Hey Yea Forums.... I turn 29 in a few days so hear my story... I grew up completely unloved. My mother was literally a psychopath who psychologically tortured me until I literally threw her down the stairs and stopped on her face and went outside only to turn my self in and laugh from the back of the cop car as she was taken out on stretcher... I was more just viciously screaming "Ha" than laughing. Every single relationship I have ever had has been extremely codependent and abusive... I know it's my fault because of the kind of women i am attracted to... most of my friends only acknowledge me when they want something... The few good ones are always busy and I don't blame them. But recently I reached a breaking point... I have pushed away everyone... I have nobody I can reach out to and that's by choice. Yea Forums I think I want to kill myself on my birthday. Things aren't particularly bad in my life right now I literally just don't want to live anymore, good or bad. I have a fifth of whisky and a bottle of xans I jacked from one of my dealer buddies a while ago. maybe it will be the last thing I post here and I'm sorry for rambling and getting a little too sentimental for my own liking but I just wanted the last ppl I might talk to know what the mean to me...
I always considered this place the closest thing to a "family" I have, sad as that may be... I don't know if I'd have bothered getting as far as I did if I didn't have the stupid cancerous and cringey shit y'all post... OP loves you faggots.
You're still young man. Just go to therapy, you can sort yourself out if you put in the effort.
Juan Hernandez
Bottoms up OP, BUTT CHUG the 1/5 for maximum efficiency
Ethan Nguyen
Nah... I tried all that for a decade.. When you have borderline personality disorder on top of antisocial personality disorder nobody can do shit for you. I'm just tired of never feeling human.
Jaxon Miller
Meet new people, go out, explore, don't get too attached here, god speed user.
Carson Robinson
Just neck yourself, best thing really
Dylan Sullivan
"Paramedics found the subject with a tube stuck up his rectal cavity and an empty prescription bottle near his corpse" 8/10 way to die will seriously consider.
been there done that. I was way more attached to this place in my teen years. Nowadays I'm mostly just apthetic about everything.
too cliche' I wanna die with at least a little style but I don't wanna go on a rampage because I've ruined enough lives with my life already :)
Owen Gonzalez
Anyway. I'm mildly drunk and probably gonna go pass out. Thanks to anyone that listened to my rambling. -user
Michael Wright
Be creative then dummy, you come on here basically e begging for sympathy, you're a fuckin pathetic low life who makes up shit for attention, just get rid
Charles Moore
you don't have to feel human user thats what they tell the fuckin psychos to do, especially when you can be more than human
