All these threads; no depressed thread

Depressed
Suicidal
Self harm
Pretty much because I was abused as a child and raped
Go to therapy and have a big titty gf but still want to fucking an hero

Want to talk about it? Want advice? Either way, that sucks man, sorry to hear it.

I suppose I do but at the moment I'm stuck feeling sick of talking I just want it all gone it's fucking endless just don't see a point really

The person that meant everything to me stopped trying. I apparently meant less and less. I don't know why I let myself become vulnerable. She was my first relationship.

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I started dating someone in high school and they became the entire reason i got out of bed in the morning. after we graduated things were perfect, we both got jobs and moved in together. money was never a problem but we were both saving up for guns and other nice shit. I actually started saving money for a ring and was gonna propose on their birthday this year, it was gonna be the happiest day of my life.

Then they just walked out.
A few months later I caught back up with him and he's struggling to get by but refuses to talk about why he left. He's just scraping by and avoiding homelessness, despite my offering him a place to stay countless times.

The person i trusted and loved the most in this world stabbed me in the back through my heart and then just left. I've seen counselors about it and one actually suggested suicide. I probably am on his birthday this year with the ring in my hands.

Life in general..cant get a gun or id off myself

No real friends, I mostly just exist in a group of people me and my buddy created that includes people we got acquainted with over the past 4-5 years.
Nobody likes me because I say things how they really are, am paranoid and full of insecurities that I make jokes out of and people use them against me.
Had a crush on a really good friend, tried my best to act nice and help her, got labelled a creep and stalker due to this, she fucked my best friend when she broke up with her ex, claims that we are still close but whenever we are together in a place she just ignores me.
People in my group started hating her for her shitty behaviour about 6 months ago but she got back in because she fucked my buddy.
Stuck in a dead end call center job that at least pays somewhat ok but everything I do is sleep and work, months go by like this.
I know that I'm no one's first choice in anything, got depressed and started eating a lot of junk food, got fat and don't feel motivated enough to do anything.

Everything that's wrong with my life is a byproduct of my own dumb ass decisions.
I don't have a job because I never went looking for one when I was young.
I've had girlfriends, but they all leave or cheat on me because I'm not good enough.
College is fucking stupid because I'm fucking stupid.
I'm super fucking lonely because I scare everyone away.
I'm sad because I fuck my own life up.

Dont do it friend. Talk to us and consider all you have to life for.

get a job where you can user, just not fast food. try retail and learn a cash register, move up from there and take all the opportunities you can

i know i should move on but every time i think about him i feel physical pain in my chest. nothing i do will make it go away except waiting a few hours. i've felt it almost every day since and i just want this nightmare to end.
there's a lot more to it and too much to post here but he literally was my life. without him i have no purpose and nothing i do brings me joy or happiness anymore.

Im depressed because never wants to ride my juicy dick.

Try to find someone new that's the first step, at least then you can sort out your feelings a little bit better but be up front with them entirely

im really trying man, but people on grindr just wanna fuck and i cant go to bars. the few people i have tried to meet have been great but i just haven't been able to pry myself out of the mindset that "they're not him and never will be" and that pushes them away

Because I'm a 39 year old virgin.
Ask me anything.

Or suggest how can I stop being a virgin.

OP here; I guess I'll fill you in on my situation.
I moved all the way across the country to get away from my problems with my hometown, moved away from my life long friends, and my family. I went somewhere I thought would fill this pit inside my stomach, I got to where I was going and became homeless because my ex still apparently had my bank account info. I reported it to the police, and they said that she left the country so the best they can do is wait for her to get back. I had to sell all my shit so I could get a hotel for a few days and figure shit out, the job that I was offered in the new state blew me off and didn't return my emails or phone-calls, and I spent the last of my money on a greyhound back to my home state. Now I'm living with my 75 year old dad and 74 year old mom. I feel like such a worthless piece of shit. I got a shitty job working at a wage cuck job even though I have my masters in god damn Business for Christs sake and I can't even find a good fucking job. I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately, and recently have started using Yea Forums again as a means to cope. Last time I was here was 2015.
I'm glad you /bros haven't changed much. I wish you all well in life. Never move out of your hometown unless you have everything set in place to do so.

To tell you the truth, some pern in your spleen may actually help you out. I'm not advocating you go out and screw everyone in a 3 mile radius but the emotions that come from that may help. That or you find a way to try to fix things.

fuck op, that's a tough one. i don't have the life experience or resources to be able to help you but i wish you luck.
how old are you by chance?

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Nah man, don't blame yourself.
You did good, you took risks.
That's what it means to be a man.
Life decided to give you a bad hand.
This sucks, but it's not your fault.
Hang in there man, you are better than most of us here.
Hell, you even had sex and a shot at a normal life.
And even at your lowest you aren't a neet.
That's commendable my dude.
So stay strong friend, things will turn out good.
Stay safe bro.

I hate working. I want to be free like a bird. I dont have live in family house so all my income is gonna go to my rent. I want to raise my frequencies and be enlighment

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Mid 30's parents had me in their 40's. Thank you, user. Life's a bitch but you have to keep going I guess.

i tried that at first but afterwards i always cry and get depressed. feeling his embrace around me for years is hardwired into my brain and when someone else does it i just feel wrong. it feels like im cheating even though we 100% aren't together anymore

him taking my virginity and staying with me for the better part of a decade really skewed my sense of reality and despite my best efforts idk if ill ever be able to look at life with the same blissful happiness i once did, and that thought has been more damaging to my psyche than him leaving in the first place

thanks for letting me vent to you user

Neets are not enlightened.
You shouldn't be a wage slave but neet is even worse.

Jesus Christ was real.they just use him as a figure head to keep people in line. People are misinterpreting jesus christ teaching

What is neet ?

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Not in Education, Employment or Training
N.E.E.T.
The worst.

Well ghe government education system is bad. Through meditation you can get download to your consciousness mind.

never understand why people stay in these types of relationships

read this book called "guilt, shame, and anxiety" by peter breggin. It will transform you.

Because there's something fundamentally wrong with me.

Have never been able to overcome the deep scars from childhood emotional and psychological abuse by my mother

No friends, and my future seems fucked.

read a book called "the natural" by richard ruina cover to cover and learn the basics of dating game. Then head to meetup.com and go to any random meetup, approach any female, after some conversation, invite her somewhere that week.

There's a lot you need to learn. It will be like learning a new language.

I lost so.many friends.in death and the other ones I havmt hate me now...my daughter started calling some.other fool dad my family disowned me.when I was 15 and I drink myself to sleep everynight

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I was depressed. Yesterday I realized it's the end, it's over. The relief that comes with that realisation can't even be put into words.

>weened off anti depressants a year ago
>last month decide to take 6 40mg prozac pills just because
>I knew they wouldnt get me high I just found them
>I know I'm a tard

I have never felt this terrible, and I have had some serious dope withdrawals.

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also my vision is shaky, and my brain isnt thinking thoughts clearly or for very long

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Heroin?

Aaah, dude idk. You think learning a language/reading a book will land you girls? Ah dude, idk.
I lost my virginity to a chick in the psych ward. She just wanted to fuck you know. Was with her for 6 months.
Why not instead of reading a book you work out, groom n stuff. Then talk to ppl.
My psychiatrist says just talk to ppl.

All my friends and people I hung around losers and wasted best years with people with no goals . Since they are all drink drug users I distance myself from them. Antisocial as fuck. Got stabbed by a friend of mine in my heart. who was beating guys girlfriend and I intervened . Almost died and now sell on how bad I want to shoot him in his face. he's also my neighbor. Love in a shithole small town where everyone moved away because it sucks . Have dreams and goals I can't obtain because I'm debilitated by depression and anxiety. L is friends and family to suicide. Only thing that keeps me from doing it is it would hurt my parents and I have a dog that I couldn't leave behind .oh and my ex is dating a friend of mine and now I about all my friends because they don't see any issue because it's not them . Wish I could burn them all with gas

both

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12 months clean off everything tho

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Oh, okay. I only asked 'cause it's something I've got a shit ton experience with. H, I mean (oldfag here).
Psych drugs never helped or hurt me so I don't get that. Tried most of them, they just didn't do anything at all.

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I'm depressed because my wife is an opioid addict. I have a son I know for a fact she was taking pills during pregnancy with. Luckily no retard signs yet and hes almost two. Thought we were over the addiction so she's preggo again. Come to find,out she took a 1000% interest loan and is on pills again. Compound this with the fact I cant go a night without a pint of popov. Had to ask my dad who I hate for a loan just to pay rent. Trying to go to school at 28 but im literally retarded and have to cheat to pass. The only thing that keeps me from hanging myself is the thought of my kids growing up knowing their dad was a pussy and took the easy way out

Marry me

no faggot unless you're a girl then maybe we can work something out
Pic?
>no trannys either

stay strong user.
Ween yourself off the liquor if u quit cold turkey you'll go straight back.
Try half a pint tomorrow night easier said than done

if you care about your kids, divorce her now.
right now.
this takes priority over alcoholism imo

10 years from now when she divorces you and brainwashes them you will be nearly 40, and have to start over.

Divorce now, and the kids wont be affected by the divorce and with her addiction you could get full custody right away.

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I don't post pic. Girl 25yo. You?

i work a 9 - 5 nurse job every day. my wife is slowly pushing me away and is already asking for 3somes with our friend (male) but wont do it with another female. Today we had a big fight and she had a panic/anxiety attack and instead of calling me she called our friend. i found her sleeping on the couch. i begged her to go lay down in bed. im currently in the office fixing to lay down myself. i don't smoke but im fixing to leave this shit hole for one. I just wanted us to be happy i have worked my ass for her and everything. it's never enough her mental instability is killing me. i don't have the courage to leave. We are married with kids and animals. 6 -7 years. my family would seriously disapprove and i have decided today to just stop eating. i will continue to drink fluids regularly but being called fat and disgusting can take a toll on your health. I'm only 20 pounds over my usual weight of 140. Not really fat but fuck it she wants me to look like an african might as well. I can't kill myself i no longer think that way. if i lost her and my family and nursing i'd off myself tho. anyway i know my punctuation and grammar is fucking dogshit its cause i woke up at 6 am and haven't slept in a long ass time and i don't plan on sleeping much or eating much. i just want a smoke...

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keep calm and carry on user.
you will find the right path eventually.

fuck user if no one else will ill say it
i love you, you got this. Seek help

ah these things happen user. Nothing insane. you'll grieve but itll pass

finds out that i've autism and gf cheated on me
shitty job that i can barely handle and making a living off

I just realized I read you op wrong. Hang in there /bro/. Don't know what that feels like or what can help though. Hopefully it's something you'll get over quickly. Prozac shit I mean. Fucking pharmaceuticals...

DO what this user said. Before it's too late. (it's never too late but you can do this)

this will hurt you, eat at least an apple per day and maybe a salad. Fluids like coke still make you fat, so just drink water.

>Divorce now, and the kids wont be affected by the divorce and with her addiction you could get full custody right away.
Never trust a court of law if you're a man. And the only way the kids won't be affected is if you find a new wife to raise them

drinking powerade right now. that's all im gonna fucking do tho /bro/ thanks for looking out for me

i am trying to hurt myself just not in an obvious way to anyonne

It can only help. If you don't know the rules of a game, you might just wonder around and waste a bunch of time. But will you win it?

You can work out and have a healthy and muscular body. You can have conversation endlessly with people all the time. But are you getting laid? Are you making love? Are you developing meaningful relationships?

If you don't know what you're doing, you'll never succeed or it may take years to get even a tiny bit further. To win a game, you have to learn the rules.

This man speaks truth as well. COURTS LOVE TO FAVOR MOM's
it sucks but its true
->C'est la vie

I need to go to 7/11 and apply for a job. I dropped out of collage and wanted to do much more. I'm 21. I haven't with to a job interview since a job scam with sailing knifes. It was gay. Its been raining few the past few days hard. I miss the sun.

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If you want to do this the right way, you should start eating up to 500 kcal below your regular intake. But if you do want to fast, zero calories is MUCH better than just a few, specially from carbs

Je suis en arrêt de travail pour 6 semaines . J'ai pas de scolarité. J'ai pas de copain. Je parle pas vraiment a ma famille. J'habite seule avec mon chat et j'ai pas d'argent. J'ai toujours envie de mourir.

he's 28 not 38

My gf of 2 years cheated on me 3 days ago. Haven't left my house or eaten anything since then. Was hospitalized 5 years ago to stop me killing myself and I can feel that same hopelessness again now. Don't know what to do Yea Forumsros..

she's probably been cheating for a lot longer than that. she only got caught 3 days ago.

what to do? Don't trust hoes. Get out there and date another chick as fast as you humanly can. It will feel weird talking to other women, but you have no choice.

i'm not. denial's a wonderful thing.

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> this is really hurting you

she's sadistic and enjoys being in the position of power and to be the one telling you what to do while kicking your ass to the curb.

I can't stand bitches like this. It's one thing to just admit she's a cock-gargling cunt and took another dick shortly after she started dating you. It's another for her to walk all over you.

This is the nature of females. At some point you will learn that if you hand a woman a gun and point the gun at your face, she will fucking shoot. Never trust whores.

> 6 -7 years

that's nothing. If you are unhappy, leave. It's that simple.