Hi - I almost transitioned, but after many years of research and personal reflection, I believe I've come to my conclusion. I would like to share my ideas
For starters, I was on T Blockers for a number of years before I turned around.
>Fear of Yourself one of the most common things you can find in somebody is that they don't fully agree with/love themselves. Ask anyone, and they'll probably tell you all about how they're not perfect. Imperfections are natural. I believe that this is the main "cause" of the trans movement: a refusal, an ignorance of self love. To realize what you are in all its glory, and Love that idea until the end of time.
When I look back into my own life, I see this, too. I hated myself, and still do on most days. I had many reasons to fear my masculinity, and to deny it and shy from it due to my upbringing.
Because I hated myself, it was easier to become somebody else entirely. I wanted to escape, not heal.
>Societal Expectations You have hobbies, you have interests, you have family values and community customs. You have people urging you to be 'something' every waking day. Nearly every piece of media that crosses your eyes or your ears has a reference of what you 'should be'
It's easy to fall into a box. I grew up with largely 'feminine' interests, and because of that, felt I had to take other actions to cement my role as a female in society. It made sense to carry through on this pattern, willingly opting out of things because they were "masculine", and forcing myself onto a one way path.
It has become even more difficult now with communities full of people promoting the changing of bodies through surgery and hrt. This leads into my next theory
Jack Robinson
>Social Isolationism
a new-aged faith, as I see it. The cult-like worship of doing nothing but sitting inside and playing games and consuming media. NEETs, etc. Humans are inherently social creatures. If you deny yourself friends, family, activities, nature; life - then you deny yourself of essential resources. You deteriorate.
To become feminine, for me, was a release. It was a means to be desired by others, to feel sexy, to feel wanted. It got me so much attention, and so much of the wrong intention, too.
When you spend years in a dark room playing video games, you will seek any path available if it leads you to the comfort of others. As far as feminity goes, we all find it generally more comforting. the mothers spirit.
When I locked myself away, that's when my changing accelerated
Cameron Bailey
good thread =)
Camden Ortiz
went through a very similar experience. Good to see that you came to the same conclusion :)
Isaiah Adams
>Trans Community I have yet to meet a trans person who isn't suffering from serious mental health complications that need healing as opposed to nurturing the escape. In my time spent with this community, I have never been able to retain one as a friend. This is of course anecdotal, but the most common sense I get from them is desperation. all of them that i know personally are into societies darker paths - heroin, thievery, self mutilation, and no close friends.
When you hate yourself - when you wish to run away from who you are - why should others feel differently? Why would they stay and be your friend if you refuse to be your own friend?
How can you love somebody else if you do not understand how to love yourself?
Nolan Wood
thank you Anons. I fear speaking out because the gut-like reaction of our culture is "if you speak against trans, you are a terrible person"
this is dangerous and removes all area of discussion on proxy of "it's bad just because". If we are unable to question something, it will begin to control us. I fear that these questions make the trans community afraid, because they are valid questions in a culture that fears inner-reflection.
I almost destroyed my body. My one and only beautiful host. I mourn for those who have gone so far as to permanently remove their genitals, a vital area of natural energy... and for what? fantasy?
Lincoln Walker
post boipussi plz
Ryan Sanchez
^ | This guy gits it
Grayson Jones
>Far Fetched Theories These are some ideas that I've come across in my time studying myself. I believe they relate, in some way, to the trans phenomenon, but please take these with a grain of salt.
-Androgyny is the "perfected being". When the Moon and Sun meet (solar eclipse), we can 'see God'. As somebody greatly suffering as I see most trans people doing, i find the similarity eerie. To become closer to the perfected being is to become closer to Divinity, to solace, to the suffering finally ending
-The feminine spirit is said to nurture. This ideology is prevalent in native American culture, especially. The feminine spirit is one of healing, and of growth. The mother, the Life bringer, the flower. If somebody was to experience great suffering in their life, they may seek out the feminine spirit.
-Feminism. More than ever have our genders become separated, hateful, and feared. We are seeing one team pit against the other. MGTOW, Feminism, Incels and Volcels - you name it - there's an archetype for every type of prejudice against another group of people, wielded all too often as weapons.
