>be me >lonely, never felt much >meet femanon >listen to her, makes me happy >texts me almost everyday >interested.exe >go out a few times as friends >one day get blocked on SM >ask her, she denies but skirts around it >tries to keep checking in on her, see what's up >lose her, no explanation >find out she was talking to someone else >don't understand why she hates me now >distances herself from other friends too >turns out she's w/ older guy >comes in mad/sad everyday, try to help >fail, "we're not friends anymore user, stop it" >find out her boyfriend is in control of her SM >realize he's grooming her, making her hate everyone else >tell her mom, everything explodes, my fault >she ends up breaking up w/ him, life gets better for her, dream job >glad to see life got better for her >still lonely, can't stop thinking about her >miss her, even though never really got intimate, just wish we could be friends again
>be me >lonely, never felt much >meet femanon >listen to her, makes me happy >texts me almost everyday >interested.exe >go out a few times as friends >one day get blocked on SM >ask her, she denies but skirts around it >try to talk to her like we used to; lose >find out she was talking to someone else >don't understand why she hates me now >distances herself from other friends too >turns out she's w/ older guy >comes in mad/sad everyday, try to help >fail, "we're not friends anymore user, stop it" >find out her boyfriend is in control of her SM >realize he's grooming her, it all checks out >tell her mom, everything explodes, my fault, she hates me, but it was for her, for what she used to be >she ends up breaking up w/ him, life gets better for her, gets job she wanted >glad to see life got better for her > be lonely again, worse, can't stop thinking about her > I miss her, even though never really got intimate, just wish we could talk again
I'm tired Anons, I don't know how much longer I can do this
LIFE IS NOTHING BUT SADNESS THOSE CLOSE TO US WILL ALWAYS LEAVE. WHY AM I HERE? I HAVEN'T BEEN HAPPY IN YEARS. Juliana, I haven't met anyone who was a match like you were. I just want to die now
Easton Stewart
similar situation here. girl wanted me to drop everything for her and when i did, she got bored. fucked her 3 times but i ended up falling for her and she moved on like it was nothing. >feelsbadman
Jeremiah Ortiz
Haha nerd get fucked
Jackson Sanders
I've spent the past half-a-year trying to get to know people at my classes (uni), but to no avail. Every time I get anywhere remotely close, or start feeling anything towards someone, it fades. Apathy overtakes all.
>spent 2.5 years trying to shake off depression from a cheating ex >can't do it >can't an hero, sheer survival instinct >no real dating prospects >haunted by ex's bullshit >still have my cat i got when we lived together >had her since she was a kitten >love cat >can't let anything happen to her >cat keeps me going beyond basic human drive to go on
I'm tired, anons. But my cat keeps me going.
John Carter
Go do a dopamine dry fast fatty
Liam Mitchell
she didnt deserve you, but damn did she need you. im sorry she never realized
Camden Thompson
Adults are such faggots, man. It's like by the time everybody is 18 they have their social circle set for life and nobody dares deviate outside of it or talk to anybody that they haven't already known since 9th grade.
Every time I meet somebody I click with in some social setting it's cool while we're partying or I'm hooking them up with drug connections or whatever, but the minute you actually want to get to know a person or do something social together outside of your average party bullshit people instantly pull back and act like faggots about it. Like you're the weird one for being interested in making a new friend or whatever.
Fucking lame.
Thomas Cook
Easy. Just go about your life without wanting to make friends.
In other words, DON'T GIVE A FUCK.
I was the same but now I couldn't give a shit. Life drastically improved.
Grayson Martinez
I've been in your shoes, but with an ex of 6 years, so more than twice as long. It will go away eventually. Here's a sad reality of life that not a lot of people really talk about - Nobody really loves that deep anymore. IDGAF if you're talking romantic love or deep, life-long friendships. Human beings are very superficial and self-centered. Probably now more than ever since we're basically the instant gratification generation. Take any couple in a romantic relationship for 10, 15, even 20 years and have one of them commit suicide tomorrow. In 3 years time or less the surviving partner will already be laying the building blocks towards their next romantic relationship and the person who an hero'd will basically be completely forgotten in 5 years or so.
Be thankful for your cat. Mine means more to me than my gf of 7 years, TBH. Like I said, if I died tomorrow I know my girlfriend would forget about me in short succession, but my cat (who I also raised since the day she was born) would probably really struggle to enjoy life anymore without me around to give her belly rubs and sleep with every night. She literally follows me everywhere in the house from the moment I get home to the moment I leave again. There isn't a doubt in my mind that I'm the center of her universe. You never get that with people.
Ethan Stewart
Easier said than done when you're chronically depressed and have 0 people you can actually count on in your life to even give a shit if you went missing.
Human beings evolved to require companionship and human interaction. That's why solitary confinement makes even the most hardened and anti-social of people finally reach their breaking point.
Good on you if you've truly found a way to get by in life with 0 human interaction and still be happy, but that's not going to work for like 98% of human beings.
Asher Gonzalez
The only thing making you depressed is you. As difficult as that is to comprehend, at least entertain it for this discussion. It doesn't mean absolutely no human interaction either.
If you were to wake up tomorrow with complete amnesia, what would you do? Would you mope around still depressed? Or would you wander around with wonder at the new world that is in front of you without baggage to bring you down?
you're on the fuckin money, man, I was with this woman for 4 years and she was terrible. love makes us do some dumbfuck things.
my cat has always been the one constant in my life since I got her. I aim to keep her around as long as I possibly can.
Brody Gray
you seem obsessive. you shouldn't force people to like you. learn from your mistakes and move on.
Brayden Foster
Depression isn't a mood, it's a chemical deficiency in your brain. You seem to be confusing chronic, clinical depression (as in I've been diagnosed with severe depression in a medical setting by 3 different doctors) with sadness. I'm not sad. I'm not anything most days. To use your own words - I truly don't give a fuck.
And that's the problem.
I'm a little sad tonight though, hence the post about the lack of human connection. I will definitely read what you linked too. I don't wanna give the wrong impression and have you think I'm dismissing your advice. Just the opposite in fact, I really do appreciate it. It's just most days I feel nothing at all anymore.
I used to have hobbies and passionate interests. I used to draw and paint. I was heavy in to art. I played instruments and made music. The occasional video game or night out partying, but as I've grown older I get less and less thrill or satisfaction with any of that stuff. To the point where I'm experimenting with all kinds of hard drugs now just trying to fill a void and generate some inkling of feeling in my brain now.
For background's sake - I'm 27. I've been clinically depressed since 15. I don't know if my best friend dying when we were both 15 was the catalyst of that or not, but it's definitely the one life incident I can point to and go "right there" in terms of identifying when things started going south for me. I've been on basically every anti-depressant there is at this point and even my doctors are at a loss as to what to do to help me with it anymore. I could try ECT and try to jolt my brain back in to functioning properly again, but I'm afraid of losing memories or parts of my personality that make me me.
Generally speaking, the longer you're chronically depressed, the harder it is to recover from. Over time, your hippocampus (part of the brain that regulates emotion) gradually shrinks and atrophies. Stay depressed long enough and, well...You end up like me.
Best I can suggest is to move on, you did the best you could hindsight is always 20/20. As for how you move on I say get a dog preferably a loyal bread.
Easton Brooks
If it weren't for my cat I would've an hero'd years ago, honestly. I had to have a pretty shitty abdominal surgery last January that was super invasive. I had a benign tumor in my abdomen but they had to pull it out because it was growing and pressing on shit it shouldn't have been. They split me like a log and put me back together with 50 staples. I was in the hospital for 6 or 8 days. I don't even remember how long it was because I was so doped on morphine and dilaudid.
Anyway, my gf of 6 years at that point was even acting like it was a hassle. I mean, it was. I get that. I was basically incap'd for over a month and I'm sure that's hard to deal with on her end too, having to do everything and whatnot.
Wasn't hard on my cat, though. She stayed with me on the recliner in my living room the entire recovery and even slept with me at night. When she went to walk on my staples when I first got home I winced and showed them to her. She immediately put her head down on my bloated, bruised stomach very gently and instantly started purring.
Try finding that kind of love with a person, bro. Good fucking luck.
Of course they mean more to you than other human beings.
Of course that despite your shit lives, you have this uncanny will to keep on moving.
>toxoplasmosis
Your cats shitted everywhere, and you ate some of that shit. Likely when your disgusting cat took a dump then sat its dirty asshole next to your cheek, on a pillow, where the parasite made its way into your system.
Can't have the host dying now, can we? Keep eating cat shit and drinking its piss. Don't you get it? The cat is your life.
Live in a stinking piss/shit smelling dank place; your life sucks and there's no reason to live but DO NOT GET RID OF THE CAT. CAT IS LIFE. CAT ABOVE YOUR NEEDS.
Not op. I came to this realization awhile ago and it provided a laugh and some comfort at the time. Fast forward after another 5 year relationship ends, the fact that it will be nothing but a stupid joke just like the last one was is now a point of depression. I'd rather remember
Hudson Hughes
What are cats?
Aaron Wright
You’re a fagot , you failed so you ruined it for somone else
Landon Ward
You describe it better than I did, but that's what I was getting at in my initial post about taking a couple together for a long time and having one of them suicide and then checking in on them in a few years.
No matter how much you love another person or how much they love you, both of you are replaceable to the other. I'm not even saying I'm above it all for realizing it because I'm not. That girl I spent 6 years with and was gonna marry?
Yeah, I can't even remember the color of the bitch's eyes or what her voice sounded like anymore. I don't remember her favorite foods or what she smelled like or any of that shit anymore. She's just another person that I used to know a lifetime ago.
I guess that can be either liberating or depressing, depending on how you look at it.
Levi Miller
you might have the CPTSD and need to fix that so that you can do relationships good and choose the right female meat compooters. maybe read up on emotional literacy and study some pete walker. On the other hand Newton was a Mgtow and he changed the world. He also sentanced people to death for grinding dust off coins. Don't let bitterness and resentment turn you into a genius murderer i guess?
I'm that (you). Pete Walker and CPTSD are both saved in my searches. I'm not too worried about it, consistancy is a gift. I'm just grateful for the love that I've known. I dont recognize happiness as the purpose of life
LOL fuck females user, all you need is money. Alot of it. So try to make as much as you can before you cant any more take it from your big brother.
Noah Garcia
As someone with clinical depression as well, I can say that a big part of it is in your brain. I went from daily suicidal thoughts and weekly depressive episodes to suicidal thoughts maybe once or twice a month. The depressive episodes were a lot less potent too. All I did was practice some mindfulness and positive thinking.
Positive thinking can't cure clinical depression but if you combine it with medication and/or therapy it can make it a lot easier to deal with.
(I stopped doing any of it and I'm sliding back now but I was happy for a while at least. Just means I got to live a little longer than I thought I would.)
Landon King
Message nice things to her and ask to hang out. But, friendzone her because she needs to mature up. You focus on yourself so you can then help someone else without compromising your situation.
But hey, I'm just an user, OP.
Jordan Cruz
>>texts me almost everyday oh boy, i know where this is going...
Robert Barnes
I have my cat too. No toxo, tested. Ex left the day before yesterday. Cat and I are watching anime. Ex is borderline, has left many times before. I love ex but I hope this time she won't come back.
Samuel Jackson
If nothing else, you always have the knowledge that you saved someone's life from a living hell.
Sebastian Wood
yup, exactly what i was expecting im sorry OP, but at the end of the day you as a man need to learn and understand that you are expendable to women. you are nothing more than a generator of resources and attention they can exploit. other than that, you are worthless to them. its sad, and you'll probably get mad at me stripping all the bullshit away, but thats the bare bones truth, the sooner you come to accept it, the sooner you will learm to do things for your own sake
>mfw I can relate You want her to come back, you're just feeling the stress and that's ok. But you know that each time she comes back a piece of you doesnt.
I just want friends but my autism prevents me from making friends with guys, so all my friends are gurls. I guess I'm kinda cute, because a lot of them call me that. My best friend is a lesbo, but she's cool. I want a long term relationship with someone, but my autism kicks in and I can't. Hold me Yea Forums
