How are you holding up, Yea Forums ?

I feel terrible, I want out of neetdom

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I'm doing okay. There's always room for improvement and I'm slowly learning not to get too caught up on all those details. It will all come with time. The important part is to keep chugging and pace myself as needed. I'm also learning to stop worrying about the future and investing now into my education more.

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I recently starting using twitch for first time ever and have become addicted with donating to a certain streamer. I've must have wasted at least $500 past 3 months. As a result though it feels like I have friends again

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Man I'm set to be the bone marrow donor for my sister who has leukimia. Thats set to go down in a few weeks and I just feel like putting everything on hold until thats done. Other than that, working on improving myself and quitting porn.

kys

>Is it weird that I've never once thought of killing myself
That means your life has never went to shit. Pretty sure that's normal.

my agp is flaring up and im pretty high

steamcommunity.com/id/tomoko/
I don't want to die alone.

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>want to get my motorcycle license to cut costs and pay for parking less
>nowhere to park one at home where it won't get nig'd

I don't really feel like playing games anymore. Its funny, I used to think I would never get sick of them but here I am now, just 22 and already tired of it. I don't regret playing them since childhood. But its like saying goodbye to an old friend. Maybe I'll come back to it maybe I won't.

I've managed to go through 5 years of university without making a single friend. I can't shake off the feeling that I'll die alone and miserable and that it'll be entirely my fault

Took the day off work to have a chance to unwind. Started amassing houseplants lately and set up a small aquarium today. It's nice having things to take care of; looking forward to adding some fish in a few days.

Might start Astral Chain tonight.

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I think i might be gay, or i was just overestimated sex. Finally got to fuck a girl last night and i felt like nothing at all, i had a boner and all that but it's like nothing she did with it gave any plesasure. It was weird as fuck.

I don't know, suicidal thoughts are actually pretty damn common, even among "normal" people

Quit my job a couple months ago after saving up a bunch of money and deciding I was ready to take a break from aimlessly wageslaving with no real goals in life. Since then I've realized I am seriously depressed and hate myself. My self-confidence is extremely low. I've been reading self-help books and trying to improve myself.
Going to start a strict diet and get daily exercise going. I'd like to work on a project with a friend of mine, but right now he's stuck on Classic WoW and has hasn't been doing much else.

I'm pushing 30 but I'm still hoping someday I can have a relationship and enjoy real adulthood in a way that isn't just working all day, jerking off and playing video games as much as I want.

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I got an interview recently. Doesn't seem like they are interested anymore though and I've called back a few times.

This makes only the second interview I've had in the 2 years since I lost my old job.

I lost my job a month ago, I'm taking it one day at a time.

Or maybe it's just always been shitty. When that's all you know, you don't really put enough stake in your own self worth to justify killing yourself.

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I fell for another girl that already has a bf

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>Yea Forums - Video Games

I got fired from my job for something that wasn't my fault, and basically blacklisted from similar positions in the local area. My friend's letting me rent a room on the cheap while I find something else, but his ego has gotten disgusting and his bitch gf is here six days a week and requires special dietary restrictions and at least six hours a day of one-on-one time with him, in addition to constantly hanging around so we basically never get to bro it up like we used to. Already talking about the kids they're going to have, he's whipped as shit.
My savings are getting razor-thin, but god damn do I love these video games. Just got into FEAR and JSR, and they're at least a distraction and a small reason to put off killing myself.

I have this disease too.

And the thing is I always find out after the fact. It's never I already know she has one. It's I meet a girl. We hang out for a couple of weeks, I decide to tell her I like her and then I found out she already seeing someone by either stalking her socials or I hear from a friend of hers.

There’s a cute new woman at work but she’s too smart for me to talk to and shows no interest whatsoever. I need a reminder that 2D is the light and 3DPD.

I'm working on actually making progress in my life to actually be a functioning member of society, so that's cool, but I'm still pretty unhappy as a whole.

At least video games are still cool, I've played more video games this year than any other.

I've been diagnosed with lumbago. It's pretty hard to take in, I have no idea what I'm going to do.

I have the realization that things aren't going to get better. I would love the have the problems I had as an undergrad in my early 20s. I can't escape from myself. Objectively, I will do better than 99.9% of you here on this board if I can keep it together for a few more years, but I find myself unable to.

If there are anons here younger than 30, take a lesson and make every effort to leave your NEETdom and bitterness and depression and be a good person in the sense that you already know. It's hard, but it only gets harder as you get older.

hey user thank you for playing borderlands 3 with me, it's making me feel better after the surgery

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>finally got easy as fuck job that pays good money
>legal weed
>top of the line computer
>good insurance

You know I feel depressed everyday but when I type it out I know I will be fine. I just sit and worry all day because my brain is fucked from genetics.

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I've never truly thought about committing suicide, but I have often pondered what reactions other would have if I did commit it.

>been a neet for almost 3 years now
>no friends
>no gf
I'm still enjoying video games at least, been playing monhun and smt pretty much nonstop.

What sort of job?
t. unemployed

I made the mistake of buying an apartment about 5 years ago. It's a solid investment, they said. No one ever lost money buying a home, they said.
A year later the housing market in my country crashed and I'm down about $40k, unable to sell. I want to move on with my life, get a better education but I am stuck where I currently am because of this apartment. I can't sell at a loss because then the loan will turn into a consumerloan without security, making the interest jump from 2,3% to 16%.

Got cucked by boomers.

I'm not so depressed that my thoughts of suicide are legitimate considerations, so I guess I'm functional enough. I try to stay busy to avoid all the thoughts behind those feelings, but at some point I have to lie in bed and my mind eventually wanders there.

Hanging in there. Been job searching, and honestly been working out a bit more. Even been getting hit on more. I just want to make more money since this job feels like it's a well drying up - tips have gotten worse, we have too many on calls, and the hour cuts are annoying, plus it seems like everyone's on edge and having to get called into the office over dumb shit.

Wanted to play a game, but never did. Just spent my time watching youtube.

>look out window
>eyes sting even though its not that bright outside

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>have job I like
>have savings
>living in a decent house
>have a decent "social" life
>find myself still exhausted everyday
Anyone else find social interaction mentally draining? It feels as if my brain works overtime the moment I need to talk to anybody, it's getting so bad that I've been requesting more and mpre instances where I work from home.

My family and i got beaten out from our house because an uncle is a dick and wants the land a year ago, my mom developed cancer after almost loosing a leg from an earthquake, now she is OK but she lost some movement from her leg, my father died like 4 months ago, i quit my well paying job because i got into a depression because of all the shit that was going on, my sister got a baby before my father died after trying for years to get one and i was really liking the idea of being his uncle, i got attached to the baby and the baby gave me hope, the baby developed epilepsy some days ago and he keeps getting seizures, now for my own mental sanity im trying to not get loose all the attachment i have to the baby because im just sick of feeling sad and powerless, i miss my neet times, life was really easy

I'm ok, I'd like to move out of my parents home but the prices for homes or even a small apartment is inflated to hell and it makes me want to weep

I think I finally met the guy of my dreams. We had our first date Saturday night and we ended up fooling around afterwards. I talk to him today and he tells me he's just looking for casual sex and not really interested in a relationship. I spent the rest of my Sunday in bed wishing I could die in my sleep. I've had breakups before but never this intense. I feel used.

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I'm not sure I should be dating my best friend. He's crazy in love with me and I think I maybe just love him as a friend. I tried breaking up with him before and he didn't take it well. I don't think I'm cut out to date anyone, as much as I'd like to. I'm getting older, wasting my life and haven't achieved a single thing. I want to die so I don't have to deal with these difficult decisions, then it wouldn't be my own fault for making everyone around me feel bad.

That looks like a woman but literally no tits. Shame.

fag

>Anyone else find social interaction mentally draining?
Introverts and people with autism tend to have this problem.

double fag

I'm playing monster hunter all alone and my friends are sending me hints i should go away from there lives.
All of them, it's quite tough.

Seems a little naive to just fall for someone that quickly. You'll get through it, user.

will this thread get pruned? or is this the outlet thread for today?

either way i feel old with 28 guys

not dead yet

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Dying doesn't solve a single thing. Everyone has tough shit to deal with, just gotta endure it.

this is me without the prozac

>tfw none of those are a problem and you finally realize it's the family issues you can't fix yourself that are killing you inside

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Dying releases me from my issues. It didn't solve them but I'm not around to have to deal with them anymore. It's selfish but it sounds nice.

parents will live like 1 year or so
will buy a rope with the money they lend me
all good atm OP

It solves everything. It's the end of you. It's over, you're done.

You gotta face your problems instead of running away all the time. I know what that feels like, user. We'll get through this shit.

I'm moving up to NYC to live with my best friend and another friend from high school. He's already been up there for a couple years and I cannot fucking take being in my hometown any longer. I visited up there a couple months ago and like it for the most part, but I'm gonna need to find a job pretty quickly. I will legit off myself if I stay here, and I'm kinda excited, but it's about a 1,200 mile move, so I've gotta figure out how I'm gonna get some of my stuff up there because I'm not sure I trust shipping some of my electronics. I'm just fucking done and so close to being far gone that I want to actually live in a place with some kind of energy.

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That's not a solution, that's just giving up altogether.

I'm hungry, really really hungry. I wish I had a nice apple right now

girl i dated from Yea Forums years ago still resides on my steam contact list butnever answered again
ex-gf moving in with her new guy
meanwhile binge eating shit and playing occasinal bf4

lads

I know but it's difficult when all of the issues I need to solve are either long term and I fuck everything up when I inevitably have a bad couple of days or they hurt those around me, which I want to avoid more than anything. My friends are the only reason I'm still trying at all and I don't want to hurt them.

Stop letting a bad couple days set you back. You're the one in control. Keep focused on what's important to you and don't let yourself make your own life worse.

Installed 27 games only to realize I have exams next week so I'll probably won't have too much time to play my backlog.
I really do hope I pass my exams.

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I can’t take it anymore lads, the loneliness is killing me. I’m so pathetic that I can’t even get a response on dating sites. I’m destined to die alone at this rate.

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Very much easier said than done. I'm weak willed when I have those sorts of days.

pretty bad. fucked up a repair on a friend's pc and tomorrow will be a long day of trying to fix that shit again, hopefully it'll work this time.

tried playing some games to get my mind off of feeling like a failure over the fuckup, instead game does a good job reminding me of it, among other things that have been bothering me. spiral of upsetting thoughts chaining into one another. thinking about the girl I love and how she probably doesn't care about me anymore like she used to, grown distant. feels so different from just a few years ago. probably hooked up with dude she was orbiting.

mind goes back to fucked up repair job, back ot her after game has dating elements in it. repeat for about 4 hours. doesn't' help I was streaming shit and viewers asked. talking about it didn't' help either, should have kept quiet.

at least I have a new job soon. even though it's me returning to a corporation I was laid off from previously so I feel like an ultra cuck. trying ot play games in bed, despite the fact I have to get up early and rework on that pc. realize I put too many basic things on a pedestal and set myself up for failure.

haven't even enjoyed playing games lately. no other hobbies either. had insomnia for 8 months. took that fucking sleep nyquil shit just now. I want to play games again and have fun with them but I own't have time once I start up full time.

anyone have any good recommendations for some fun games that could be played through over the course of 2 hours of free time a week?

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I know. I've been going through a shit phase myself for the past few days. But I know that I can recover from this. And if I can, so can you.

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there are no prizes at the end of life

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26, no friends, no prospects.
Have a career that's seasonal, that I could turn full-time, or use to go to school for something else. But don't feel like it. Don't feel like much of anything.

Not that it's all bad. But I don't mesh with people at all. Existing pretty much just to look out for my family.

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I want to kill myself but I'm scared of non-existence. All I do in my spare time is browse philosophy forums hoping for some glimmer of hope that I'd be able to continue on after death. Maybe whatever configuration of matter that makes up my first person perspective would be repeated somewhere else in the universe after countless amounts of time have passed by after my death. idk I just wish I could transplant my brain into the body of a brain dead 5 year old or something and start over.

and here goes the thread

What are you posting that pessimistic remark alongside a Saraiya Goyou pic for, stranger ?

Godspeed user

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If you want to die why don't you just do it right now?
Yeah, we both know you won't, not because you're a coward but because you don't actually want to die you just want to feel good.
Now quit being a depressed individual, talk to your best friend about your feelings and if he doesn't take it well then tough luck it ain't your fault as much as you want it to be.

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Saving up for some cosmetic surgery I've been meaning to get for a while now. I've gotten better at saving money and I've sold a lot of stuff. I've just about fully recovered from my ounce a year cold I usually catch, hopefully I didn't give it to anyone at work. After all is said and done, I think I'll confess to the guy at work I have a crush on. He's the only person I've ever had feelings for, so that's gotta mean something.

>got an interview last week, for today
>mood ruined but whatever, gotta do it
>feel shit all weekend
>today arrived
>start getting ready
>"alright let's get this out of the way"
>just got told the interview was moved to tomorrow

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It's because i don't want destroy my poor mother.
On one hand i'll be dead so i won't care but on the other i'm still alive so i do care.
I'd need to kill her first to spare her the despair but man i really don't want to kill my mom.

>gril I met on Yea Forums always telling me how she's finally happy now that she's met me
>almost daily telling me how grateful she is for me and shit like that
>Literally the only woman I've ever had feelings for in my life
>knew her for a year as friends, sleep with her
>next 2 weeks she wont shut up about how the sex was incredible and that's all she'd talk about
>then she just ghosts me after telling me she was never happy around me

I'm confused and miserable.
I keep seeing her in my dreams and it's been 2 months.
I can't enjoy vidya, or anything anymore actually.
I lost out on wizard powers AND I perpetually feel like shit.

Alright. Moved back home after an ESL stint I saw through to the end. Reverse culture shock is heavy but familiarizing. Plan to start applying to PHD/Doctorate programs in Psychology. Either going the professor or Clinical Psych route.

Since taking up boxing ive started maining little Mac in Smash Ultimate but of course my OCD saw me overplay this weekend so, going to cut down on that.

My love for tabletop games is still strong though. Love my Blood Bowl.

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>>then she just ghosts me after telling me she was never happy around me
did we have the same girl? with bipolar disorder man

>cosmetics surgery
Why? Are you hideously deformed or something?

Been eating and sleeping very little lately and got sick on Saturday. Still haven't recovered and now I'm eating even less and haven't slept in 26 hours. I'm a fucking idiot.