I'm reaching a breaking point.
I'm a swinger. I can see that the swinger, bdsm, fetish, lifestyle world is coming out from the shadows.
We're not able to hide anymore because of the massive growth of cuckold and swinger porn, wife sharing sites, apps, memes etc. And our world is coming into the public light.
I'm doing my best to show us in the best light possible. I'm writing a book to try to cast some light on who we really are and what we do. I'm putting together events that mix lifestyle and vanilla people so that we can all be seen as just people. Not "those" people.
I'm trying to help our community grow and learn so that we don't fall into the horrible stereotypes that are spread about us. I'm also helping hundreds of people through their relationship issues and teaching them how to communicate and helping them build their own relationships better.
But I don't have any real help.
On top of doing all of this work, I have a house that I have to care for. I have kids. I have a full time job. I have my own body and my own projects to take care of. And I'm not even the best person for the job. The BEST person to do what I'm doing killed himself 2 years ago.
And let me tell you, this guy was far better than I am. He was rich. He had loads of people behind him. He had all kinds of support. He was smarter, stronger, and had a more open schedule than I do. It would be like comparing a fully developed superman to "into the spider-verse" Miles Morales.
Well superman is dead. And now Miles has to try to save the airplane falling from the sky.
While I'm maybe "slightly above average", I'm no superman.
I'm starting to see the point. I can't just stop because the social pressure is enormous. Every time I ask for help, a hundred people raise their hands, but when asked, none of them actually DO anything. They just expect me to come through in the end, and they want recognition for even volunteering to help, even though they didn't actually help at all.