>depressed as fuck living in a shithole place
>rare opportunity comes up to go study in japan for 2 months
>think its gonna cure my depression and make life so much better
>1 month in and i still wanna kill myself and nothing has changed
>only difference is im in a foreign country speaking broken ching chong to 7/11 employees at 3am buying cigs
Its nice to know i cant run away from my sadness no matter how hard i try.
Eat some rice and get over it pussy
You're still in the same place you started from. You'll keep carrying it with you. You are the problem user. Let go.
Ok but how am i supposed to get over it? Genuine question. Ive tried everything.
So it seems.... Life really is disappointing sometimes huh?
I wouldn't say so. You define you. You define your reality. Let go.
How am i supposed to let go when it seems like no matter how hard i try to let go it always comes back? Ive put so much effort into changing my life and becoming better but yet there doesnt seem to be a change mentally.
>eat rice
Fuck rice
Don't make us spell it out for you.
Let it in. You're completely absorbed in trying to escape from it. There is no escape. Adapt to it, transform it, absorb it, refine it, ignore it, there are many ways, to each their own, but escape is not amongst them. It is continuous and endless, you can't outrun yourself. Change the approach, the perspective, through it, yourself, and your relation to it.
i suggest you start eating rice
Just try not being so sad.
Really though try tasking to a councilor it helps.
get into porn ,they have male shortage
Im too depressed to kill myself but i would love that.
go listen to some of my tapes, friend.
This sounds like great advice but i dont have the slightest idea how to apply it, and even when i do then what? Am i just supposed to live with the fact that ill never really be happy?
F U C K rice
>Too depressed to kill self
>Not depressed enough to post on b and cry like a little pussy
Kek
Ive tried therapy but ive found out it really isnt for me. Maybe it was the person or maybe im just not wired to have that stuff work.
Im shameless at this point i dont give a fuck im a biiiiig pussy, man i just want a solution haha
I come from personal experience, so I can honestly relate. Having dealt with MDD for over seventeen years and two attempted suicides, I know that feeling.
For me, escapism was really my only way out. Sure it doesn't solve the problems of the world, but finding a place you can confide in now and then really helps for those dark times. I can only say that I make up my own personal stories, doesn't matter how well thought out they are, and just focus on the lives of the characters. You can put a lot of your feelings into that character, and design your own world around it. It doesn't need to be shared, shown to anyone, written or typed or even drawn, because it's YOUR special place. It's not much, but it's coming from someone else who faces the same problems every day. I hope it does shed some possibilities.
ITT: pussies who don’t eat rice
It's because you don't know how to run. Learn to escape before thinking some random occurance will stop you
Happiness is but a fleeting freeform abstract. You can't aim to be happy, if you are convinced that nothing can make you happy.
Happiness, in itself, can not be the endgame either, as it isn't tangible. If you cannot find an answer to what would make you happy, do what you haven't done before, or do what you have already done in a different manner. As a start, for example, go for a walk. Do not set a specific goal. Forget yourself, get absorbed into your surroundings, The lights. The people. The buildings. The plants. The clouds. Let your mind wander. Let it guide you. Act on the subconscious. Let go.
Happiness is a warm gun
>Its nice to know i cant run away from my sadness no matter how hard i try.
You've shared a very important piece of experience. Sometimes it takes more than a change of scenery.
I am going for a walk. See you there user.
You just have to consistently as help to different medics.
Everyone depressed think they are special.
Fuck some shotas over there. It'll cure your depression.
Ive never really thought of doing this as it never crossed my mind. But ill honestly try it out because it seems like a good way to escape for the moment while also not really carrying responsibilty through that escape. Thank you genuinely for this, whoever you are.
A nice bowl of rice would do wonders for you, OP.
Or just try some rice, you faggot weeaboo zipperhead wannabe.
HAVe you tried just not being a miserable cunt?
We’re all fucking unhappy, we don’t sit around and cry about it.
Go get a few drinks in you and find a hole to fuck. You’ll feel better.
The problem is i know what i havent done wont bring me any happiness or joy, things dont seem worth doing as it all just results in going back into the same state. Its getting harder and harder to stay motivated in order to keep up.
Yes.
That’s we we all do.
Ill see you soon user. Meet me at shinagawa
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A nice bowl of fuck off im not eating rice
Nothing will ever *make* you happy. Happiness comes from inside you. It comes from your decision to let go of the bullshit of trying to control the shit you can’t control.
Let it happen. Have no expectations of what the world owes you. Go fucking explore new places and experiences.
I like how everyone says they've tried everything but never considered medication or a therapist. I did both and it helped greatly but only because I was willing to solve my problems instead of festering in them feeling sorry for myself.
are you clinically diagnosed or "self-diagnosed" depressive - if the first is correct - please post diagnosis
Thats a crock of shit. Some people are born totally broken. I can't even feel sex and no longer seek out fun. I just work. That's my life and my only out let is trippies. You can spout off what you want about inner peace and shit, but some people cannot experience happiness or really feel it because reasons.
no movie, no song, no image, no place, no animal - nothing brings you joy?
are you alive?
It's all the same thing. Day in day out. Same songs, I don't watch movies any more. The occasional thing which picks up interest on YouTube. No place, I've being around the world 4 times and nothing. All I do is jockey a saw, I'm the best there is, I'm the fastest. But were you to meet me you'd soon understand. I have no personality, no real interests. I just feed back to you and be what you need me to be until you go away and then I go back to what I am.
I developed a complex after a accident when stopped my heart briefly, I sometimes question whether or not I am actually still alive. The pain in my abdomen tells me otherwise. But some days, I still question it. No joy, no fear.
doesn't anything interest you at all?
it's hard for me to imagine what it feels like beeing in your situation.
when i play with animals i feel joy, when i take photographs of sceneries i feel alive and in the moment
i listen to the same music too - because i love it so much
but i always get excited when discovering something i never heard before and crank it up on the HiFi
is there no cure on a medical side for you ever?
>All I do is jockey a saw
you cut concrete?
and you think you have it rough fuck you
Quit being a fag! Make the changes you want! And start sucking dick!
I try to be interested in stuff, but I have no drive at all. I have to force something and that clearly doesn't work. I do have an interest in my saw, little lynn, shes a loud angry little bitch and some times you have to play with her holes to get her going... But aside from that, no.
My parents tried to put me through therapy as a kid because I was the same then, no drive to seek out fun. But therapy doesn't work, I just tell them what they want to hear then I move on. I'm what ever you need me to be, it's second nature and always have being.
No, I'm a forester. I undertake a niche role, I work on dead and dying trees, the dangerous ones.
The night will set you free
BIG IN JAPAN
I've experienced death. I'll experience it again, but i'll never know it next time. Lifes a marathon, some finish first.
Ive got this a quite a lot as well. not the wanting to fuck my tools part but the fun seeking being happy. I notice drive comes from forcing oneself for a while sometimes but there are days where you gotta do it even when you dont feel like it. competeing with someone else helps too.be it a game or a hobby. Dont give up user. And dont put your dick on your saw.
What's your fucking problem guy? What can be so terrible that you're sad even though you're on vacation in a beautiful country. Fuck dude I've only left the United States twice and that's to go to Afghanistan to go drive over bombs on purpose so that a bunch of illiterate niggers can have a high way. And you get an opportunity to go to anime land to study and you're gonna bitch about it? You should just kill yourself you pathetic, whiny, unproductive waste of carbon.
These thing pass, although they can be prolonged (marathon), try to live gracefully with uncertainty.
Also use this time to explore new things..
Named after an ex. Thank you, I'll try user. Have a good one, the suns shining.
>I like how everyone says they've tried everything but never considered
eating rice.
No matter where you go, there you are
>These thing pass,
32 years and counting. I'm not off right away, but you bet I'm going. I'm dying at work, I'm going out as the man I am. You've being encouraging but user this is just how it is for some. Take care and enjoy it.
that's a really nice job i can imagine, i love being in the woods exploring
maybe a change of job-scenery will bring the change you seek for so long.
action - reaction
dropping out is not finishing dumbshit
why don't you visit Aokigahara while you're there
it turns out the problems were inside of us all along
How often do you work out or hang out with friends? Humans are social creatures. I hate being around people Too often but if i go too long without being around friends i get depressed
>therapy doesn't work, I just tell them what they want to hear then I move on
my car won't start, I refuse to turn the key and it just won't start
not him but I didn't have any friends between 18 and 42. the last three years have been great with actual friends and actual social connections with them.
Yeah sometimes it can be really hard to get out of the house but when you do you'll feel great after.
Why are people quick to judge when given so little information?
>user never appreciated anything
>gets to go to fucking based japan
>doesn't appreciate it
what more do we need to know?
If i knew what my problem was i wouldnt be here complaining about it now would i? You think i choose to feel like this? Plus not like ive had an easy life but thats not the topic here
we know bro, all of us are here
you gonna make it?
Am op. I dont really work out but im not unhealthy per say, im not a fat shit eating doritos and drinking coke and sitting all day, but im also not the healthiest. I have friends but i rarely am around them. I realise i have issues that when im around my friends i overanalyze all my actions and have a constant feeling of being a fake or being exposed for some reason? I contantly feel the need to apologize for things so thats why i dont hang out with friends too much. Its emotionally exausting for me