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get some epiduo forte dude!! it helped me alot

thank you i will look into it :\ i don't know why it's so bad. i never had acne as a teen it started in my twenties and has been getting progressively worse

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my social life has been the most solid it's been a very long time. i'm happy with my friends and my GF really helps me out when times are tough.

i got a new job recently that's been putting a lot of stress on me just because it's the start of my career and the vast amount of paths that lay ahead of me is scary.

i'm really relating to pic related at the moment. lets me know that it's ok to be unsure and feel confused.

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My partner and I have been close to breaking up recently. We're working on it now, and I'm not sure where we'll be in six months, but I'm a naturally optimistic person. And I'm listening to demos and alt takes from HIMs Razorblade Romance, great stuff, much better than the version they released.

I cant listen to music for too long nowadays or else my ears start to hurt. I don't really have a favorite album atm

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>flunking out of university cause all I do is get high, play The Binding of Isaac: Rebirth, watch Cowboy Bebop, and practice electric and upright bass, electric guitar, and harmonica
>making a clutch move to change my major to music composition despite only having played for ten months but being somewhat accomplished despite the short amount of time
>have a vast network of musician frens from playing out in public who support my endeavors but they're not in university with me
>struggle to make frens with people my own age
>only guys who regularly hang out with me is a Chad senior and graduate student who have been helping me practice by jamming with me
>other people barely notice me or just brush me off, I consider most people I interact with to just be annoying acquaintances who are only buddy buddy when it's convenient
>hate most people and myself
>literally in love with Emily Remler and fantasize about her all the time, but she died of heart failure years ago
>no woman will ever be Emily Remler

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I'm poor but i'm actually pretty happy.
I hate the world for mutilating my genitaila though.

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Been really into early Collins era Genesis, Amon Duul II, Popol Vuh, Faust, and the new Sandy Alex G recently.

Not doing too great though. Been struggling with health issues after a severe illness the past couple years. Mental health is not great. Trying to finally graduate college despite being 25. Friends have been distant recently. Like we'll hang out and then they won't respond to my messages for days at a time.

Took me like 2 years but I finally came to the conclusion that Lonesome Crowded West is indeed their best album (IMO).

Been slacking a lot
Barely done anything school OR music related though when it comes to the latter, I listen to music non-stop. But that hardly counts as doing something.

Been considering adapting the generic gamer girl aesthetic but then reminded myself that I'm not retarded. Or not that retarded, at least.

Either way. Still proud about completing the Bloodhound Gang Challenge
Here's the listening report from that week
last.fm/user/Sugarpaw/listening-report/year/2019/week/36

I can sorta relate. Never had severe acne but since I know how much it sucks to have some, I can imagine your pain. Hope it gets better soon.

Very nice to hear something positive on this board for once.
What kinda job?
Also, Emergency&I is awesome, but I never really got into their other stuff. Do you have any experience with the rest of their discography?

Being an optimist is pretty much a superpower no matter which way you look at it. Whatever the outcome is, I really hope you guys sort it out peacefully.

Frens are overrated. As long as you have a couple of close ones, you'll be in great shape.
Hating yourself or anything in general will never get you anywhere so you should think about changing your approach to life.
Maybe you can try remaking ITAOTS but replace Anne Frank with Emily Remler? Just spitballing, ukno

>imagine being born male in the US

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Accutane did nothing for me, I got onto epiduo forte and it was working for me after a few weeks. But I had a three day stretch where I didn't use it and my acne came back with a vengeance. It's only starting to diminish again

going through this too, used to be pretty enough for girls to eye. fuck genes, really.

>tfw you haven't had an album fit your mood in several months
feelsbadman. I changed universities and things are going well (at least on the surface) but ultimately I'm still an unhappy person deep down.

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here. It's an entry-level IT job, so remote support for internal users. The people I work with are nice and I've been doing well, but it's a contract position so I don't get benefits or PTO. it's really only for the year or so of experience to progress to something better.

E&I is my favorite album all-around but I still gotta check their other stuff. "Is terrified" was a pretty unique sounding record also, but I never felt compelled to give it another listen. I've got "Change" downloaded, which i've heard is much more mellow and introspective. The lyrics are my favorite part about E&I, so I'm looking forward to giving it a listen.

I also don't want to listen to depressing music, because I don't want to reenforce my negative feelings.

But sad music is the only kind that has ever truly resonated with me...

i recently got over a bout of depression and its coming back but i feel okay thanks for asking (:

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here

thank you :3 slacking is something you partly have to sit through, in my experience. there's generally a reason you're not engaging with things you should/want to. anything else going that could have you feeling this way?

Move back for the weed

Have you tried figuring out where that unhappiness stems from?

Wouldn't concentrate on things like looks too much myself (not that I'm good-looking). Doesn't really get you anywhere, just like with self loathing.

Not sure what you mean by this. Expressing your emotions is always important as far as I'm concerned.

The lyrics are hands down my favorite thing about DP too :)
I'll make sure to listen to it too, at some point, even though I already have. Guess I'll just put more thought into it or something.

Would be a shame if I came to visit again...
-depression

I know this might sound very cliche, but I feel like it's all because of writer's block. that's kind of a bullshit reason but I just can't write for shit right now so I just play CSGO and listen to music.

Tfw this is me at this point. I fucked up so hard picking at my acne when I was younger. The sad thing is I didn't know it would effect me later.

for me its long drive
something about the worse production and udder sadness and loneliness the album bleeds

do you have acne scars? try derma rolling and chemical peels

Yea, that's how I felt for a long time.
Here's how my fav Modest Mouse album changed over time
The first one I liked was Good News when I just discovered them
Then I started liking We Were Dead more
Then Long Drive started really growing on me
But now Lonesome Crowded West is my favorite

No opinion on Moon?
For me it was Moon
Then long drive
then lonesome and then back to long drive
and I generally don't enjoy their stuff after Good news

Yea, it's my opinion on Moon is just not. I've no opinion on it. It's pretty odd. I'm not sure if I like it or not, even after a dozen of listens. Feels like I simply don't care for it.

Does anyone have any thoughts on Belle & Sebastian? Feel like doing a B&S thread? 8)

Right now I'm optimistic but I can't shake the feeling of being a complete failure. I just turned 20 and all of the sudden everyone I meet is asking me what my life goals are, but I'm about to essentially restart uni, making me 2-3 years behind all of my peers who are already getting job offers for after college. I thought I knew what I wanted but after 2 years realized that it was just the field my parents were pushing me into but I have no interest in.
pic related is the music for this feel
very relatable. the past year or so has really numbed me, I just feel indifferent towards everybody else (besides family) and I just want to get the feeling of being close to someone back
I've been obsessed with Astral Weeks lately, I spent my summer sitting out in this hospital courtyard near my apartment, watching all the doctors and nurses coming and going from work listening to that and Moondance on repeat. Madame George makes it all ok
I'm changing universities as well, just finished my sophomore year and left it all behind. I got lucky initially as far as making "friends" but when I quit drinking and doing drugs they became really distant which fucked me up for a while. Any tips on making friends at a new school after a long stretch of being alone?

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I started a new job a week ago and I already want to give up
I feel like I'm trapped in some sort of purgatory in this shithole
I live in the "suburban" side of my city and its all just strip malls, gas stations and housing developments surrounded by nothing but cornfields
Its all just nothingness and everyone just waits for stuff to happen
I'm clearly not going to leave anytime soon but fuck getting comfortable sucks
I've been listening to The Power of Failing a lot lately

Whats holding you back from packing up and leaving? If nothing, then get up and go. The suburbs fucking suck.

I am definitely open to music recommendations if anyone else has been in such a mire before.

what do you normally listen to user? i recently found myself getting into some electronic and more ambient stuff in general. it doesn't really put me in a specific mood but it helps me kinda drift away for a bit which is sometimes just what i need

money
I'm keeping this job just to keep gas in my car and pay for rent on this shitty house

Hang out with other transfer students, they are in the exact same situation as you so you'll naturally draw to each other. Join clubs too, obviously.

I've made "friends" but I don't feel any particular social attraction to them.

I can't do derma rollong until my acne is fully clear. The microabrasions pop pimples and soread the pus. So I need to have it cleared up. Also, the recovery process is pretty long. From what i've seen and heard about 2 weeks. I need to really try and schedule those weeks so I don't miss work. Also, haven't looked into chemical peels yet.

can't you do those things anywhere else?

I just want a gf but at the same time I don't. There's this qt waitress at work that seems into me. I could easily go for it but I know I don't have have the ability or even will to try and maintain a relationship. I like to think I'm decent looking but I'm too anxious to express any personality beyond the husk of a man. I'm so lonely but used to it to the point of it almost being comfy. I want to change, I try to force confidence but it just doesn't feel like myself and just makes me feel worse in the end. Pic related btw

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>tfw lonely goblin
>tfw I know that I need to just lower my standards to be even remotely realistic
>but I'm a big baby so I won't

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I'm ok. It's been 2 years since the separation. I've lost contact with a lot of people and I don't socialize outside of work but I've needed the time to sort my life and my head out without distractions. Things are stable and chugging along smoothly now. Being alone is so much easier but I haven't worked out if it's better yet.

At the moment I'm ok with just fulfilling my responsibilities as best I can, living out my boring life and dieing alone.

I'm listening to Swans and Big Black.

I need to organize my life. I'm entering my late 20's and I got about 3 years to fix this shit before it gets really bad.

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I was thinking about that a lot lately. I really do one day want to live out northwest near the mountains or on the Florida gulf coast and I always dream about having fun playing in a band or something and just enjoying living

maybe that's what I need, maybe I should start my own band or something

dubs and I kill myself

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it didn't sound like there was much keeping you where you are
you have a job to pay the bills, but you can have one up there, can't you?
hope things work out for you dude
the pacific NW is a beautiful place

Suspecting I have schizoid personality disorder. but I'm fine.

I've applied to about 90 jobs in the past month, and heard back only 10. Every one of them has chosen to go with a different candidate or has filled the position already.
I have two degrees, a pre-law degree and a history one. I've been turned down for legal assistants and a host of clerical positions, even fucking secretarial work which pays 12/hr and requires you to have 4 years of experience where I live (wtf?)
I was supposed to come home for a year and work to save some cash for law school, but I can't find any work except at a call center or at a restaurant (what I did for all 4 years of college).
It's hard not to feel like I blew four years of university for nothing. I can't talk to my friends or respond to their messages because I feel like such a miserable failure. They've gradually stopped messaging me since I started down this hole 3-4 weeks ago and no one has contacted me in over a week.
I legitimately wake up every morning disappointed that I didn't die of a brain hemorrhage in my sleep

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Please just don't self-diagnose.
Go see a professional.
Best of luck to you, person who apparently doesn't listen to music.

>I can't talk to my friends or respond to their messages because I feel like such a miserable failure.
Dude, please don't hesitate to call them back or hit them back up. Trust me - a lot of them are going through the exact same shit, or worse.
Measuring yourself wholly by your success relative to your peers is a horrible and damaging mindset.

Ever thought about going into teaching user?

>suspecting
niga, lrn 2 comprehend. I have an appointment scheduled.

started my fall semester of community college with 15 units because i want to transfer out as soon as possible. i am so exhausted mentally/emotionally and i feel like i have to drop out for a semester like i did a year ago. i'm studying studio art which is so fucking stupid but i chose my major in a rush because i had no clue with what i wanted to do. i want to switch to anthropology because i learned i really love it but i don't know what college i should go to when the time comes.

i was broken up with last month because i had a pretty bad manic episode and i just have to address my toxicity towards others and how i deal with mental illness which is a necessary but grueling process. it's inevitable that i have to, but i wish it didn't take losing someone i love in the process.

i've just been listen to this a lot because i really like his stuff and it was something that got me excited for the first time in a while. listening to his whole discog in general has been nice for me too. i'm seeing him soon on this current tour so that's something too.

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rerolling, singles and I kill myself

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Life was going in rather unexciting fashion recently, though I did pick up kendo and that's been great. Though a friend of mine got in one hell of a messy situation lately; he was being led on by a friend who's not over me even though I'm in a steady relationship, but from information I've gathered I wasn't even her first option. It's just a really messy situation that's not gonna be solved anytime soon.

As for stuff I've been listening to, Snowing's I Could Do Whatever I Wanted If I Wanted is resonating oddly well, especially Could Be Better Forever.

Yeah, it would probably be more in line with doing something that I would like to do and I have a passion for helping other people. My state (NC) is one of the lowest for teacher pay in the country though (#47 out of 50) and least money spent per student (#49 out of 50).
High school teaching positions are also hard-fought over in social studies, because in a lot of places if you want to be a coach for a sport at a school, you gotta teach. History/Civics/Government studies are last on the list for funding/interest because schools live and die by Math/Science scores, even English is higher placed usually. Also need a teacher license + guidance first in the classroom for most public schools but I could maybe get into a private school if they are hard strapped for staff
I need to, yeah. My friend group has been open before with some of the personal issues that they all face, but at the same time almost everyone is either in a field making 40-50k right out of college, in a master's/phd program, or getting married/buying a house already. It's hard to feel like I'm on the same planet as them, let alone a similar field, when it seems that their lives are taking off every day.

dude, don't sweat it. be happy for them. that'll be you, soon

I’m slowly sliding into alcoholism but I’m fighting it off as much as I can. It’s just hard, life is so shit sometimes I just need something to forget for a bit, even though I know it’s bad. Somehow I feel like I’ll be okay eventually, even tho idk why. Pic related has been helping me a lot.

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About to start working retail and I'm terrified. I don't want to be on display all day but my family situation is getting volatile and I need to move out asap, no time to shop around for something comfier.
obviously pathetic virgin neckbeard who desperately wants to love like everyone else on 4channel.
Just really don't know what to do and scared to try anything.
Been listening to flying burrito brothers and jonathan richman.

Man I love that album, keep fighting because it will get better

been taking sketchy shits lately it has me thinking about mortality

Doing pretty good, I'm a wageslave who is working two jobs but one of the jobs i just drive and listen to music for 8 hours. I'm making a lot of money doing minimal work while jamming.

I'm really good with my gf right now, but my best friend at college is now studying abroad and I don't know anyone in my class, so I'm a bit lonely. Also I've having some family issues and may have to move. I don't think I relate to an specific album right now, but I've enjoying pic related a lot lately.
Happened to me the same, it just goes with time, so there's no reason to be worried.
Me too, but my problem is that I don't have friends to get high with.
Really happy for you. This album has been on repeat for me last month.
Good luck, dude. I hope you all can get your shit together and be happy just as when you start a relation.
Working just sucks the energy out of you. It's like each day is something bad.
I've always wanted a job like that.

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Fuck off blogposter

>been away
Stay away.

Faggot.

Nice blog faggot

Fuck off blog fag

first time i do this; I have diagnosed social anxiety and depression. I ditch most of my uni classes,but when i do go, i feel like death for days straight. Life's hard.
How does this board feel about daniel johnson?

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We like him, but you sound like a bitch. Go to class loser.

>we
Oh hi le Yea Forums spokesperson! See I didn't say spokesman, cuz, sexism...

If you can get a job in retail in your town, your town also probably has a union shop. Go become an apprentice. You get full time paid training for two years and then you become a journeyman and you make 17+ dollars an hour.

im a fan. sorry to hear that, i felt the same way soohomore and junior year, but i'm graduated now, somehow. there's hope. if you can, go to therapy. many colleges provide it free w/tuition

pretty good.
Living on a friends couch, helping with ultilities
paying off debt
trying to move to chicago at the end of the year
have a lady friend now who is great
my job allows me to play classic wow
couple of my friends weddings are coming up

pretty good. not really listening to anything rn though. Once I have my own place again