Hi - I almost transitioned, but after many years of research and personal reflection, I believe I've come to my conclusion. I would like to share my ideas
For starters, I was on T Blockers for a number of years before I turned around.
>Fear of Yourself
one of the most common things you can find in somebody is that they don't fully agree with/love themselves. Ask anyone, and they'll probably tell you all about how they're not perfect. Imperfections are natural. I believe that this is the main "cause" of the trans movement: a refusal, an ignorance of self love. To realize what you are in all its glory, and Love that idea until the end of time.
When I look back into my own life, I see this, too. I hated myself, and still do on most days. I had many reasons to fear my masculinity, and to deny it and shy from it due to my upbringing.
Because I hated myself, it was easier to become somebody else entirely. I wanted to escape, not heal.
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