Post depressing music, preferably no lyrics

C'mon OP. Do you care about her? Why lie? How did it start?

Very nice, haven't heard of the first link. Will give them a listen.

youtube.com/watch?v=6B3YwcjQ_bU

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that's ok OP. No judgement here.
Is there any chance you can watch the lectures online/just learn from a textbook? when are your exams?

I do care about her. Man, first it started with just a few days, then it piled up, and now I'm stuck in a deep lie. Fucked myself for sure. I wanna pick up college again around my late 20's, I just have zero idea what I want to do. Right now I'm interested in being a radiologist, before that I was working towards audio engineering. I'm sure in a few months I'll change my mind again. I just can't function with routine, I'm always exploring something else. Master of none. But music production has been a constant since I could remember. Wish I could pursue it but what I want to do will never be commercially viable.

I've been so out of the loop with my classes that I have no idea what's going on. I'm planning on giving it another shot fall quarter. Reason I'm being defensive is because I know too well how critical things are here.

I love that track but it's a weird b-side and they haven't done much else like it. Placebo's catalog varies massively and a lot of it is shite.

Interesting, I guess I'd just call the common feeling in these tracks melancholy rather than sad or depressing. Maybe check this out
rickyeatacid.bandcamp.com/album/you-get-sick-you-regret-things-remastered

what classes do you do?

So listen, you will never be happy if you live for anyone else other than yourself. You might struggle for a while but that's what vocational/temporary/casual work is for, getting you by and serving your true passion. A true loving gf will actually be even more drawn to you if you're following your true passion and you're driven in that goal. If she left you because you weren't making enough money, I promise you this is her loss and her's alone. You will then meet someone drawn to your drive and you will be better for it. Women test and prod and try to deter us from our goals, but this is subconciously their way of seeing how resilient you are, and how good of a partner you are. If they see they cant topple you, they will see you as their ideal partner.

Follow your true passion user, everything else will in time fall into place.

Enjoy the music

and just to tack onto this, you can ALWAYS do the classes later when your head is more clear. university is not going anywhere but your drive and passion could waver. strike while the iron is hot my friend

Dude I know exactly how you feel. I was in the very same situation but I didn’t tell my parents or anyone. This feeling will rot you inside, it’s going to be hard but you have to say the truth. It’s the only way. A weight will be removed from you and everything will turn out ok.

this is good advice but I feel like you can both study at uni and pursue music
I mean you can even study music at uni

Currently doing audio engineering. Everything I've learned I can learn at home in literally a few days. Also found out audio engineering is pretty unforgiving and not liveable. Kinda flip flopping between a lot of things I want in my future. Whish I had the focus my cousins have, but then again, they're about 5 years older than me. I'll figure it out.

The OST to Synecdoche, New York has some of the most heart wrenching instrumental pieces I've ever heard.
youtube.com/watch?v=IOyCUz5zv9Y

If you count Buyer's Market as music, that's probably the most depressing album of all time.

My fucking negro, I’m listening to it too. We’re all little people :)

True. She isn't someone who would detest me doing music and finding a stable job on the side. Her view is caring about whatever I choose to do, as long as I can support myself. I'm not even lying because I'm scared she'll ditch me, I'm lying because I'm scared of how she'd react. In reality she would be a little mad and sad, but it won't make her leave me. Been dating her for almost four years and I honestly could see us staying together for four more years. Extremely adaptable to each other and love each other no matter what.

Yeah, I'd feel infinitely better if I just confess. Everyday you wake up the first thing you think of how everyone will hate you and that you're a loser. Eats me alive everyday. Just a matter of time till I gotta crumble.

Listened to buyers market once and thought it was a great audio documentary. Rare you hear about it in such an unfiltered collage. Barely made it through it.

are you interested in radiology the medical specialty or becoming a radiographer?
I don't think she'd care about you not going to your classes, sounds like she'd only care because she cares about you
you're going to be ok son

Remember yms praising it years ago, have been meaning to give it a watch.

I think you know what to do user. Don't be afraid of a bit of conflict because it's coming from a good place and she will understand, and like I said, if somehow she doesn't and disappears, then ok. I don't see that happening though, worst case she gets mad, storms off for a few days of no contact, and then she will return

all the best bud. good music taste too, I enjoyed what you posted originally

Specifically I wanna be those guys that scan your body and pass off that information to doctors. Seems like a comfy field of work. In dark rooms analyzing limbs. Every time I've had to get some scans done I've thought "damn, I wanna do this for a living." That's radiology, right? I honestly haven't done too much research into it.

Thanks for the advice user, I'll work it out.

If you're prone to existential dread or have a fear of dying, it'll fuck you up good. One of my favorite movies of all time.

more richard:
youtube.com/watch?v=HLrLjDTkicM
youtube.com/watch?v=amx8WROPQA8

radiographers do the imaging (e.g. actually take the chest X ray/CT scan or whatever), radiologists are doctors who interpret the findings and write a report
becoming a radiographer is a bit less hard I think, but usually they've seen enough X rays to see the pathology
definitely a cool thing to study man

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I'm thinking radiography then. I have a friend who's going to college for human biology. His mind is constantly thinking how something is reacting to something. So say I throw a shot of alcohol into a fire I'm thinking Harry Potter magic as the puff of flame emits. He's thinking how everything is interacting to make that reaction. It's a nice viewpoint to have.

Pissed up is definitely up there in my top favorite from him.

youtu.be/H6yPLpfaGQI

Should have been on the chosen lords release desu. 18 with my family from that soundcloud is like one of the most dance-able sad tracks ever.

cheephax is amazing too
youtube.com/watch?v=MTn3qmfYUgQ
youtube.com/watch?v=Dp5xki8Wzu4