Well Yea Forums I think this is it. I'm 29 years old, have no job and hardly any friends...

can I see your asshole and clitty?

I'm a dude. I'm getting a belt ready to hang myself with here.

You probably can get healthier, and possibly happier. Why now?

I know times are hard for you but people would miss you and be sad if you killed yourself. Wheen yourself off the booze, go outside for some air, walk and think about where you want to be not where you are. Then think how to get there. Take it all one step at a time. If college isn't an option look into learning a trade or becoming good at sales. Do something. You'll make it in the end

Spank your ass with it instead

no ones hiring, I've applied to so many places. at 29 I don't think I can really go back to college to get a degree in anything and make it in life. I'm living with family and it's just been getting worse. I'm bipolar and useless.

Nigga, don't do this shit. For fuck sake, even though you feel your life is shit, you have value. You can make someone happy, including yourself. Life is shit but holy fuck don't kill yourself, there has to be more potential in you. You are someone to be loved dude.

I planned on doing it at 20, since I had no drive in life. I feel like I'm living on borrowed time since then. I just feel bad for my best friend and my mom. they'll likely be hit hard by this. Should I leave a note? I was just going to kill myself with out leaving one.

I already have the belt around my neck and it doesn't feel wrong. My life is shit man, and nothing in it is going well for me. I'm somewhat attractive sure but I'm a fucking loser.

Take a deep breath. Let some anger and frustration out. Scream, box, hit a pillow, bang a bat against a tree. You could definitely still do college but I'd only do it for something that has a good outlook. If you like working with your hands at all aviation is always hiring. You can get entry level spots or go to trade for it. Mental illness now adays is an accessory people use to hand wave away any self growth. It takes work nobody is perfect but you can improve. Whether it be meds or therapy you gotta stay on top of it. I'm posative you can find something. Seriously take a moment to breath and quiet your mind try to meditate. Just close your eyes and only think of breathing.

I think I'm going to take all the benadryl I have, which is like upwards of 2 grams and hang myself off the canopy of my bed railing

Know this. Once you do this shit, that's it. You may be doing this for a sense of relief or peace, but you won't even be conscious to experience it. You will be done. Gone. But if consciousness exists on the other side, I'd be scared if I were you. No telling what you might see.

Your mom and those who care for you will never forgive you. I've had friends kill themselfs its an awful thing dont.

You're hot tho.. marry me

I will feel bad for my mom and my best friend. they're the only ones that really care about me. I know this will hit them hard, I just hope they can get through this life, even though I couldn't

i really recommend you dont do this, theres so much to life

Just take my advice and breath for a moment and clear your mind. I've never forgiven my friends who have killed themselfs.

This will make your mother suffer a fate greater than hell. She'll be alive, but in constant pain and grief, so by killing yourself, you're essentially taking her down with you.

i swear im not a preachy type of person, but i really do mean that theres so much to life. you can do the most wackiest shit with it. you have this one chance to experience existence before you go back to not existing.

go and drive away with your cash, find a cool mountain, then kill yourself. if youre going to do it anyways do something fun that seems impossible to a normal person and maybe you'll see there could be a small chance life is worth it. at least you'll do something crazy that you couldnt otherwise.

She still has my sister. I'm just a loser that never amounted to anything. I don't think theres a place for me anymore. My dad is getting sick of me living with him, he told me so today.

I guarantee things will get better. I was a chronic alcoholic for so long because I thought it’d take away my depression and anxiety. Not to mention the feeling of isolation I had. Try giving up drinking for a week and see how you feel. Give us just a week then you can do it if things don’t get better. When your sober you have more time for things and the alcohol doesn’t exasperated the mental fuckery going on. You will see a change I promise you that.

Family is who you meet along the way. And you will meet people who you call your family. Just have to give it a chance. Don’t give up. You don’t wanna miss what the future has in store. It’s gonna be sick.

im not kidding, do something right now if you want to. take the last of your cash and go to a parachute place, then kill yourself if you want to. drive to a new city, talk to random people, ask random people out or tell them theyre pretty. then, after that, kill yourself. you can do literally anything, with this, so please, go and experience something, maybe then you'll manage to experience a new thing. please keep living, you and i have one chance right now to experience whatever this thing we're perceiving is.

Welp, hope ya' don't off yourself. I'm out.

Holy shit fuckin chekd

I have stopped drinking, but the seizures haven't stopped. Just nothing is working for me and I don't think it's going to change anytime soon. I really do appreaciate you guys being nice here. I know thats not usually your MO. I used to love coming on Yea Forums when I was a teenager.

You probably have crappy neurotransmitters. Take 1000mg of Tryptophan every day for a month and see how you feel before you do anything drastic. It boosts serotonin. You can easily find this on Amazon. Helped me a ton. Better mood, sleep, and things do feel better. You got this!

Why don't you just change instead of continuing to be the way you are if it's making your life suck so much? Take responsibility and do something real about it instead of whining and expecting everything to just magically be better. Be a loser, fail, strive, struggle and suffer. Everyone does it. And then things change. That's the fucking point. Keep striving. Maybe eventually you'll really get tired of this pathetic bullshit and that hunger for something better will burn in you to the point you actually do something. Suicide is not doing anything that's just the same pity party you've been having your whole life but in a different way. You haven't been living honestly because if you have you would never give it up. Trying actually living for 1 day of your life.

>I just feel bad for my best friend and my mom.

Have you tried talking to any of them about how you feel? Maybe they can help you, at least to get professional help.

Don't do it buddy, you got a lot of life left to live, you don't know who might be right around the corner.
You've already recognised that friends are important. You can be better, you can keep going.

Man you guys are making me feel a bit better actually. Fuck. Thank you guys. I'm going to screencap/archive this to look back to if I reach this point again. I think I'll stick around to so what tomorrow brings. Thank you guys.

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I never thought Yea Forums would stop me from killing myself. Thank you guys. I really appreciate your input. Today has been hard.

Trust me, lots of us have been there. Life is worth it. Try something new, go somewhere new, meet new people.

> My dad is getting sick of me living with him, he told me so today.

I bet you my ass and my first-born son that he will be devastated if you take your life. Don't take anything said when angry or distressed as too literal, lots of people can't handle their feelings correctly.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Please, get help, you deserve to feel better.

OP you're cute. Don't take yourself away from all of us. Do you have any socials. I'd like to talk you out of this.

Fuck yeah! One day at a time man. That’s all any of us can ever do. I agree with what others have said too. Try to look into therapy but only if you want to. You also don’t have to settle with the first therapist you meet. Find one that works for you.

Life is more important then you know OP. There are people who care and love you for who you are. Never forget that. It's what's gotten me through several suicide attempts over the years myself.

thank you, I really appreciate what you've commented. I'll try to calm down and take it easy tonight.
thank you lol, I'm a dude that wishes he was a girl but thank you.
I'll see if I can get into therapy or something. I just got approved for health insurance by the state and got put on food stamps. The food stamps have helped a lot.
Thank you. Thank all of you, I think I might go out and get some cat food for my kitty and try to calm down.

Well I'd like to still chat with you in general because it seems like you could use more friends in general. Do you have Kik or anything?

tell you what OP :
you write down that you ll be an hero when you reach 33.
It is a nice number,Christ died 33 ,go on /x/ there is a ton of symbolism behind it - whatever.
33 is best for a great suicide.
in the mean time you may also try to rebuild a life - there are many ways.

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That's sweet of you, I don't have kik. I'm usually a happy person but tonight I really hit the wall. I'm diagnosed bipolar but I'm unmedicated.
I'll keep on keeping on as long as I can. I can't really guarantee I'll make it to 33 though. It is only 4 years, maybe I can

Well, do you have anything like it? Snap, discord, etc. I just genuinely think you need more friends in general. Also a fellow 29 year old here, I'll be 30 in August.

I'll 2nd this, 28 yr old still on the wage grind, but happy with myself.

If you need some people to talk with drop a discord or something. I'm playing something regularly after work.

OP STOP DONT HANG YOURSELF

It is NOT like it is in the movies, it is the MOST excruciatingly painful thing you can imagine and can take 10 minutes for you to die. Better options I recommend are inhaling helium, buy a helium tank, oxygen mask, and tube, put the helium on a low output (if you let the helium come out too fast/hard you'll get a burst lung and die painfully) and wear the mask and you'll simply pass out and go to sleep, no pain. Use argon if pure helium is unavailable. Helium/argon is inert and your brain dont know the difference between those gases and oxygen so you wont get that out of breath feeling.

Anyways get off the thread, if you don't I'll assume you're just a fucking pussy whos fishing for attention. All you'll find here are moralfags trying to convince you to continue living your shitty life, kill yourself, do it.

I used to have more friends but I feel like I'm not good at maintaining relationships. I feel like I always end up ghosting them or losing touch.
I do have a discord but I worry I'll get doxxed if I post it here

They've convinced me to live another day. I was set on doing so but their words cut deep.

Here I'll post mine so you can add me friend. Name#6888

Thats the spirit - I too have made me the 33 deal.
I had a rope that i used to look at almost daily but I kept repeating the 33 deal to myself .
It is now getting better - cut alcoholism , weed addiction , now got tobbaco addiction but i ll throw this fucker off sooner rather than latter.
I am an orphan - had a 3 year streak of not speaking to anyone.Since you have family speak to them - about anything.

It is extremely hard but one can only hope .
I am starting a business this month - if i stop wasting all my money on cigs enough to buy furniture.

First thing to do in my opinion is to start a Dream journal .
Your dreams speak to you and show you the way out .

LOL I called it, this was your plan all along you fucking faggot, you just wanted attention, you're nothing but a pathetic loser that fishes for attention online, go on faggot, run away, you'll kill yourself eventually because deep down you do realize you contribute nothing to society you worthless faggot. Saged btw, go kill yourself cunt.

Add i'll add you through them if they'd be so kind.

901235#2371

HER DISCORD TAG IS SashaStriker#3305