I am feeling suicidal. I'm supposed to meet with the psychiatrist tomorrow but I'm thinking of 'forgetting' about it to postpone. I'm worried if my mom wants to sit in the appointment and she hears something about my drug use or worse my case worker let's on that I've been having "schizophrenia" symptoms again and she finds out or the doctor tries to medicate me again. I wish I hadn't told my case worker and therapist as much as I did. What's some music for all the anxiety I have right now? I'm listening to pic related.
I am feeling suicidal...
David Lewis
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Ryan Long
Lift weights
Ayden Adams
Imagine being so privileged to even have the time or money to worry about that
Jace Reyes
Why did you put "schizophrenia" in quotation marks?
Julian Peterson
Because the gas lighting is real
Owen Davis
>mom sits in
jesus christ man up. you could just say to her if she goes in you won't be.
fuck living with your mother, i would rather be homeless
John Williams
Just listen to some Grouper and everything will hopefully end up alright. If not, life is shit anyways. You're right to be concerned about telling to much to therapists and psychiatrists, they don't care enough to actually sympathize and understand and will take the cheapest and easiest course of action to get you out of their hair, even if that means locking you up in a ward and making you someone else's problem. Don't tell them anything more.
Noah Watson
This. It's your life do whatever the fuck you want, if you don't want to go to the psychiatrist then don't, if you don't want to use meds then don't, just try to improve your mental health naturally and be happy with yourself, be independent, start reading, start lifting, I don't fucking know.
Nicholas Cox
>"I'm feeling suicidal, I have a drug problem, and I told my therapist things that made them concerned for my mental well-being... but don't worry, I'm a completely reliable narrator. It's my MOM that's the crazy one!"
Okay, kid.
Colton Edwards
How about you imagine every waking second being excruciating mental torture and having zero friends or relationships instead?
Matthew Peterson
Who said I have a drug problem? You must be one of them.
Yeah lifting is a good idea. I've been forced to take meds before though against my will legally
Charles Morgan
You're just a sheltered pussy. Grow the fuck up
Brandon Reyes
You dont know anything about me
Hudson Watson
That's called being privileged. Your retarded environment has ruined you and made you useless to society.
Ethan Harris
I got this way because of the work I did. Rec music or fuck off cause you cant shame me
Ryder Edwards
>Your retarded environment has ruined you and made you useless
Not much of a privilege then
Anthony Sullivan
OP, I think the best thing is just to submit and be totally open. Obviously I'm just some asshole online, but you need to kick drugs, and as long as you're being dishonest about your drug abuse, it's going to hinder your recovery.
As for the drugs, I would say be clear about your demands. Are you actually struggling with schizophrenia or bipolar disorder? If so, I would say work with people to find a medication that will help you through that stuff, but won't leave you out of it. Your goal should be to get back on track and clear-minded. Continuing down this path of mental illness and drug abuse is just going to lead to homelessness and misery.
You don't need a moment of inspiration. You need to develop new lasting habits, and a new self-image. You're going to need help and a new environment for that. Work with the tools you have and don't resist it.
And stop listening to Throbbing Gristle. You don't need that shit right now. Listen to something that will put you in touch with yourself.
Juan Powell
Grayson Martinez
Listen to some Sigur Ros
Joseph Scott
That album is gonna worsen your anxiety a lot user
Matthew Martinez
I'm off drugs. Cat Steven's is fine but that's shit my dad and loser thots from my high school listen to. I'm listening to the second annual report now. This music give me hope of a way forward by nature of it being industrial, especially the fact it was some of the first.
I'm probably not on enough drugs to get into this but it's cool I consider getting into it from time to time
Jaxon Harris
Fags
Alexander Taylor
hey shit for brains - unless someone holds you down and physically forces meds into your mouth, you dont have to take them. if thats happening & you've got money (sounds like you do) get a fucking lawyer.
Ryan Gray
Unless you are deemed to be a potential threat to yourself or others or are committing child abuse, doctor-patient confidentiality mandates that your psychiatrist cannot disclose anything you discuss to anyone else without your explicit permission. You have the right to refuse your mother's presence during the meeting and the psychiatrist has to oblige your request. If your doctor medicates you there is a good reason for that and you can and should clarify why. One of the aims of treatment is to keep you lucid enough so that you continue to have the capacity to be the boss of your own treatment plan.
Tyler Diaz
Listen to the ~night~. You dont fucking need every second listen to music.
Robert Ross
I have no money, and if I didn't let them inject the meds in my ass the police would arrest me and I would get held down and the have been times in my life when I was held down and injected with meds.
Jonathan Richardson
>hurrr mental illness isn't real, schizophrenia is a big pharma conspiracy
Seems like you're the one who needs to go outside and grow up, you dense cunt
Blake Phillips
I know all that. It just raises suspicion if I refuse to have her there if she wants to be and shes already suspicious cause I failed my last drug test for weed even though I haven't smoked since before May. My parents will kick me out if they think things are bad with drugs. Fuck it I'm probably just not gonna go. I dont want meds anyway so I dont need to see him and I'm not on a court order anymore so there's nothing to stop me from just postponing the appointment indefinitely. I feel like they only set up the appointment to try and trap me anyway since they knew I was acting weird in my appointments. From now on I'm gonna tell them all nothing. I just hope my mom forgets I mentioned the appointment the other day, I think she will though.
Owen Rivera
>times in my life when I was held down and injected with meds
might be time for some electroshock or a full labotomy if its got to that stage desu
Charles Richardson
I actually considered requesting electroshock to try to forget what's going on but from what I can tell it won't erase my long term memory