Hey again Yea Forums, today the worst of my fears happened, 2 of my only real friends are no longer by my side...

Hey again Yea Forums, today the worst of my fears happened, 2 of my only real friends are no longer by my side. I'm alone again, with basically strangers but isolated. Maybe Im a coward but I couldnt handle the worry and stress and confusion, so I cut contact with them. They were online friends but people who actually knew me. Maybe I should get therapy as advised by most but still, I dont like the thought of telling my life story to randomers. I mean I kinda am now but Im desperate, I have nobody to turn to and Im afraid that the same thing will happen again, because it does. Everyone Im close to always drifts away from me. Granted I left them this time, but only because they betrayed my trust and because I couldnt handle the anxiety with it, I had to leave. And it hurted doing that, it still does...

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>Online friends
No such thing loser

Maybe, but they definitely felt close.

Yeah therapy is something you should consider. It honeslty helps a lot but you must be willing to let the therapist help you in the first place. Regarding your situation, do you think what happened is truly enough to cut ties with them? You clearly stated that you dont wanna stop talkimg to them so why should you?

It was too much on my mental well being,
For days my anxiety was terrible and I just had
to get out of it. It definitely felt necessary

Therapy? You don't need that expensive shit, friend. What you need is The Holy Church! Pay a visit to your local church, make a confession if you have to.

Im an atheist

Shut the fuck up Christ fag.

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Wanna talk about it? Maybe walk us through what happened?

Jesus loves you all, there is no need to be afraid!

>They were online friends
Oh god, I'm not even gonna bother reading past this. Get your faggy ass out of Yea Forums and make friends IRL, you giant fucking faggot.

the thing is op you lose friends during your entire life. I have no advice for you but doing something drastic.
Army, rescue work, farming, etc
try something else

If you felt "you needed" to cut contact with them why the fuck are you feeling like you are in the wrong here.

There are 7.7 Billion people in the world, i could guarantee there is people you wouldn't cut ties with for money. Don't limit yourself pal.

How are you as a friend?

One of my friends was apparently a pedo who lured kids (still not 100 percent sure though) its still a huge shock to me and the other was conspiring against him in a group and I was lost, like the one who conspired kept me in the dark and I was worried about him since I didnt know the conspiracy or what happened to him or that the other guy couldve been a pedo. The conspiracy guy was closest and the supposed pedo guy seemed so trustworthy.

I try my best

Time to bail on this thread

I'm in the same boat. Had one real friend and said something I shouldn't have, now we don't talk. Trust me that solitude is better for you in the long run. Most people that want to help are trying to either lesser their pain by being a "good person" or exploit that pain for profit. Forget the materialism of having friends and put that energy into developing your self. Once you pass that threshold of what you feel you need and don't need, then you can truly be free. Don't adhere to social norms because that's is what is expected of you, break your restraints and make a change.

My real friends are across the globe. I don't talk to them much. I have online friends but we only share memes. I'm a loner, so, I have no problem having no friends.

Yeah it sounds like you leaving is for the best. If you dont feel ready to make friemds irl just go on discord servers and start talking to people with common interests. You might hit it off with some of them.

Who hurt you?

I'm in a similar situation for the last year, i cut contact with people everytime i feel they get to close to me or start to know me and i feel like shit afterwards. If i would drop dead tommorow not a fly would know about it

Just seems like it will happen all over again. I give my trust only for it to be abused

I'm not 100% alone but nobody talks to me if they dont have to. And therapy never helped because I'm too cynical.
Just remember you have lots of time to get used to being lonely and that it gets better the more you practice.
Instead of worrying about other assholes your #1 imperative is to keep sane and calm.
Pro tip:don't look back too long

Yeah you are not wrong, it might happen again but not trying to find friends means that youll 100% be lonely. Making an effort to find friends makes it less likely for you to ne alone

No one, I told someone something that I thought they would understand but in reality was too much for them. Studying people on how they act and how they really are affect me. I was in a money lending position for a while and saw what lows people were willing to step to to get a small amount of money. I objectively looked back and examined to others in my life and they had no drive but to get ahead at my cost, granted I have too much money for my own good and let them. It really taught me that most people are like the crabs in a bucket, whenever one gets close to escape another will try to climb over it to escape at their cost. Only dragging them down with them, the only one that wins is the fisherman that traps them with premium bait.

Youre right, I should try again

online friends are not that bad, or people you just can't share your problems and concerns with, i've personally met a lot and they've filled me spiritually

kys relitard.

if you love your God so much, get closer to him and dont bother us with your bullshit.

or grow yourself some nuts and realize the world doesn't work in a perfect way like you think you do.