>be me
>last year
>25
>raging alcoholic
>living in my friends closet in a city a thousand miles from my family
>we write music but never take it serious
>dishwasher at a restaurant I can see from my balcony
>bosses are cool enough pay is decent
>still drink every day
>still doing nitrous because it’s all I can find in a lonely city
>music festival coming up.
>tiny festival less than 100 people
>more like a chill sesh than anything formally labeled as an actual music fest
>know this cool girl from festival page
>have talked a few times
>she picks me up on her way to Michigan.
>qt 3.14 and cool as fuck.
>hit it off that weekend
>camping drinking casual drug use. Typical shit
>feel like she’s too good for me and would never want to see me after the weekend even though we hook up
>she holds my hand the whole 4 hours back to Indianapolis
>kindasurprisedtbh.mp4
>go back to sleeping in closet
>still a raging alcoholic
>we hang out the next weekend even though she has to drive 8 hours round trip to see me
>hang out every weekend thereafter
>eventually move in together
>shit hole Illinois
>yeehaw.wav
>miss the city life but she is worth it
>still a raging alcoholic
>drink away my entire tax return but she doesn’t mind
>we hit 5 more festivals and I’m always wasted but she doesn’t mind.
>be last festival of the year
>ends on my birthday morning
>blackout drunk for entire weekend and enough free drugs to take home to kill a pack of chads
>she doesn’t mind.
>buys me paint and watches me spray a legal wall downtown for my birthday
>she doesn’t mind.
>happy birthday to me
>ff nearly a year later and I have dialed way back on my drinking
>we have a quiet life together no friends just the two of us and sobriety
>she has her plants
>I play my vidya
>she doesn’t mind
>we still go to festivals to see friends we’ve made but otherwise our life is quiet
>she’s going back to school in a few months
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>wants to buy a house
>seems legit
>she lets me go on vacation to see my family 1,500 miles away without her
>she doesn’t mind
> when she’s not around I binge drink and do cocaine to the point my nose bleeds like a faucet
>I mind
>when I get home and back to stay with family I realize I have nothing without her
>I mind
>realize family is important but I need my own life
>I mind.
>come home just to be back in her presence is fantastic
>she thinks she is slick buying new plants and a fish tank while I’m gone
>I don’t mind
>be nearly 2 years together
>be realize she literally drove hours to sleep in a closet with me
>be realize she let me work out my problems with drugs and alcohol and never said a word
>be next to her In bed right now just putting my feelings on Yea Forums because I want to tell The world how awesome it is to find someone who’s awesome
>be me
>nearly 27
>thank you music festivals
>thank you drug addiction
>thank you alcoholism
>thank you broken family
>without that I’d never be here.
>happy
There’s always a reason to keep going Yea Forumsros not every day is perfect but I never thought 5:11AM on a Friday morning not being able to sleep could make me feel so grateful
Thank you blue eyed qt3.14.
Thank you.
This gave me hope, thanks dude
And cheers with the girl, i'm still looking for mine
Take good care of yourself user, and the qt
Holy shit that's so nice to hear user. Sometimes all it takes is someone to tell you your worth it to really accept it.
Hold em tight. And don't let go
I’m glad I could help, user. I’ve come a long way from being a pill junkie that died from a bunk batch of heroin in 2016 all I needed was 3 more years to turn my life around and now I’m happier than ever. I don’t even need to drink to escape. All I need are those blue eyes.
Don’t give up Yea Forumsros there is someone for every one. Every life has meaning. You all matter. You’re all worth it. You’re all beautiful. You all deserve to be loved.
I still have trouble sleeping but it’s okay. Those sleepy blue eyes will be awake in 30 minutes so I get to make waffles and see them one last time before she goes to work. Never give up Yea Forumsros.
I have love. A beautiful girl who has a kind soul. But its nice to see you enjoying yourself.
Get out there, get a big boy job. Give your girl the things she deserves.
Join a trade. Even the dumbest ones get great pay.
Keep going, b/rother. You're on your way
That’s my biggest problem is being jobless right now. Fucked up my back in a factory after high school but she doesn’t mind. Told me even if I work part time and stream the rest she won’t mind. She literally just lets me be me and that is true love. She’s going back to school to work on wind turbines and wants to buy a house for me to look after or come on the road with her and just neet in hotels in whatever city she gets shipped to. She just wants me to be happy and I couldn’t be more gratefully to be given the opportunity to finally heal all my wounds and out grow my demons.
Yea, i've been on the same route, except i got out of it myself
I came to the conclusion that women weren't worth hanging my existence on, since the women i've been with were cunts
So i ended up hating women, alot, and not wanting to trust them
But reading your story made me realise that the way i look at women is completely fucked and sideways
I'm really happy that you got out of it, and even happier that you changed my way of looking at women
I remember that feeling, just feeling shitty that i ended up fucking it up with drugs, and the girls i've been with couldn't handle me at my worst
But out there there is a girl who can, and that girl is worth looking for, and worth sharing my existence with
Again, thanks, i've needed these reflections for a long time
have a wonderfull life dude, i wish you all the best
Time to make waffles for my blue eye qt3.14 later Yea Forumsros
I’m so glad I could help user. Just keep working on yourself and true love will find you. Be true to yourself and the rest will come.
Why did I read all this shit?
Who knows, why did you?
Because deep down you were enthralled enough to enjoy a wholesome post. Just too edgelord to admit it.
Blue eyed qt3.14 gets her cinnamon waffle with peanut butter and syrup. Just the way she likes it. Fuckin’ weirdo. I love her, boys. I’m gonna take one last look at those perfect eyes before she leaves for work and pass the fuck out. Thanks for listening.
Thanks for posting, have a nice day Yea Forumsrother
This gave me hope. I'm clean for one year but I have a feeling I'm gonna relapse soon.
You as well, my friend. I wish you nothing but success snd happiness in your endeavors.
Don’t do it. I’ve had so many friends get clean and end up relapsing and they always end up dying. Don’t give up on your blue eye qt3.14 life is beautiful and has only gotten better every year that passes since I put that shit down. I believe in you user. I care about you if no one else will.
If you’re truly struggling with thoughts of relapse find help before it’s too late. You can do this.
ayyyy
I just turned 27. Recently married to my love and still trying to work out my personal demons.
We're all gonna make it brah
I’m happy for you, user. I can’t express how happy I am I made it this far.
Thank you, that really means allot to me. I've been drinking alcohol for 5 months straight every day till I pass out and now recently started smoking weed again. I've got pain in my stomach and I'm too afraid to go to the doctor, besides that I'm not sure if I'm an alcholic already. I never had problems with alcohol, much more with cocaine and pills. But the idea of having cocaine by me gets me aroused
To user:
I go to alot of festivals, E.F. most recently, and soundset right before. ME and my fiance have been going through shit, and its been tough because we have Bass canyon coming up and Maybe 515 before that. we go hard but save it for the festivals (except for drinking whiskey). Love you user, stay safe out there
(pic related) super close to BTSM at Wooli's in Des moines. siiick show!
How the fuck does a closet have a balcony?
It was an upstairs 2 bedroom apartment I shared with 3 people. I was the last to show up so I got the closet in the living room.
Nice dubs. Also yeah we did both weekends of forest last year and one this year. We are gonna try and hit resonance for tipper but other than that nothing until next year. I kinda wanna take a year off and go to Europe instead of wasting 2k to go to forest every year we could spend 10 days in Finland with my friends. Idk we’ll see. Stay safe, fellow cadet, and always test your shit.
>always test your shit
This nigga knows what is up
Every single e pill I’ve tested always comes up meth. Fuck not testing your shit. Either bring your own or find the bunk police.
Yea that's why i order MDMA (sometimes MDA if the setting is right) and make my own capsules
Trustable vendor, test it, good prices, double win
But yea, pretty much every pill is cut up with shit, meth, ampetamines and other wierd shit
Always test it, no matter who it is from
Actually a good greentext. Happy for you user be grateful for what you have and don’t lose her
What goes up, must come down.
Lol, okay cuck. Enjoy your losing attitude.
I’m glad you enjoyed it,
I’m glad you enjoyed it, user** my bad I still haven’t slept.
this thread was gay from the get go
>be 17
>enitre family dies in car crash
>inherit a fortune I wasn't prepared to handle
>buy my friends cars and clothes, pay for holidays, whatever they want
>be 20
>drug addict
>20 people living in my house rent free
>place is a shit hole
>continue partying for another year as childhood home crumbles around me
>21
>mental breakdown
>kick everyone out
>sell everything
>move 300 miles away (England, so it's a long way away)
>buy all three apartments on the top floor of a 24 floor block
>move in
>close door
>never leave
>be today
>be 32
>over a decade of being a shut in
>live in one apartment, have a gym and and all my spare stuff in another, grow weed in the third
>have food delivered once every two weeks
>have escorts visit me 3 times per week
>eat good food
>smoke weed all day, play vidya and browse the internet
>bliss
Sometimes I wish my life was different, I wish I could go outside, but then I look out the window I dont even recognise the are anymore and I realise the world has moved on without me and I am no longer a part of it.
Then I fuck a hooker in the throat and forget about it.
since you're being thankful i'm also going to be thankful OP, I really loved reading your story, it made my eyes teary.. Yea Forums needs a lot more people like you, this board would be so much better..
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