Well alright then, I will be heading to bed now
Waifu redux
night.
In a similar situation a few years ago I had no idea what I was doing, and had nothing to drive me forward.
It's amazing how many people say the same, they dont know what they want to do with their lives, and dont know how to figure that out.
I found the key is thinking about what you fantasize about doing, in dreams. Interpreting my own dreams has helped me figure out what I want so well especially lately.
Start keeping a dream journal it really helps.
i tend not to remember my dreams and the ones i do make me feel uncomfortable. being broke or being killed by a weird water bed monster thing dont seem like life goals.
You have to start trying to remember them. The more you try the more you will remember each night. I used to dream mabey once a few weeks, and now it's almost every night and they are very vivid.
Also their meaning gets clearer as well once you start trying, everyone head is different, but if you really think you will find patterns to the madness of them.
It's the same thing that the shamans did, in our ancient past, to figure out what to do. By inducing dreams and hallucinations they were interpreting their own subcontius. The subcontius mind is where your intuition comes from, and listening to it will show you where to find motivation and meaning.
mmmm i dont think i will find something like that from my dreams that i dont enjoy. it seems more like im trying to pull meaning from anywhere besides what i can actually think.
Meaning isnt something the material world can offer, having children is probanly the only thing that can give life meaning if you don't listen to what you truly want.
Also reoccurring nightmares usually mean there is something important youmare forgetting, or need to deal with.
It's ok if you don't think it will work, butmgive the dream journal a trynyounhave nothing to lose.
Also this isnt some spiritual mumbo jumbo, is basic psychology, dream interpretations was one of the things that was studied extensively by the Phycoanalists, like Carl Jung.
I dont know what I really want and kids dont sound like answer either. I dont think there is anything I knowingly want to deal with. It all just seems rather silly.
Most people dont analyze themselves and their deepest thoughts. So most of them just have kids and move on. But there are other things that can motivate you, you just need to listen to what your mind tells you.
And yeah it's silly, but life is silly as well.
Have a wonderfull day I have to get to class.
Also this song is fucking great