Be me

>be me
>femanon
>want to play vidya without drawing attention
>guy i played with once sends me a friend request
>accept request since we have a mutual acquaintance
>instantly messages me we have quick chat.
>we don't really play the same games or have much to chat about
>figure we'll leave it at that
>nope.jpg
>this guy messages me every time i log in to steam
>he's always logged into some other game i don't own
>shares dull details from his day, like how he got new sheets for his bed
>never asks about me or my life
>whenever i chat about myself he nitpicks and judges whatever i say
>convo always dies after a few messages
>finally get some peace to enjoy my vidya
>"still there?"
>ya
>"ok cool"
>every single day

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>after about a week he randomly asks me for nudes
>"sorry i'm not that kind of girl"
>"haha just kidding, i wouldn't mind some regular pics tho"
>"I don't really share pics over steam"
>"ok can you describe what you look like"
>why.jpg
>"i just want an idea of who i'm talking to"
>try to describe myself as unattractive as possible
>"Wow. You sound gorgeous."
>"th-thanks but really no..."
>"You're like exactly my type."
>i don't reply
>"still there?"
>ya
>"ok cool"
>he still messages me every fucking day
>now he tries to get me to ERP with him
>"come on it'll be fun"
>no thanks i'm just trying to play vidya
>it's been almost a whole month
>start appearing offline to friends
>finally play vidya in peace
>3 days later
>"appearing offline?"
>shit
>don't reply

>wait a day before appearing online again
>he instantly messages me
>"long time no see"
>"i-i was out of town for a few days..."
>immediately starts trying to ERP
>i don't reply
>"still there?"
>ya
>"cool"
>every fucking day for another week
>not sure why he still messages me
>start to feel weird sense of pity for him
>log into steam
>"hi sup"
>he starts trying to ERP
>...start to ERP back
>try to get into the mood but it's so awkward
>boring and bad even by ERP standards
>he remembered my irl name at least
>he finishes
>"user that was amazing, I can't remember the last time I came so much"
>sends me an image link
>don't really care to see his dick pic, but click anyway
>it's not a dick pic
>it's a puddle of his cum on the floor
>"look at the mess i made cuz of you"
>awkward silence for about 10 minutes
>"btw did you cum too?"
>n-not really
>he starts awkwardly ERPing eating my pussy while i play stardew valley
>still not enjoyable
>"did you cum yet user?"
>n-no...
>"well i just came a second time"
>tell him he doesn't have to keep going until i cum
>attempt to explain female orgasms to him
>he says he's "spent" and goes to sleep
>finally get to play vidya, but can't shake this dirty feeling
>can't get the cum puddle photo out of my head for reason
>start to imagine the cum puddle on my chest
>cringe.gif
>remember he said in the ERP he actually wanted to cum inside me
>cringe.gif
>ask for advice
>everyone says block him right away
>feel like i can't just block him right after ERPing like that...
>think about what to say just to set the record straight before i block him
>go to sleep
>actually have a pretty good sex dream about an old crush

>next day
>log in to steam
>he messages me right away
>can't get the cum puddle picture out of my mind
>"i need to talk about my feelings"
>ohno.jpg
>wh-what do you mean..?
>"i can't stop thinking about you... no one's ever made me feel this way before"
>fuckfuckfuck
>tell him i'm flattered but-
>"i know we were gonna keep things casual, but I only want to be with you"
>wtf is this guy even talking about?
>tell him i'm not looking for a relationship
>even though i desperately want a bf
>"long distance is hard but it's worth it for love"
>meanwhile I can't get the cum puddle out of my head
>i keep saying no but it takes almost an hour before it finally sinks in
>"ok ok ok i understand... but you still make me horny as hell"
>can't come up with a response, so he keeps going
>"we can have more casual fun until we see what happens"
>is this guy serious?
>apparently he's serious, cuz he starts ERPing right away
>at least his ERP is actually less awkward than confessing his feelings
>time to muster up the courage to say bye and block him
>"you okay babe?"
>oh god he calls me babe now
>urge to procrastinate
>start to ERP back just a little to buy time to think of what to say...
>not sure why but the ERP is much hotter than yesterday
>actually start to play with myself a little
>he eventually finishes
>no picture of the cum this time
>why am i still fingering myself?
>start typing my last message
>hope the fact he just came takes the sting off
>write I'm so sorry to do this... But I have to block you. I know you've developed feelings for me, and I didn't want that to happen. I can't keep talking to you like this. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better friend.
>send
>he starts typing
>block before he can call me a slut whore bitch cunt

how bad did I fuck this up?

Fake and gay you love the attention

Nobody cares, op. Kill yourself. Sage in all fields.

You fucked up bad by not blocking him sooner and staying adamant about what you felt. I see that girls do this shit all the time and it's better to be up front about shit before it turns into this because if they're a decent person, they won't get all "nice guy" about shit. I've had girls straight up tell me during or after a date that they weren't very interested and I just told them thanks for being honest and I fucked off because I didn't like them that much either. You're right for blocking this guy, just should have done it sooner.

You did the right thing. You did the best you could do. It sounds like you were really weak to the attention. Poor girl. Starved for affection. Of course you'd be a little interested in someone interested in you.

just belete him from your list

TITS or GTFO