Hi b ill get straight to the point

Why do you want to die?

dont dear love dont hurt yourself i would be sad and feel guilty where u live wanna come and talk discord skype ts i have it all listen to music that make u fell better than u are better and u can progress with your life onve again and become everything

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why do you want to die?

no i havent
im going to opening up my arm and just cut the veins and let it bleed out

i stuck my dick in crazy and now i cant see my kid anymore

No stream? Fuck off.

Useless, come back after you change your mind about streaming

Damn attempting to kill myself never got me this much poon. Times are a changing I suppose.

i tired
i tried to make it work but it was never enough

nope sorry

its what got me here in the first place haha

>nope sorry
So go and die right now, enough attention whoring already

in a day or so

death like that is painful, slow and bloody. you dont want this. not like this anyway

i read you bleed out in 4-5 minutes and lose consciousness
i also will be high and buzzed

jw.org/en/bible-teachings/questions/suicidal-thoughts-want-to-die/

>4-5 minutes
Read again

How old is your kid? What is so bad that you want to kill yourself over it?

I'm more interested in this point tbh

Die now you coward, you will pussy out anyway

gotta cut the arteries you failure

ig hoohrasengan

Well, if we can't talk you out of it I suppose good luck and let it be quick and painless, like going to sleep and the paramedics don't find you fast
Good luck handsome prince and sweet dreams

Not worth it b/ro. Stick around and make people's lives a living hell. Its better than offing yourself any day.

add me chat with me OP, Im here for u

you just dont talk about your story if you're serious about suicide. Thats not how it works.

theres not a rulebook to offing yourself

You can't see your kid anymore? Then wait, wait until you can. Wait for the moment you can make your child proud of who you are. There is more than enough time after to make up for it. It's just a matter of if you love your child enough to wait it out.

Dont do it plz man. I know life sucks and im just a fag on Yea Forums but bro please dont

Not op but I wouldn't be surprised your mental state before suicide to be a little fuzzy, sadness and happiness, rolled into one, not giving a shit anymore and not taking things seriously

Sometimes you just want some kind of connection, mang

its ok
this is just one of those lives that cant go on
i dont know

im not sure where

i wont give my exact age but im around 30
late 20s early 30s

im cutting something

thank you
i hope its painless and quick too

i had a really adorable son with the cutest laugh
but i cant see him anymore
you know those moments in movies and tv when something wonderful happens and the background fades to black
thats what it felt like the frist time i picked him up in the hospital
i felt so relaxed
he'll be ok he's cute and got loving grandparents
i wont be leaving him a letter casue tis better he forgets about me

OP pls text me. I know it seems too late but I’m here for you brotha. Please consider.
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Shotgun to the head is the best way to off yourself idiot

>tis better he forgets about me
Don't worry he will

OP what medias do u have? skype ? discord? add me +56981768633 on whatsapp, zuxilukas on skype, bewox!#0286 on discord

I'm up to at least hear your story. If you're set on killing yourself, someone on the internet can't do much about it.

i dont want to voice chat right now
my roommates are home

i just want someone to understand me a little bit
to hear my side of the story

its better that he forgets me
but i got to say it was great while it lasted
i actually got to know that i could take care of a kid

How old is your child

>to hear my side of the story
Then tell us, asshole

I wanna ram my cock up your ass

I hope it because of real reasons and not because of a girl.

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Dude don't be so selfish, fight for your kid. Your dad didn't do this to you, why do you hate your kid so much to hurt him this way? Don't kill yourself, you should feel like a jerk for even threatening it

cant get access to fire arms
i had a 5150 against me

i just hope that he knows that his dad loves him no matter what
he wont remember me cause he's still really young but when he gets older i really hope he at least knows that his dad does love him

Just get on with the story dipshit.And killing yourself is for morons.

If his dad really loved him, his dad would be there for him when he becomes an adult

hey bro... we can work it out together, we can get ur son back ok? I help u out man, my fathers a lawyer, Ive seen many of those cases and yes it sucks some woman are fucking whores... there is a hope for ur sleep that isnt in death itself.. we are all gonna die so wouldnt u like to stay on this boat with us for a bit? live a last adventure with me, with no efforts, just mentally sleep from now on even when awake, and no more pain, and get ur son backs! we can do eet! I know u tried and failed! but dont try anymore! we are here for u now ok? we deal with it now, I already posted my contact infos

dont want to voice chat
roommates are home

i stuck my dick in crazy
she got pregnant really early on the relationship
slowly within the first few months the things she said or promised were lies and never true
i wanted to break up but i stayed for the kid
and slowly she started talking to her ex and i wanted to break up and told my parents this
but no and that was the end of it
i stayed until she cheated on me with a coworker who lives a few minutes away
she cheated on me the morning we were going to see my parents

What do you think he will think when he is old enough to realise that his dad killed himself? Does killing yourself show your child that you love him? Show him you love him by being there for him when he needs you.

Kys faggot nigger lmaooooooo

i cant really win in court now that i have a 5150 against me

no its ok, we can chat only no need for voice chat... add me ok? I wont tell u to not do it if it bothers u ok? we are here for u

we don’t have to voice chat brotha. just text if that’s what you’re comfortable with

Lol, if you want to kill yourself that means you dont care about your son.

story is here i guess you're right
i have a friend whos dad did the same thing but i dont know the reasoning and he turned out great actually

the thing is i wished i had realized i shouldve just broke it off and got a lawyer without the support and against what people said to do
but i chose the no lawyer route so it wouldnt be mess but now shes looking for a lawyer apprently

Kill yourself to let a bitch win? Be a man, grow some balls.

What the fuck happened to this board.

Forgetting you say, forgetting seems to be your favorite word. Let's back up a bit and look at what you're saying. Does the saying "Ignorance is bliss" involve any kind of love? Does this stand for not knowing how much your biological father loved you is good? Him being ignorant of your love does not involve any kind of positive influence. Him being able to see you when he can decide on his own, now that's a different story.

Probably best to not kill yourself, since you're here reaching out for help.
Drowning is also the most painless way to go.

So you got someone knocked up and now want to kill yourself instead of leaving her? Custody battles exist. They're totally a thing. If shes lying, and cheating, she's providing an unfit environment for raising a child. And it sounds like you have parental support. Judges love taking babies away from irresponsible mothers and awarding sole custody to the childs grandparents. And in scenarios like that, usually the childs other parent does most of the heavy lifting anyways. You can also get restraining orders, all kinds of legal recourse for a situation like this.

yes you can, that could actually even help u out a bit. Hear us out, contact us, we help u out and we destroy that whore together, and recover ur son. Also remember in this era almost everyone has a 5150 on themselves basically so dont feel the weight of it on you either ure not crazy lets fck em up, share a bit of ur hell with her without hurting ur son, and save him

You nuts?

Drowning?

I'd understand putting head on a rails, shooting yourself in the head, tying string around neck, putting head in a 10 ton press, jumping from 100 meter bridge, even fucking freezing to death.

But fucking drowning?

Hey man, I dont know if you already have someone to talk to, but if not I'll just give u my discord. I wanted to off myself yesterday and still kind of do so I understand u bro

brah if you want a thread full of AN HERO FAGGOT go back to 2008. We are nice now :3

thank you
i just feel so stupid for believing her lies
the worst is i told my mom the cheating and everything
she just said so and lectured me about women
didnt tell my dad his health is not doing well
but i implied my heart wasnt doing so well
he just said
>need to see a doctor?
>gotta keep up with your health
>well if you're hungry just give me a call im gonig out
and i just sat there on the couch thought the past decade our families relationship got better
i hsouldve left for the army when i was 18

I dont have a kid and havnt been the happiest person in life, but I can tell you I lost my dad at a young age. And if he truly made you happy you need to stick around for him so he doesn't go down a dark rode either man. Offing yourself wont do any good for anyone. If the reason you cant see him is because of someone else you need to stickaround and fight it. Your happiness is what matters. Fuck everyone else. Stay alive for your son b/ro.

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So what, you made a mistake. You won't be away from your kid forever

cry more

i actually dont have parental support
and she lives with her parents who are the main driving force for keeping the kid
he's never slept over at my place with just me before sicne the break up
another lie was he can sleep over after he's 1
he's now 2 and the only time i can see him if going over to the grandparents house

Well, keyword is painless.
There's still a slight bit of pain with almost all of those involved. However once your lungs fill with water you pass out and there is no pain, you just kind of drown. You really gotta have shit all to lose.

its ok
he's young enough to not remember me
and thats probably a good thing for him

I know the situation sucks but it doesnt have to. I know having to go to court and all that shit is like.. worthless.. one imagines we would have a perfect love life with a precious family right? and it breaks apart and becomes hell and wed rather fall asleep and its perfectly fine like... its ur decision to kys or not dont feel guilty about it either... its ok but.. what Im saying is it doesnt have to be that way, yeah life isnt like the movies about love etcetera but its so complex and wide that even this situation itself u are living now can become just a comfy sleep without having to kill urself or fail... almost everything in our realities is made by our minds, shared intertwining, and what Im saying is, we will destroy that whore and get ur precious love life back, build a way better story, without u having to worry once anymore! ok? from now on never suffer anymore! and everything will go well too! You talked about moments in a movie when something is so precious everything blacks out yeah? but have u ever seen those movies that have the best plot and everything goes to hell at one point but then it makes a beautiful story? life is more like that... let us help u through, hold the hand of this shithole part of the internet, filled with insane people, but trust us and we will help u so u dont have to feel anymore without offing urself... it gonna be ok.. everything gonna be ok, dont struggle anymore ok?

And how do her parents feel about you staying in the childs life?

too many ppl killed themselves, it made a strong anti suicide chain cant go back now

>a slight bit of pain
>you pass out and there is no pain
What the fuck am I reading

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just want someone to hear my story
i have almost drowned before
its not painless at all

if you can escape and leave without any attachments behind
i say give it a try before killing yourself
that was my plan to run away but i dont really have the will or strength anymore

I am a fatherless bastard. He left when I was 11 months old. I don't remember him, and yeah it stuck with me for a while, but his absence didn't really affect my upbringing even though my mother is a diagnosed sociopath. I look back at it now like the cherry on top of a shitty cake rather than the source of all my problems in life.

tl;dr he left to save himself and I survived. your kid might too. I'm 28 now, and I understand why he left. It took some time but I "get it" now. He'll probably feel the same way, worst case scenario.

>putting head on a rails, shooting yourself in the head, tying string around neck, putting head in a 10 ton press, jumping from 100 meter bridge, even fucking freezing to death

All them bad boys got some pain involved.
You can ask someone who was rescued from drowning, they probably were only terrified but it wasn't painful.

contact us too

Drowning = suffocating. I'm actually having a hard time deciding if I wanted to suffocate or burn to death.

There are countless better ways to die.

My personal favourite is putting head in some heavy machinery, with enough speed and force to just... splat head. Instagone, there is not even time for some remnants of consciousness like in beheading.

in all seriousness he's better off forgeting about me
after i started realized this relationship is fucked i became addictedt o drugs
im not into heroin or anything just lots of weed and alcohol

did you ever get into contact with your dad?
thats good to hear

Even if it's ok to let him forget you, please continue talking. The main reason I'm talking here is that I wish I had a dad that loved me. My mother's father killed himself when she was 4 and to be honest she's missing something as well even though she didn't know him. How well do you know that friend that doesn't have a father? I think I might know him better, or in any case, he's not the only possible outcome :)

man poor kid is gonna have to live with the fact that his coward dad killed himself instead of living on and setting a good example. i could see him being socially awkward, maybe a shut in. he says to himself that depression is in his blood or that its his fault that his dad killed himself. the cycle continues. fuck moms that take kids away from their dads.

I love it when loads of people suggest you add them on instant messengers or social media but then don't post their information. Its literally like they wanted to feel like they are being good people without actually being good people or doing the right thing.

she cheated on me and i cant do aynthing about it
haha
you know i kind of realize now over the past few weeks why my brother and sister are fucked up and smoked alot of weed
it was just shitty parenting
at no point in my moms life did she defend her children over others at all
that could explain my we all do drugs

we talked about it briefly before hand and a few months ago i asked him did it have anything negative effect on your life
did at any point you miss him or wish he was here?
he said no it turned out pretty good but couldve been better

yeah dude when we fall in love we trust our couples, it sucks because some people are whores but even if u didnt trust her she would have still fucked u up somehow. You have to keep on trusting ur couples, just dont go to whores anymore man.. its not ur fault, its not gonna happen again, it happens to everyone so dont feel guilty ok? and ur dad loves u so much, its just people are complex mind-wise, if u told him straightforward what u feel he will react differently, its because we are so different and multi dimensional, he was possibly just distracted or didnt want to acknowledge ur pain subconsciously because it hurts him so much.

Look dont worry about those, they are super specific things, its not ur fault man.. we all know u tried ur best, imagine if u were a crazy paranoid boyfriend wouldnt it have been just as bad? and dont worry it wont happen again! we will be here for u this time, u have to use all ur potential as human and be able to rest from now on! also who cares that she cheated on u, who cares what people think, do u really wanna be someone who cares about what other ppl think? do u really care about someone so whorish and that she cheated on u? or even being a single father, is it really that shameful to u? do u really wanna teach ur son to care about what ppl think, that if he is a single father he sucks and that if he is cheated on its his fault? You know it man, you are here on Yea Forums, ppl are always gonna judge us and look weird at us even if we do everything right, whores gonna be whores always and we dont give a fuck cuz we are Yea Forums, and if we have a son with no mother we raise him up as a nerd weeaboo and play with him for as long as we can. We have all been there man, we share ur pain, so come join us now, get a little bit crazier and dont fucking kill urself faggot, just stop all that gives u pain and change ur world without even one once of effort, do it for us, we are trying our bests for u too, oh and welcome to the crazies club

Its a little hard to forget about your dad when you hear he killed himself when you are 12. If anything, your kid will probably think he wasnt worth living for by you. Your logic is not fair as it only is a thought to make the suicide easier and more acceptable for yourself.

That's what surprised me about this on fucking Yea Forums. Oh look at me, I'm doing good. Ha, sure. Every single faggot in here does not give a single fuck if OP actually does it. They just want to feel good.

>pretty good but couldve been better
There you have your answer.

What if one day when your kid becomes an adult he will have no where to turn to and would have to be homeless and depressed. You owe it to him to be there to help him when he might need you. You brought him into this world now BE THERE FOR HIM GOD DAMN IT

Isn't helping always selfish? So why is this different? Being selfish is a good thing from time to time :)

no he isnt. would u prefer a drogadict father or a father who killed himself? Would u have let ur father die if he would have been the worst father ever?... Your son loves u, I can tell... You dont need to fight anymore, you dont need to live either.. just know you dont need to keep on suffering either way, and literally DONT. Do drugs do alcohol kill people who cares, but we want YOU to live. For ur son. Also its kinda cool to have a druggie dad if u look it like I did. Man also.. even if u are the worst father, even just 1 thing could help him forever, LOOK life is really complex, its not a one dimensional pathway, just staph... u are a good dad, u are just about to kill urself because u love ur son so much arent u? So just... trust us, u being alive will make him very happy, he will be so happy and u will both be together for such a long time, enjoying many adventures and silly stuff, fights, so many things... and if u die Im sure u will find a way to make it right for him too but just dont do it fagget it still not ur time and who knows what happens after death just enjoy the ride a bit more have some spaggethers kidnap him for lulz idk get JAILED but enjoy this weird af videogame called life if u wanna!

buuuu there're already two guys like u check the catalog!

But he wont forget you, even if hes too young to know, he'll eventually find out what happened through family or whoever and it will destroy him. He could go down the same road you are and that a lot of people are and kill himself. And I highly doubt you'd want that after reading what you've described.

You sound like most of my friends from the service, weed and booze isn't the worse thing in the world. Shit happens my man. Life gets hard, and itll fuck you. But you gotta stick around fuck it back man. I promise the longterm will be worth it.

Straight up though, you should take a few nights to relax, especially if your'e fucked up. I've about put a few rounds through my head but I lock my shit up then go pass out when I get too wasted.

bro it ok... we gonna work it out together, we help u out with em moneys even

stfu faggot everyone has the right to off themselves its our life

It's in certain way even worse than DO AN HERO FAGGOT. It's empty. It's like selfies from instagram bitches with poor people and raising "awareness". Oooh, look at me, I'm helping without actually doing something, like providing the fucking contact info.

This. See this? Yeah, sure.

jw.org/en/publications/magazines/g201404/go-on-living-why/

Man please, don’t do it
Read this please

maybe because we are samefagging this whole thread up u fucking retard, I posted my contact info and started posting apart from the contact info

Where can I contact u?

the thing is i went through her messages and they were all very supportive in every single way

he's less than 3 years old
he wont remember

I have no sympathy for you, fucking do it bitch. Just do it, no one will miss you. Your pathetic and worthless, you will die and only be a nusense to people because now they have to pay for your funeral; pretend they gave a fuck about you because its moraly ethical. You will be gone and within a few years forgotten just another suicide statistic. I hope as you bleed out you regret everything and want to live, yet you still die. I hope that there is an afterlife just so you can be raped by demon cocks for the rest of eternity. Fuck you you peice of shit.
Carve my get into your body or put it into your note you faggot.

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.l.

but he didnt miss him thats the good part

doubt it
they're already having me removed off the birth certificate

hey may not remember now, but he will when he hears about it when he is older.

no u cant do anything about that itself... but u can live on and meet a super better qt waifu who is younger and very lovely, fuck her ass every day and have fun... u can become so many things from now on, be that person who suffered his whole life and became a fucking sociopath yeah... those persons are what used to fill Yea Forums before and its why I loved this subforum so much, stop thinking there is anything wrong about that, yeah most of us have also had terrible shit happen to us but who cares life isnt like movies just fucking go on with the story have some fun, you dont need to make ur son suffer, it doesnt have to be like what u hate, everything can be changed, EVERYTHING, even is the past is just relative to our perspective of it, fucking take the rails of this life and fuck it up some more, the world need those kind of ppl, tell ur fathers how shitty they were, even if it was only to go out ONCE more with ur child, just to see him grow up, to see him have a gf and mock him about it, who cares if u become a murderer even, if you just get to see him ONCE more, isnt it enough to just have some fun around until it happens? and u dont need to wait bruh just... count on us, I posted my medias up there, we help u out man, we get ur son back, make ur dreams come true no matter how impossible

no i dont want anyone to get anymore involved
i just want to know osmeone understands a little

doubtful
they'll sweep it under the rug
soon they'll restrict my parents access to him and he'll forget
they already are slowly

And then this faggot sends fucking Jehovah’s Witnesses article.

If anything would definitely convinced me to end it all, it's fucking this. Seriously?

why would anyone care about what ppl think of them in an anonymous board u fucking retard. Some people care, some people have lost friends to suicide, kys fagget

Why tho?

I would crawl over broken glass to taste that pussy

fucking faggot what do u know, Im not rich but Im trying my best to become a millionare and Im giving my best to help out this faggot (OP), wtf do u know about ppl man u are just an angsty teen, my contact is up there I already posted it thats why I didnt post it again its hoohrasengan IG, zuxilukas SKYPE, +56981768633, ddos me try to hack me IDGAF some people are not like u u fucking retard kys already

IG hoohrasengan skype zuxilukas whatsapp +5698178633 discord bewox!#0286

Fukken lold. Suicide would be the better choice between it and becoming a JW by far lmao they're an absolute embarassment, not just for christianity but humanity in general. Seriously, they're some of the most bitter and joyless people on this planet its a surprise they haven't all committed mass suicide in the name of their god.

yeah look, we have been through that, some people are perverted as fuck, they know all the mind tricks to cheat, but from now on it will never happen to u again, u will from now on notice whatever is going on without becoming a paranoid fuck, everything is gonna be fine I promise.

Theres the old Yea Forums

i started coming to b in 2010 from wow guild member
i have to say there was a time when it was great for me around like 2015
i found a hobby/sport i was actually good that and it was great
i actually was good at it

this to some extent too ya

the birth certificate doesnt matter, even if he wasnt ur child genetically who cares just fucking be there for him u love him its ur son work it out we help u out no effort go ahead rock this world

Is this you in the picture?

we do understand and just contact us already bruh we will always be here for u

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you know the worst part is i dont really care for a funeral
just kind of dump me in a ditch or use me as a cadaver

are u gonna really live by this worlds laws? are u gonna really bow down to them and not achieve whatever seems impossible to u? is that what a dad would do?

I doubt your doubt bro. Not even a joke. People find shit out regardless.

One of my buddies, he was adopted and had zero records of his biological parents. The fucker was army and had the IQ of a potato but he still found his biological dad not less than a few months ago.

The kid will eventually find out who you are. And I can guaran-fucken-tee he would rather find you blazed out of your mind with a beer in your hand than a fuckin tombstone.

I'd give the world to find my dad alive and drunk as hell instead of dead. If you love him the way you say you do you shouldn't do it

yeah I may as well kms too because of it

LOL

Bleeding to death brings chills at first and then it feels like a warm blanket covering you as you slowly drift off.

ikr

how many more of these stupid ass suicide posts are we gonna get? if these faggots actually followed through with it, maybe Yea Forums wouldn’t be littered with IG/PORN/FB/TRIBUTES. Damn faggots, they can’t even SUICIDE properly.

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everyone offing themselves what u gonna do bout it

OP thread seems to be dying but PM us, and before u go say bye at least

i wanted to take it to court asap but my parents advised me against it
saying they're offing this and that
but it was all lies
my mom gave my son's mom 2000 for his 1st birthday party
my friends said this cost 2000? more like 300-500
she had new accessories that weekend

they'll tell him im a piece of shit adn things of that sort
but thats ok
if he hates me he moves on quicker

we are here for u

Maybe he went to do it.

Fur fucks sake, you don't write on Yea Forums when you actually mean it, are you daft? This board is here for far too long. You either get real help on sucide prevention line (if you can write on Yea Forums, you can call a fucking number) or you do it.

Just. So.

one time i was looking after him and took this massive poop and after i was finish changing his diaper and washing his butt, i carrying him to bed he immediately fell asleep on my arm
i was like well im taking a nap now haha

he gets hit with a contagious laugh every so often
and its by random noises too
like the sound of taping on cardboard

And like any normal minded or bodied person he will base his opinion on actually meeting you and getting to know you.

Give him the chance to meet you and make his own opinion.

Fuck the haters and fuck what people say. He'll want to actually know the facts. Not bullshit. So meet him. Stick around bro

dude FUCK ur parents. They suck, they are worthless and are literally not parents, Im talking about a true FATHER, what would a true father do in ur eyes? bruh.. your story with ur parents is different than the one with ur son, it will develop differently and end differently, dont worry about it, but ur son needs u now, and I believe in u. Go against the world, go against ur parents and sanity, go against whatever u treasure most, without even sweating once, fall asleep awake for the rest of ur life, and enjoy even mid court against all the demons u see, it will be such a hell of a ride man, u have so much fun yet to have, just give it a shot, isnt life just as bad as death and just as attractive? this world is so wide man just walk around it comfortably, forget ur worries they are senseless anyways, everything is, we all gonna die in 100k years and there is nothing we can do about it, nobody knows what happens after death, so make this life ur canvas and fuck some people up, become a true Yea Forumstard stop being a faggot for once ffs OP, I feel u tho, I know ur pain, you are like a little child for us and we will take care of u, u dont need to be strong or to make efforts, Im just saying there is a really weird path u can take and it will be fun and work out somehow, Ive seen it, Ive lived it, life is weird as fuck man just live through and you will see

stfu u are stupid

hate to break it to you guys but not today
it'll be tomorrow night
roommates have a weird week off so they're up late and i cant just leave for a uber

I am so sickened by the fact that even ONE of you would encourage him to kill himself.

OP please seek help, you can live a long beautiful life.

u seem to love him a lot... that is really cute man, even when u are so young yourself

>The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
>Only a fool would take anything posted here as fact.

Yeah, because that's what the kid needs, a suicided bio dad.

dont do eet fagget ;_;

newfag

Honestly though OP, whatever your struggle is, it is not the end of the world. Use your struggle to work hard and come out ahead. If you do this, you're basically letting your tormentors win.

i thought about that
but i give up
im too tired to go on

im not a real dad
lets be honest im a drug addict

OP stream it or fuck off

/thread

u are a real dad, you already showed it enough

im not that young
i always had this strange feeling i would never make it to my 30s

just dont effort anymore man, take a sleep, it gonna be fine, we gonna be here for u from now on ok? we take care of it u just rest

(btw this is retardation central. Complete wrong place to ask for help)

wont be streaming it

bruh you young

what would u like to do if u could do anything in the world? where would u like to go? who would u share with? to what era would u go back to?

> Posts on /autism about want to die
>Won't stream it
Do you eleven know where you are?

my man, don't ever go negative. If you're going to commit suicide, do it in a way that will have you take another life. Why? Because, that way you'll have a legacy. Not through creation, but through destruction.

maybe in another time or another life
i picture coming home from a work trip and he's laying infront of my grandparents house on the lawn
i get out of the uber and stand over him and he lets out his little shriek when he gets excited
my grandpa sitting on the front porch and tells me i arrived early
and then tells me my grandma is making food
i carry him in and he's got this sticky milk smell but its nice

do you eleven know me fagget

Na na na this /retardation not /wholesome

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aw

Bro that's depression and normal to feel. The giving up part is easy. Feels like the quick fix, but its not worth it. If you've put up with this kind of shit nothing else is gonna keep you down.

You have literal strangers who give a shit about you on a board full of trolls and cunts. I know we're not much. But seriously. Dont let the depression and the tiredness drag you down.

Keep your kids heart in your mind

You fucking got this and you'll win over all the bullshit eventually.

Ps. Your not a drug addict if you smoke weed. Sounds like a boomer logic. Or a sheltered Christian ideal. People have done worse in life.

i go back in time to my childhood
the earlier time i remember being happy and not being beaten weekly was sometime before 6 casue it was before kindergardeten

there was this deli/store by my grandparents house
i remember my grandpa going up to the meat counter adn getting some stuff adn my grandma going to the veggie isle
and im checking out the candy and drinks
i remember the cardboard boxes that was used for display
and the little incline in the middle of the store

>the average year neck rope challenge is on the up
> Mind if I join you op?

Yeah exactly this just literally.. picture a impossible scenario that will never happen, something far beyond in the darkness of ur mind that shouldnt even be possible or exist, and let me tell u it can happen. It will happen ffs I promise u. Its because of how this reality works, its not like movies, it also means EVERYTHING is possible and most likely will happen. It can be soon even. May the skies hear us fucking thor or whoever.

this
it will come real, we will make it real for u fagget just live on eat some pizza watch some CP so many things yet to do.. and yeah if you off yourself you will surely do it in other world too but I will come there and fucking punch u cuz u left us here u fagget just live on ;_;

LETS GET U BACK THERE SHALL WE

if u live, make it happen fagget, I think u understand how to do it, I believe in u

no im a drug addict
i smoke weed from the moment i wake up to the moment i pass out each night

i have some photos on my phone
>wont be sharing sorry
but i take multiple pictures at a time cause you cant really line it up with a baby
he also likes to grab phones
so the photos are of him climbing infront of me trying to grab the phone
i manage to block him a littel and he sat down and had this angry look in one of the pictures
and the next one is him trying to get it again

grandparents are dead

live on contact us number up there

not roping still going to be using a razor blade

Don’t do it OP, everything in life is temporary, good and bad... don’t create a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

>sees kill my self thread
>Grabs the popcorn
>Looks for the like
> "Not streaming"
> Fuck it

a yes as everyone knows you use a like to get to a website

so what? its hard to explain what Im trying to say, but it can happen, u can go back to that somehow. I cant explain u how but its like... you getting back from work with ur child a little bit more grown up, and ur new wife receiving u, with a very nice meal, he goes hug u when u go there and he is veeery happy to see u, your mother and father are there and you have come to peace with them, u managed to understood them, u talk to ur child about ur grandparents and tell him u hope u all get to meet together in an afterlife, and start telling him spooky stories about death etc with maybe even a daughter by your side, then u all go sleep and u have some good sex with ur 10/10 qtpie

i heard that before
but im pretty much stuck for the next 18 years of my life trying to dance
its just hte realiztion that i shouldve done it myself
i guess i will now haha
there is no happy ending to this sadly

at least you saw it at the top

Where you from OP

you are a drug addict so what man... would u kill a drug addict? like do u really hate drug addicts that much like wtf man what if Im a drug addict would u really think I cant be a good father? Im way more than JUST a drug addict dude, just forget about what ppl told u theyre all faggots just look at the trending tab in youtube its full of shit and thats the general consensus for most viewed videos, its the same with knowledge and ideas ppl say and believe in stupid stuff life isnt that way kiddo just listen to me u are the greatest father even and nothing will change that even ur suicide

DONT DO EET

>slitting wrists
are you a literal 14 year old emo fag?
>wont stream it
>literally just seeking attention
Hopefully you'll go through with it, not likely seeing as how much of a fag you are

Not sy. That's not my name. Not an anime drawing. Not your bitch. Also just came minutes ago the biggest cum blot I've ever had (not including sprays). At least 3x3inch. That shit was nice.

i have in my mind the last thought or picture
its beautiful and its as it could have been
he's fat and climbs into my bed with me at night casue he's scared
but i remind him he had to go down the hall alone so he's not that scared

i have comforting thoughts
ill be ok
ill be better than i am now

Fuck that noise, just because you’ve heard doesn’t make it any less true OP... your kid needs you.
I smoke blunts every day, I use to be a massive coke head, we all emerge from darkness and so will you mate, no need for this

you will fail.
This is the word of God.

Look here my man, I understand that shit completely. But literally in the SAME logic it means everything is possible. Which means good can happen. Sometimes good is fucked up and doesn't seem good at the time. Maybe it takes time to ferment like a good ass mead, or liquor.

Reality often blows. But your not fuckin alone, stick around and drink and sleep more. It's what I do.

I love ya man.

No homo. But for real. Try and stick around yo. Somehow feel like I'll run into you at a bar eventually if you do.

Also hail the Gods, whichever one suits ya best brother.

Thank you. /B has come to.its Senses right then time to watch a kid tard rope jump

>be me
>be 21
>meet cute, quiet girl in bar
>get together with her.
>get married because she got pregnant after insisting we have a child and hitting/hurting/using emotional abuse if I said no
>seven year abusive relationship where she isolated me from family and friends
>Social services/CPS get involved with now 4 kids
>I leave as abuse becomes too much and I nearly kms
>bleachtastesbad.jpg
>social go to take kids
>Say no to me because fucked in the head.
>Say no to family because dad's mentally ill too
>Evidence suggests she has parenting ability of cheese and onion sandwich that's been sat in the sun for a few years.
>make a decision regardless of my/anyone elses feels on the matter of what's best for kids
>back and actively make case that the kids will have better life in adoption
>deal with it every day since.
>ffwd five years. Only just got back into employment
>on antidepressants
>Don't feel remorse or joy
>kids are safe, that's all that matters.

Don't give Up OP. Fight for your child, even if it means sending them away. They deserve a life.

mormon leave

im from the west coast
that is all

im going to go for a smoke break now
could be a couple of hours
i maybe be back 1 more time before tomorrow night
or i might even come on tomorrow night to chat at the time
maybe to describe it or pass on knowledge of whats it like
i dont know

but i learned something valuable from all of this
and theres a quote for this
its to not trust someone by their words but by their actions

>op stops posting
didn't even stream it.

Make the picture a reality, fuck all these beta cucks telling you to do the rope-neck routine, your kid deserves better

Goodnight, sweet prince

He contacted me on my 8th and 16th birthdays. The phone calls were awkward, "how's school? good." etc. On my 16th, we discussed books for maybe 10 minutes. He paid child support and everything, but the most painful part was he moved to Houston and we still lived in Austin. Which is only a 3-4 hour drive. He could've driven to see me anytime he wanted but I've never met him in person. If I had, it feels like things would've been a lot more complicated and I think he knew that. He remarried, had two kids, they're grown now. The creepy part is his kids have a lot in common with me, same interests. His other daughter majored in Art like I always wanted to, etc. But yeah overall I don't really bear him any ill will. It took me a long time to get here though. In the end, it was for the best. I would've been raised watching them fight and divorce anyways.

If you go that route, eventually he will understand. You'll probably feel terrible the whole time and want to call, like he did. But in the long run, you'll know whats best for your kid. Trust your instincts. But I can say this right now. Suicide is not that. If mine had killed himself, I never would've reached this place. I still have that option in the back of my mind. If I want to reconcile, or reach out, I can at any time. He probably won't respond but at least I have that option. Killing yourself means he'll never have that kind of closure available.

>there is no happy ending to this sadly

happy endings are gay and u know it. You dont need to dance just do whatever comes until u die.. like.. dude literally do u really hate us so much that u would rather die than keep on chatting with us? u dont need to dance alone man, we all in this together, floating in this weird world without really knowing wtf is going on, without really wanting to do anything, but there are so many good things out there.. maybe even magic could be real! we are so ignorant as humans who knows, its a world to discover, in my experience let me tell u life is really like a giant web made by infinite dots, u can change it so much just by changing the smallest dots, make beautiful scarfs, coats, threaded hearts, and destiny amazes us with weird shit going on too, u live in a room and drug urself every day right? from waking up to sleep, but what Im trying to say is there is so much MORE than just that, even following those conditions by walking through the smallest dots u will get to see so many beautiful things, just like today u managed to receive our support didnt u? and our love for u. Just come here kid rest a bit, there is so much on ur shoulders, let it go, we all carry so much and we are all just children arent we? lay ur head on ur pillow, think its us bro, we are there for u, sleep some, eat well, enjoy em drugs, go crazy, do the opposite of what would work out, have funs man it gonna be fun.. and if u die, know someone in this world loves u, know u are the best father ever and ur son will always love u, know maybe in another timeline u guys will meet together and we will be like.. fucking fagget why u kys lul :3... u needa open ur world if u gonna live in it, forget what u learnt, forget whats in u and around u, live like a child again, go eat some good cartoon milk and think I bought it for u, u are so loved and u will be so happieh wherever u go, I promise ok? even after death, only happiness will come to u from now on

going to leave this page open and if i come back in a few i guess keep going until i leave the house

glad i got to see this before i got up

>h. Also just came minutes ago the biggest cum blot I've ever had (not including sprays). At least 3x3inch. That shit was nice.
wtf lmao

P.S.

Children start forming long term memory around 3-4. My niece remembers me changing her diapers when she was 2. There's a strong chance he knows who you are, and misses you already. He probably asks his mother when you're coming home, etc. So you're already in for a dime in for a dollar at this point.

fucking yes this is what real life is all about and its fun I wanna live on too Im just 24 I wanna become like u a failure whatever they call u but in my eyes a fucking hero, a real hero who didnt kill himself, not an hero but a hero

add us man IG hoohrasengan Yea Forums is so confusing and maybe u wont meet us again, but there is always gonna be someone in this world that will look out for u I promise okies?

i understand the whole divorce and not stay togeterher part

we talked about abortion if anything were to happen before the relationship
i found out later that was never going to happen
her friends apparently know that she would never
is she had said taht instead it wouldve been fine
but it was just first lie of many

sleep well man, sleep tight, never top sleeping, rest even when awake, u will feel bettah

You should stream it :)

Lolz and to think birth rates are falling worldwide, lets accelerate eh.

No one has ever called me a failure, But There have been times that I've felt like it.

I don't think I'm a hero, Just a dad that did his best. I won't see my children until they're 18. But I intend too. Just so I can tell them that they are loved.

Stream it or GTFO

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dude.. some people are bad as fuck.. its not ur fault, u gave ur heart, she fucking stabbed u with a knife, literally know that the person u fell in love with, will show up one day, maybe in a few days, or months, its up to u! The person u fell in love with is still there somewhere, and she isnt the mother of ur child, but Im sure some day she will take good care of him too, she may be out there in the world alone needing you too, she may be young or old who knows, but when she comes then she will need u to give him ur heart too, if u want. And she will be the best ever, she will take care of u and protect u forever, like a real waifu would :3... forget about the other whore she just a hoe she always gonna be a hoe she doesnt deserve ur pain or tears, she deserves more like a stab or punch in the neck, also dont get deceived by whatever anyone says, dont get deceived by the world around you, maybe everyone around u treats u like shit, know u are not shit, know it, WE know it, random ppl on the internet yeah, but I promise u we are not wrong. You are just a lonely child who gonna be super happy from now on. Everything gonna go well from now on ok? if someone dies like.. ur father, or whatever the fuck happens never suffer again, remember our words, remember what u learnt here, and never ever live through this hell again, because its not real, nothing is real, but find whatever is real, and enjoy the hell out of it, if life gives u problems literally become a demon and have fun, people like u is what this world needs, people like u is what will help this world one day, I believe in u. we are here for u

bro how the fuck will you mine bitcoins if you kill yourself?

the thing is you are so much more than a person who had everything go well in his life, enjoyed a cute wife and was a good father, u are so much so much more than that and thats what I love about ur story :3.. a failure to many for sure, if they heard ur story, thats what makes it so beautiful, because a failure is so beautiful, just like Yea Forums, a failure that somehow lives on and wrecks this world, far greater than a casual fagget on reddit that had everything handed to him, I think u get my point by now

dont do it, sooner or later you'll find a purpose in life. I know every person would say this but literally pls get some help. whether or not if its a relative, friend, or random stranger on the internet. try talking to people and eventually you'll be feeling way better. Just know that you do matter and you are loved. try to think more positive. if I were you I would call the suicide hotline for some more guidance. maybe even see a therapist.

hey u can pm me too bruh

he may get locked up in a psych ward if he goes to a therapist u should warn ppl about that if u recommend therapists

kek

Tldr

my link is up there btw come pm me we chat we has fun

she lied alot
i had access to some of her social media
and after the 5150 she didnt care as long it wasnt her fault

came back to say i might get on discord later
that depends on how empty the house is

no, the people who'd get "locked up" are the people who need therapy THE MOST. they only commit you if you are actively a threat to yourself or others, not if you have that threat in your past history. and even then, they will ask you if you want to be committed long before they actually force you to do it. which is also illegal in some states. you have to be voluntarily committed in those ones. a person can't just drop you off at intake and expect them to hold you against your will. unless you're court ordered, which means you have to already have done something to injure others as well as yourself. most disorders have suicidal ideation and self harm involved at some point, but committing a person is the last thing a therapist will do. it doesn't solve anything, and the hold is usually 24-48 hours unless you're a lasting threat. and then it turns into two weeks of observation. once you're no longer a threat, they send you back out into therapy.

Please user don't kill yourself, your life is more valuable than you think it is. You don't know what's on the other end, you might be damning yourself even more. At least watch this 7 minute video user. Don't do it user.

youtu.be/WDEBz25lGdY

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Sure hmu

they did for me
cops were called
i was taken in
held for 2 days
they can hold you indefinitely but review you ever 24 hours

Is OP still here or did he abandon thread?

still here for a few more minutes before i step back out to smoke

Alright well I don't think you understand how painful opening up your arm to cut veins will be. You will most likely give up from the pain, panic and your survival instinct will kick in meaning you'll just have a hospital bill, regret and a large scar.

Sooo, yeah. Reality of the situation is far less romantic than you're making it seem.

im pretty skin and like i said i wont be sober
ill be in a somewhat secluded area for 6 hours bleeding out from a open vein/artery

also fuck these god damn slow loading captchas

You OP? I’m not going to talk about your woman, your relationship or lawyers, I’m just going to say this. My brother killed himself because he thought his wife was going to leave him and take the kids, so he had nothing to live for (he was wrong, but too late now). What I can tell you is that it destroyed his kids, the thing he professed he loved the most. Destroyed them. Oh, sure, they’re doing well in school, have good friends but, years later, they still wonder why he left them and what did they do wrong. One is still in therapy years on (as is my sis-in-law, but this isn’t about her).

You have a responsibility. You’re a father. A father never leaves his son. Never. Act like a father. The rest is just detail and noise - suck it up and be there for him.

That is all.

mate, I haven't read through all the comments so my response may be a bit "out of date" but if you're really considering suicide because of some girls actions that prevent you from seeing your kid (from what i gathered after a quick skim), then bro you need to get back out there and give it all your energy and reform - i mean why not give it one all out attempt at coming out on top? you got nothing to lose if you're this low.

how old were the kids when it happened?

no i read the messages
shes told a friend shes looking for a lawyer to take my name off the brith certificate and to also bar my parents from visiting

Alright, well have fun loser. The world won't miss you, except someone said you had kids? They'll probably miss you for a while, then they'll get over it and you'll just be a traumatic memory that fucks them up a little more than they were before.

What a piece of shit you are.

Same... Hope user hasn't done it....

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god is dead OWO

>im just tired now

cocaine? have you tried cocaine? its one hell of a drug. and while you're doing that, try some heroin. it's really good! If you've got nothing to lose, why not try them out first?

Not really how suicidal thoughts work. Strong logic, but logic doesn't play a hand in these things.

>i stuck my dick in crazy and now i cant see my kid anymore
just make a new one lulz

I want to band some chicks

its cliche but wahts the point
at the end of the day i miss him
this way i stop thinking about it

its tomorrow night

no just acid shrooms weed

Hope he sees some logic in it Yea Forumsro there's so much to do... I've been where he is... There's still so much life has to offer.... I'm not going to judge someone but I'd rather help save a life than help end one

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>if only you knew how bad things really are

you wouldnt be offing yourself faggot

get your head out of this fucking drama shit

your meaning of life is calling you,and if you ignore it just cuz you cant see your kids you deserve hell

you know you can beat this,you can overcome this situation,or overcome yourself but noooo,you are choosing the easy way out

if you dont have something to live by,then atleast make sense of the fucking situation

tits or gtfo

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Try DMT!!! But seriously, acid and shrooms and you still want to kill yourself? Bro...c'mon! Life is pretty great!! Do more drugs (at least try heroin and cocaine..)

this one is so cute
i really want to post a picture of him on here
he's so fat and cute
and he's a really easy baby
only crys when he
>poops
>hungry
>sleepy
>hurt himself(obvious)

she trained him to say dada when we were together to manipulate me
i realized it when he started calling everything dada

Same thing happened to me user. I was fucking broken for a long time. Then I had to let go. Maybe they'll seek me out someday, maybe they won't but I had to choose me and finding a way to be happy as a person and not just as a parent. It still hurts some days but it can't stop you from living. Love them without being attached, it's possible. Attachment is the source of all suffering.

I'm sorry OP...but I have to focus on this for a second. WTF is going on here in this picture? Is that all from the same man? Or was she just in a "safe" gangbang?? WTF?? I need answers.

see OP,thats the 'easy way out' im talking about.
read viktor frankl's 'men's search for meaning'

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im a guy btw
if that wasnt already established

dont think im willing to try any psychdelics in my curent state

anyways going out for my smoke now
ended up playing a bit of hearthstone
i guess you guys can add me on there
i have a alt account that has a decent amount of cards
the tag is BobsBurger#1727

It doesn’t matter how old they were - they knew their dad.

Let me ask you a few questions. What would you do if you saw your son was drowniong in a lake? What would you do if you saw a mean, nasty pit bull was approaching your son, snarling? What would you do if there was a car wreck and your son was trapped inside and the car started to burn? I know what you answered and it wasn’t “leave him”. So what’s different in this fight you need to do for him?

And if he’s yours, you can’t be taken off a birth certificate. You need a lawyer and a set of balls, my man

psychedelics may help your current state though!

Youre a bitch if you think killing yourself is your only option
Youre a bitch because you take the easy way out instead of dealing with the bullshit life throws at you
It's true that all the real men died in WW2 because if every limpdicked excuse of a man who fucked some WHORE kills himself over a woman trying to get dicked some more while living off her (soon to be dead) husband is too weak to do anything else but dream about his faggot son every night instead of actually making efforts to prove his worth, them this world is forsaken.

either kys or dont but dont show up on Yea Forums trying to get attention
and cutting your arteries is retarded, come up with a better way to kill yourself

yea i know
but man did he just instantly made things better
holding his little fatness in my arms and nibbling on his fat cheeks
his maternal grandma used to say i was going to deflate his cheeks if i keep doing that

honestly,no idea. another user passed it foward. i used it to emphasize that things couldve been worse. that couldve been user's ex.

Bruh

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anyways im going for my smoke break
i got my hearthstone tag here
might hop back on this page later
maybe even discord if my roommates are out
going for my smoke break be back in a few hours

it was nice being able to tell someone the truth thanks for listening

hearthstone tag

>o hold you against your will. unless you're court ordered, which means you have to already have done something to injure others as well as yourself. most disorders have suicidal ideation and self harm involved at some point, but committing a person is the last thing a therapist will do. it doesn't solve anyt
bruh u havent been around those places apparently

hoohrasengan IG

I just wanted to say you are really cute really really cute marry me already

lets all be suicidal and band many chicks

could u please bother to deliver some titties

>y, maybe they won't but I had to choose me and finding a way to be happy as a person and not just as a parent. It still hurts some days but it can't stop you from living. Love them without being attached, it's possible. Attachment is the source of all suffering.

bro u gotta outplay her, she fucked with your mind, get real wise and stronk and fuck her up real bad too, I know u know how to because uve lived through it, u have my sword fagget, take Yea Forumss sword and slay that whores future u got it in ya

I know. I had two baby girls and they were my world. I was committed when I lost my custody case bc I tried to off myself but someone found me half dead. I havent seen them since 2016. Their mom made my life a fucking nightmare. I had to let them go to save myself, she wasnt letting me see them and I was turning myself inside out trying to fight for everything. Lesser of two deaths without dying. Now I see I can love them and hope I see them someday but Ive grieved them like a death too. You find the things that make you happy and go on, be the center of your own universe for as long as it takes.

we know bruh dont worry about it... its hard man its hard we know

thank u

Go to the gym

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for someone that cute I can do anything baby :3

+56? Chile? I thought you were whiter than the average Brazilian. Fuck. You south americans aren't human.

Dance knight dance

lmao

hey OP im gonna go sleep now I hope this thread survives the night, PM me in discord whenever u can we have some fun play some vidya if u wanna:
bewox!0286

If you are white don't do it. If you aren't then go right ahead.

this! funny how you dont usually hear about heroin addicts committing suicide (they might OD which is arguably close to suicide) but people burn out on psychedelics and do it all the time!

seconding this

You’ll be alright bro dont off yourself. Was it you saying you’re gay? Something to think about yknow you had a kid from a straight relationship and that was the one thing that provided you with substantial meaning in your life. Try to talk to some girls once you get yourself straight. No pun intended

As a former addict, I believe this.

take it easy on the guy he’s going through it. What he says is true though OP. It’s not easy to get back to where you want to live, but it’s your only honest option. There’s no way to rationalize suicide.

>Be 20
>find out going to be a dad
>excited as fuck
>always loved kids
>find out going to have bby girl
>dream of teaching her about knives
>pretty good with knives
>her mom so very toxic. beautiful but toxic
>incredible lover but 0 understanding of others
>think having a baby will change her and me
>give it a go
>beautiful baby girl is born!
>look into her eyes and see mini me staring back
>understand life is this and this is life
>want to guide, teach, encourage
>several months later, her mother wants to talk
>be holding my beautiful sleeping baby girl
>her mom tells me quietly she has been with my best friend for several months
>says is sorry didn't know how it happened
>shaking with rage i gently hold onto my beautiful baby girl
>absorb her mothers words
>but see how sweetly she sleeps in my arms
>scream inside my mind but manage to keep it there
>desire to kill mother, best friend then myself
>realize what legacy/memory/story i leave for my daughter if i do that
>i watch the slow rise and fall of my daughters breath
>No. Not like that. There will be another way
>try to be in her life. Her mother made it very hard
>turn to drugs to fill that Hole
>nothing fills it
>years pass...5...10...15
>tried my best to be there for her
>was only a handful of times
>but they were as precious gems in a sack of coal
>be 40
>havent seen baby girl for her teens
>she reaches out. life problems. needs help
>i respond. first hug ive had to give her in years better then any drugs ive ever done
>realize my decision to not take the hopeless road was worth the agony. the little deaths
>teaching her my trade now. she is following in her own way my footsteps.

Kill yourself now and close that chance for a better chapter in your life user....forever.

same im a former benzo addict. never even considered suicide when i was using. when you get off it it sort of seems like a better idea than usual but not nearly as good of an idea as getting back on the junk

if your serious about this, dont cut yourself to death. go out. take out a loan. buy some heavy fucking drugs and some nice whisky or wine. lay down, put on a movie or a song, take all the pills, drink the poison of your choice and relax yourself into death. dont suffer anymore than you already have friend

If you aren't taking a few evil people with you then you don't deserve my attention.

this my man! but dont do it. just find a way to have a really nice night like you’ve never had. treat yourself before you make a big decision like that so you can remind yourself why life’s worth living. doesn’t have to be with drugs or anything maybe just go to dave and busters, get shit faced, and play the games like a little kid without caring what other kids or adults think. Enjoy yourself Yea Forumsro. its probably been way too long since you have

Fucking this

sorry im not too great at thinking of fun times without some sort of substances. you could probably even do it sober though. crash a motherfuckin chucky cheese

get into stealing stuff for fun. go to disney and steal all their expensive sunglasses and sell them. buy yourself something nice. thank me later

GRIT THOSE FUCKING TEETH NIGGER
DEVOTE YOUR LIFE TO CHAOS
BECOME INSANITY ITSELF
EXPLODE LIKE A FUCKING SUPER NOVA
BECOME A NEW STAR

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u got a friend in me OP

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this guy’s speaking the truth.

Tell your story Yea Forumsuddy. I’m listening.