What have you done that you’ve kept secret?

Do you have photos, videos??

Me and my female cousin started experimenting at a young age. She first sucked my cock when we were 12ish. She's 3-4 months younger than me, cute petite blonde.
I made her cum for the first time by licking her pussy, she was kinda scared and didn't know what happened but immediately after that she became crazed with sex. We were strictly oral for a while until after that, we started doing anal and then shortly after I took her virginity. Were 25ish now and she swears she's a lesbian to everyone else but every time we meet up for family holidays and get togethers we fuck every time and do all sorts of degenerate shit.
We took a trip to Spain together a few years ago and pretended to be a couple and had a foursome with another couple and fucked like animals in our hotel, on boats, in cars, at night in public etc.
It's pretty good, even when we were both in relationships we fucked and it's just a nice break from reality, I've never felt the urge to cheat on my gfs other than with her because it's just so good. Were basically just cousins with benefits, also we've never used a condom and I cum in her ass or pussy every time. It's pretty fucking cash.

Pics pls

Ok Mr. officer

male.
twice.

one from the initial blowjob, then sometime later during the fucking.
he fucked me, but i didnt fuck him.

weirdly enough, im bad with women, and have considered meeting up with men to get off.

however, i am not man enough to get into the frame of mind that i was back then.

>I still fap to the time x molested me.

I feel like I won't get over it, I hated that it happened but I still fap to the memories.

I'm being recommended to a therapist over something else, and I don't know if I'll open up about it, I've never told anyone.

Explain how it happened

eh, I love her. She's the perfect woman for me, and broads are now dense.

However, I am insecure as hell. Might get some counseling.