Do you have any memories that make you cry/get you sad when you think about them years after the fact? Nob-traumatic, that is.
>be me, 11 years old >family reunion >two cousins my age, Conner and Sarah >Conner and I are tight but he would spend more time with Sarah when the three of us were together >they walk up to me >"hey user, wanna race?" >I knew I was fast as fuck so I agreed >we line up >"to the tree, " Sarah said. "Go!" >I start running, it isnt even a competition >I reach the tree and find out it really wasn't >both of them are gone and out of site >I walk back to the start line and wait a little bit for them to come out saying it was a joke >never happens >I slowly walk around for a while alone before seeing my brother in law and two siblings around a fire >I'm super tight with my brother in law, we would joke all the time >we are all messing around with a fire >I joke about throwing something in. Cant remember but it wasnt anything volatile. But they told me not to >I laugh and do it anyways >they all yell at me in unison >they go back and just talk amongst themselves >I walk to my tent a moment after and zip myself inside >I cried for almost an hour, then ended up getting super sick and my dad drove me home >I still remember this at 2 am and get sad about it, 10 years later
Interestingly enough, this reunion is also a moment I can pinpoint where I started to have problems with depression for years later. I'm trying to figure out if I can do something with this information to heal.
Elijah King
My dad left when i was 5. They argued right there in front of me and then my dad left. I didn't kniw what was going on so i didn't cry at the time. Sometimes i feel like i shouldn't exist.
Aiden Gray
Your cousins thought that you were worse than them, and thought you were annoying. They just aren't your kind of people. Nothing to loose sleep over.
Aaron Brooks
Geez user, and that feeling haunts you?
Gavin Adams
Yeah man i mean I feel like we all do some really sucky things as kids and I am on good terms with them now.
It's strange. I feel like the saddest thing I think about is that it just ever happened, and that someone had to experience the loneliness in that moment. Does that make sense?
Easton Walker
while it isn't a regular reaction it's definetly understandable, you seem like you really liked those guys and they basically flipped you off via action
Daniel Cooper
Why do you think I still get emotional years after? I forgave all of them pretty quickly and love them all still but I almost feel like this was a traumatic experience. But I don't want to use that word until it's confirmed because it sounds like I'm painting it out more dramatically.
Joseph Watson
More the feeling that i was cursed from before birth. My parents relationship started getting tense like 2 years before i was born. Yet he stay with my mom for seven years and let me experience the whole thing happen first hand. Sometimes i feel like other people have it luckier that their parent left before birth or at least the first 2 years. A person born deaf will never experience the loss of hearing.
