Reasons for which I am committing suicide, in no particular order:
-The planet is nearing an ecological catastrophe that will make it uninhabitable in 30 years, by which time I will be 53.
-I am a drug addict without motivations, goals or general desire to do something with myself
-due to my lack of motivation, I do not wish to fend for myself, and even thought I have professional skills to do so, I do not wish to indulge even the things that give me joy
-I have acquired a set of self destructive behaviors that continue to sabotage my efforts at improving, and I do not wish to try to improve
-my talent is squandered because exploiting it requires effort that I am too afraid to invest
-I feel eternal guilt for existing
-I do not wish to submit another human being to myself in a romantic way, nor do I wish to be responsible for nor have any influence on another human being's emotional, economic or mental stability.
-I did not ask to be born, and for this I reserve my right to decide when I die
-I have caused a lot of pain to my partner's, cost a lot of money to my parents, and contributed little to nothing to either of them
-I have failed to achieve the things I wanted to, and do not wish to push beyond my disappointment
-The things I was passionate about no longer thrill me, and I do not wish to put effort into maintaining my interest and investment in these things, as they came easily before, and should do so again, or so I wish
-even if I recognize I am overreactive, I prefer to end my life for the simple pleasure of doing what I want, in spite of it being bad for me, painful to my loved ones, doing what I want espeially against the desires of others, seems like the most fulfilling thing I could do.
-I am pathological, and prefer, because it is easier, to indulge in my pathology rather than work thru it, as that requires effort and confronting bad feelings, of which I want to get rid of, along with good feelings, and any kind of feeling at all