Hey there, anonymous! It’s good to see you again, I hope you’ve been well. Is anything weighing heavily on your heart right now? I’m here to listen, if you’d like to talk about it. Let’s all try to make the world a little better tonight, okay?
Hey there, anonymous! It’s good to see you again, I hope you’ve been well...
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kill yourself
that'll be a hard pass, sorry!
L-love yourself
I'm trying pretty hard at that one, don't worry. anything I can do for you tonight?
G-give me a smile
that's something I can manage for sure.
you free to talk later?
Of c-course, for you
no worries at all! let me know if you need any help setting up software.
Bump ):
hey there, grump-bump. hope you're having a nice evening.
>Is anything weighing heavily on your heart right now?
you ;)
This is a nice surprise!
Hello!
That's none of your business
))):
that's going to be a hard pass from me, sorry. anything else I can help with, though?
hello! how's it going?
fair enough~
Slut
it's ada! i'm just saying hi
Why the Jews do it?
I'm not sure I know an Ada, sorry.
I don't subscribe to the JQ, sorry.
Good! I had a big plate of Pasta earlier. Now im listening to the ballgame on the radio.
Because from ancient times they have chosen to be a parasite tribe, similarly to gypsies they go from country to country, but jews stay and try to leech out of their surroundings.
oh okay, your writing style looked awful familiar! i hope you enjoy the rest of your day
>ballgame
is it...?
I was expecting the old diner photos! how are you?
ain't sure what you mean, but alright. have a nice day too, alright?
Ha! I could recognize you anywhere, Mantis you boomer. It has been ages since I've seen you, it is refreshing in a way.
for some reason i felt like you were someone i got acquainted with who also makes similar threads, just posting with a different avatar. forgive me for the confusion!
Yeah, it's me!
I'm ok! I'm struggling with a few things here. But I'll get through it somehow.
aren't too many similar threads that I've seen around, so unless it was Alice this is news to me.
sorry to hear about the struggles, I know it can get tough at times. still watching the yard at night, or?
Hello friend!
Still working at the trains old man?
Yes, still the same job. I'm grateful that it's a stable thing in my life.
sometimes reimu (if you know them) makes threads, so i thought that might have been you. i'm already familiar with alice though. i don't think i'd mix anyone up for them.
Reimu was the one who brought us all together way back in the day.
I 'member. How many years has it been now?
that's good, at least. hopefully it's enough to get you through whatever else has been going on.
we're acquainted, yeah. haven't seen her make a thread in a bit, but I'll let her know someone's thinking about her.
she's a precious cinnamon roll~
I am moving away from my hometown in a couple of days. I lost almost all of my conections with the people I used to know there. Kinda makes me sad that none of my old friends will say goodbye to me. It is all in the past anyway, I am unimportant to then but I still think of them. Stupid really thinking about this still. I guesse I just miss having a sense of community other then my imediate family. Just burnt too many bridges.
I think it's been like 4 or 5 years now. Time flies quicker than I want it to sometimes.
sometimes you just gotta keep what you've got around you, and find a new place to call home. I hope that you'll find somewhere to belong wherever you end up next, user.
We surely are on along for the long ride, aren't we? You have no clue who am I, but we are I'd say, old "acquaintances", sadly I'd rather stay in the dark. I'm happy you've been doing well.
5 years... man, life really does slip by.
How far away are you going? Can you use some social media to reach out to some of them?
Thank you, enjoy life
You are user. That's all I need to know. You were one of us back then. Those Shrine Threads were the Crazy Glue that held me together back then. Every Monday, Wednesday and Friday at 8 pm. God, I used to look forward to those threads..
Yes and no.
That time in life, was a wild ride for sure. So did I, I'd be eager to post in that period, some happy, some really bitter, and some important memories were forged in this place in a different age.
Rumor has it that Reimu will be starting a new series of threads in the near future!
That was also a rumour like 1 or 2 years ago.
rumors sure are interesting~
You and me both!
That would be fantastic!
Have you seen me before?
Still rolling your own cigs and drinking your coffee black?
You ring a bell, there WAS a guy who used to post landscapes, he wasn't very active but I do remember someone having done so in my period.
fairly sure I called you landscapes back in the day, if memory holds true. how have you been?
Indeed I am!
You on the other hand. I don't know your face. Why haven't I?
Still dinning in small diners, usually italian food I assume?
Yes. I wasn't very active but I did help out time to time and talked a little bit. I like to be in the background.
I was called a few names but that is one of them. I am ok. A lot of things has changed for better and worse. Surprised this kind of thread appeared again. I don't feel like the same person as I was before.
Of course!
ain't here to get recognized, just here to see if anons need some help or company.
no one remains the same as they once were. you'll keep changing and growing, and you can try and make sure it's the best that you can be!
I know. People change. But it feels like there is so little left of me. Maybe I am being too dramatic cause I dislike this feeling for the old times I have right now but I don't want to leave this thread.
I think there was a need to reminisce tonight.
I'm happy to hear there has been change in your life, hopefully as an improvement of course.
Hehe, you on the other hand, you remain as the same old you, it warms me a little to be able to talk to you once more.
I did't ask that, none of us did it for the clout, most of us did it for the sake of helping. But I guess my post was rather vague, let me do it again, who are you?
Then by all means, stay right here!
Life happens :) It's better than her not trying at all, no?
Right?
Rejecting the past is rejecting the present, looking back isn't all that questionable, if anything it's healthy.
So long as you don't allow your past to hurt you.
You are yourself, and you are who you are right now because of the past you had, if you are not satisfied with the present you, we are capable of forging ourselves better futures! I have done so myself.
the only you that exists is the you of now. what's changed about you that you miss?
that's fair. I'm glad it's able to benefit a couple people, at least. it might not have been the goal, but the results are the same in a way.
that won't change my answer. I'm not here for that, I'm here for others.
what a kind little bird.
I'm glad I could do that for you!
Here I was, just enjoying my Second Amendment rights, and you people have to freak out on me.
FIST MY THROAT TIL I BLEED THEN CHOKE ME WITH YOUR SHIT
I know not to reject the past. I had a friend who did that and it did more harm to him then good. I am ok with my current self and trying to improve on it.
It's the world that has changed and how I see the world now. I just adapted to that knowledge. It's a feeling of wanting to go back but I know I have to stay here. I know what happens to people who run away from the present.
I remember you. You were one of the first. Nice Postal quote.
Dr Manhattan! Holy shit! It's damn good to see you again!
fairly certain that's outside of my scope of practice, sorry!
then all that you can do is strive to make the best of it that you can, I suppose.
The intention is what counts, yeah, lol.
Kek, got me excited a little.
Man is this some sort of old thread reunion? Jesus. The same people I used to spend the night with side by side popping back up in a same single place.
With that attitude, I doubt if I had seen you we'd have been friends at all.
Man that'd be hard, imagine the width your throat would be after the fisting, then you'd need to fill that? Man, what a job.
You sound sane enough, I'm sure you'll know what are the right choices for your own goals.
Bump
Hmm, I wonder why fun and interesting people never go on Yea Forums anymore
Surely it's not due to the front page being 99% porn, politics, scams and edginess.
Man, it's worse than the time I was taken as a P.O.W during the Korean War in that altered Marvel timeline and subjected to extensive psychological conditioning and painful testing before being torn apart on the atomic level and reformed as an immortal consciousness with vast power but no sense of humanity or individual will.
Don't worry, I know what I am doing and how to handle myself. I met my shadow. My art is my main pass time so I am at least doing something productive when not at work.
So why did you decide to make this thread again anyway? Nostalgia?
Thanks for the concern. I don't know how but I was always a decent problem solver when it comes to people or at least my friends when they had problems.
I'm not sure that's entirely true, and I'm sorry if you're misunderstanding. I'm here to give anons some company and an open ear, not necessarily go diving into the past. I don't mind that it's comforting others right now, but I'll stay out of the pool for now.
I'm curious why you're keeping your own mask on, though. I'm sure that we were closer than you would remember.
not at all, I'm just here to help anonymous give someone to talk to. I'm glad that your art's helping you, though! I remember hearing you talk about worldbuilding now and then, if I remember correctly.
I think we needed a focal point. A place where we could gather. Reimu gave us that.
And now we have this thread today, as a new gathering place!
I'm a newfag, what's the history of this Reimu guy and his threads? Seems nice and wholesome and I'm interested.
Here's your answer
strawpoll.me
What about our mutual love for cock and ball torture?
I'd rather not become the hangout thread, that's not what I'm here for. I don't mind a bit of conversation, but creating a community is not what I'm after.
Reimu made relaxed advice and sometimes fortune threads, people would come and hang out. that's the gist of the story!
>Man, it's worse than the time I was taken as a P.O.W during the Korean War in that altered Marvel timeline and subjected to extensive psychological conditioning and painful testing before being torn apart on the atomic level and reformed as an immortal consciousness with vast power but no sense of humanity or individual will.
What can I say, shit happens, right?
Also, is it me or it has gotten worse during the last year?
>I don't know how
Maybe it was because you were?
Why would I take my own mask off? I have no reason to do so, instead I have better reasons to do the opposite. Even less so when I can not see a friendly nor an old face waiting for me on the other end.
Old gathering threads where people would come in for anything ranging simple/complex advice, chilling, or tarot readings. They were comf incarnate.
Welp, it's time to go to work. Thanks for doing this thread, op! It was like a little reunion of old friends! It was nice!
(I'll lurk as long as I can, but I don't know if I'll be able to reply)
Goodnight Anonymous, wherever you are!
Ah yes, my world building. I still have ideas in my head but I never get around to typing it down. A few ideas has changed since then. It's the fear of putting an idea down and either not having it mesh well or having wasted potential. Once I come closer to being able to make pictures of people and improve on my art just a little bit more then I will probably end up doing my world. Probably just be fractured locations to explore and local life to see but it will be better then nothing.
banter is more like what b should be without the porn and edgy shit. Sometimes politics shows up but thats because threads even to bad for pol gets moved there sometimes.
Riemu gave out advice and at the start would do tarot cards. Problem is everyone wants tarot readings and became to much work. Even the one time I helped it was a lot of work.
See you around, old man.
determination to security, stubborn as always.
stay safe, Mants. it was nice to see you again.
that's fair, I have more than my fair share of projects on a back burner. maybe taking time to focus on art and its relaxing nature will do you good.
...that was a bit of a naughtier picture than I'd expected. I should make sure there's no more questionable ratings in my normal folder.
weekend plans!
Later Nep.
I am extremely depressed and wish I could quit smoking.
I think I need to break up with my GF soon and finally stop lying to myself.
I need to get a decent paying job and stop mooching off of the few people who actually give a shit.
OP this thread reminded me of the old avatarfag threads I was a part of years ago. I miss you Grape-bastards.
Never go to war without the conviction of having already won it. I walk my path with determination, I have my pride but I have the feeling that saying "I'm not stubborn" would turn out to be exactly that.
So? Will you throw me a bone?
Keep your head up man, i know its hard. just start slowly, do something u like!
anyway its getting late here and I am going to bed. good luck.
Got to find a hobby even if you are not good at it. My dad managed to quit smoking when he was a smoker for 20 years. As for the GF situation I have no experience and too little information to work off of but I am tired so I will be going. As for the job its best if you know somebody on the inside who an get you one. It's best you do some chores or do something for the people you mooch off of to show you appreciate them.
okay, it sounds like you've got two things that you can definitely work on here. quitting smoking is going to take a lot of dedication and you'll have to be able to hold yourself accountable for any missteps. it's tough, but there's resources around for getting through it.
what's got you feeling like it's time to break up? if it's just holding together for the sake of being with someone, it might be better to rip the band-aid off in one go.
are you currently on any form of insurance and could you visit your PCP/GP to ask about resources re: depression and quitting smoking?
sorry Al, no can do.
sleep well, landscapes
Smokings cool makes you lose weight and look aesthetic
and causes lung cancer, emphysema, fertility issues, a weakened immune system...
but sure, it's "aesthetic".
I just don't want to go anywhere. I really just wanna give up.
Every job I've had is a job a friends gotten me. And I've managed to burn every bridge to every job I've had. Except Gamestop which is just.. a horrible place.
Weed and cigs. I've been high for 5 years straight and not having either of my daily chemicals makes me feel horrible.
She's just a lot of stress with her mental stuff. Almost daily shes crying about depression and whatnot which I fully get cause I struggle with it. It's just taxing as all hell and I can't help. And its just every. single. day.
I'm in love with my best friend and think I might just be gay instead of Bi. Who fucking knows.
I started smoking cause it looks cool. 7 years later and smoking weed for the last 5 I wake up every morning with a cough that lasts at least 30 minutes and randomly get attacks throughout the day. Sometimes I have to pull over cause I can't see from coughing/tears in my eyes. I'm 25.
Alcibiades, being confused with a liar, you hurt my aforementioned pride. And that makes the idea of you and I having been friends at one point even more questionable.
Although, don't get the wrong idea either, I'm not looking for conflict nor undermine you as a personality, I was simply curious about my old acquaintances, it's all. I do have to highlight your patience though.
Join the army
Can't legally possess a firearm.
Don't want to have a firearm cause I really don't trust myself.
Pretty sure I'm banned from the armed forces too.
Mental hospital on multiple occasions.
it's going to keep feeling horrible to go without them, until it gets a little easier. if your health is important, it's worth fighting for.
have you spoken with her about this bothering you? it's important to discuss issues like this, and maybe it would help that she's informed of how much it's affecting you.
nothing wrong with loving your best friend, to be fair. I think it sounds like you just need some time to discover who you are.
apologies, you write similarly to how I'd remembered him. if you'd like to discuss this more at some point, I can provide you with an email that I can be reached at.
I'm not one to ask about old acquaintances, anyway. never was one for that deep of connections! nevertheless, it's possible that we'd have bumped into one another, and I hope that you're doing well now.
I'm not sure that choosing to make a years-long commitment to the military is the best choice for someone in emotional turmoil and unsure of their future. kind of the worst time to do it, if you ask me.
That really sucks.
Doesn't stop you from trying, I also had mental treatment, managed to join anyway, would you be up to it? You learn a lot in service.
I have talked to her. She immediately turns it into, "It's my fault, I shouldn't be complaining toy uo like this, you shouldn't have to deal with me, etc."
It really messes with her as people have been calling her "broken" and other shit her whole life. So she sees herself as a huge burden that others shouldnt have to deal with.
Ya know I bet I could get myself in. I don't really have the stones or the physical body for it. Like I said ina previous post my lungs are fucked.
I honestly would love to, but I don't think I'd be very welcomed in the culture. Toxic masculinity and just a shitload of anger probably wouldn't work for me. I really wish I could.
When I was a kid I dreamed of flying in the Air Force. Seemed like the most amazing wonderful thing.
that's... a tough one to handle. I think it's pretty tough to sit down and talk in that situation and tell someone they're hurting you, when they're going to beat themselves up for hurting you.
I guess it's one of those situations where you need to say "hey, I need to talk, and you can respond, but please wait until I finish because I need to let this out". you have to create a situation where you can be heard.
Unless it's simply speaking casually for your curiousity I'm not sure as to what it is particularly that could be discussed. Doesn't mean I would reject doing exactly that, you don't seem unreasonable afterall. I would have my requirements though.
The old acquaintances part was mostly situational thing, I am not specifically keen about meeting old ties.
that's fair! you seem interesting enough to talk to, my main issue is that you seem like you want to drag something out of me while this is a very ephemeral format for communication. you'll have all the time in the world to bleed the stone otherwise~
I feel like a therapist half the time with her.
Honestly the issue is that she doesn't love herself. She blames herself for everything and it just bleeds into everything.
I've gotten her to start going to a doctor and therapist but I feel like if we break up shes just going to hermit and stop doing the small amount of self care she's started and do something stupid. And if she offs herself after we break up I don't think I could ever forgive myself.
Thanks user. Even this small amount of bitching feels nice.
I've seen chainsmokers pulling off 10k jogs. Skinny guys putting on meat, and lard asses getting buff.
I can only speak by experience, which is what I'm most confident of.
If not you should atleast begin by setting strict schedules, wake up at a certain hour, everyday, eat at the same hours, everyday, so on so on, it may sound mundane, but the brain absolutely loves order and structure, also do it alongside your gf, getting support from eachother may be crucial, and even more so, incredibly benefitial.
hey, I'm okay with you bitching if it helps. that's most of the reason I'm here, I guess.
does she have other friends at all? I've been in a similar enough boat, and the one benefit I had was making sure that I could ask her other friends to be there for me after I stepped away. sometimes you've gotta rely on a third party to keep a person from going back behind all the walls they've built up.
No you sound 100% right.
The thing is I know the problems have solutions I just need to /do/. That's what people have said my whole life. I'm just sick of /doing/ i guess. I just wish I could give up without hurting those around me. I wish I could just MiB them and then they wouldn't have to worry.
Nope. She has one close friend and then maybe 2 flakey ones. That's it. Her dad's a piece of shit who is in the process of divorcing her mom (he got kicked out almost right after we started dating) and her mom doesn't believe in mental illness and always says, "Other people have it so much worse, suck it up."
that's pretty tough, I'm sorry. I don't think I've got much other than "shit sucks man" left at this point. I hope you can get through it.
People suffer when you dissapear. If anything you'd actually scar them inmensively. I'd personally hate myself for those thoughts, and I did, so I learned to be strong, not only for myself, but strong enough to drag anyone that's drowning out of the water, seek a noble goal, and allow that to become your motto and reason to not allowing yourself, a small flame you are now, die out. Strive to become the fire others can get near to, to warm during the blizzard. Sounds like a good idea?
Yeah, I would take you up on that offer, as long as we discuss the conditions about it shortly after we begin, I'm game.
why don't you lay them out?
Following up to my previous post. Do you have anything that you desire? Anything you wish to protect? Anything you'd wish to achieve? Any goal?
It's mostly a simple verbal contract if anything.
Shit does suck man. Honestly I feel better than before this thread. Still wish I had some damn weed but eh. I'll live. Thank you user. You're a good person.
Yeah user, that actually does. I just hope my psychopathic ass can do something it can be proud of one day. Find something to bring others joy. It's all I want.
A happy stable life.
Family and friends.
I want to make people laugh. I always have, always will.
yes, and I'm asking what those conditions are~
I hope that you can find a bit of the peace that you deserve in this world.
I hope you get payment for your good deeds user. You deserve it. Buy a lottery ticket tomorrow.
never been one for luck, but I'll consider it.
>just hope my psychopathic ass
First of all you should avoid kicking yourself for no reason, if you want someone to beat you paypal me 20 and give me an adress.
I more or less get the gist of your mindset, if you desire to drag others out of the void, first thing in order would be crawling out of it yourself. What sort of moral would YOU have, helping others out, without having escaped yourself yet?
What do you believe you should change, for a start, in the next week?
Pretty much the baselines for any respectful relationship.
Whatever we share back and forth stays between us, no matter what, loose lips sink ships.
I respect privacy, and I value trust.
Sounds reasonable?
I truly feel psychopathic. I could write a whole thread on that. But I realize how edgelordy it makes me seem to call myself that.
I could start waking up before noon and actually eating during the day. Thing is I use cannabis to help me eat. Without it I rarely feel hungry and solid food makes me gag.
Could also just get a job. Sounds simple.
This dude's gonna tell you he killed someone or some shit.
How do I solve the hedgehog's dilemma?
Everyone has those edgy ideas popping up every once in a while, otherwise we wouldn't be on Yea Forums to begin with, but I take it neither of us is stupid enough to let out things on impulse, right?
That'd be a basic and necessary start. You don't have a job? Then I'd say to start waking up at 8am atleast, to begin with.
You have a CV?
>This dude's gonna tell you he killed someone or some shit.
Decent people are rare to find here nowadays, so might as well take an extra step or two, you feel me?
What's the dilemma?
that's pretty vague, still. you've got to define terms and what information is off-limits. if I'm asked whether or not I've spoken with someone, I'll gladly answer whoever asks, but the conversations between individuals aren't divulged unless there's something genuinely concerning. think of it like how a mandatory reporter operates, if that makes sense?
eating is very important, for sure. healthy habits breed a healthy life. there's times where I don't feel like eating, but if I grab something and start, my appetite kicks in a little bit. drinking enough water can help a lot, too.
you accept the pain that comes, knowing that it comes hand in hand with the intimacy.
I currently work at gamestop. Its a garbage job that I work once a week for a good discount.
No I don't. I literally don't remember my job history over the last 5 years and am embarrassed to search around and figure it out. I need to call places and figure out when I was employed by them and yada yada.
I should probably start drinking water. I hate the taste so I rarely do, usually only when someone asks me to. I get wicked headaches too which are probably connected. I dont remember the last time I just had a glass of water.
Just make a pyramid. Stomachs inward.
you drink much liquid in general? it sure wouldn't hurt to get some more water in your system. aim for pale yellow, non-cloudy urine.
im unsure of the future...
If anything that does convey what I'm asking for, yeah sounds good enough for me.
Sounds like garbage alright. But fuck it, if anything ask for more hours.
Who gives a fuck about wether or not it's embarassing? Phonecalls are a pain and for some it may cause anxiety, yes, but it's best to bite the bullet and get it over with. And yes, dehydration can definitly cause headaches and migraine, drink up.
Would you look at that, already got plans for next week, making phonecalls and starting habits. Now the question is, will you stick to them or will you bail?As in? Be specific.
I drink a shitload of coffee. I couldn't live without it.
I understand that the coffee is basically anti-water but no that's basically it. My urine is usually yellow or clear as water. Not good.
Me too user. Me too.
user if you were in front of me I dunno if I'd hit you or smoke a bowl with you cheeky fucker.
Its a good plan. Thank you. I appreciate it.
hey there, Nev! you wake up from a nap?
fair enough. I don't check it too frequently, but you can reach me at [email protected] anytime.
coffee isn't a major diuretic, but it certainly won't help. additionally, the caffeine may be hindering your ability to get your sleep schedule under control. not that I'm one to lecture, but it's possible.
>coffee is basically anti-water
You fucking what? Top 5 Bruh moments.
Where did you get that from? It literally hydrates you as well as water, it IS water.
>I dunno if I'd hit you
I mean, you could try, but I'm taking your wallet and your shoes afterwards.
Nevada's here by the looks of it.
I've definitely stayed up through out the night cause of the stuff. Could probably cut back from 4 cups a day.
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Yeah you'd beat my ass user that's a given. I know it would be no contest there.
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Coffee is not bad per se, go to bed at 10pm, your gf should too.
cut back.... to 4 cups? how many are you drinking now? limiting your coffee and cigarette intake will help your appetite a bit, and maybe help your sleep a bit more.
anyway, thanks for helping get me to bed sooner, Nev! it's actually pretty late here now.
I usually turn in around 3am. Yeah I really should change that. Yeah if she could she would. She suffers from insomnia so she takes it when she can get it.
No no I usually drink around 4. Probably should drop it to just one.
gradual weaning will do you good, I think, alongside trying to set up a general schedule. morning alarms, a small breakfast, and then a morning workout is a pretty nice way to wake up!
Invite her regardless. And you "shouldn't change that", you will.
If your gf is in a rough place, what use are you, if you yourself are weak? Git gud, git stronk.
This tbh.
She lives 30 minutes away, it's not like we share a place. But still good advice.
It really is that simple huh..
it ain't simple when you have to keep following through with it! but it's small changes that will start making a difference.
It is simple, on paper atleast, being constant is key.
And here I thought you lived together, if anything, that makes things a sliver more easy, to fix yourself atleast.
So, lets go back, what is the plan so far?
A meme only a guy could laugh at.
Small changes.. Small changes.
Get into a rhythm. Start sleeping at earlier times and eating regularly. Make some damn phone calls and get my job history on paper so I can try and find something better.
Man, I had low expectations but that seems unnecessary, atleast you're on a decent-ish track. Set up an alarm for 8 hours after you go to bed, and take it from there.
Do not, fuck up.
nah, fuck up now and then, and then learn from it and push through the self-pity for fucking up. that's where the real commitment comes from. holding yourself to it, and keeping it up instead of throwing in the towel at the first sign of slipping.
Don't question me in front of our child ):
Unnecessary? Expectations?
I'll do my best user.
Okay... Cheesy as shit but true as hell.
Please don't fight ma and pa. I'll get you each a beer