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yeah, maybe, i don't know.

First thing you do in these circumstances is change your diet. Sounds silly but the majority of depressive states comes from eating wrong. Usually because of carbohydrates and sugar but could be a random allergy.

hope it gets better for you user

thank you
no, i eat right, i sleep right, i exercise, i have a good job, hobbies, i just feel terrible some times.

Why am I so displeased with my 20 year old self right now? Throughout my life I've always been able to put everything into persepctive, not take things too seriously. It seems like that exact mindset, which benifited me in the past has finally backfired and plunged me into a depressive state in which I blame my nihilistic views for my lazyness. Questioning the meaning behind everything I find l myself unable to pick up new things or do work.

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Am I watching porn because of the lack of girls in my life? When a girls enters the scene that I could eventually fuck, suddenly my urge to go to a porn website disappears, or even if I open up a video, it doesn't create a significant reaction.

Am I here with you fuckers because at this time there is no one in real life to replace you? Am I consuming the endless online content to fill a hole that is left open because I couldn't fill it with stuff in my own life?

But what role do the habits play. For example, If I'm obsessed with watching the news, what do the news symbolize that I haven't found in real life? Am I onto something here or do I need to visit a shrink?

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Puts into words almost exactly how I feel aswell,
The part of Yea Forums in particular, this place of mental masturbation provides me with laughs and insights I can't get anywhere else.

I have become rather disillusioned with the person that I am at the moment, as my dropping grades this semester are beginning to reveal how much I lack. I have a hard time finding the motivation to complete assignments, along with constantly procrastinating and putting things off. When I try to dedicate my time towards something, like a paper for example, part of me refuses to attend to it.

I just can't seem to do much of anything and I usually resign to just rotting and doing the bare minimum. Obviously, on some level I am aware that such an attitude will get me nowhere. Yet the worst part is that I still refuse to do anything about it.

Is change truly even possible? I hope it is, since if not I'm royally fucked.

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How’s the relationship between your parents, your father more importantly

You may have unresolved issue with your mother, do you hate her?, serious question user

Have good hobbies will save you, unironically join a sport, get gym membership, read quality books, definitely get outside more

go to hell Freud

Hahaha keep denying

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So I did some thinking while I was high
And I think I've come up with a new theory for God
First, consider the three different types of superintelligence
There is time superintelligence. This could be compared to serial processing. I.E: A scientist works on a problem for 30 years straight and solves in, when he couldn't have done that in 10 years
Then there's quantity superintelligence. This could be compared to parallel processing. I.E: A team of scientists work on the same problem and achieve a solution in 5 years because there are more of them
Then the third and most enigmatic type of superintelligence. Quality super intelligence. This is what distinguishes man from a squirrel and a squirrel from an oyster. The type of intelligence where no amount of time or number of minds could create a true answer to a question
I.E: If a group of scientists worked on a problem for 40 years and didn't find a solution (and, in fact, would never find a solution). Then a 20 year old prodigy could look at the same problem and come up with an answer instantly, simply because of a difference in kind of thinking
Now, the next concept you need to understand.
Suppose humanity were to program an AI that could pass the turing test perfectly - for all intents and purposes, it appears human.
Now, that AI program could be broken down into a series of mathematical equations. That's all the computer is doing, running algorithms and subroutines to create the bigger picture of a manifest intelligence
Now suppose you were to present that highly complex series of equations to a room full of people working in an organized structure
Each of them with a pencil, paper, and calculator. Suppose a billion people were in this room, all running the subroutines and the equations
Then, if you were to give an input to someone in the room, they could send it to the rest of the room for processing and, although it might take a long time, all of the equations would be applied to the input data and an output would be generated
This output would be in the form of what the AI running on a computer would output. I.E: text
As such, you have built a computer out of people working in a room, and you can speak with the room
You aren't speaking to any individual person in the room. There is now a truly different entity
This is how human culture works. There is no single truly influential person on human culture, but it generates outputs based off inputs in much the same way that that computer-room would
Suppose, then, that different types of intelligence have different applications. Quantity intelligence can solve certain problems really well
Quality intelligence isn't necessarily the best type of intelligence. For some applications, time and quantity intelligence are superior to it.
Suppose, then, that human culture is a type of quantity superintelligence, capable of generating answers to certain types of questions more efficiently than a quality superintelligence

And suppose that God, or the thing that we call God, is a quality superintelligence, existing in some kind of higher order than us because of that superintelligence he possesses
(The Catholic understanding of God is that we - in fact - exist in his mind, in an anagogical sense)
God is omniscient in the sense of his quality superintelligence. We think qualitatively differently from him, and his mind so vastly dwarfs our own in terms of quality intelligence that we cannot comprehend him or his experience
However, God lacks some of the quantity superintelligence power that human culture has (or one day will maintain)
Basically, what if the universe (and specifically humanity) is a form of computer simulation for God. Because of the properties of his intellect he can simulate many minds, but he cannot have that quantity superintelligence himself
So God uses (or will use once we achieve a higher cultural state) humanity to answer the questions he does not yet have the answer to.
Side theory for why God needs to simulate us instead of just having quantity superintelligence himself:
Since God is perfectly simple (this has too much theological baggage to succinctly explain, just understand that God doesn't have 'modifiers' (i.e: he doesn't have a body, he doesn't have emotions, etc))
He exists as a unitary being
And as a unitary being, the only way that he himself could possess quantity superintelligence is by splitting himself into multiple minds, which would be impossible considering his unity
As such, God's only way of possessing quantity superintelligence is by simulating it

I'm doing all of those four already and if you think that's a good advice to give someone who might be depressed (which I'm not) then you should stop giving people that advice.

Can't a man share a thought here without being labeled as a fat fuck?

Also, we are at least on one point in the same boat.

You watch porn because it's easier than the alternative. You come here for the same reason.

Man what?

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>there is no one in real life to replace you?

Nobody IRL likes to talk about the kind of books that you guys do.

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I've come to a foolish crossroads in my life; I've fallen in love with a girl who I don't believe is the straightest, although she seems so womanly. Then on the other hand I've had a another woman fall in love with me, yet I almost feel nothing for her. There isn't anything intrinsically wrong with her, we even have a lot in common, I just don't feel anything for her. So I don't know which path to choose; one that I know the outcome of, although I don't condone. Or one which may break my heart.

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everyone who says exercise has a lasting positive psychological effect doesn't want to admit that they've ran the 10k and have nothing to show for, so they lie

how do I know it? ran the 10k and more, it's a meme

Neither wait them both out, stay friends and wait for the next.

10k is nothing.

Also, do some lifting.

If you're gonna be a depressed ugly piece of shit, at least be a healthy, lean depressed ugly piece of shit

>Is change truly even possible?
I've asked myself this as well, seeing as how I'm in a similar situation. Even though it appears hopeless, you and I should strive to achieve it

Did you just prove my post? Are you giving that advice to people on the internet because lifting didn't cut it, huh? What's your relationship with your dad user? Was he not enough a father figure to you so you need the masculinity of lifting?

>Are you giving that advice to people on the internet because lifting didn't cut it, huh?

What is this supposed to mean? That if you offer advice to someone regarding something that improved your life it indicates that the thing did not, in fact, improve your life?

smoke signals are the mediocre waste of kindling tended by a civilization which refuses to implement the telegraph

That’s why I walked away from the thread and didn’t bother responding to them

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I'm 21 years old. Noticed today the corners of my hair are receding, when pushing my hair straight up it's somewhat noticable, it's only just started, but it's happening all the same. Don't know how I feel about it. Always had extremely thick hair, as it was one of my more defining features. Starting to stare death in the eyes with looking in the mirror. Facing my mortality, facing my age. I have so many regrets from my adolescence, I'm not ready to let it go. I've been stagnating the past few years since my high school graduation. Former classmates are now graduating university while I've done nothing. That time I've wasted will never come back, I must now face adulthood head on. God is banishing me from the garden. This will be hard

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I want very depraved things for myself but only on the condition that I don't want them.

i have masturbated 3 times while reading Iliad.
i don't know why exactly, just started stroking my dick for no reason, while not stopping to read.

Special one you are

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2bh, my desire to jack off is tge strongest when i'm observing any art i like.
not the "mind fogged with lust" kind, but crystal sharp conscious and for some reason a will to touch myself (i'm not even hard)

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I'm 22 and I understand this immensely.

I can only masturbate when I’m thinking abstract thoughts. The more disconnected with present reality the better. Philosophy is great for this, self-reflection, political theory, all fair game. Often I’ll have to write down what I thought afterward and usually it’s not bad. I think it has something do with turning my mind off, going blank. Abstraction is the only way to achieve this. Not an autist btw.

i can masturbate both to sexual fantasies and rather irrelevant thoughts.
i've never watched much porn, i do it maybe once in 2 months. i jack it almost daily, but it doesn't impair my life as i do it right before sleep.

also blasting some wagner is a nice touch to add to your want sonetimes

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I have no clue what road to take after high school.
My parents want me in medical school, they always lead me that way but I don't know about it.
I'm simply disaffected, I don't care about a thing.
I don't like to think about my future, I do nothing with myself nor do I have any passions or goals in life.
I don't know anymore, life doesn't exite and I don't commit to anything.

What should I do with myself ?

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Elope with me.

It's a bad habit that intrudes into other activities like reading.

If I don't get into english in the next semester I have to continue doing polish where I already failed a course in the last semester.

I fucked up badly.

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I kind of like racist humor and think unlimited third world immigration and illegal aliens arent that great dont really have any real problem with most minorties though. Somehow im hitler though. Whats to be done about this shit dudes?

Stop hanging out with NPCs neck-deep in ideology.

Whenever i come to this board I either leave with an immediate desire to write more, or lose all interest in writing for about three days. Because I havent really written in a month, the visit seemed worth it.

Glad I could help user

What country you from b?

After graduating uni last year and getting a job I had this sort of crisis and started to analyze where I am and the future I want. In the past few months I picked up reading again, go to the gym regularly now and make an effort to engage in conversations. It doesn't really help though. There is a physical, surface effect that I cannot deny. However, nothing truly changes, it''s just a few perception peaks here and there, physiological illusions. I really don't know what to make of my future. Right now I work as much as I can and feed myself lies to not crash. This won't last forever.

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Germany, so money isn't the problem here, the problem is that I haven't told my parents that I failed that course.

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recently I've been forcing myself to write for one hour every day with no distractions (i.e. sounds turned off on my phone and laptop) with the aim of being more productive
it has been working great so far

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Share some of your work user

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My life is miserable and I am ok with this. I will remember the day that Notre Dame burned as the day I decided to finally quit porn. Somaesque pleasure was the only reliable source of dopamine. Artificial stimuli started to feel less like autoerotic asphyxiation, and more like drowning in a gutter. Kindergarden kids with iphones will be intelectually disabled, emotional criples. The endless surge of content will make their brains apathetic to real world, it will be boring and too slow. In the age of universal basic income there will be homeless people who will give away all their money to bored camgirls, that won't feel anything during sex, as they sold their intimacy for comfortable life. Everyday I hear that earth will wither and huamnity will die. And that it is my fault, not the mighty ones that reign over all. I saw a man sitting on a bench looking at his smartphone. He was slouching so bad, that he looked like he wanted to suck his own dick.

it's not actually good tb h, at the moment I'm just writing to get comfortable with it, to experiment with a few world-building techniques and eventually to finish a full novel (I have a history of abandoning stuff about 30,000 words in)

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Well when ya get comfy your fellow Yea Forums brethren welcomes you with open arms to share, keep at it user :)

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How do I keep from drifting apart from my friends?

I only have two and we've run out of stuff to talk about. I feel like I'm a few months away from being completely alone and miserable

> What’s on your mind?

To be quite honest, I am peeved that the local supermarket no longer stocks Colombian coffee; I dread returning to the harsh flavors of the available alternatives.

Hard to argue against that.

Oh colombian is so nice and soft

it's neither the least Yea Forums thing nor the most Yea Forums thing. many famous authors, probably the overwhelming majority including famous christian writers, masturbated.

It feels like I'm going insane and I'm softly trying to cut everyone out of my life in the (left field) belief that solitude is what I need because I'm not fit for human contact/relationships after all. Or at least it feels like a majority of my pain comes from them, so ergo if I'm alone I won't be in pain. But then why am I posting this here for all you anons to read?
A friend of mine's mom is actively trying to get me a job because I can't find one 4 months post-graduation. I'm touched by the act but I don't want to tarnish her name for when I inevitably act like a shithead and just leave the job.
Also contemplating packing some shit together and just leaving the state for a week or two. Don't have much left in savings, so I won't be able to go overseas in a few months like I'd hoped, but at this juncture it seems a better plan.

Also my mind's been wiped. Can't focus long enough to read, can't think critically about much anymore. Can't stop drinking. When will this all end

based

It will pass

The hidden Truth to Harry Potter, and it's fashion of apocolpse. Harry Potter is a book about Jews, Witches, Muggles, and Mommy and Daddy ( Culture ). This entire book goes against the reality of this world, Unlike Lord of the Rings.

In Harry Potter we discover a world, a world of witches and wizards. And no, I don't wonder why.
Harrpy Potter is a discourse on a prospective reality where two different people Live.
They are normal people, like you and I, but then there is a people that... aren't really people, but they live among normal people, and sorta act like people, and hold cards and play games, drink, laugh, have fun like people. But they in realities of their own. Normal laws don't apply to them, they walk in a spiritual side of the world where only occasionaly there will be a normal couple, normal people, that'll have a kid that is found to be special, he'll age a bit, mature a bit, and then be diagnosed as "freaky", then the child will be heard about in Wizard agencies, and taken into wizard schools, and the parents wont get a say in the option.

It’s Yea Forums to do it excessively or not at all