This is my first time posting be easy on me

>spilling beans about me and about the shit i do

And what do you do?

I have been in this situation before...its your fault dont apologize change

>im really set on becoming a comedian

No evidence that you're funny at all, and clearly you're not charismatic or likable, soooooo

got pissed off about how one of the new guy's of the group gets put into a secret chat with the server owner while me being like the 3rd oldest friend there yet im still untrusted and called him out for it got told to chill out, i brooded over it for a while and left the server

Ok.

This will sound "corny" or "edgy", but you want to continue your life, right?

Do you like these people as stress relievers, people you share hobbies with in whatever, or both?
(Video Games, Exercise, Arts, Stone Skipping, etc)

If its only stress relief and "LOLs", because you might be a bit lonely/need a laugh, and you do nothing productive with together or 1 on 1, then take a break.

Your closest friend, if he is truly your friend, should be able to listen to your issues with the group/him and cause of tension/upset.

All else, If you have hobbies or dreams, focus on them for a bit, a bit of loneliness and self-growth never hurt a person.

Why be vengeful right off the bat? Most of us have endured pain, but do you really want to cause it?

well i mean that the point of starting is that you try it over and over again, and there is no fucking way i could entertain anyone on here its like pissing in a hurricane

If your still untrusted, do you jump to share/ make fun of any personal trait/idea/experience they have?

Have you considered being less of a gargantuan faggot or is that not an option?

>pissing in a hurricane

Nearly a chuckle, you like comedy and humor, thats great, do you make a lot of "X like Y" jokes or diverse material

i never make fun of anyone's appearance/race unless they are a shitty person in themselves