I feel like I'm debasing myself when I pretend to smile and give a fuck about what the other person is saying. I feel like if I invest my time pretending to be like them, to gain their acceptance and then they reject me then I'd feel terrible. I'd have debased myself for nothing, for no reason. For simple interactions like buying something in a shop or restaurant I do it just to have a smooth, easy transaction. But people get offended at the slightest thing, everyone I meet seems to hate me for not being as socially intelligent as they are. On top of that, I genuinely have no interest in people. When left alone with someone to talk to my mind is a blank, I have no desire to say anything and nothing to express.
I've met 2 people in my life who I could just talk to normally. No fake interest, no niceties, no bullshit. With everyone else it's been a constant struggle.
Holy shit I feel exactly the same. I wouldn't say it's a fear though. I don't feel fear, it's more like laziness.
Lucas Adams
>off-topic blogpost kys
Jace Hill
It’s no problem so long as you want to remain a perma-virgin
Isaiah Peterson
>I feel like I'm debasing myself when I pretend to smile and give a fuck about what the other person is saying. Your instinct is right; you are. And every time you do or say something of that quality your strength and soul deteriorate. Most people are pragmatic/utilitarian enough that even if they realize what's happening they decide to do it anyway because they believe that the benefits outweigh the negatives, and the rest of us do it out of a kind of weakness or out of a sympathy for others. Most jobs demand it, which is one of the reasons that having a job--especially one under a boss, or one that you depend on for food and shelter--is so destructive.
Thomas Collins
>Most jobs demand it, which is one of the reasons that having a job--especially one under a boss, or one that you depend on for food and shelter--is so destructive. I think this is why I quit every job I've ever had in under 2 weeks. I can't do it, I get a week in, look around me and think "Am I really gonna be one of these soulless husks doing this day in day out for 40 years?" and then soon after I leave in the middle of a shift without a word. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself. I have no interests and nothing I care about to even be self employed.
Adrian Richardson
where do you get money for food?
Benjamin Parker
I live with my parents and claim unemployment benifit
your partents are hurting you by helping you you're not glued to anything you do in life like that
Brayden Morris
How is this related to literature, faggot?
Samuel Lopez
The second guy who responded to you is a simpler kind of person, so his advice and experiences probably won't apply to you. They're like people with permanently stuffed-up sinuses standing in an outhouse shocked that you're disgusted by the smell.
Christopher Martin
haven't you heard? literature is reddit now, see
Jaxson Sanchez
you get unemployment benefit despite quitting jobs after two weeks for no reason?
Sebastian Wood
>for no reason Can you read?
Bentley Ross
Well it's not like I do it constantly. Yes, currently I'm on it. I couldn't get it for a few months after I last quit my job a year ago.
Christian Lee
Thanks, nice to know there's someone else who feels the same
Owen Cruz
>I can't do it, I get a week in, look around me and think "Am I really gonna be one of these soulless husks doing this day in day out for 40 years?" >reason checks out here is your money sir ;))
