I can't remember being happy for a long time now. I don't feel joy in my life anymore...

I can't remember being happy for a long time now. I don't feel joy in my life anymore, things that interested me in the past are gone I can't seem to get interested in anything anymore. I failed school, I have never had a girlfriend I don't think that I ever lived my life happly like people around me. My crush commited suicide. She was an angel everything I wanted from a girl, good taste in music she was smart she looked like an angel...
I feel so alone all the time. I failed myself I failed my family I failed people that thought of me better. Things just seem to crumble down right infront of my eyes all the time. I am a 19 year old failure that can't get his life together. I am just hopeless.

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If you are a socially awkward fat slob then i suggest you just end it now and save everyone the embarrassment of sharing a planet with you

I'm sorry she died aon,
I'm sorry you can't find joy in anything anymore, but there's other ways to solve that and feel you're living

Hey ho op, wallowing in it won’t help shit. Get your head up and keep on pushing through life until it gets better

...i-it's okay user *holds you close* everything will be ok. :)

>you are a being of immense spiritual power
>this physical plane is a jail
>you were sent here to learn the lessons you need to control that power
>this is gonna take a long time
>it's impossible to kill yourself
>quantum suicide is a thing
>believe me I've tried

Seek balance user

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What's quantum suicide?

The thing is I am not socialy akward nor am I fat or ugly. I do know how to hold a conversation. But the problem is that it's all in character anf thats not me, that's not who I am inside. All I want is to be a baby again, all I want is to have pure thoughts in my head all I want is to forget all I want is to start all over again and do everything differently

You don't have to kill yourself for that
You feel fake kind of, right?
Maybe all you need is take some time to feel you're you
I don't know how, i used drugs to do that but i'm not sure if it helps at all

Learn methods not to ruminate, otherwise you will sink into the chronic mild/moderate depression trap.

I am thinking of isolating myself from everyone so I can spend some time with myself and ask myself why I should't use that rope in my closet. But I can only hope this is not perm. Becouse I can't live another month feeling like this. I just can't. People that love me love my fake character nobody even knows me not even my own family.

just kill yourself pussy and stream it.

Why don't you try to make someone meet the real you?
It doesn't have to be someone you already know, Just anyone, and i did that too, took like 2 years or more, i was pretty high most of the time though

keep it up zoomers soon i wont have to look at your shitposts matt damon haircuts ever again

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>depression thread
>inb4 "clean your room"

Clean your fucking room user. Or at least make your bed.

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I feel the same way OP in a similar situation too, haven't felt genuinely happy since 2013, hasn't gotten better just worse. I don't have access to meds or therapy tho so maybe I'm missing out, try it.

ur crush sounds like a fucking cumdumpster who hated that she fucked so many guys.

Ty everyone that gave me a kind replay. I am going to use some of your advices and try to break the ice. If anything happens I am going to start a new thread. Anons I love you all

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keep going OP. The world is full of things to enjoy and I want you here

That's some crywank shit