>be me
>roughly 6 years old
>sexually abused by father
>doesnt understand sex
>thinks that this is normal
>dad is my hero
>want to be like him
>roughly 6 years old
I'm 21 now and cannot make meaningful connections with people. I am eternally crushed by guilt. I cannot watch porn or have sex without thinking about what I did as a child in my efforts to be just like my father. How soon should I kill myself?
Be like your father, molest your own six year old.
You also can’t sleep at night can you? You’re just like me.
Don’t worry user, non-molested people can’t make meaningful connections either.
Show us your feet dude
I used to run a porn blog because it made me feel good about my ruined body. There are pictures of my feet somewhere on the internet.
“Ruined body” That’s a really fucked way of viewing yourself man. I think you need some counseling or a therapist man, this place is toxic and can cause you to dislike yourself even more. Please man, get help. Do it for you, you didn’t deserve the hand you got dealt in life and there are ways to make things better.
>sexually abused by father
did you like it?
Sometimes it helps to go hiking where nature can kill you. Its like a suicide mission but then everything feels better and looks nicer.
You have to go to the most extreme trails tho. Anyplace where you can die in nature and then the body gets reset.
Also feet pics plz
Oh and also I'm a tranny now too. I forgot to mention that.
I dont remember anything other than that it happened. It felt like punishment. I felt no different about it whether he fucked me or hit me.
Post pics?
That actually sounds really nice. I like the idea of starving to death at the bottom of some cliff somewhere.
Please don’t talk like that.
have you been in a non sexual relationship?
dude...
I will save you the cringe and simply say that I am not a good tranny. I am only attractive to people who want to add me to their "I had sex with a ____ and therefore I cannot be ____phobic" list.
That, and other trans women. I'm honestly really quite blessed that I'm not the only one. I wouldn't have any friends if it weren't for my cabal of mtfs with daddy issues.
Plz for the love of god don’t do something like that.
You don't see any amount of romance in that? It sounds beautiful. I like to picture my skin turning sallow as I am returned to nature.
The only way to die more poetically is to be swallowed by a snake.
Come to think of it, no I don't think I have. I have sex with most of my close friends.
Hike this trail in the Teton to Delta Lake and come back life will be a bit better.
Has this negatively impacted said friendships?
I don't think so. Recently my friend Nelly and I had some sex that she ended up regretting, but it taught us to be better about communication and be more forthcoming about what we want. I agreed to be more open when it comes to planning a 'scene' and she agreed to speak up when she is asked to do something she isn't comfortable with.
I honestly think more people should have sex with their friends.
calm the fuck down..this happened to me only it started when i was 4 yrs old. My baby sitter started sexually abusing me. One time he offered me one of those little cups of ice cream and grabbed his crotch suggesting i get ice cream if i play with his dick. I said no so he slammed my head against the wall and made me go to sleep. He told my parents i was bad so they spanked me when i got home. I didnt say no after that.. til i was 9 yrs old i was sexually abused by many different people, think 7 people. Even raped by my cousin. I should be fucked up. I think i am in a way.
what happened to me is just..something that happened..same for you..Its in the past, its over. Your acting like a serious faggot and you need to stop
But op is a fag
I am a fag. I took estrogen pills twice a day for three years and now I'm a fag.
this
what's past is past. Live your life or not but don't blame on something that no longer affect you
But did you cum for daddy?
Imagine thinking that a six year old is capable of cumming.
It still does affect me though. I can't stop thinking about it. I can't get off without imagining that I'm being raped again. I feel distant from 'undamaged' people.
it doesn't.
everything is in your mind and you are the one who still want to be affected by an event that happened long ago.
Why would I want this?
you tell me
I don't! Its not something I can just put out of my head.
Stop being a chode and show us the benis
then look for help, and I mean professional help, not just a site with random pervs, although talking in an anonymous ways may help a little.
you are in an echo chamber of porn, misogyny and all sorts of depravity. you take suggestions from user, but he is bipolar, often arguing with himself. suicide ideation and the offerings here won't help you. you can only help yourself. do things that make you feel fulfilled. clean up your living space, make some money, pick yourself up and make something of yourself. you have a world of opportunities. you could get on a boat tomorrow and just set off. you have free will, but the cost is you often fall into shitty habits and situations. other people have free will, too, and all too often misuse it. direct your energy toward a goal, something worth doing.
This. You gotta get out of here chief. You deserve better.
>raped by father in hotel room
>raped by cousin in van behind family's backs
>raped sister
>molested step-sister
>groomed little cousin
now just a shut in enjoying my incel lifestyle by masturbating to the knowledge that someone out there is raping my future wife.
>god, y have you foesaken me to incel cuck?
kill me plox