How you holdin' up, Yea Forums?

Listened to deathconsciousness for the first time. Waves of feels.

I feel empty.

youtube.com/watch?v=rRUgKCOWSTs

I graduate hs in 4 days
have no friends, no drivers license/car, no passions, no ideas, and even if i did its too late to sign up for fall classes anyway

Based.

I'm feeling ok, I know I'm going through a lot but it's all my fault so whatever, shit happens

Take it easy for a while and aim to move out in a few months, maybe enroll at college in the spring. If college isn't for you, just work a job till you get enough funds to move out. Welcome to outside

My dad had a heart attack yesterday and I couldn't look at him with all the tubes he had coming out of him without crying. Music for this feel?

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Unless you have the money now, spend a year working then go to college/a reputable technical institute and you can attend with less debt than everyone else.

I dont have any music for this feel but i hope both you and your dad feel better soon

DREAM ITS A YOUNG NIGGA DREAM YEAH
MONEY TALK LIKE IM CHARLIE SHEEN

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I feel awful. Time is going too fast. In a years time, I am going to be well and truly alone. I'm drinking every day. My peers are starting to resent me. I'm experiencing gender dysphoria and I'm not sure if it's genuine. I've always been a bit of a tomboy but now I identify with none of my feminine traits and I feel trapped. I'm not sure if it's genuine or if it's just because of the stress of the predicament I'm in right now. I have no future and I don't think I can cope any more. I'm losing it.

Could you elaborate on your dysphoria? Being a man isn't all it's cracked up to be, I can tell you that much.

Don't transition. You're gonna regret it.

I don't listen to music much these days and every attempt to make music is aborted pretty quickly. Video games and movies don't do anything for me. I've never had much motivation but it's getting worse.

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i'm doing pretty alright, can't complain. got my grades up so i'm pretty happy about that

wish I had some heroin

Exams are crushing me with stress. I haven't eaten properly and i almost fainted a couple days ago.
Listening to 80s city pop and some old funk.
It's a funky mental breakdown

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I'll fuck you. Make you feel like a real woman as you choke on my dick.

life sucks but w/e
at least i have friends

feels (the animal collective album), specifically daffy duck or loch raven.
you know that it's bad for you, please stop
other way around retard

I don't put my cock in poo holes, sorry.

I've been going crazy trying to find the right people to play music with, Since this time last year I've been through several dozen people: lots of flakes, dead ends, amateurs, and the few people I actually end up jamming with just aren't a good fit. I have been trying to "make it" as a musician for over 13 years and I'm ready to just give it up but my passion for music won't let me. I'm tired of spinning my wheels and having other people use me just to figure out the musicians life isn't for them. It's always family, jobs, or drugs they really like more but they won't admit it, then I get my time wasted on all these projects that have potential but go nowhere because the other person just stops giving a shit. I would love to meet someone with as much passion as I have but it's looking grim at this point.

Yea Forums is unironically all i have left. i hate how all other social sites feel so fake.

Where you located? Northeast by any chance?

Gross dude. Geez louise.

mahler symphony 9

pasta?

Southeast. My biggest problem that I've finally figured out is I need to MOVE out of this shitty mid-size city I'm in. I've ran the gamut with all the locals and my chances of getting lucky are very slim at this point. I'm planning on taking a road trip up to New England area, maybe I can hook up with some cool people there. Unfortunately I'm poor as fuck so it's extremely risky for me to move presently. Hopefully things change for the better soon.
Not pasta, I'm just extremely frustrated and needed to vent. I've been through 11 bands in the last 15-16 years. It's been a rough ride but the silver lining is that I've gained experience and skills throughout the years. This past year I've spent re-learning to love my instrument and buying new equipment for it and trying new things.

pretty fucking good. this year has been going really good.

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I DON'T WANT TO BE A WAGESLAVE
GOD I'VE BEEN DELAYING THIS BUT I HAVE TO BE ONE NOW
I DON'T WANT TO SPEND THE REST OF MY LIFE DOING THINGS FOR PEOPLE THAT WOULDN'T GIVE A FUCK IF I DIED

>Southeast
Yeah, I grew up in Texas and spent a lot of time in Louisiana, so I kinda know what you mean. People in the South just don't really have any sort of mentality about pushing music forward, just a lot of redundant buttrock, folk pop, alt metal and post-hardcore in my experience.
Right now I'm in Philly just doing my own stuff and planning to solo some open mics soon. There's a lot more random industrial and punk shit up here I can really get into.
Gl man. Lmk if you want my bandcamp to message me for any future collabs if you're in the area.

Funny you mention that because i've heard good things about Philly. But yeah people around here just want to be local stars, the music ranges from ok to spectacular but no one has the drive to leave town and be an actual serious working band. That's "selling out" and anathema, god forbid you actually try to do music as a career. I personally see no reason why you can't have both artistic integrity and make a career out of it simultaneously, it just takes extra work and you have to work concertedly with other people who share a the same vision.
Hopefully my shit-wagon can reach Philly so I can check out the scene, I'll leave my Soundcloud in case someone's interested - soundcloud.com/user-330233959

I deleted all 177 Facebook friends I had yesterday. Last week that number was 192, but they started deleting me when I began mentioning how I've spent the better part of the last four years misdiagnosed as schizophrenic because of the unlikely combination of:
-being friends with Taylor Swift in my youth
-having the music I wrote her from age 15-16 'make it' & find its way to labels with other artists covering my beats with their repetitive vocals that sort of actually feel washed out compared to my teen angst
-the podcast I worked on at age 23 with my Satanist friend from Florida was siphoned for content to start shows like BoJack Horseman, of which Will Arnett directly redoes one of my monologues in the intro of the show
-I have zero proof because my dad was a fucking anti-hoarder & would delete my personally recorded albums without so much as a mention or question

Oh yeah, I also developed PTSD so from age 16 to 28 I had forgotten Taylor & was a mad indie Yea Forums gent who posted here from 2005 until literally atm

>soundcloud.com/user-330233959
You're in Knoxville, don't a bunch of people from that area just hop right on over to Nashville to try their luck? Also, your stuff is pretty rock-oriented, I'd recommend collabing with a DJ or at least a punk/industrial vocalist to make any leeway on the East Coast. Right now it seems like something I'd hear out of Austin or Athens, GA.

hey I know how you feel. tomboy too, probably why we're here. one thing that has helped me is to totally stop drinking, now I smoke occasionally. just don't do anything rash, including transition. all you can do is be yourself. be kind to yourself and others.

>there are qt short haired tomboys browsing Yea Forums RIGHT NOW

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>don't a bunch of people from that area just hop right on over to Nashville to try their luck?
Maybe people that have more money than me, it's a good 2 1/2 hour boring ass drive. I've been there a few times and I've always gotten ghetto bad vibes from the city. I have no desire to move there and no idea how to meet people or where all the good clubs are at.
As far as my music all that stuff on my SC is old and I have a desire to do something different and new. I'll always love heavy music but I want to do something more vibrant with a more pop or worldbeat flavor. I'll just keep practicing my shit and getting better until the right person comes along.

Listening to youtube.com/watch?v=0k-kAG7lXR4

Trying to learn to draw. My life is in perspective. I'm making it.

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You can extend your NEETdom by donating plasma for cash money.

even this place has gotten pretty terrible. migration from the election has really shitted the boards up. a shame that reddit killed forums.

pic related issa me

the ability to earn fucking internet points on every social website has contributed as well. everything is a competition for widespread approval.

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this place has gotten pretty shit, but everything else has gotten even worse. that's how bad things have gotten.

give me one good reason to go outside as a friendless loser

Im ok

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this thread needs to have sex

Vitamin D