I need help...

I need help , I feel like I’m stuck In this black hole and always ending up in a depressing lonely anxiety low self confidence hole , I know I can take over the world , but my anxiety and low self esteem is holding me down , so far down that I’ve stayed inside my apartment rarely going outside , just making a phone call makes me just want to lie down and sleep it over , I have no strength and I’m getting older I have no edjucation at all , and I don’t know where I’m going .. I’m 31 and I feel like I’m just going to die alone , my low self esteem is so low that id feel bad thinking that the girl has to bear with such a loser as me , so my promis is to my self is to stay away from the ladies and let the winners have them ,

It’s weird , cause I always think this through when I haven’t slept all night ,and having sleep deprivation kinda kicks away these anxiety and low self esteem , I don’t know what it is , but I want to have this feeling forever , but once i go to sleep and wake up , it will all be the same , that thinking that staying inside is my safe place ... someone please help , this is driving me closer and closer to suicide thoughts

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I've had a fair share of sleep deprevation. In my experience, the first thing I did was getting melatonin pills to help at first. Then I took up light jogging around a local pond just to tire myself and also make me feel a bit accomplished, which in return really gives an energy boost that I could focus towards getting a hobby or something. I just started this last year, my quality of life has been dramaticly noticible, and even though I've stopped jogging(which I should start to take up again) I've been getting alot of compliments. Just try it, you dont have to stick with it! But fix that sleep schedule is my tip :)

Stop watching porn and fapping. Seriously it helped me a lot. Also go for a walk during the night when nobody is around. It will help a lot.

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i honestly didnt think anyone would even care to answer me , or atleast without being a troll , im thankful for that ,
i thought of start working out , maybe that one of the keys, its the thought of going out and seing people and having to work out close to them , but ill do my best ! thanks for the input

check testosterone levels, can't you get antidepressants where you live? Atleast you can try natural ones like ashwaganda. Join some group with similar interests, might find some support and company there

I would advise you to first start with some light exercise. I really like to walk after midnight because nobody is around and can finally leave my house. It does help that I live in a rural area though. I walk min 1 hour every night, sometimes 2, and listen to my fav podcasts.

>I’m 31 and I feel like I’m just going to die alone
if its any consolation OP, most people in that age bracket and younger will as well

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Thats why I started a light jog, just so I would both get some fresh air and avoiding getting "piled together" with alot of people in a gym. I'd strongly reccomend sleeping atleast 8hrs a day for two days before taking on jogging, just to get more potential and also to motivate yourself! Once you have set a date to when you first want to jog(I got up early just to jog before work n whatnot) do not allow yourself to delay it, but do not feel like you have to jog all the way(if you choose that approach that is) dont be ashamed of taking it easy! It takes some getting used to! It is after all just a step in a different direction. It takes some getting used to

wow Noted !!
You dont know how thankful i am!!
i will start doing so tomorow after getting some sleep
testosterone huh, im not very knowledge on that area, but will definitely look into it , atm im taking zeroquel which helps a bit with my depression
but maybe i might need something different too, ill talk to my psychiatrist about it ! thank you so much

ive honestly havent had a normal sleep scheduel for around 6 years,
its always , stay up for 36 hours and sleep and repeat , but ill try get those sleep , but its so hard to wake up before 16 hours of sleep, ill start slow :) thank you so much man!

yeah physical exercise helps to raise serotonin levels and sun is also beneficial

i do take alot of vitamin D , so atleast that is something im doing right hehe

I don't think such sleep cycle is beneficial for you, try to get back into normal circadian rhythm, I found that going sleep late and coming up earlier leaves me in some sleep depravation (5-6 hours) and I also feel a little better, but in long-term its not good for health

D doesn't replace sunlight itself

Magic mushrooms.

op never a therapist or anyone like that you're suicidal
cops will be called

i've been to a psych ward
you don't want to go there, trust me

I talked with my doctor who said drinking coffee around 12 o clock and not beeing on the computer 2hrs before bed was a viable stratgy to get back into the circadian rythm. Try to get around 8-9hrs of sleep! Anything more is not good for you! I also reccomend installing f.lux to your pc to get a yellow-filter on your PC to atleast get that psuedoscience going :)

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This isn't true. Suicidal thoughts are a symptom. If you say you have suicidal thoughts they won't do it.
If you say "I'm going to kill myself" or give them any reason to think you are planning it, yeh, they'll take you.

actually I agree, these or LSD might change your view on world enough to bring you out of this condition

yellow filter is not pseudoscience, wtf dude?

I struggled with normal sleep from age 13 to 30. Here's what did it:

Pick the time you wanna get up. 6am? Cool. Get up, and eat a good Carby breakfast.

Remember your circadian rhythm hasn't evolved much since cave days. It will arrange itself around food availability. If it thinks there's food at 6am every day, it will accommodate.

Yeah I know, it really helps out. Though I'm sure it could easily be something that some people might not "believe in". Sorry if that triggered you in any way

bullshit

all i did one time is buy razors and they took me to the psych er who sent me to the psych ward

another time all i said was i had the frequent urge to stab myself in the stomach but wasn't gonna and they still called the cops who took me to the psych er again, although this time they released me the next day instead of admitting me

op don't tell anyone this who is a mandatory reporter
you don't want to be locked up like that and then get stuck with all that debt

right ill try my best to start staying on track, i just need that dicipin in my life right now ,

why not , is it really that bad?,
ive never been called on the "suicidal cops" i wouldnt know

i dont drink coffee , but illl start doing so :) maybe that would get me up in the morning, hah

yeh that sounds more right

Right !! food and coffe ,
Im not a morning eater , but ill do it if it helps !

Thanks again ! ive never seen Yea Forums this supportive before , im very thankful !

Best of luck, user!

Suicidal thoughts are extremely common user. A huge majority kf people don't act on it. Either your psychiatrist sucked or you really put out a lot more danger to yourself than you realise.

Depression sucks. Best thing I can tell you to do is put yourself out of your comfort zone. Go to the gym, drive to the beach and get some sun. The suns rays really does the best for all emotions and moods. There's a reason why being stuck inside all day brings out the worst in people.

Blow your fucking brains out

maybe its different for different locations,
but i will keep the suicide thing to my self , im anyways too much of a pussy to do anything about it , and computer games is pretty much the only thing that is keeping me happy and away from bad thoughts

thank you :)

the absolute worst is the psych er
cause you're not just in there with people like you who are struggling with depression but are reasonably coherent and functional

you're in there with fucking all kinds
nobody wants to be there
and some of them have real anger issues and get violent about how much they don't want to be there

the people who work there are, understandably, worn the fuck out from dealing with people like that all the time and have rough attitudes as a result
it's just a lot of waiting around to see doctors, not getting your meds you're supposed to, etc.

the psych ward is nicer than that (doesn't fuck up your meds, too) but still you're locked up and can't leave which is shitty
and some people are violent, though a decent one segregates those like you and those with more severe mental illness, at least

and when i got out?
$800 ambulance bill to bring me there, $1600 bill for being at the psych ward

don't do it, op

wow , i can really amagin how that would be like ,that doesnt sound like a place to be , specially when you want to heal ,

i hope you are in a better place now ,

ill def stay away from it

actually keto diet has helped a lot of people out of depression, not sure how it works exactly but worth a try. Also it's better to eat fat-proteins in the morning and carbs like banas etc in the evening, no carbs in the morning will raise your HGH levels and banana in the evning will help to fall asleep and gives you tryptophan which gives serotonin

OP go to some good forums like longecity.org, which has many people with really good knowledge

that is really funny youd mention keto ,
that was one of my test to try see if it would help me after ive listenened to joe rogan keep mentioning it

i did it for 3 month straight , and id say , it helped in some areas , it made me more glad that i could control my eating habits ,

but i ended up not having money to keep doing it , so i had to go back to carbs
and im back with my carb and sugar addiction

noted :) !! thank you

I have been there, user. Actually, still going through some depression. A month ago I felt trapped. It's not as easy as telling you to just "get over it" and there's no set of instructions for how to rid yourself of these negative thoughts.

Now, here's what has been helping me:
Exercising everyday certainly helps.
If you can get access to a gym or something with a hobby try your best to make friends with people there.
Change your routine up; new job, clothes, new workout routine, meet new people, do different things every single day.
Take Vitamin D(and get outside)supplements and Ginko Biloba.
Take cold showers
If you have friends, call them up. If not, make new friends or hang out with people you would otherwise never consider hanging out with.
Quit porn and all that bullshit. It will only make you more depressed.
This last part is easier said than done, but realize this is all in your head; you're in control of you and your emotions believe it or not. You do not want to feel like this forever. You're most likely just very bored and disappointed with his life has been going. I am too, I am not perfect, but I feel at least 25% better from a month ago.

I love you, user. Don't give up. Understand these negative thoughts are not reality and that there is always still time and hope. I hope and wish the best for you.

At the risk of sounding like a boomer, get a job. Find something that you don't hate doing and start saving money. It can help you find friends and start feeling like you're actually climbing up instead of tumbling down. It should shake some of those feelings of worthlessness too, especially if it's hard work with a noticeable positive effect on people. It's hard to do, but your outlook on life can quickly start to turn around if you change your mindset about yourself and your surroundings.

Also try meditation and learn to appreciate all the small things. Just take some time, maybe 15 minutes, every day to just stop. Don't do, don't speak, don't think. Just feel your immediate environment, including yourself, and pick out the little things that are good. The neck pain being gone, the smell of petrichor, the warmth of a friend sitting next to you, etc.

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Also, quit social media or just limit it. Once you start doing constructive things that demand your attention you won't worry about all the other inconsequential bullshit that will almost never happen.

This mindset that its all in your head , you can "program" yourself to be happyer and in a better place ,
ive tried having that mindset , tricking my mind that im happy and ready to take over the world , you know , like smiling in the mirror , gives you that false happy that hopefully one day will turn into a real happy ,
ive tried to change my mind , but i always end up forgetting it and going "you know what" fuck it , i feel anyways more secure and happyer inside , eventho im lying to my self , cause that is the easy way out, ill just stay in my cave and rot , and back to that sad habit ,

btw i love you too , and ill try my best to keep at it , ill save every helpful message in here on my wall paper , and try fight my demons

and i hope youll fight it with me

op if you do get prescribed anti depressants watch out for side effects
like remeron made me constantly ravenously hungry and gave me intense sugar cravings for example

make sure you're consistently getting adequate sleep
i use to be up for like 40 hours at a time as a teen
sometimes i started seeing shit cause my brain was fucking exhausted
passed out once when i'd had 3 hours sleep for five days straight
sleep deprivation is no joke

You won't be like this forever, user. I only decided to get off my ass after I started seeing everyone who believed in me stop giving a shit about me. It was truly a wake up call. I still isolate myself at times and am still irritable even though I wish I could be social with certain people, but you won't be like this forever even though it may seem like it. You're either going to do something and succeed of you're going to do something and fail, but the fact that you tried means there's still some fight and drive left in you.

It really is a shitty feeling to feel absolutely numb like nobody gives a shit, but it is all in your head. At the end of the day, yes, nobody does give a shit, but that's not because they don't care. They're just wrapped up in their own problems. So, understand that if people are treating you like shit or seem distant, they may be going through what you're going through or they may be unaware of how you're feeling.

It's embarrassing, but I reached out to this girl I barely know because I had a crush on her. It's embarrassing, but she's been helpful and it helped me get the ball rolling in opening up to others.

Believe me, you're not alone.

We will kick anxiety and depression's ass together.

is anti depressant really worth it then ?
but i might mix up depress and anxiety ,
zeoquel has helped alot of my "depressant " but im not sure if i still have it , or its my anxiety , or maybe its somehow linked ,

man i wish i had someone like that ,Yea Forums was litteraly the only last resort i had , freakin Yea Forums , i took the shot , and was expecting "kill your self fag " but rather a life changing moment today ,
ive grown up alone most of my life , i dont have a family , my parents are scientologist , they threw me out of my home when i was 14 , i ended up in a childrens home , so lonely with no fam, and a confused mind thinking im trapped with a bunch of theatens .. going through that alone is fucked up , and death scares the shit out of me , im really scared of facing what afterdeath is like ,

anyways im getting side tracked here ,
i guess i need someone like that in my life , i just dont know where to search for such ,

ive had alot of mentor help , but they dont understand me at all , they dont give a shit ,i can see it in there faces that they just talk to me the way they have been taught to talk to people like me ,

>really worth it then?

yeah sure
those side effects just mean you need to talk with the doctor and probably get switched to a different med
i don't mean don't take them
i'm just saying look out for stuff like that

Either lower your expectations or carpe diem, motherfucker.

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ooh right, ok ill talk to them about it , side effects just freaks the shit out of me ,
took me 5 years to get over the fear of death over zeroquel , ive been too much of a pussy to try something else and go through that again

You have a nervous nature and seem to have way too much time on your hands
So yeah.. where to begin
Confidence in general(i exclude myself, just pointing out my observations) is spectral
Most people who seem to be really confident are most of the time “faking it til they make it” you know why? Because they’re in their immediate environment at home in a safe space where people recognize and feeds the same delusions that the confident person brainwashes himself into being a confident man(people know me, like me, knows my accomplishment, knows my status, knows that i’m well off and that i’m grand)
There’s also the fact that some will derive confidence from feeling like they have “power” over certain persons/situations

Remove those normie fucks from their safe space and send them to fuck off land and see them slowly feeling an anxiety attack from not having anybody familiar around to validate his miserable existence

That’s part 1
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Why do you think I am here, user? Believe it or not, this thread helps me too, bro. It gives people like us the ability to learn new resources for dealing with this. Don't ever let anyone tell you that you're faking it or something. Your feelings are very real, it's not a joke. I resorted to Yea Forums when I was this depressed, and a couple anons legitimately saved me from killing myself. Even the retarded "kill yourself, fag." Comments. Just knowing someone, anyone was there made me feel human again. You will get through this! You have to understand things in life won't just fall on your lap, I have a shitty life too. I am poor, borderline homeless, used to get tons of pussy, haven't got laid in a year, people are starting to belive in me again so that helps. I am 18 going on 19. No car, my room is a mess, my mom hasn't bothered to teach me how to do laundry and such, I got no car, I finally landed a job after 7+ month of searching so that's a plus, but I still feel inferior, I feel like I could be living a better life so I hope that these next few months are room for improvement. I was going to go into the military, but I pussed out of bootcamp so I feel like a failure for that, but I will not let the month of april go to waste. You shouldn't either.

It's our time, user. Let's get it!

Anxiety
All those feelings and thoughts are created inside your head
When you give too much power to such things, then your brain(the master orchestrator) sends the data thru all the cells in your body, the more you feed that negative energy to your body, the more you’re releasing bad hormones, bad neuropeptides and pretty much are attracting slowly disease and disorders in your body
This isn’t some wiccan bullshit, this is actually scientifically explained if you are bothered to look it up

You are your best friend aswell as your worst enemy
Do you like the way you treat yourself? Of course not otherwise you wouldn’t have started this thread
I might not know your financial situation but all i can tell you is that when you’re ready to turn things around but lack any kind of monetary ressources, it just gets harder because the light at the end of the tunnel seems to get further
You don’t have any education? Dude you have the internet and a trillions of subjects you could educate yourself on therefore teaching yourself new stuff or just making new discoveries by watching documentaries, read or trip balls

Then obviously pick some kind of hobby
Doesn’t matter wtf it is, find something you really like and that you would like to get good at, look everything you can and apply the knowledge then practice practice practice

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that is deep , but sometimes i feel like i have to be a normie to make it somehow right
right im with you man !
and i know how it feels ,
and still stuck that loop , im 31 and still ride a bmx to get around , my money goes to depth cause ive just taking loans like crazy , and paying of phones /computers n shit i dont have money for ,

its fuckt man , i just need to get a job , but ive been fired so many times cause im slow or just not focused enough , and jobs just get me major anxiety , and it drives me crazy

Girls
Dude, this one might be harsh for you but i’m not in your head and I definitely have no clue about what attracts you
Bottom line is this: most bitches in general are just that: basic bitches aka Stacy
Stacy lives so she can shine on social medias how much her life is perfect by bragging about you, faking being happy posing some generic places, etc...
Stacy just want to stimulate her emotions, feel good about herself by validating her life choice to others and try to lowkey prove that she’s better off than anyone else
Then you start having a cunt who nags you in private, constantly bitching at you, buy me this buy me that and is generally a selfish cunt

Do you really wanna get yourself into a situation right now with a plastic bitch who’s going to drop you like nothing just because she suspects her image will be tarnished because according to her there’s not much she can profit off you then she’ll lead you on to feed her ego and to exploit your weak one
Is that what you want?
A good girl is really a hard catch nowadays and if i were you, i’d focus on trying to be as knowledgeable as possible because knowledge is true power

Don’t fucking drag yourself down to the level of a bunch of comformist spineless piece of shit, be your own self, accept yourself and rebuild yourself
People don’t like you or criticize you? They just want your attention and to validate themselves to their other fucktard friends, ignore them

I swear, that is the most funny thing about because like i mentioned previously: if people think they can run you and you allow them, you’re digging your own grave

If you don’t acknowledge them or their shitty insults, they will feel insulted because they expect you to cower in fear so they can get easier to your core

When you don’t give them what they expect, you’re the one in charge, then they will probably throw a bitch fit and start dramatizing the situation trying to guilt you by victimizing themselves when they started the whole shenanigans in the first place
You don’t need to waste your time and energy on pointless things that won’t bring you anything positive
Just let the others boil with rage by ignoring them
They’re the ones who look like a bunch of underdeveloped retarded man children

Now fucking wipe your eyes and grow you glorious motherfucker

The end

wow, that is very scary, and i like it , it forces me more to the right side !!
i am trying to learn myself 3D art , that is the only thing that intrest me atm that could lead to a job , but the thing is, you gotta have school papers to get somewhere , and i havent finished a single class in my life since ive been in scientology all my childhood life away from schools

>that is deep , but sometimes i feel like i have to be a normie to make it somehow right
Dude stop that right there, you be your goddamn self and fuck whatever else
When you know yourself and are confident about yourself, this will translate into your non verbal and people will pick up on it
People will treat you accordingly to what you radiate

So please, stop adherring to false guidelines because you’re not helping your case at all
If anything, you’re adding to the problems

I am just lucky my mom still keeps a roof over my head and hasn't kicked me out. I need to save up for a car, I definitely know I won't spend money on really stupid shit. I know once I get a car better opportunities will be there for me, and I won't have to walk everywhere and feel like a bum(not saying you are, there are plenty of people who do not have a car that are older than you, shit happens.) I would sell what you don't need and such if I were you.

I feel slow too, bro. I honestly think I have ADHD or ADD which has contributed to me not wanting to get a job for the longest time. I hate feeling like a complete moron, but I just have to tough through this to get what I want.

I would suggest a part time job for you if it gives you that much anxiety. You don't need anymore anxiety than you have. Working sucks, no way around that, but I hope that being in a job, I will work from 9am-4pm monday through friday and as soon as work gets off I am going straight to the gym. That means I'll only have an hour a day to worry about inconsequential bullshit, because by 11:00pm I'll be in bed. I am just thankful that my mind will finally be able to focus on one thing. Once you get a job, and you fill your life with other things that take up your time, I promise you won't worry about all the irrelevant bullshit anymore.

yeah and then theres that side ,
but i dont want to be myself ,
My self is sitting infront of the computer everyday playing games , and thats all i know , and im tired of it , i honestly dont know who i am , i just know that im some guy living off welfare , stuck in life playing video games ,
im the guy who doesnt want a job ,cause that would make me want to kill my self, knowing im working everysingle day at a job that i dont like , just wasting my life away on getting a little pay on some mcdonalds ,

cause thats the only place id be working at , cause i have nothing else in my life that id like to do ,other than doing some shitty 3D art that wont take my anywhere , cause im useless shit, right ?

i dont want to be my self!!
i want to be someone else ! fuck it id be a fucking normie if that changes my ways

Dude, start an online business
Fucking surf forums and shit
Try to get yourself out there
Build a little portfolio, offer to do projects for people who need your skills, of course set up some Paypal or whatever but honestly if you focus on getting experience right now
who knows, you might run into someone some day who will see you at a local cafe doing some 3D artwork while sipping your coffee then next thing you know you landed a job without any fucking legal certifications or whatever
I mean, everything can happen, just gotta take the opportunities and put your energy at the right place
I swear dude, if you start focusing as much as you can to be the best that you can possibly be, while still maintaining a positive frame of mind, your time will come
Just gotta start somewhere, one step at a time, pat yourself on the back from time to time because you made alot of personal progress both on yourself in on your craft
Embody the essence of a 3D artist, be the art

You can do it man, i’m fucking behind you

That’s not yourself, that’s your routine
Don’t let routine dictate what you are made of and who you are
Being yourself is accepting yourself as you are and fully embodying shamelessly who you are at the core(your qualities, defaults, strengths, accomplishments, etc...)

You know, soul searching process that makes you feel whole when you truly have unraveled who you truly are and not some image you’re trying to project like most people do

Your time is your wealth, spend it wisely cause you cannot take it back

Also, try to educate yourself more on how biology works, philosophy, psychology, anything really that can help you expand your mind and make you realize that all this state of despair is created in your head and your giving life to it, you can feel it in your whole body like a parasite taking control of your motor functions, you feel sluggish and heavy, does that sound familiar?
What you are doing is literal magic my man
Imagine if you’d entertain thoughts, state of mind and everything else that’s the polar opposite what you are feeling right now? Can you feel how lighter and more lively it could make you? Try picturing the intensity of your actual emotions, and flip it around to the exact opposite of the spectrum, that’s how you should feel

Solid fucking advice, user.

One more thing, You're depressed, I know this can be a good and bad thing, but you need validation. I fucking still need it. You need to have conversations with people who you feel have a positive view of you, and once you do start making progress, you'll feel happy because you earned that validation. Don't let it go to your head though.

That feeling is called empathy for the animals you ate

Yeah will it won’t be a solid fucking advice if you keep on lurking in this thread
>click x
>act as if you never started this thread to begin with
>rid yourself of any bad thoughts
>go lie down on a bed or somewhere where it’s peaceful and quiet
>have a pep talk with yourself
Could be 2 min, 5 min, 1 hour... just try to put things in perspective and act as if you were goin to “meet yourself” for some meeting about
>what is up at the moment in your life
>what is it you don’t like about it?
>What is it that you like?
>what can you do to make things better for yourself
>starting planning without setting the bar too high
>start off with little goals you wanna accomplish and stick to it
>learn to appreciate yourself
If you cannot then think about what would make you feel real stoked about yourself(like getting better with 3D designing)
Pretty much have peptalks with yourself everyday if you must, write shit down if you have to and keep reminders if you are still having a hard time to transition into this newer phase of your life

ok there is alot of info, and foreign ones too , some that are very deep that will take time for me to process
i will save all this convo and i will analyse it real good ,
im very thankfull for all the help ,

why would you mention that?

Godspeed OP
I’m the one who wrote alot of posts, i know you can do it man
We all have wars to win and wars never gets over until you fought all the battles that had to be fought
Unfortunately life is a perpetual state of warfare, become the true warrior that lies deep within you
Let that shit transform you in a being of pure will
Last thing: never ever depend upon no one but you

Peace man

OK so listen up fags. I have managed to get in touch with a chinese maker of pharmaceuticals. They are willing to ship me pure eszopiclone powder (Eszopiclone is over 3 times more powerful than Zopiclone) straight to the UK. I need 5 of you to pledge me £80/$100 to secure yourself a gram (500 tablets worth) if I have any interest I will provide you with everything you need to make sure your money/drugs are safe.

Anyone interested? (Takes 5-7 days for it to arrive. I will post out to you 1st class)

UK fags only

Haha, get a load of this faggot

What is ezoplicone?

I'll tell you what to do because iv been there. You need to get up, eat properly, was properly and dress well to start so your anxiety of how you look subsides. Then you do some exercise, find a mild running plan, you will release endorphins and level your chemicals out naturally. Talk to people you are close to make an effort to be more social. And for God's sake stay away from drugs. Sleep early wake early.

>what are pharmaceuticals
Drugs
>what is ezpplicone
Google is your friend and you should use it to its full extent

I would also recommend, vitamin d and c pills, multivitamins, but get outside in the sun in a random field and run away from the world just with yourself.

UK fag here, maybe I should just burn this £100?

>online begging for a meagre 80 quid
>cocky enough to tell people to go to Google

Choose one

Don't do it, user.

I wasn’t the UK fag who posted it

Multivitamins aren’t worth shit, it’s a scam and your body will have a better time absorbing animal proteins and nutrients than synthetic stuff
Animal>vegetal>synthetic

OP look up Prince EA on FB, he has lots of inspirational videos

if as humans, we are meant 50% cerebral and 50% physical, you're likely living too much in the cerebral. Exercise is good.. consider taking up something like fly fishing or disc golf. do something with your day that isn't video games or self loathing