I've never had a GF or anyone love me besides my Mom and Dad who are both dying of lung cancer...

So what are you gonna do about it?

Ive been on Yea Forums a long time, I know who you are. Chris has a pretty sad life as well.

I have to think about it to write it down. I cant think about it. There is a mental road block keeping me from climbing out of this hole. As unbelievable as it sounds, it is true. Like I said my brain is sick in unheard of ways.

I dont play many games anymore. I cant play a single player games because after a few minutes the only thing I can think of is whats the point? there is obviously no enjoyment. I'll play classic WoW when it comes out and maybe that will take my mind away for a while.

I like the corner of your room

Exercise, nigger. It might be hard at first if you're out of shape (which I'm guessing you are), but eventually you'll notice your mental condition improving.

Forgive the platitude: suffering is easy and happiness takes hard work.

Get a dog

have you ever considered getting a job?

they usually take up most of your time, and then when you finally get home, you can actually enjoy resting and entertaining yourself a little bit.

you are such a fucking pussy, do something about it. get a physical job so that you get back into good health and start looking like something a girl will want to fuck, be atleast slightly over a minimum wage nigger and you can go fuck 50% of the girls in this world. its literally as easy as walking around town and calling 10 girls a day a nigger, even if you did that, 1 in 1/100 will want to fuck you, Is it really that hard to spend 10 days calling girls a nigger?

fuck sake, its always the same dumb fag complaining about where they live and shit, then fucking move, how hard was that to answer. shit if you aint even got nothing there, then that is the least of your problems, literally yourself or autism holding you back at that point.

ok so your bored of your games, then fuckin find a new hoby, go shoot guns, or draw, or fuckin fish or hunt and rape women, I really don't give a fuck.

just because ur fuckin sad that uve been sittin in that room, maby u need to get out of the damn room for a year or 2.

you'll feel a lot better having money and helping people and growing whatever skills your job will entail.

and killing yourself, shit, Ive wanted to do that for 15 years, but I cant, got some things holding me back, but wouldn't be all that bad, choice is up to you tho, but you have autism if you think you cant enjoy life with even a little. ur mind is fuckin tired of u doing the same old shit and it needs a break.

on top of that, u could fuckin find a way to make some money, then hay, if u have a thing for niggers, you can take that $5000 and go live like a king in Nigeria for life and fuck 20 aids monkeys a day. worlds ur cupcake.

No. I wake up with a headache, feeling like shit, turn on my PC and that's it. Sometimes I pace around my room. Sometimes I go upstairs to get a drink/etc. I live in the middle of nowhere and have no vehicle. I'm 30 with no job history. That's been my daily routine for just about 2 decades. How this all happened is a long story. I could probably sum it up into key pieces that needed to fall into place for it to end up like this. I'm not sure if I feel like doing it though.

Nothing. I'll rot here.

Don't waste your advice on me. I don't expect you to understand what has happened to my head. There is no inspiration or motivation that I can muster up out of nowhere and change my life. I'm sure there are some people who have done it but every situation is unique and mine is hopeless.

That's called a self-fulfilling prophecy. I know these things are easier said than done, but most things are.

idk I had like paranoid schizophrenia and shit, hated and got fired from all my jobs as a younger man, sat around doing nothing but games with no friends for many years, then finally just became a maintinence man and slowly became a normal, knowledgable and fit man that makes decent money.

it can suck some days too but hay that's life.

Do you have agoraphobia?

Start a YouTube channel and document your life so if you can’t help yourself then you can help others from falling in the same trap.

Maybe it is but I'm not sure if it's myself fulfilling it. There is probably some slight schizophrenia going on here with me. Which is why I have no idea. I have never seen a doctor besides my pediatrician when I was a child.

I'm sorry you're in such a rough spot. Have you considered an anti depressant or anti anxiety medication?

I thought I was depressed but it was actually undercover anxiety. Getting on medication has been wonderful for me. I hate to shill for pharma but it can be a life changer.

What do you look like op?

btw girls are overrated, idk if u didn't know that, most are just dumb sluts, most don't care about a thing or have dignity, now not all, but all im saying is, theres a hair on a dogs ass of finding one that's even 90% the way it should be. ok so im very picky, but anyhow.

ill stick to porn and hobbies and maby pay a hot young drug addict to stick around for a week if I get feelin too horned once every few years, but alas, I havnt even wanted that.

that shit don't matter, a man can be happy as long as he feels healthy, makes enough money to feed himself, and maby entertain itself a little.

its having shit over ur head tho, like worries, unstable job or living environment, stuff like that and a man cant be happy even if hes doing what he loves 15 hours a day.

>btw girls are overrated, idk if u didn't know that, most are just dumb sluts, most don't care about a thing or have dignity
This niggas head is fucked tii

Got any monies?

I would move to a whole new country one way you'd be surprised how refreshing it can be

btw all those schitsophrenic thoughts, those crazy ideas, are just that, all bullshit, all fake, and every day you start to realize it more and more, unless you have it real bad and then probably need ssi and a lot of my little pony and spaghettio's and tons of heavy medication. dated a girl that had it bad for 2 years, she was cheating on me the whole time hahaha, fuck man, nothing really matters, only thing that matters is that u can enjoy some little hobby's in life, I like airsoft, workin in the sun and resting behind a computer. sadly I saw every movie I ever wanted to watch many years ago, but I havnt even played any of the cool games that come out in the last 6 years.

Start a youtube channel and get all that 12 year old depressed white girl ad revenue

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I dont really have the means to see any sort of doctor.

probably like a mass shooter but ive never hated anyone and never will. I dont know them.
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You need a sugar daddy to take you in and support you after your parents pass.

you could always devote your life to killing child molesters or the ceo's of monopolies ruining the country : )

you could also try to make urself look like a piece of shit and go make like $50/hr begging, specially if u move to a better area. to just buy tons of sex dolls and fire arms, maby save up a ton of money and go live in some arab country and buy a ton of wives and slaves.

read a little about neuroscience.

my moral vows, which im currently failing, from schizophrenic ideas, tell me im not allowed to do that lol. yes I don't even take my own advice.

I can’t see shit

Who pays your rent/bills? Post more pics of your room, I love decrepit homes

Neither can I.

I feel for you man, try weed! or other drugs but weed is safe and legal, any little escapes will help your mental stability, it's the mental monotony that's probably fucking with you, love you man

where is the middle of nowhere?

You should shave your balls, I look forward to it every month. Makes you feel like you’re floatinf

Hey user.

I can't pretend that I know what you've been through. But, I've tried to kill myself. I've dealt with years of isolation. I've dealt with losing almost everyone I've cared for.

But, there's always hope man. I went from being a hermit who smoked pot all day every day to having a job that I enjoy. I'm working towards getting into grad school, albeit a lot later than I should be. I'm reconnecting with family that I haven't interacted with. I'm doing everything I can to form genuine connections with people who were acquaintances or who I would've ignored previously.

It's not easy. There's days where I just want to curl up in a ball and die. Days where I tie a noose or wonder if I should find a high building or slice myself open. But, what helped me was actively helping others.

Being depressed, you know pain. People who are in pain can feel that empathy. For me, that meant going into healthcare. I don't know what's the right call for you, but there's always hope for things to get better as long as you're alive.

This amount of isolation can only lead to one thing. Are you experiencing symptoms of psychosis? Meaning paranoia, delusional thinking, hallucinations, feeling like your going crazy but can't explain it? Think something is wrong? Can't think, focus?

rural ohio.

weed here is on the same level of legality as heroin. lots of people get thrown in jail for it. Even if it wasnt I have no social connections or money.

I tell u, getting a job is the only thing that helped me, but I also got very lucky and found a place that's kind of relaxed that cared about me, atleast for the first few years, now they just expect too much lol.

but finding boss's that give a shit and treat u like a decent human being, theres thousands of types of jobs, u just gatta pick a few you think you would like, then try a few out until u find the right place, maby get lucky and find it on shot 1 or 2.

it helps a lot, to.....feel useful. plus u learn shit and conquer shit and solve things and feel good sometimes when u do a good job.

You have depression because you have no purpose in life. Get out of bed, make your bed, clean your room, and then go out and look for a job. It doesn't have to be your dream job, in fact it's better if it's not. Work hard now and it'll force you to contemplate what you want out of life. Give yourself a purpose and you will kill your depression rather than yourself.

I'm glad you improved your situation. Like I said though, I cant move.

Some of that yeah. Not really paranoid. I wouldn't really know if I'm delusional or not there's no one to tell me so. No hallucinations. Yes I feel like I'm going crazy and cant explain it, there is a lot of confusion, mental road blocks and generally just being brain dead.

If I were you id become a Hitman or just enter the army. Free travel and get paid to kill

Yeah I get it. None of you seem to understand that you need a reason to do all of that. You need drive, motivation. I have none and it's not going to just come out of nowhere. Have you ever just zoned out and stared into the distance and felt like your brain locked up? That happens to me whenever I begin to search for a reason to climb out of this hole.

Hmm interesting. I'm no mental health professional but when I was going through psychosis it was when I was really isolated smoking weed all day. I got heavily into conspiracy theories and started believing "special things" such as telepathy, energy's, auras, etc. Anyways I really do empathize with your situation and frankly I don't know what to tell you because I'm still stuck myself. I know the feeling of having no motivation, to lazy to even care that you should be caring, etc.

You can tell us why. Some assholes will tell you to kys but I actually care, even if I'm just an user. You can tell me why this happened.

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Ive never done drugs besides alcohol a long time ago. I wouldn't know but that probably is a big factor either way. Who knows what would happen if I could just blaze it up 24/7.

listen dude. dont ever think youre alone in this struggle. there are millions out there that feel the same. get out of the house and make a fucking comeback in life.

now I cant even guarnetee im right about this shit, it might not even help you or be good for you or what u need, its just a possibly shot.

I feel u, I uh, would still be stuck in the same hole, I hadn't wanted to leave it or get the job but someone I kind of care about atleast a little, that wasn't part of the problems, like my family, well, kind of made me, I mean gave me the job. I showed up lookin like a loon and painted some walls, I was prob so broke and wanted something and was bored on that day so said fuck it.

no, your not going to be that lucky, so regardless of weather you want to or not, just go do it, for shits and giggles, if nothing else. and see what happens.

if your parents are still alive they might be pretty happy to see that happen before they die. I hated my whole family at the time tho, besides for like aunts and uncles and some of the kids, but hay even after 10 years I now kind of understand some of them a little more and even start to love them a little again.

yeah, well, other options are keep trying to find more advice or ideas, or find some better hobby's, hobys are fucking awesome, there are so many, specially man hobys :)

I think if u don't get bored tho, ull never want to do anything but continue it until ur bored again, then sit around for a month doing nothing till u again find something fun and a vicious cycle haha.

I made a discord even though its useless for me. You can add me if you want to hear my life story.

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drug use is actually what either caused or highly inflamed my mental problems, voices, stupid fake thoughts, etc, specially weed. its so funny they think its a cure all. I had quit all other things but the weed and for a year I said naw it cant be the weed haha. well after I stoped smoking it, the problems atleast became less and started to become more manageable.

beer is a hit and a miss, its great for me and other times its not, so I drink a lot and take the good with the bad, I couldn't make it without the beer tho but it sometimes leads me to a bad day or week.

Work out u pussy get a job n take care of ur mum n pop u giant fagget

Weed is definitely underrated and can actually bring out mental health issues in those who were already prone to them. Basically weed can act as a trigger. Beer for me is actually fine.

I know you said you cant focus, but it's really can be as simple as, putting one foot in front of another. Things just have a way of gathering momentum. Like exercise, for instance. Go for a run, whatever you are lacking or doing wrong, will be evident to you as you go, and slowly you will get better, healthier and more motivated. You like building computers? Maybe you can do that for others, to earn some money. That can be your work history, self employed. Most companies dont check references in resumes anyway, at least not for entry positions. Also going to a church has greatly given me a different perspective in life and an access to a solid decent community, its free and open to all. It can give you something to immerse yourself in and something to learn about, as well. If you have access to a computer you have access to a bible. I will be praying for you anyway.