Hello Yea Forums. I've never considered myself gay but I also know i'm not completely heterosexual...

guys, i only find girls romantically attractive, never had a gay experience and don't find masculine features and guy's faces attractive. i am turned on by gay porn with feminine guys where you can't see guy faces and i like penises (they don't directly turn me on but i like seeing them flopping around when a guy is getting fucked) but have zero interest in sucking one or getting fucked by one. am i just prison gay? because i am a virgin and a total loner

how easy is it to find someone to have gay sex with when you are quite ugly but not fat and only top?

sounds like you're really desperate for sex. A lot of dudes I knew when I was in highschool only had gay experiences because they were horny as hell. I don't think you're gay, user, but be careful or you might end up a turbo fag.

sounds like it would be pretty hard. Cast a wide net, maybe you'll find a submissive twink who just wants some dick.

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literally more than anything in my life i have just wanted to marry a girl and pump out like 7 children even now but my life took a turn for the worse a few years ago and i have been pretty socially isolated since. i feel like i am just lonely and guys seem the easiest. i have almost met up with some for a fap sesh but decided not to last minute. after i fap all the gay shit stops

can i have a quick rundown on what it's about?

Sounds like you had an idealized vision of the future you thought you wanted, but then realized how much effort it would've been to obtain it. Now you're just lonely, without a purpose, wondering what you're going to do with your life, and why you would want to do anything at all. You are bored, so you jerk off. You get turned on thinking about cocks and femboys getting fucked. Then you jerk off, cum, and feel ashamed at the site you have beholden.

You need to reflect on yourself, your life, and your choices. Reflect on your place in the world. Think about the world as it really is. Take some time to find yourself. It took me a long time to find myself and I came close to suicide many times, but eventually I found some solace in realization, maybe even partial enlightenment.

what helped you reach solace?

idk, just thinking about stuff a lot. When you've got a lot of free time to just think, sometimes you might wake up one morning and just have a realization about something, or sometimes you just feel at peace and you don't know why, and you just ride that peace like you're on a bus and you just missed your stop, so you gotta ride all the way around again.

I've been riding that bus a long time. My stop has come many times but I don't get off, because it doesn't matter whether I get off at my stop or stay on the bus. Life just goes on either way. I guess that's the realization that gave me solace; the fact that no matter what we do, it doesn't really matter even in our own lives. There are no good or bad choices; just the choices we make, and the outcomes that we have to live with.

This picture makes less sense each time I see it.
How the fuck can someone just cut their dick off like that

megagigafags don't feel pain, only hunger. Hunger for dicks.

what turns you on about guys in contrast to girls? how does an average sexual encounter happen and then play out?

What turns me on about women is their face, tits, ass, and lips. What turns me on about guys is simple; their cock. That's it. I think about men in two ways. The first way is someone I can respect, as a friend or as a coworker. Something like that.
The second way is as a human dildo that I can fuck or suck. Sometimes the two mesh together, sometimes they don't.

A typical encounter for me plays out like this: I know a guy, we get to know each other for a while, as friends. I kind of "test the waters" a bit. I can't really describe it, but I can basically tell when a guy is into that kind of stuff just by talking to him for a bit. Call it faggot's intuition idk. Then I start making little suggestions, very lowkey, to test the waters more. Eventually I lead THEM into it. I do it very carefully to make sure I don't directly suggest anything.

If they don't take the bait, I never bring it up again, we become normal friends. If they take the bait and go full in, I usually suck their cock or let them fuck me doggystyle. I never look them in the eye, I never let them manhandle me in any way. I'm what the gays would refer to as a "power bottom" in that I am in control the entire time. They fuck me, or I suck them off. I never fuck guys. Feels dirty to stick my dick into a man's ass. Disgusts me. I also never EVER kiss men.

Before I knew what the word "gay" or "sex" meant me and my best friend the same age as me used to do gay things for years without knowing it. looking back we were basically boyfriends. i think it's natural.

Same. I had this friend when I was 9 who I would also hike with. We would look at each other's dicks and touch each other all the time. Neither of us had a concept of homosexuality; we just did what felt good.

interesting. i would like to know some examples of you testing the waters if you don't mind. also do people in your life know of your bisexuality or do you keep it on the dl?

did you actually fuck though?

We were friends from around 4 or 5 years old all the way until we got to college then separated, even though he lives within 15 minutes of me still.

we would hang out all the time, he was my best friend across the street. it started off that whenever we had to take a piss, one of us would announce it and we would always enjoy pissing together. Parents thought it was normal to take baths together, and we would always love it and insist on it.

then we would sometimes kiss, and compliment each other's bodies and rub butts and stuff.

one day when we're playing video games, he tells me that we need to go to the bathroom that he needs to show me something. he pulls down my pants and starts sucking my dick. it felt so good it hurt and i had to stop. then i told him let me try it on him. i absolutely loved it.

the next time he comes over i ask him to do it again, and we keep doing it for a while. then we starts licking each other's asses and sucking each other's toes.

all of a sudden it stops. just because. we were young and had no idea. then puberty hits and we both never mention it again. the only time is when we both started masturbating and i noticed he masturbated anally one time.

one day he asked me if i remembered what we used to do. i acted confused and told him no. we both never mentioned it again.

his parents are extremely religious. i think he is just repressed and ashamed. now he has girlfriends and there is no sign of such anymore. i think he is ashamed yet attracted to me still so he avoids contact. i would definitely have sex with him if he asked.

and yes i am also romantically and sexually attracted to women also.

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KYS HOMO

i definitely repressed myself during puberty and high school too out of shame. even time i saw a guy in porn i would absolutely try to ignore it, even though i would get turned on seeing a naked guy

No one I know personally knows i'm bisexual, no. Except the guys I've fucked. Although they might think i'm full gay.
As for testing the waters, I can't really give examples since I do it on the fly. Basically you just kind of lead the conversation in a specific direction and see if you get any reaction. You gotta read their face and body language. I always get them one on one though. I can give an example that I did with one of my friends.
>"so man, got laid recently"
>nah, not really
>"man that sucks. Me neither. Kinda rough you know?"
>yeah
>"but you know, whatever"
A this point I analyse his body language to see if he was adjusting in his seat, fidgeting, seeing if his eyes were darting or if he was focused deep in thought. He was focused, like he was thinking
>"sometimes I think that maybe chicks are just too much trouble you know? You can't just be casual with them, like you can with guys"
>yeah, with girls it's always so tense. With guys you can just relax
At this point I've noticed that he isn't questioning anything i'm saying, despite the subtle hints, and the fact that if taken directly anyone can see what I was hinting at. Someone not considering it would've said something like "what do you mean" or "what's that suppose to mean". I pushed forward emboldened
>"sometimes I wish you could just do stuff with guys, but it's not like that"
I notice he adjusts in his seat, probably to hide his erection. Since he's considering it, subconsciously, his body is arousing him, and he's trying to be subtle about it. Noticing this, I decided to make one final push
>"have you ever thought about doing it with another guy?"
>I don't know, maybe
at this point i knew I had him, so I got bolder and just outright suggested that maybe we "try doing some stuff". This was about a year ago so my memory is a bit foggy, but that's the best example I can think of

>I'm not gay
>sucks dick

50% faggot

They are at a level of faggotry beyond most humans

has it ever backfired just when you think you are in the clear? also you mentioned you don't like to fuck guys, i assume you have tried before. how did that go down?

It has never backfired because I am very good at reading body language. I just "know" what to say and when to say it.
As for fucking guys; yeah I've done it a few times in the past. I don't like doing it. It feels dirty, having your dick in a man's ass. It just feels like I'm fucking a bunch of shit. Disgusts me. I can't do it. Also don't like when guys try to give me blowjobs because it feels disgusting looking at a man's face sucking my dick.

so do you just go for any guy friend who passes your fag test or do you have a type?

no type, but I avoid fat dudes and ugly ass motherfuckers. I'm not particularly into muscular guys.
as long as they don't have nasty looking dicks and they aren't fat and ugly. Also I don't like really confident guys because I feel like they are challenging me. Those guys I prefer to just be friends with because I can respect them.

how do you avoid your fuck buddy friends from interacting with the other people in your life?

>how do you avoid your fuck buddy friends from interacting with the other people in your life?
I don't. I just interact with them normally and they don't say anything because normal people don't talk about their sex lives randomly. I actually still hang out with two of the guys I use to fuck in highschool and they have met my friends/family multiple times and have been around them for years. No one suspects anything and they don't say anything, because there's no need to say anything.

Do ya swallow?