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Wanted to kill myself
Almost did it last week
Couldnt do it
Told my mum
Mum now told me if I want to do it I should say good bye to her .

She didnt say it to hurt me we talked about my depression for a while and knows she cant help .

I can’t find pol so I’m worried

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Twenty-two and it seems like no matter how much I try, I can't seem to get out of a rut.
Bought a gram of meth recently, smoked it all in two days. it was fun but I'm going to keep it as a one time thing, maybe do it again at a party or something in the future, but never going to look for it.

Thanks to /pol I'm a fucking racist toxic faggot

>but never going to look for it.
that's what everyone says until they get addicted for life and destroy their lives

Is that wojack supposed to be tim pool?

greentext that

>in college
>being a fucking lazy piece of shit, barely passing each semester
>used to be fit but now fat
>virginfag
but could be worse amirite

no, it's the doomer meme

I don't I'll get a good paying job that will allow me to buy a house and have kids before I'm 30
Thank you boomers

if you were going to be a lazy piece of shit why even go to college?

I'm 18, summers almost over, haven't been able to find a job. I have mechanic certifications and I just want out of my parents house and it's a real struggle trying to find work so I just said fuck it and applied at a supermarket. I just wish my mom would have let me get a job back in highschool so it wouldn't be so hard now. A majority of my friends are off to college and greener pastures, and my best friend might go into the air Force soon. Idk how I'll be able to handle everything.

>be me
>be married
>have wife that has a friend that might be incapable of having children
>wife says she wants to have a baby for her friend
>freak out and say there's no way in he'll that's gonna happen bc I refuse to be a cuck
>she gets depressed and upset
>feel like an asshole even though I know I'm in the right.

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>mechanic certifications
you may need it someday and get to work on what you want

Humanity seems to be regressing rapidly. Everyone seems to be getting dumber and dumber. Between Trump-like rhetoric and climate change inaction it just seems like there's no hope left for humanity and that it's all coming down.

It's really depressing to just watch everyone shit in their hands and smear it upon their own faces and then celebrate as if they've achieved something. People are celebrating their own stupidity and failures, and have deluded themselves into believing they have enlightened themselves in some way and are some how 'winning'. It's soul crushing to see our race at such a low point, at what should be our peak.

Almost none of you will even understand this, and those of you that do are probably too clever to waste your time bothering to interact with me because you know it will be wasted effort and that no one with a brain bothers to read replies on Yea Forums.

why they don't just adopt, or in vitro fertilization?

What were you like before /pol/, user?

Because my wife's freind is poor and shit.

that literally happens to me all the fucking day, I see in Instagram stupid normies posting shit as global warming and stuff, but they only do that because of social status and
give the appearance of being good people,
but deep down they don't give a shit.

The same guys were posting all of this I saw them drunk in the park at a party and leaving a lot of rubbish in the floor; I wanted to punch their faces so bad

I can relate, /pol/ changed me for the worse. But I don't entirely regret it. It's fucked over my worldview and now I can't go out in public without seeing something that pisses me off.

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happy, friendly, outgoing and nice, now I see society as stupid npcs who don't think by themselves and are destroying western civilization, /pol really poisoned my soul

how are you the cuck if another man is raising your son lol

ikr, the blackpill really changes your life and how you see the world

That was the idea, I love cars but there's no work around me because there's a big mechanics college that already staffs all the shops in the area, it's hell

as a well paid, in shape hobbyist I can say that it only gets you so far

Because I don't want another man's seed in my wife's womb. I refuse to let another man's child slither out of my wife's womb.

It's not that humanity is regressing. With the internet, it's not just easier to see how fucking stupid everyone really is. We were always this bad

then why you feel like you're a loser?

About two weeks ago I almost killed myself. It would have worked too if the shotgun I was using didn't jerk back when I pulled the trigger. Left a fucking gaping hole in my ceiling and had a lot of explaining to do.

what are you going to do then

ohh i understand now yea ur in the right

There is no easy way out of this mess we are in. The best we can hope for is the survivors to look back and use this time as dystopic myth, like atlantis.

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I really don't know tbh. I guess I'm still getting over the fear of death and hell after my first attempt. Shit was scary for few days.

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helpless in the face of despite my personal success

I could come over and we could suck each others fuck. I pay 4 the meth.

hope you feel better and be happy user, it is a miracle that the shotgun failed and you're still alive

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Dude, meth is bad. I know that sounds shitty but there's really no other way to explain it. Just don't do it again and be glad that you aren't addicted.

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I was slowly drinking myself to death because I figured that would be the best way to commit suicide without hurting my parents, but I stopped drinking because I met a girl I wanted to be with and wanted to straighten myself out for her. I finally asked her out yesterday, and I'm mad at myself for stopping drinking for this girl, when I went through the pain of the withdrawals and could've been dead by now, all for nothing

>not embracing the struggle
pathetic.

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Thanks user. I'll probably take the failed attempt as a good sign meaning that there might be something better awaiting me in life.

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you just didn't realize that you really had a lot to live yet, you should be grateful that you are alive right now and your family loves you,
maybe it has served you as a lesson

I said I don't regret it, faggot. You simply cannot deny that there are certain internal issues that come with being a /pol/ack.

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Like what?

Not today, CIA. Go harvest data on some other thread.

it's just like Matrix, live happily in ignorance or live the harsh reality, I toke the second option, I don't regret anything, but I can't stop seeing others as simple beings with simple lives who will never be aware of how shit things really are

you wouldn't be disclosing any personal information you daft cunt. there's just nothing you can come up with. apart from being exposed to the lies of the jews and therefore having to live with that depressing information there is nothing bad about being a /pol/ack.

4 years in college,normal points, but big problem with het interschip i do = must go to a new college = again 3! ( because of the intership). I also did before that 2 years of University.So i total 6 years of study but stil no diploma/degree = i am depressed because i can not make my life = get the job i love, earn money to buy thinks i want/ need, to go on vacation , to get a girlfriend.

Funny you mention Matrix, it's exactly like the Matrix (without the literal Matrix part) where reality is not what it is. If you watch these Hollywood films from the past you'll notice how they "foretold" the future, they're telling us what they're doing through the movies. Films tell us the truth, the news tell us lies.

well anons, it's 3 am here and i should go sleep now, may everything go well in your life and be happy, it is very comforting and healthy to share your sorrows with others

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I'm not worried about personal I formation,you incompetent slag. I'm more concerned with feds figuring out the mindset of anons and such, which is honestly a fruitless task considering they know us damn well already. But I'm not just gonna let them do so without at least giving them the finger first.

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Goodnight, user. Sleep well.

>be me
>previous history in law enforcement
>sign up for army
>army gives me a ship date that isnt until 2 months
>quit job and gain an great amount of severance
>drink, party, tinder, repeat while i wait
>end up fucking a slam pig
>end up getting her pregnant
>only 20 not ready for a kid so i convince her to pick back up on her alcohol addiction and convince her to get an abortion
>only have one more week left wont be able to know if she actually goes through with it
>mfw i hit a homeless guy with my car last month
>mfw im realatively contempt with all of this

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Imagine caring about whether zog niggers know what time you go for a shit or what colour of apples you like. Fuck them.

You sound a little impressionable
Are you an adult??

>live in a socialist country
>it's a nightmare
>can't leave the country
>gave me depression,
>earn like $10 a month if i get paid (been without pay since may)
>got gf
>gf also has depression because family/country situation
>stay strong for her
>support her
>no outlets for me to vent or get relief
>get an online sidehoe
>sidehoe turns to be the best advice-giver, emotional support, sex succubus ever
>start feeling more love towards my gf, and life in general feels brighter
>gf finds out her
>sent sidehoe away infront of her
>2+ months of fights, we finally fix things between us and we are in a great spot
>I'm a void shell now, spend most days dissociated looking at a screen or wall
>no more outlet
>that's my life now

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Which country

holy fuck. What country is preventing you from leaving?

Sometimes I envy my older brother, I often see him hanging out with his childhood friends who know each other since they were 6 and they are all 27 now. My only two friends barely talk to me, one is autistic af and doesn't want to get out of his room, the other one isn't even in my city.
Each time he visits me I would ask him to do something together because I feel really lonely

I just started a job at a local hotel and I hate it, I feel like a house wife but I don't want to quit because there's no other choices

I AM A MAN WHY ARE MY NIPPLES SO SENSITIVE I CAN TOUCH THEM A BIT THEY JUST LIGHTLY BRUSH AGAINST MY SHIRT AND BAM INSTANT BONER WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL HELP ME PLEASE

That's really common man, you have an extra sensitive part, wish I had something like that

HAHAH
wow im glad I don't have this curse

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Venezuela

Not saying it's impossible to leave but it's very hard.

>unnecesary amount of paperwork
>they "don't have material to renew your passport"
>goverment employees ask for bribes for them to give you things like your birth certificate that you need to do the paperwork to migrate
>foreign currency and exchanges in USD are illegal
>can't earn enough to sustain myself to leave ($10 a month)
>can't exchange local currency to USD to have money for when i do migrate

They put many unseen hoops to not let you leave so it can be seen as "they are totally free they can leave whenever they want"

What are you doing about this?

That happened to me, it turned out that the spray deodorant i was using, splashed a little on my nips when i was applying it and made them super sensitive for some reason.

Ditched spray deodorants and now my nips are insensitive, so yeah!

Holy shit, how the fuck??
I wanna try this so I can at least empathize with you guys

how are you holding up man?

Any old pieces of shit aged 30 years or over lurking?

>30
>Masters degree
>Work at a law firm.
>Not at all what I want to do but it does the trick for now
>Got crushed with shit today, worked over 12 hours nonstop.
>Supposed to go out with a cute lady this week but she bailed
>Pretty much make enough to pay bills, no savings.
>Not where I want to be at this point

Share your old feels.

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39 still studying me. Question if you have a master degree , how come that you can not make savings?

Alright i just have to insure the child dies

I have justified the last 2 years of living purely by consuming enough media, mostly anime/videogames, and alcohol to keep me content. I have a few friends and get along with them, but even with human connections im not sure what the point of life is. Im so confused, I have no idea what to do or why I would do it. Im slightly in debt but in a bout a year I should have it payed off so Im not really in a bad spot. I feel lost, does anyone else?

Where do you work, that could be your problem

>29
>quit college after 9 years of eternal struggle
with depression, amogst other thing, only
needed 7 more courses to get diploma.
>quit low paying job to move back to my
parents house in another city.
>cannot find new job.
>cannot transfer to another college to finish my
degree because they don't accept transfers for
students who has less than a year to finish.
>education so far counted for nothing basically.
>feels like I wasted 11 years of my life. (studied
for 2 years so I can get into college I wanted)

I'm only 29 and I feel like shit. Like after I was
18 I was basically dead.

Im in the navy, mechanic. Getting med sepped soon do to head injury.

Well fuck I even fail at gt, just end my life.

Been sleeping on a sofa for the past 2 years because rent in my area is expensive by yourself. Had a decent paying job up until recently, and past debt has caught up with me that I had forgotten about. Need to find £3000 quick and I've got no real way of doing it. Was thinking of just ending it all last week but my girlfriend is going through some shit and so couldn't do it because I felt guilty. Just feel lost and empty man. There's more to it, but that's just the more relevant recent shit

Im sorry to hear that, but on the brightside thats money

Miss my ex

Weird, I had literally just finished writing this shitty stream of consciousness about the week I'm having. Didn't know where I was going to share it though.

I finished the gin two nights ago. Got twenty one dollars left to last until payday. I watched a baby squirrel die after it fell from a tree this afternoon and barely felt a damned thing. Smoked my last cigar an hour ago to try and clear my head. The ringing in my ears never stops, I just manage to forget it's there sometimes. I yelled in the face of my stepdaughter yesterday until it sent her into a panic attack. She was hyperventilating and my younger daughter just laughed at her. I thought about killing myself again while I sat in my work truck parked behind a shitty gas station on my lunch break. Most days I passively hate myself, but lately I've been more acutely aware of it.

Slow down what do you need the 3000 euros for

I finaly found people I enjoy spending time with. God said "fuck you". Now my family is full of cunts, all my friends are drifting away from me. I feel so alone.

Some old debts from my old flat 3 years ago, thought I was up to date with all the bills before I moved... Apparently I wasn't. So it was the bills, plus interest, plus solicitor fees

its also seizure meds for the rest of my life. but thats not whats bothering me tbh, I just feel so lost, and nothing I see in movies or in the real world seems to give me any direction.

Don't give up on your friends user

Well i think personally you dont have an end goal, which makes you loose ambition and drive find a tangable goal you can reach for an work for it

that sounds like a plan, i wonder what a good end goal would be

I just wish I could leave society and live in the middle of nowhere with no technology and the work I do is for me and supports me and I feel good about it. I’ve been looking for a job for years, I can’t even get a job I’d hate never mind one I’d enjoy. I can’t even get to the interview process. I’ve gotten fat and I’m so depressed, I can’t even get one foot off the ground. I’ve lost interest in everything I used to enjoy. Why does life have to be like this when I’ve tried so hard.

You can always hop on a boat and go to Trinidad illegally like everyone else

Have no money for 40K figures.

Never let your personal demons affect others, especially your children. I'm trying to figure this out myself.

I just want my childhood female friend to come to my birthday. Haven't talked to her in weeks cause the last time I saw her i smoked and totally fucked up by telling her about other girls I've seen.

Literally never even kissed any of them or anything but she doesn't know that. She is still pissed at me.

My dog hanged himself in a fence last night

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Thats all up to your interests brother

I’m burnt out. I’m making money, got a gf, am in school, working out and looking good, but constantly feel drained and sick of everything by the end of the day

My Dad (real big piece of shit, left me with some nasty mental illnesses through genetics and abuse) died recently. I've been doing a lot better with my ability to handle my emotions (bi-polar disorder is the illness I have the most difficult time with) but ever since his death, I've spiraled out of control. I can't seem to get a hold of my emotions anymore and its starting to bleed in to all facets of my life. Just wanted to get it off my chest somewhere. First post ever here, ty for the thread.

Constantly feel miserable mentally afraid of being alone and not doing shit with my life.

So how do I unfuck this situation by tomorrow??

Bump

its normal to feel the way you're feeling after your dad dies. your feelings don't suggest bipolar disorder, they suggest the feelings a healthy human feels when their parent dies. however, if you are bipolar then get on anti-psychotics.

I have trouble with focusing on "boring" things and large amounts of text. I tried reading a book to learn Java and I gave up and played vidya instead. Focusing on things like that are hard to do. I think I've fucked myself over for life, I'm retarded, and even if I landed some dream programming job I'd probably get fired for staring off at a window every few lines.

Do something considerate for her and make her think she's number 1. Nice meal, fun walk, theatre etc

Does anyone else feel like they never grew up, they just die inside as time goes on.
I still want to enjoy and do things I did previously, but when or if I actually do those things, its so empty.
Feel like I keep moving forward into a void that is the future. Nothing takes the place of the old.