>be me
>weird kid entire childhood
>not autistic like some of you just really lonely and daydreamed a lot
>parents are nice and have decent music taste
>The Flaming Lips, Wilco, Beck, etc
>love to dance. love the robot noises in Yoshimi Battles The Pink Robots
>fast forward
>never really liked by girls until turned 17 and went through puberty
>latebloomer.gif
>get heartbroken by girl who didn't give a shit about me
>become really cold and uncaring
>getting really into IDM at the same time
>Aphex Twin, Venetian Snares
>Syro comes out and I listen to it over and over
>go to college
>make friends but still having a hard time
>girl living next door has a record player and flaming lips album
>isthisit???
>buy Syro in vinyl and play it for her
>"user this sounds like energetic elevator music"
>fuckyoufuckyoufuckyou
>meet coolgirl tm at party a few months later
>she is older than me and being really nice
>lowering my guard
>we kiss and she says that night she wants to date
>okay
>she makes me a playlist
>Laura Marling, Hand Habits, Lomelda, Mothers, Florist
>Can't show her what music I really like because she'll think I'm weird
>make her playlist with Bon Iver and Fleet Foxes and other mild indy shit
>tell her she has really good taste
>it works and move really fast
>6 months later and she's basically living with me
>always listening to Laura Marling or some woman strumming guitar and whining about how men are bad
>actually start to convince myself that I enjoy it
this is kind of rambling. cont?
Be me
I thought you said you weren't autistic
I don't care about your gay story
>i had such a hard time, i never wanted pussy then soon as i did i fell into it
>my life is so fucking hard
found the incel
Who are you quoting?
seems like you're enjoying it so I'll continue
>she starts getting really controlling
>pussy is good tho
>she's getting mad at me for little things to the point where I can barely speak without her getting angry
>withholds sex and uses it as a tool
>finally grow a pair and break up with her
>lots_of_rage.gif
>whatever
>listening to music by myself again
>put on Lomelda because I've been listening to that for over a year and a half
>realize it's bad. I don't hate it, its just that I realize I never liked it that much
>listening to RDJ again but I've also kindof outgrown my IDM phase
>need new music
>find Sweet Trip on randome Yea Forums chart somewhere
>wow that's really good
>find Yea Forums
>realize I've barely scratched the surface
>realize I've been letting random people in my life make me feel bad for what I like
>mfw now I let random people on the internet make me feel bad for what I like instead
thanks Yea Forums
I'm a kissless virgin with low self esteem and anxiety, I'm not an incel. If anything I'd identify as loveshy. I just want OP to realise how much of a normie he is
tl;dr
>I'm a kissless virgin with low self esteem and anxiety
bro thats what an incel is
Kind of a similar case. I think I’m gay... at least psychologically speaking. I’m unattractive and shy either way, but even if I wasn’t I’d probably still be a volcel. I seriously can’t picture myself being comfortable in a relationship with a guy or girl and I’ve never even felt any kind of crush or romantic attraction towards someone. It’s like the only thing I have is a purely physical attraction towards men.
Don't worry I'm not trying to be a part of your club
Maybe you have internalized homophobia and are repressing yourself? Or you're just aromantic and that's cool too faggot
>aromantic
God that sounds fucking awful. I guess that means I’m definitely dying alone.
Either way yeah, I don’t like gay culture and I find flamboyancy really unattractive, but I’m not physically repulsed by them or anything. And then gay sex sounds like a pain in the ass (no pun intended) with all the preparation and precautions you need to take.
jc stfu
I think there's going to be a new wave of queer identity. Gay culture is for drama club kids. There are a lot of people who either conform to the stupid glitter bullshit or just don't say anything because there isn't a community for them rn. The downside is that moving to a big city is still a prerequisite if you want to have any kind of unconventional lifestyle, but there is hope that you can be yourself and create a lifestyle that works.
>If anything I'd identify as loveshy
yeah and I'm broke because I'm moneyshy
>"user this sounds like energetic elevator music"
kek. should have married her. I like Aphex Twin but shes right, syro is shit.
the energetic elevator music sounds good though
I just feel way too straight for a gay guy. I’ve only ever had male friends and have never been sexually attracted to any of them, so the idea of “dating” a guy just sounds so fucking weird and foreign to me. Even as a 20-year-old who’s never even shown interest in a girl it seems like nobody including my family has ever suspected I might be gay; my hobbies, behavior, and mannerisms are just all what you’d expect from a typical awkward and shy straight male.
I'm not involuntarily celibate because I can't bring myself to volunteer myself.
in it's most sincere description an incel is just some dude who can't get laid because he's shy and anxious and all of that stuff when it comes to women. you can be an incel and not be misogynistic at the same time
I think there was a split in the incel community between incels and "love-shys" as incels became more "toxic". Love-shy applies to me more, but really I'm just an old school hopeless virgin that doesn't hate women that much. Also I'm not in any of those online communities, which is what I think incel really means.
You're welcome homie
>If anything I'd identify as loveshy
loveshy confirmed LGBT
This