What keeps you alive wizards of /b?

Nailing my girlfriend and REALLY wanting to be alive when humans set foot on Mars. If I lost my girl, it'd pretty much just be science futurism and wanting personal validation that my internal model of the universe continues to hold up under scrutiny and feel intellectually superior to plebs that don't understand physics and cosmology. If I ever lost that, I'd probably pick up smoking so I could die of cancer. A bit more gentle than suicide.

I do have something, I'm a tattoo artist, and Im also a painter, I've been doing it for a while so I'm quite good, but I realized Im not doing anything with my life, I don't really have a purpose, even if I make some good money, idk what to do with it, I'm not looking for sex, I mean I don't know what it feels to fuck a girl but I just don't care tbh, just thinking about having some cute girl kinda forced to fuck me for some money doesn't help me at all, she wouldn't be enjoying it, and that idea kills my boner tbh, all I ever wanted was to find a girl who would truly love me, but even fat or ugly girls find other guys who are more attractive than I am, so I guess I have to choose to wait and die old and alone, or just die alone now and give my money to some charity or something

the thought that i’d eventually have something better

Weed and being in love. Sadly I can't smoke weed because jobs think it's ok to drink but not smoke weed and the person I loved died 8 months ago so now I really have nothing left

Not being a 'wizard' and getting sex daily with a girl i've been with for two years.

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kill yourself lel

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I'm pretty worthless and a burden but I kind of want to see how things play out
Also I can't end myself for some reason that's not clear to me