to hurt. To motivate you away from it. It still feels negative but it's not that sharp, visceral sense of sadness that brings you to tears. It's a dull ache. I can't describe it well obviously. Just, persistent despair, always in the background.

Sorry for my bad englsich:

Today, because I am 32 years old male, totally controlled and emotionally blackmailed by my bipolar mother and still live with her. She forced me to sell my car a few weeks ago, so I am even more under her controll. I have a lot of debt because of her. 10 years ago, she startet a business on my name. She got in trouble with it - she is addicted to slot machines. I have lost everything because of it/her and have +100k in debts. I would live on the street if I would move out.

Last weekend, after I thought about ending my life, I startet to hurt my self on a special way: I had bareback sex with crackhead prostitues. It is ne next down on my life and I don't even care anymore. I mean, having sex is better then beeing dead, right ...

But I am knowing yet for sure, that I will never have a normal life I have ever dreamed about, with a wife and kids.

Because I realized my mom will eventually die. And we all die. It seriously scares the shit out of me. I want to live!

whos donny ?

T2 choose life monologue. Like a bitch...

>But I am knowing yet for sure, that I will never have a normal life I have ever dreamed about, with a wife and kids

I know how you feel. I'm 33, I haven't had the same fucked up shit happen with my mum like you, but she's a cunt in her own special way. I feel like that's given me a handicap as well. The only thing I can think of saying is - have hope that things will get better. What country do you live in? Is there any way you can get away? Any friends?

until now i thought my life suck

Because my granny died

>life monologue
can you define ?

Trainspotting 2 had an updated monologue of "choose life" from the first one. My 20 years between the two films made me.

you arent alone sir

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what your wife says about that her husband brows website like this ? Me first time when i was drugdoin teen student, now marketing manager

oh yeahhh.. famous "choose life" quote

>be me
>go to basketball game
>sit next to a qt3.14
>sweet caroline starts playing
>she's singing and dancing along
>get a glimpse what having a gf would be like
>I get home, go to bed
>tfw no gf

I spent years being indifferent to having a relationship but it's finally starting to catch up to me.

I've seen alot of good advice here.
Problem is I moved somewhere to get away from it. But theres absolutely nothing to do here. And not alot of ppl. I'm really lonely and bord

Damn man I like that.
And I sure hope so

I had a heart attack a few months ago and since then I have cried a few times the doctors said depression was a common thing after a heart attack I lied to them when they ask how I feel coz I’m embarrassed to tell them but sometimes I get so low a cry I only have a few friends and no family that live close to me
When not working I’m on my own a lot of the time which doesn’t help I feel lonely every day but put on a brave face when in company but pretty much wish I didn’t survive I actually died for a short time in hospital but they zapped me back kind of wish they didn’t I have no kids no wife or gf just my own company most of the time work is shit and so is life most of the time and sometimes I cry like a pussy about it before the heart attack this stuff didn’t bother me but now it does

Do you know the source of this pic? Im in the mood for some depressive anime shit.

"Even the darkest night will end and the sun will rise"

try to read some philosophic stuff, i like schopenhauer, now i dont care that we all die..

wow you are the worst type of s o y e d boy to be that fucking gay as a straight faggot to listen to post rock

It's a "screenshot" from FLCL. A not so depressing anime.

soy

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Looks like FLCL