Were you ever molested?

Was raped when I was 14. Met a guy online to fuck me (gay), so already technically rape there though I sought it out, but when we met he took the condom off and I told him not to finish inside me, begged him over and over, but I wasn't big enough to fight him off, and he came inside me.

how long did the ordeal last? are you traumatized from it?

Sorry that happened to you user

I got really paranoid about sex, was afraid he gave me HIV, took me 2 years to work up the courage to go to planned parenthood and get tested anonymously. It tested negative, but I still get paranoid every now and then that it could have been a false negative. I have a very difficult time trusting anyone to date, and I've only had sex one time in the past 3 years, which I think is the last time I ever will in my life, because it was a much older guy (50s) and he did the same exact thing and came inside me, which has had me paranoid all over again about HIV. If I had felt the way I do about sex the way I do now back when I was 14, I most likely would have died a virgin with no regrets about it. I do want a romantic partner, but one that's ok with not having sex, or only very rarely, maybe sometime in the future I'll be over it, but right now I'm pretty fucked in the head about sex.

Thanks user.

holy shit that sucks. good luck user

Moms cousin liked sucking on me. Older cousin kept forcing me to suck on him so he could stick it in my ass. Older kid down the road raped me as well. An older girl took me to her house so she could do to me what her dad did to her. Aunty made me go down on her while she played with my balls. Happened multiple times and ended before the fifth grade

how did it begin with the older cousin?

>Are these 4 different instances?
What state did you grow up in? Also what did the older girl do? was it fingering/touching or did she climb on top of you and go all the way? Did it all stop in 5th grade? or just the aunty part

Yep. An older girl (not an adult) took me under the slide in her backyard and touched my dick when I was a little kid. Her mom and another adult were talking close by.

Guess that explains my exhibitionist and public sex fetish.

i had an account with a Jewish bank

I had a sexual relationship with my father that lasted 9 years and I enjoyed every minute of it.
No one knows but me, him and now anyone who reads this post.
(AMA if you want)

M ir F
When did it start
What did he do
Did mom know

Male or female and how old?

>M ir F
M
>When did it start
Started when I was 8, ended at 17
>What did he do
Over the years we pretty much ended up doing everything that wasn't too extreme (i.e. fisting). Although I was the one who initiated the first instance of sexual contact.
>Did mom know
No. Never did, never will.

When I was 8-9 or so I spent the night
with my grandmother (moms mom). I went to lay down in the guest bedroom and she came in to tuck me in. Then she reached under the covers and touched my dick and I was kinda shocked and said "what are you doing". She freaked out and left, came back and apologized, and I said ok I was just suprised everything is ok and she went to bed. I wanted her to do it again ffs

when I was 5 an older kid in my school threatened to slit my throat if I didn't do gay shit to him. When I finally told someone, he nearly burst my eardrum.

When he threatened to slit your throat, was he holding a knife? Did he have a knife at all?
Did he get arrested?

Older cousin bit lasted the longest. The girl rode me in first and i never saw her again. I moved away for the fifth grade. Never went back. Am 32 now

He didn't, but he'd brought knives to school before.
No idea what happened to him after that, I think he was expelled but no clue about legal action. Makes me want to hang myself whenever I think about it, along with other traumatic shit that happened in childhood.

For me probably not. Only memory I had someone touching me was when I was 10 and a pediatrician was doing a health exam on me. Touched my crotch lightly for like 10 seconds ended immediately after. Some days I wished she'd play with me more.

What is this from?

As a freshman a girl in 11th grade would rub my crotch with her foot under the desk. Called me her man several times. Would make me feel awkward by saying we were going to the prom.

bump, what anime is that?

No because I'm a Chad

not yet but I'm still holding out hope

I don't know, and that upsets me.

What, specifically, did he do to you? Go into as much graphic detail as you possibly can. Don't worry about being too wordy: describe absolutely everything no matter how insignificant it may seem.

"im trying to jerk off to this so please write me your sad porn horror story"

Jesus Im so sorry.

Youve had the worst luck man :(

why did it end at 17? Also did he try anal on you? if so how old were you when you first started and did you like it?

Have you tried not being a faggot? Men won't come unexpectedly in your ass when you are not being a faggot.

Have you gotten screened for PTSD?

>why did it end at 17?
He crashed into a tree and died.
>Also did he try anal on you?
Of course, it was a routine thing for us.
>if so how old were you when you first started and did you like it?
First time doing anal I was like 13 I think. Loved it.

How did you initiate
Did he an hero

Did you ever top him?

Story time?

>How did you initiate
Mom was gone for reasons I don't remember, think it might've been a business trip or a vacation or something? It was summer and I wasn't enrolled in any kind of camping trip or anything so I basically just stayed home all day with dad.
One night I just started feeling him up while we were playing video games and things kind of snowballed from there.
>Did he an hero
Nope. At least I don't think so. Car crashes would be a terribly inefficient way to kys, especially if you already own multiple guns.

On a few occasions but I wasn't crazy about it.

I was. My stepsister molested me for over 2 years. When i was 11 she started making me jerk off in front of her. eventually she started fingering my ass and calling me a faggot while i did it. I think she was molested by her father so she was taking it out on me.

Was she ugly?

When I was around 7-9 yo, an older friend convinced me (threated me) to suck him. Then some time later he (along with other friend) tried to penetrate me. AMA if you want.

How did you get past the mentality that this was wrong by society when growing up? Has it changed your views as an adult? and do you plan on continuing the tradition when you have kids?

Jungle de Ikou

18, pedo, and was never abused so there’s no excuse for it.

End me

Hahahaha

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>How did you get past the mentality that this was wrong by society when growing up?
It felt really normal for me for the majority of the time. Sometime around the age of 16, I knew it wasn't normal but didn't really care so much. I liked what we had going on and was totally OK with it. It was really nice, having that kind of a secret.
>Has it changed your views as an adult?
Yes. I'm quite skeptical of the idea that ALL sexual interactions between children and adults are inherently harmful to the children, having experienced those interactions firsthand. I still think child molestation is bad if the adult initiates or manipulates the child, because that's abusive, but I don't think consensual interactions should be so frowned upon.
>and do you plan on continuing the tradition when you have kids?
I don't plan on having kids at all.
If I do, I probably won't have sex with them because I'm not really attracted to kids. But who knows? If they initiate, I might not necessarily turn them down.

No but turned out to be a sociopath anyway. Imagine that.

>Be 12
>Used to hang out with cousins at my grandmother's house
>Male cousin not there
>Go to see female cousin at Filipino neighbors next door
>Only dad home
>rumor was that wife did martial arts and beat husband when drunk lol
>Cousin, half Latina half white, 14
>Two Asian lolis one about 6 one about 10
>Start talking about dirty stuff
>Cousin instigating things to go further
>nervous
>"we'll show you ours if you show us yours"
>They make fun of scrotum that i guess looks like only one ball
>Things get crazy
>Touching clits and small titty buds
>Get hard
>girls impressed with 4 inch weiner lol
>Try to fuck older one but don't know what I'm doing
>just sticks it in and swirls around like a cocktail straw
>Their brother comes home
>wack
>never mention it again
>Years later it turns out dad had touched them before
>cousin ends up gay

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Part 2

>Be 11
>go to camp for "troubled youth"
>Be autistic spazoid that makes mom wipe ass
>Can't wipe probably
>Bond with blonde twink camp counselor
>get him to wipe me
>he wants too
>washes me and plays with my balloon knot
>ends up rimming me
>wipes me every day for the week I'm at camp
>plays with me differently each time
>end up blowing him
>biggest dick and load I've ever seen even though he was probably 21
>go home and miss camp

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Part 3

>Be 13
>Walk with sister to her friends house because dangerous L.A. streets
>Hang out with friends older brother
>at least 25
>Watch Star Wars Episode 2 on cable
>movies over
>play soul calibur
>if you lose you jerk off
>slowly devolves into gay action
>He puts on gay porn
>we try the stuff in the video
>Too scared to take it in ass
>End up going home

>Be 18 or so
>See sisters friend at gas station
>he gives me ride
>He wants to give me head in car
>sure
>My dick has grown and he's horned out by the fact that he used to suck me when it was small
>feelsweirdman
>I leave

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Same, 20F. I hate myself

Part 4

>Be 10 or so
>With uncle's crazy Italian girlfriend at Trader Joe's parking lot
>asks me if I'm coming white yet or if it's clear still
>no clue what she means
>go to visit uncle days later
>playing shadows of the empire on 64
>she comes in wearing like a purple bathrobe that you can see through a little
>ask her what she meant by the cum
>acts like she doesn't know what I'm talking about
>uncle has to leave
>she makes ravioli lol
>she starts asking if I've seen tits before and shit like that
>only in magazines
>shows me hers and it's my first time really seeing any besides like pool accident nip slips
>she doesn't take it further than that but whack it to her for years

>still have a thing for older loud Italian women

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how much older was he? what exactly went down when he forced you to blow him?

self-loathing perverts make the most fun partners anons. it'll be okay.

Girlfriend was raped X00 times by step father when younger. She became dependent on boyfriends. Became my slave till I got bored. pic related

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You faggots will never stop surprising me

Probably 16-18. He told me something about not being my friend anymore if I didn't suck him. He was my "cool" friend so I didn't want to lose him I guess. He told me how to do it so I started to suck him for a couple of minutes. He didn't come.

Why didn't you get her to get ripped as fuck at the gym if you had such control over her

Only if you find another self loathing perv. It’s horrible having a gf and knowing you’re keeping this secret from her. From everyone.

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She slowly got more fat over the course of us dating and losing weight was the limit of her obedience. She also had psychosis and has been sent to multiple mental hospitals after she killed the neighbors rabbits, I could get her sent for multiple years if I told them the shit she did.

>another self loathing perv
perv, yes. self-loathing not necessarily.

I've got some shit I'm into but nothing is hotter than teasing/bullying somebody who cant deal with one forbidden kink that turns them on more than anything else.

did it continue after that? why didnt he finish

That’s one of my secret kinks. Plz bully me and make me cry about being such a horrible person.

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bump

I don't remember sucking him again after that. But who knows if my mind is hiding some memories if it. I guess he didn't finish because he was afraid he would get caught.

you're a fucked up excuse for a human and anybody in your life would be horrified to know what kind of pervert you are really are

Yeah so tell her to go to the gym or go the shrink

I'm married and I talked my wife into never having kids under the guise of "We can go on more vacations and the economy sucks for kids and we won't be able to raise them properly given the current circumstances" when in reality, I'm terrified I'll abuse them and I hate myself for it. :)

Between the ages of 5-16 I was used by cousins and I used friends etc for my needs,

what about the time with his friend. what happened then?

Do me next!!

Its just that easy!

which one are you user?

The 20F perv

Don't remember what lead to that. But we ended up in some abandoned place. I took off my pants and my older friend tried to penetrate my ass but couldn't. I guess he didn't know he had to first finger me at least. After he couldn't do it, my other friend (who was around my age) imitated him but ended rubbing his penis with my ass. I don't know if he (the younger one) was even hard. Dunno how much time passed, but I went home after that, afraid of the possibility that someone could have seen us.

Some time after that, I went to a place similar to it and got naked and peed. Dunno why. I remember getting a bit excited doing it.

Thankyouthankyouthankyou

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Nobody will ever love you after knowing what you did, and you should feel ashamed for even existing.

All you're good for now is getting men horny on the internet

Yup. I can't remember the exact age but I must have been around 6. Used to hang out with an older neighbor, in his teens. Made me suck his and his friend's cocks in his room a few times. One time when the whole neighborhood went to the beach he made me do it in the hammock while our families were inside the house.

I don't know exactly how it's affected me, but I'm worried it may have fucked me up. I'm really uncomfortable with sex in general, borderline asexual. I have to know someone really well before I feel comfortable having sex with them. I can't do one night stands at all, it's always awful

HAHAHAHAHAHA

anytime user.

there is a great time of your life coming up for you, user, when all your friends start to have kids. and you'll be at events with kids running around and everybody being happy and relaxed, knowing you are the only one there whose mind even strays in that direction. you are the only one that broken. You'll be so scared about where your eyes are going in case somebody suspects. Someone has to know, right? you have to be giving away some sign of what a monster you are underneath.

and then you get to go home,shamefully masturbate and fall asleep knowing that there is something fundamentally and unforgivably wrong with you.

Says the fucking faggot.

I would have given him the advice to become a priest but you know.....
Then he'd grow up to be like the men that had him.

Sorry to hear that, user. Have you considered terapy?

was it forced every time? what did he tell you to keep quiet and how did he get you alone for long enough?

No but I may or may not have had sex with a girl from 13-15 when I was 20-22

I already do that, I'm blushing now actually. I'm a sick fuck. Thank you

Yeah

based and checked

have you been asked to babysit yet? and had the thrill and horror of the decision you have to make, whether or not to risk being alone in a house with them for a night?

I have a best friend with a 12 year old brother. This friend has a swimming pool in her yard so I went over to swim a lot during the summer. As I was going inside, they only have one bathroom and so my friend told me to change in her parents room and as I was fully undressed, her brother walks in and sees all of me. It was hot, and it took a second for him to walk away. He's a bit more playful with me now, not in any sexual way, but I can tell he sees me differently now. I tease him and give him head pats sometimes and play fight with him.

I've told a few therapists about it but therapy hasn't really helped me much. Maybe I just need to find the right one. I really want to get better, I want to be able to have a normal sex life.

It wasn't "forced" I guess, he was just a lot older. When you're really young a teenager seems like an adult so you just do what they say.

I don't recall him saying anything about me keeping quiet. He treated it like another game we were playing, like the sort we would play around the neighborhood. I knew it felt weird / was "wrong" but like I said, but I don't know exactly why I never told anyone. Maybe I felt I would get in trouble for it just as much as him. I spent a lot of time out in the neighborhood and it was kind of a small community so it wasn't unusual for us to hang out by ourselves pretty often.

sounds like the perfect result for you. I guess we've found what you go home and shamefully touch yourself thinking about.

no but I forced myself on my 9 year old daughter

When I was around 7 or 8 my cousin would have me get naked and walk around like a girl. He'd grope me and pretend to have sex with me. Not really sure how far it went i think ive repressed a lot of this

That is correct. I'm pretty good looking in my opinion, and i do catch younger boys looking at me at my job in retail. It's a fun little playground. And now that schools starting, they come in wearing their cute athletic uniforms

was it a regular thing? did he make you swallow his and his friends cum?

what do you mean by pretend to have sex with you? how much older was he?

he would get naked too, bend me over, and basically dry hump me. i dont think he penetrated but he might have. he was 13 or 14 at the time

sounds like you might be a lot closer to actually going through with your fucked up fantasies than I realized at first. that's a whole other level of broken.

Tits? I wanna see what he saw

what would he tell you to make you agree to getting naked, groped, and humped?

he made it into a game and i was going along with it having fun and enjoying it at the time, it wasnt until after that i felt weird about it

It was pretty regular for a year or so I would guess, before I moved away. A lot of the time he actually wouldn't cum, but when he did it was in my mouth or in his hand. His friend was only there twice.

what about the time on the hammock? what happened that time? that must have been risky

Basically a few families in the neighborhood went for a trip one day at some beach shack. There was a hammock out on the porch facing the beach. We got in and he pulled the hammock closed so people couldn't see what we were doing. He said he wanted to "play" and pulled out his cock and told me to suck it, which I did for a few minutes. Some young girls about my age actually came around and asked us what we were doing in there and he told them to fuck off, basically. After they left we got out of the hammock.

Yeah, I'm a bit broken. These thoughts started when I was about 15. There's another part of me that just wants to care for the kids and be a mother figure. I'm a mommy Dom and I'm very nurturing. I just can't shake these urges. I need to keep them buried, because I know people would be devastated

did you ever object or question him about why? did he say or do anything while you sucked him off?

oh man, you're brutal

>Touched my crotch lightly for like 10 seconds ended immediately after. Some days I wished she'd play with me more.
What kind of thread did I just walk into?

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>misapplied mothering instinct

man you are in for some tough conversations when your partner wants kids

IS there a name for this episode

Yes, my dad would tickled my feet and fondled my chest when he was drunk.
I shamefully have feet and tickle kinks due to it.

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Still think this is part your fault. Stupid thing to do, invited some fucking stranger to fuck you, then complaining that he didn't do it how you wanted it.

yes

>be 7years old
>go to public pool
>no father
>man sees me alone and plays with my dick and balls
>block memory
>resurfaces 20 years later

Then stop dating older men fucking retard

>Still think this is part your fault. Stupid thing to do, invited some fucking stranger to fuck you, then complaining that he didn't do it how you wanted it.

Not OP, but a friend I've known since middle-school fucked me and said his condom broke, so I gave him the one I was wearing then that broke so we just raw-dogged. I think he knew they would break because we only had vaseline as lube.

>fucking retard
Stop being a douche

Stop being a faggot

>faggot
You can leave if you're gonna act like that.

youtu.be/54EjQOvmsfA

Fuck off back to

>fuck off pedo

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Dilate

story? how did it happen? how did she react?