What's troubling you Yea Forums?

Watch porn together, usually helps couples bond through sexual frustration

How does that happen? How do you NOT know you're going home with an escort?

yeah, that's why i am hesitating.

What bothers me is I’ll never accomplish getting 6 digits

How do you even bring that up? we're both from a religious background. we're not very religious any more, but we're still pretty sheltered when it comes to things like this.

I mean FUCK man, we JUST tried oral sex for the first time a few months back, and the only reason we did was because one of HER friends suggested it.

How the fuck does one even safely start that conversation? I don't want to hurt my wife. I love her.

she's your wife not your mother, just say:" hey, sweetie. You know how we tried that oral sex thing a few months ago? why dont we try watching some porn together. ya know to get in the mood and all that.."

She’s a lying hoe. Even if she did love you it would be bad. You can’t change a lying hoe user

I didn't make the move then she moved to Florida with a lesbian

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ORIGINAL porn guy here.
What I would do is I would try to softly bring up the conversation of strengthening your sexual relations with your partner. If she’s up for it, then mention watching sensual porn together. None of that doggy, slutty, hentai horse bullshit. Put on something passionate.
If she’s not into it, then you immediately need to come clean and tell her about your issue. Otherwise your life will never get better. Trust me.

I’m in Florida maybe I can changer her back for you fam

That’s the thing...I just don’t know who to trust.
Also rolling for sexes since this is a thing

ha I meant to say Louisiana don't know how I got those confused but thanks anyway

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Oof. :(
Sorry man. There’ll be someone for you. I know it.

Join tf up. Do reserves and get that bonus. Keep a long term goal in focus and work hard. Fuck anyone telling you to not join.

Alright... I'll give it a shot. but you sure as shit can bet I'm hunting out the tamest softcore porn I can find to start out. IF she is even willing to start at all.

any suggestions for what to start with?

I just really want to off myself. Looking back I’ve never really had any close/good relationships and I now struggle with connecting with anyone. I blamed this for my shit childhood but when I look at my sibling who makes friends easily, I can’t use that as an excuse.

Even though I’m not in a relationship, I’m scared that I don’t last long enough anymore. I used to be able to go for up to 10 minutes but slowly over the last year I’ve been developing problems getting and staying hard, and when I tried dating again in January I lasted 2 minutes at best. I’m 20 years old. This shouldn’t be happening to me. Is there anything I can do?

I’d do pornhub.com and just look up “passionHD”

It's a mix of a lot of things.
The realization that I will always be a loser comparing myself to those I deem better than I. Lacking the riches, the wisdom, the strength to carry out the role of a true alpha have left me depressed to my life which has become routine. I spend most of my time in a sort of dream world to escape the reality of my situation, and even though it could be worse, I can't help but envy those who I deem better than me, rather than feel inspired to better myself. I cry maybe once a week to myself, and I avoid communication with other human beings as much as possible. I feel like this is how most people feel on here, which is why I continue coming back.

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I've realized people fucking suck. Humans suck.

To make things worse, I duck once and can’t manage again for at least a day. It’s not that I don’t want to. My dick is fucked up

So I am the type of person to just "lose friends" because I just stop talking to people. I put lose friends in quotations because, on the rare occasion that we actually do talk, we are still friends, otherwise we have basically no contact.
You could just delete your ex's social media and try to move on with your life. I know it might be hard to delete it, but
1. It wont help you get over her if you are thinking about her a lot.
2. What is the point of trying to get in a relationship with her if you aren't going to marry her? She moved on. There will be no long term relationship between you two ever again. Even if she changes her mind and wants to go back to you, what makes you think she wont just find someone else to date again in the future?

The thing is, if you try to carry yourself with even a SLIVER of pride, I bet you have something going for you. What do you like to do in your spare time?

godspeed, my brother! Here, have a strong duck for luck charm.

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Damn! Im sorry man. But tbh, move on. A girl like that isnt worth it. Its gonna take time, but trust....you'll get over that skanky whore.

The fact that i have a family that loves me, friends that care, and a halfway decent life. but in the end Im unhappy and have no will to live

I WANTED to fucking marry her. I haven’t felt this way about anyone before...

Stay strong man. Ya gotta just get out there, and keep trying. Just sitting around, waiting normally won't work, does sometimes though. Just don't off yourself

Time is a fatal friend...I agree.

I'm sorry user. Life sucks man

I can't decide on an MOS and I'm worried that choosing the "wrong one" will lead to me hating the next 4 years of my life.

MOS?

She’s not worth the pain user. It’s hard at first but try to move on. Focus on yourself and making yourself the man you want to be

Go infantry, praise god emperor trump

Morbid Obesity Society?

But what if 4 years of peacetime as a grunt. I'm not ready for that hell, user.

That sucks weiner user. Feel better soon

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Original guy. What’s even worse about this situation is the fact that she recently reached back out to me about a week ago, wanting to profusely apologize saying that the guy wasn’t right for her and she wants to keep in touch with me. She looks at my stuff occasionally...and I try not to do it to her. But it’s just so god damn hard.

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I’ve learned to cut and run pretty quickly if a girl ever tells me anything like “I only love you as a friend now”. To me, that screams emotionally incompetent. As in, they can’t read their own emotions worth a damn. It takes time to fall in or out of love with somebody. Like, months... I’ve fallen in and out of love with my current girl more than once. Living apart, conflicting schedules, etc kept us apart long enough to make us both shove the relationship to the back of our minds. But when we realized that shit was happening, we reminded each other constantly. We were constantly reassuring each other that it’s nothing personal and we still wanted to make it work when we found the time.

The fact that she just lied and hid it and ran from it all until she found herself in bed with another dude tells you everything you need to know. She’s not grown up yet and you can’t rely on her to act like it. She doesn’t even know what she wants but she’s willing to try and take more than what she could possibly deserve. She owed you an explanation when she noticed herself feeling less attached to you. She owed it to you to warn you, so you could step up your game to impress her or start distancing yourself. That’s what a decent, mature person would have done. But she’s not that. She’s fuckin dysfunctional and I bet my bottom dollar you’re not the only one who will suffer for it lol. I don’t like her

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>hell

Idiot, you just got paid to go to a shooting range for 4 years. With the occasional grenade. The only things better are Tank crew or pilot. Literally getting paid to fuck around and have fun. Pilots get saluted to boot.

There’s no going back to how things are. Tell her how you feel. If she ditched you for another guy and came crawling back when that didn’t work out, then she’ll do it again. She’s trying to use you as an emotional cookie jar. She isn’t worth your time. You deserve better than that

KEEP YOURSELF TOGETHER! I believe in you, do it. Say NO to Sluts and Hoes! DIGNITY MY MAN, DIGNITY. Here, have a chester for strenght.

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Honestly, out of most of the people that I’ve talked to, this makes the most sense.
You kind of remind me of my dad for some reason. I wish I knew him better He’s...dead. Died when I was 10. OD’d on painkillers. But it’s something that he’d say.

Still trying to get my first official job off the ground but i haven't heard back from all the jobs I've been applying to for the past 3-4 months now, I'm hoping this one i just interviewed for is going to be the one but im at a serious number of ppl applying to jobs available disadvantage & with money getting tighter it just feels like a waste of time.

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This

I spent the past weekend with the first girl I loved. She said she wants to be in a relationship together during our last year of school even though we're long distance. I agreed cause I love her. Just saw her snap map and she's at her ex boyfriends apartment right now

You might want to talk to a doctor about it tbh. Being useless for a day after blowing your load doesn’t sound that strange to me, but having trouble staying hard at 20 definitely seems unusual at the least

Worst case scenario it’s an actual health problem but I’d guess it’s just as likely that you’ve got an unusually low sex drive now that the hormones are calming down. In which case they’ll either tell you to get some viagra, or maybe they’ll give you some kind of testosterone booster type shit. Who knows.

Order pizza to them, spell out “whore” in olives

My ex doesnt let me see our children hardly at all. Its every other weekend, no over nights. I hardly feel like a dad. Im trying my hardest to stay mentally afloat, but i want the pain to end. I used to come home to an apartment with kids screaming w/excitement to see me. Now....nothing. I hate my situation.

It’s the sad break-up guy here. Related to all of this...thank you all. For just being yourselves. I’m tearing up. I know a lot of people say that we’re “degenerates” and all, for general shitposting...but I believe that all of us have some kindness and compassion to go around. You’re all special to me today in some form and I don’t even know you.
Man, imagine how far we could to if everyone was like this.

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kill yourself its probably more fun

there are laws that allow you to see your kids, have you tried that aproach?

You have WAY too much respect for this woman...or any woman, for that matter. Fuck em, go stick your dick in someone that makes your peepee hard.

tl;dr quit being a bitch and do something with your life.

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Mos=military job

Fuck nigga

Thinks that are bothering me:

1. I have to do lost of research and write a thesis. I still need to come up research question to write my thesis on. I know the general subject I am going to write about, but it is just a bit overwhelming. I was given a programming task to start off, but the thing he wants me to program is confusing as fuck. The professor I am working on my thesis with even told me that his area of research is really difficult and if I want to write a thesis on it, it will be a lot more work than a usual thesis.
I am supposed to graduate next spring. I feel overwhelmed, and I feel like I will fail to graduate because of this.

2. How the fuck do people hook up?
I don't really want to date someone yet, but I am just turning 21, I am a virgin that hasn't had his first kiss. I just want to gain experience at this point. Also, at my college it is almost impossible to meet girls, so that isn't really an option. What do?
any femanon in michigan wanna hookup? lmao

Fuck...
Her...
She doesn't deserve you

Because I did not put two and two together user
I was on Grindr you faggot looking for a tranny to fuck and it seems like all they want to do is rose

things* that have been bothering me

You in Ann Arbor?

i started working 3weeks ago and all i have spent my earnings on is weed and speed. i feel like i am becoming bored of continuously using drugs but it's the only 'real' fun i know.

Quit masturbating so much.

Change for the next one(s).

i dont feel real anymore, im scared to grow up, my skin is peeling, i cant breathe, ive had a stroke, and my mind is splitting into a million pieces. im tired of scratching my neck until it bleeds and waiting for the stinging feeling to go away. i dont want to be able to feel the fact that my whole body is failing, i cut my hand on a saw the other day but i wasmt afraid to bleed i was afraid to be seen bleeding im losing my mind and im so afraid of being dying when i dont want to

I don’t sleep around. I’m not that type of guy. And I generally treat everyone with equal amounts of respect until they do something questionable.
>powder your wig more plz

Well I moved to another country with my mom and dad but I'm not making enough money, however I like my job so I hope I'll get promoted or something soon.

Actually this is false, I’ve lasted about 30 minutes and I jacked off six times a day For about a month straight

Omg I wish my worries just consisted of relationship stuff like this. You’ll be ok, and you’ll get hurt over and over again. But it’s fun. Highs and lows. Just keep swimming man. My favorite person in the entire world died a couple days ago, and I watched it and it was agony. My father, age 58. Feelsweirdman

It gets better user. I promise

Your face

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If I were at U of M, I don't think the virginity thing would be a problem lol. I don't really want to give away my college name though.
I do happen to live close to ann arbor when I am off campus though.

Treat folks with respect and trust them zero. You owe them nothing, they owe you nothing. Once you understand that, life gets a lot easier.

Im working on it as of now, but the process is daunting. Time has flown by and im not in the best living/financial situation(2 yrs) depression has gotten the better of me. I cant focus on myself cause i literally stay stagnant till i get my kids.

I’m sorry for your loss. He is in a better place now.

P sure the us is turning into fascist Germany trans latino women here contemplating killing myself before ICE hangs me in the street

You got a wife?

"Quit masturbating" has nothing to do with the physical and everything to do with the mental. Porn fucks with your head if you spend too much time with it.

Whats rose?

Yep!

we still run our energy sector like it's the end of the 19th century

My first therapist appointment is in a few days, and I'm nervous because the only thing that terrifies me more than the problems tearing me apart are the thought of facing them.

especially in the south. :/

What the hell, maybe it'll help.

Money is bothering me.

I have a beautiful wife, a wonderful kid, and a decent house in the suburbs.

In the last three years, I've spent $24k on medical bills. The house needs painted, our only car needs some work, my cat is sick, and my wife can't work because she's still recovering from cancer. Oh, and the fuckwits in my town just voted to raise property taxes again, which is going to cost me another $100/month.

I just can't catch a fucking break.

I know a saline autist whore if you want lol

Anytime you see roses it means they want the cash (they hookers)

Man, in her profile pic (yes it's a tranny and it's not a she)
She had roses and It didn't click in my mind
She was down and I thought "oh, she really wants to fuck"
It didn't click at all man and I'm stuuupid

spooki greentext

Do you respect Her?

Entry level pay for the Air Force is $3,000 a month... get crazy good benefits, too

Maybe you can actually. Be thankful for what you have my guy, most people are seriously struggling in different ways...but the fact that you can hold onto a stable house with a family says it all in itself. Godspeed user

Sure, she earned it. Could she walk away tomorrow? Sure. It's happened millions of times. Hasn't happened yet though, and for that I'm thankful.

Lol straighty fuckin breeder

>1
Look in the library or archives of your college for past tesis in the subject or similar. Also try to ask yourself "what is it?" "what does it work for?" "can it be improved?" usually is a good way to start.
>2
nigga, tinder is a thing, or just about any sex chat room in the net.

I will hook up with anyone as long as they are std free and are like at least a 3 or 4 out of 10 in looks lmao.
How can I contact you?

Maybe a 7? She's about 5 foot 10 tho

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Idk if it varies from state to state (the bullshit subtleties they have to use to signal they're hookers) but as far as I know, it's basic lingo

I appreciate it but.... a better place, huh? ....... I dunno . Watching him suddenly not be able to do anything for himself. He could hardly speak. But if I sang “I don’t ever wanna feeeeeeel like I did that day...” he’d chime in. Until the last day he just did that death rattle sound and I told him “it’s okay” if he opened his eyes. It was fucked up, man. My super healthy, independent dad suddenly dying day by day. I’m not new to death, my 3 best friends also died, young. But this was the worst. I can’t believe he’s not here sometimes.

Just add me on snap nick29.m

Don't get me wrong, I'm thankful everyday. It's just getting to be fucking stressful holding it all together without a lot of help. Gonna start selling plasma again next week, hopefully that'll be a bit of a help.

It seems that you’re more likely putting up with life than enjoying it. Why don’t you live a little instead of taking everything so bitter?

Wtf does that mean?

1. Thanks for the advice :)

2. I am awkward, so tinder probably won't work too well for me. In terms of the sex chat room thing, I am already on fetlife and going to events and still having no luck LMAO (kill me)

I can’t sometimes fathom that my grandma is gone either. I miss her but I never got to mourn properly. It never just...hit me I guess.

Speaking of, I’m blood type B positive and I know that they are very efficient in giving platelets. How much does the government pay for that?

Oh you misunderstand. I fucking LOVE my life, find joy in it every day. I just understand that the world owes me nothing, just as I owe it nothing.

What exactly do you do?

Would going to the gym help? I haven’t had a chance in a while cause of classes

Programmer.

My gf left me and now i'm all alone, it's been a month and i still feel numb

Going to the gym always helps...so long as you don't blow yourself so bad you physically can't fuck.

im really scared people will hate me in college due to my views and humor. kinda pathetic but true

As soon as she said "let's just be friends" you should have said "ok, later" and ghosted her. Fact is she was probably already thinking of leaving you and just looking for an excuse, and why wouldn't she? She's young, wants to test the sex waters.

You should do the same.

In fact you should probably not initiate any more contact with her, go and fuck 10 other girls, you don't even need to get another girlfriend, just fuck 10 randos, and I guarantee you're going to feel differently about your ex.

I should probably get off of Yea Forums then

College is the best place to act like a colossal jackass. People don't like you? They're gone after a semester.

I want to cut myself until I see the exposed purple muscle, run my hand over the gaping gouges, and sit in my tub full of water watching the water getting a deeper and deeper red.

mate, we're all alone. Cheer up, go do something you enjoy. Vidya, beer, friends, running, jack off, the sky is the limit. godspeed mate.

Same. :/

Godspeed brother.

Sorry to hear that user. I’ve just been in a couple of really confusing relationships with some very emotionally damaged girls, that’s all. I bet he was too if he was doing anything he could OD on or hanging out with those types of people.

If you have any kind of mental issues like depression or anger issues, or maybe a history of similarly dysfunctional girlfriends, you might want to look into personality disorders and the effects of growing up with parents who have them. It can teach you all the wrong things to look for in a woman, and to forgive/overlook things you shouldn’t, and it can do so very subtly. A lot of people don’t start to notice anything is wrong until multiple relationships have tanked from the same exact causes

Cut my finger and now there's an annoying sting

I did that once. Won’t happen again. I don’t know though. It’s not that I don’t want to have sex. I do. But at the same time my body just won’t work. Isn’t viagra mainly for middle aged men?

Lol 3k ain't shit. DIY? Contractors can charge 10k+ depending on what you want

you need jesus.

I have mental illness that makes day to day life very difficult and I don’t feel like I’ll ever be able to conquer it and be successful in any sort of way. I’ve kind of lost hope that I’ll ever be able to amount to anything, and I’m tired of being scared to go in the grocery store and other public locations.

my dad died and I never accepted it

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Again, I don’t really sleep around because I’m not that type of guy. I had a genuine connection with this woman...it’s hard to move on. She had so much to do with my life.
I can’t just fuck random women and make myself feel better. As surprising as it is.

Jesus is to blame

i cant sleep

Same. And I have a heat transfer midterm tomorrow

Finished my relationship with the best girl i´ve ever met. Try to start with another girl, gets rejected. I know, this is normie stuff. But hey, feelsbadman anyways.

i need a new microphone but im broke af

I want to, one day, marry the person I'm with if things go well in these next few years, but i don't tell them that because they don't ever want to get married.

she looks 16

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Let it go my man. Move on, there's no future in denial.

A year old photo at prom

then how about a doctor? you know one of those of the mind.

My wife has vaginismus and in our two years of marriage we have not been able to have sex once. Any attempt is extremely painful for her and my dick feels like its hitting a wall about halfway in due to involuntary contractions of her pelvic floor muscles. We'll do oral occasionally but this whole ordeal has left me extremely sexually frustrated in an otherwise amazing relationship.

I get that user. I’m the same way. Try doing thing that YOU want to do. Take this time to develop and grow yourself. Think of this as a stumble. You just have to get back up and gain momentum again. Go the gym, go camping, hang out with friends, try new things. The world is yours to experience

Is there any cure or treatment?

have you seen any sex docs?

On the bright side, I have been going bowling every Sunday to be more social. Got a personal score of 127 (I know it’s shitty)

Yes, mostly. But most guy’s libidos don’t start slowing so significantly until they’re like 30 or 35 at a minimum. I’d take a special interest in the health risks, and what alternatives there are, and what long term use might do to me if I had to take it so young, but I’ve heard those pills makes you diamonds for hours and that sounds rad as hell to me. If that’s how I gotta do it, that’s how I’m gonna do it.

I either have a mental disorder or a brain tumor and I am too scared to get it checked. The one thing that bothers me the most is a childhood memory I have of when I got my skull x-rayed to check if my nose qas broken and someone joked that I had cancer after I asked too often.

I guess I'm just stuck in purgatory, first year of college was done about 3 months ago, second year starts in September. I signed up for a summer job that hinges work on weather and the weather wasn't too good to me. I'll be moving away to a big city for the first time in my life in a career I'm not 100% sure about (teaching). It all just feels like an intermission period in a movie, it's expected of me to get up, stretch my legs, unwind until the next act but I just can't I want the fucking show to go on so I can enjoy the rest of it or at the very least pick another one to watch if that makes any sense.

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Every day I lose multiple hours to it and it seems that I can't learn or concentrate

Shit. Is there any sort of test I could get done to pinpoint the problem?

Can't relate at all, but hey, i hope things go well for you, Yea Forumsrother.

The treatment process is a series of dilators that get progressively larger, but she has not been able to get past the second one without pain, which leads to her negatively associating penetrative sex with pain. So that's a work in progress.

Yes we're on our second sex therapist.

Sure that’s what the doctors are for. They might want to stick a finger up your butt, but it’s a lot better to do that then suffer through the stuff they’re looking for. I assume they’ll be curious about your prostate and hormone levels mostly but I’m no doc

I can relate 100% dude.

why aren't you going back to school in september?

at least she WANTS to work on sex. I'm married and get less than you do and can't blame a medical condition.

how and when did you find out she has this problem?

I wish you the best of luck guys...I’ll pray for you

This shit happens all the time. I was in the exact same position as you, unemployed for an entire year, absolutely nothing. I never even got notified for rejections. As of late, though, I've not been paid by my employer for nearly a fucking month. Got $40 in the bank. The world of work will always suck, I just hope you make it out of it soon enough.

lost my friend, losing streak in video games, just feeling like a big loser

Alright, Yea Forums, time for a story.

>be me
>19
>work at a coffee shop
>decide, hey, fuck it, I want to work at a different coffee shop
>get referred by old coworker to new coffee shop, let's call this place "Cuppa's"
>go to cuppas for the first time and get served by this cute barista, let's call her Niki
>drop off resume, think nothing of it
>get hired eventually
>time goes by slowly, make one of my best friends at the shop
>talk to best coworker friend about Niki, about how I think she's cool
>start to talk more to Niki
>find out she's super cool, she's into Flying Lotus and Madlib and even visited stone throw studio and got a tour
>slowly get close to her as the months go by
>crush.jpeg
>she makes art and she's really good at it
>we hang in my car after work and I ask to see her art (part 2 in a bit)

>to it
schooling?
schitzophrenia?
depression?
jerking it to porn?

>asked too often
...so what you’re saying is you have a history of worrying about undiagnosed conditions?

I’m just saying. People who deal with anxiety worry about their health a lot and you said you might have a disorder. So what makes you say you might have a disorder?

I’d rather take a finger in the butt than have undiagnosed prostate cancer.
The thought of prostate cancer has crossed my mind, but I’m not peeing blood or anything so I’m probably fine.

Do go on...?

hey, have faith my brother. Sex is an important factor in a relation but love above all. give her time and your support she probably feels awful about the whole thing.

>I never even got notified for rejections
that's 100% bog standard for at least 40 years. even at the height of my degreed career I got nothing but radio silence.

most men will die with prostate cancer. very few die from it.

>she probably feels awful about the whole thing.
which user should leverage for anal access

Everyone wants a soft, insecure Hinata like girlfriend... and then the problems start up, and you try to help her... but then she doesn't take your advice and it hurts because you think that she's using you as a crutch... but you know thats not true... until you hear the 9000th break down over something so stupid that it's a fucking mystery on why or how she's upset in the first place. She has a weird and unhealthy sleep schedual, and so when she does wanna talk, she wants to talk at weird hours in the night, and make you feel bad for wanting sleep. All I'm saying is that I just feel like I'm just fucking done with this relationship.

I appreciate Yea Forumsros. It's definitely worse for her than it is for me. She blames herself even though it's absolutely not, her parents raised her super duper Mormon and left her sexually fucked up because she has only ever associated sex with shame and guilt. Therapy helps a ton and we have a lot of hope for the future!

ah, wrote it poorly my bad. I'm moving away in September for my second year of school required to become a teacher.

Part 2
>time goes by and we hang in my car
>ask to see her art
>she doesn't like showing it
>"well fuck, I'll show you mine then you show me yours"
>she doesn't have any ready to show me
>be autistic and show her my shit anyway
>shitty madlib inspired lofi hip hop bullshit
>she actually likes it
>thecrushisgettingbigger.bit
>"I get how showing art isn't really a personal thing anymore, like, it's for the person that you show"
>"what do you mean Niki"
>"like I always kept mine private, but now I know it's a disservice to everyone that actually cares about seeing it"
>silence
>want to kiss but that would be weird since we're just friends
>"... I'm glad I could help you figure that out at least"
She never showed me the art.
>telling this a bit out of order but Niki has relarionship issues
>her boyfriend has mental health bullshit and literally just went AWOL out of nowhere for a few days
>she was visibly shaken at work and almost broke down when hugged
>eventually the boyfriend was found in San Francisco
>talk about it with her eventually
>try to convince her to not be with him since they broke up
>she knows it's a bad idea
>left at that
Flash forward a few weeks
>she's been talking about getting a new pad in a city about an hour away
>she's gonna leave cuppas
>happyandsad.parchmentandpaper
>work with her on the last shift she has
>her old boyfriend rolls up to the shop
>pitfall in my stomach
>they're all handsy and shit so it's obvious they're not just friends anymore
>find out she moved suspiciously close to her boyfriend's house
>rumor is that she is living with him or at the very least plans to
>keep making bullshit lofi hiphop because edge

Part 3 next

found out when we tried to have sex for the first time and I couldn't get inside her. After a couple bottles of lube we went to the lady doctor and she diagnosed her.

glad I'm not alone, what's in store for you?

>she does "art"
>she doesn't like showing it
I want to fucking kill this fucking bitch already

Yo guys, there’s a treasure hunt in Yea Forums

before or after marriage?

Two years left for my bachelors in useless field, poly sci, and I have no idea what to do for a career. I dropped a class last semester so I was put on financial aid suspension that I have to appeal, which I still haven't done.

before

You don't happen to be Asian do you?

Part 3
>with her on her last shift
>the boyfriend is really loud in the shop, but friendly, so it's endearing to everyone else but me since competition.jpeg and immaturity
>hope to have a really heartfelt goodbye
>her shift is over and we have a short goodbye as she leaves with her boyfriend
>destroyed
A few weeks go by
>think about it a lot
>listen to a lot of madlib since new album came out
>listen to phillip glass because le eclectic music taste (Yea Forums is lame)
>get really sad driving home, think about when she was in the car
>get home and make a lofi hiphop song while thinking about her
>go on spotify
>see her account listening to flying lotus
>niki, you predictable bitch
>get to work
>make song
>think it might be one of my best
>get all emotional and think of it as my last goodbye since we're probably never gonna see each other again
>upload it and send it to her
"Hey, I made a song for you! I know it's short but whatever, think of it as a nice goodbye tribute :)"
>never responds
This was last night
>listen to the song again today
>mixed the drums a bit too loud
Why am I worthless, Yea Forums?

She actually did the mural at our old coffee shop, she's excellent at painting and got paid big bucks for it

Met this girl at a friend's place a couple states down during a party, hooked up. After I left she wanted to have a ldr for some reason and I went with it, couple months later she said I should find someone at my uni. Couple weeks after that she said we should just be friends, that it wouldn't change anything. Talked a little after that but really haven't talked since.
It's really fucked with me, she was the first girl to show interest in me and honestly think she's the last. I've just been incredibly insecure for the past half a year and haven't taken care of myself in anyway. Somehow lost a lot of weight even though I'm unhealthy underweight, not working out, ect.
I want to talk to a friend about it but it's been so long, I don't want to bring it up, but I mean it's still messing with me. to be honest I'd also like to talk to her, but I only think that when I forget some of the stuff she said and I still can't make sense of what happened. I either think I'm assuming the best or the worst

ah, OK. when you graduate stay there if you like it. if you don't like it there, put all your shit in your car and move to wherever you WANT to live. you will never again have the freedom of no job and less shit than requires a moving van. ditch or sell anything you cannot fit. get a friend to road trip with you if you don't have a car.

the point is: if you wind up flipping burgers waiting for a teaching job, you'll at least be gaining inertia (apartment, furniture, etc.) and local to the job market where you want to be.

Biracial but I look like a jew on account of the weird white/latino mix

You’re not worthless...you just had high hopes. You’ll find someone that appreciates you man.

Oh haha I was convinced you were my ex for a second, he works at a coffee shop and is 19, we also bonded over lofi and in the car at night

she fucked another dude. if that doesn't bother you tell her. being in an exclusive ldr is fucking stupid.

also there are 4 billion other girls, you're not never going to find another one who likes you

I want to kill myself but I’m too afraid to. I just want to fucking die. But instead I have to resort to cutting myself.

that bitch was 100% don't stick your dick in it, she was with someone else and at best you were a backup plan. it has fuck all to do with your dumb ass, stop blaming yourself you literally were just another NPC to her.

That's a lot of really specific factors lmao

I truly don't understand why b likes these deep nude threads so much. Who finds the shitty edited pics attractive?

What drives you to do so? What do you like doing for fun?

i want to get into drawing, feel so unmotivated though

This is a fact.

Currently in academic suspension in college, also prior to suspension college life was going by extremely slow to the point the monotony of the grind was maddening. I have barely any whom I can call friends, and those I have once called such title have long since forgotten or abandoned our relationships. Being preassured by family to join the armed services for a supposed "better" future. Can't drive; albeit have obtained licence that enables me to do so - it's just the fact I can't reverse for shit without endangering others, as well as park proficiently. Planning to take the SATs which should've been done prior to college enrollemnt, but was overwhelmed by highschool grind and stupidity to consider it.
Other than that everything is peachy, how about you fellow anons?

There was never any real potential to a relationship, I just kinda fell for her

Well I grew up physically and mentally tortured and abused all my young life, to be kidnapped when I was 10, blamed for a molestation I didn't do at 23-24, that supposedly happen when 18-19?. My 8 year old daughter died from a random disease from a one in a million chance. I can't wait for a extinction level event, fuck all humans and fuck you.

>I want to kill myself
why?

>cutting myself
don't be a stupid cunt, that shit is fucking gay balls attention whore faggot tier.

why don't you leave? give up your comfy bed, give up your internet connection and go somewhere else? just literally walk away. you might die, which would be a bonus, you might suffer, which would be way more interesting than cutting yourself and you'll definitely not be where you are anymore.

...that’s not even a little bit uncommon for an artist to do lol. Why would you dislike shy and/or creative types?

On discord or kik? I'll send the song if you're interested or wanna chat

That's what I plan on doing, minus the burger flipping. Australia and Canada are on good terms with each other for work visas so I'm probably going to fight wildfires in both countries until I pay off my debt and figure out my next move

But I love you :(

you're going to suck at it

if you don't care, go pick up drawing on the right side of the brain and read it

right haha im sorry! but don't hate yourself, you don't want to be with a girl who doesn't even respect herself enough to leave a bad relationship.

Iktf bro

I've only got about 5 real friends, none of which are female, the only fems I talk to are family. I've never had a genuine hug from a girl and I feel that my personality is annoying and/or creepy to others, and because of it I've restrained from saying anything that might spark a conversation or interest.

I just want a hug, I just want to cuddle, I want to feel needed

I just started using Yea Forums, i have a discord, but im wary of just posting it on here! what do i do?

You need to prove to yourself you can change first. If she won’t stick around to see the king you can become, so be it. You have more important things to focus on.

i'll give it a shot i guess

i know i'm gonna suck so i don't try

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I am tired sometimes I am not suicidal or homocidal just wish I was born normal.
Sucks to have people look down on you like a piece of poop.
But thats them brakes eh? I just feel down. I attempt to eat healthy and try to stay active. I am not a musclebro but sort of a beefcake. I just cant totally relate to this new generation. Always feel akward even when participating in discussions of topics. Sometimes i think i could just be insane i did seek mental health and they just wanted me to keep taking benzos. Sure the benzos make me forget i am anaspie and i feel like a normal person for 4 hours but its just a crutch. I manage to fight my high anxoety off but still get bouts of it strong as hell.

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Theyre all using it on pictures of girls they wished they could fuck for ages kek. Or fishing with celebrity pictures hoping for that one in a billion photo that makes a convincing nude

it's attention whoring at it's worst. make sure everyone knows your an artist, refuse to show work. it has fucking nothing to do with creativity and really shy peeps won't even share that they're an artist. I'm sure you've met half a dozen of these "artists" they're fucking cancerous attention whores and they debase the whole field- to wit they have you thinking that's how they should be.

Five friends is more than enough. The quality of your relationships is so much more than the quantity, as cheesy as that is. I know how it sucks not having female friends, but think about why you draw that distinction. What can you do with a female friend that you can't with a guy? Fuck?

You don't want a female friend, you want a hole to fill and you have a hole that needs to be filled.

oop i replied to the wrong thing, i just started using Yea Forums so im bad at it. but i have a discord, im not sure how to share it with you though, do i just post it up?

Then be the human you wish other humans were like, anybody can influence change user.

I'm delusional
I make a fool out of myself
I'm optimistic even though my situation might not be the best (and I'm understating just to not let in on a Doo Doo situation) but eh that's life
I wish I could've not done somethings but I'm saying fuck it and trying to dumpster dive Right now

I'm not complaining though
Just saying ama I guess

Honestly not much, just add me and I'll finagle it

I'm shollyboster #8168

With the value of the degree I'd honestly consider holding off on school until you get motivation or ideas for your next move, unless of course your parents are pressuring you, that just flat out sucks. You could put yourself out of your element and try stuff you haven't done before but I'd be lying if I said I've done it

Climate change collapsing society in the near-ish future and eventually killing the human race. Nothing can be done and there's no way out for anyone.

>My 8 year old daughter died from a random disease from a one in a million chance. I can't wait for a extinction level event, fuck all humans and fuck you.
I don't know if I'd try to burn the world down, eat a bullet, or go mad hermit but bro that's got to be the worst thing to go through.

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We got you user. And as always, gas the kikes & fuck niggers, race war now

Guys are abrasive, my friends and I have a lot of fun together, but we share very few common hobbies and interests, girls have a different energy, like I can be softer around them.

lmao the other reply aint me, drop your name and i can send you a pic related to what we're talking about

Communist revolution my boy

At least we’re all on this sinking ship together right bros?

I'm about to graduate high school and I feel totally unfulfilled. Like this was supposed to be my time to achieve and make new friends but I just wasted away instead

>until I pay off my debt and figure out my next move
wait, why are you getting a teaching degree for a mountain of debt instead of just being a firefighter now?

Sure!

considering enlisting in the air force with some pog job. I got an 89 on my ASVAB so theoretically I should be able to find an mos that isn't shit.

Not that it'd ever get off the ground in the first place, but it's already too late for revolution.

pls try and step so I can slot all you pseudo-commie degenerates

because highschoolers are a lot more forgiving on your knees and feet kek, the job has a 20% turnover rate for a reason

bet you're gay

can't find the source of this

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go earn money and get the degree AFTER if you still want. you're already going to be 3 years older if you go to school, school will still be there, your knees have an expiration date

hell yeah that'd work, just don't go SF my buddy is losing his mind doing that shit

Yikes responded to the wrong thing, sorry about that

hahahahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhahahahhaha

ngl thats nice

Just moved states and am drifting away from all my friend

I miss my exfwb so much. He was such a mellow stoner, so kind. Bit of a husky nerdy neet neckbeard but a cutie and actually really clean despite living in a neckbeard nest. I always deep cleanrd his place outta a baked ocd frenzy. I would spend my weekends with him. Listen to new music, watch funny stuff online, watch new anime and shows. Talked all night. Cuddled and showered together. Got stoned af, lots of high sex. He was my first hung guy and gave me my first orgasms during sex. First no condom and creampie He was so gentle and knew how to read my body. He pounded me so well and had stamina. He loved my cocknursing fetish and let me suckle him anytime I wanted. We'd get tacos or pizza or just loads of groceries to cook shit up. His apartment had high ceilings and huge windows that filled the room with beautiful lighting. Seeing smoke fill it up was neat. It was such an ideal thing we had. No drama, no serious feels or emotions. Just chill bliss 24/7. He moved last year and I've been dry ever since. Fug. The dick carousel online to find anything like that seems dire and I'm too much of a pessimist.

Backdoor sluts 9 is a good one.

1. Millenitards
2. Zoomtards

ehh, I thought about CCT or TACP but I'm not in amazing shape and would likely washout of the pipeline. I lift but I can't run or do cardio for shit.

I would've definitely done that if I didn't learn about firefighting when it was too late. Plus this way I can have my degree and sit on it until the perfect job opportunity falls into my lap, some positions in the northern areas pay crazy if you got the patience for an opening

tits or gtfo

post tits

Imagine being this old

Not even joking that sounds a lot like aspergers. Stop worrying so much and just be weird. People like weird people as long as the weirdo is happy and friendly and willing to ask “am I being weird?” to be considerate.

The only people who don’t are bullies, who are really just insecure for their own reasons and taking it out on others. Life is simple. Embrace the autism. Just keep saying autistic shit to girls and you’ll find one that loves it.

>I can have my degree and sit on it until the perfect job opportunity falls into my lap, some positions in the northern areas pay crazy if you got the patience for an opening
patience and no experience get you the good jobs?

Work is becoming a waste of time. It's worth more to pursue academics, but I'll be considered lazy and unmotivated if I don't work and go to school. My grades are slipping because of this.

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it hurts user. everything hurts. and I don't understand discord.

In the Scandinavian countries yes

Nope straight

nice

Clever.

your first mistake was trying to understand discord.

you can train your body for it no problem if you give yourself the time, if you have flat feet it'd complicate things though. Cardio and military shit in general is more about resolve than anything, if you're determined and willing then you'll get there

>make sure everyone knows you’re an artist

...that’s not how the story went, user. The user posting the story didn’t find out she was an artist until he had known her for a while. Why would you try to manipulate the information like that for the sake of desperaging a female artist, user?

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>29
>Have has MS for about 5 years now
>Currently going through disability process
>Can’t work
>Fiancé is doing what she can
>Somehow pull money out of our asses every month for bills
>This month isn’t going too well
>Been feeling like shit
>Run down and tired
>Major mood swings
>Been snapping at fiancé and the kids
>Always feel like a shit bag afterwords
>Just want to know if I’m approved or not so I know if I have to force myself back to work
>If I do, I’ll end up working myself into the ground

Oh and also

>Been having problems getting/staying hard because of the MS
>Been having trouble holding my rectum shut and keep shitting myself

Just kill me

Niggers

/thread

there's a massive teacher shortage in many places dude, either boomers get situated into a position with family and stick with it for 30 years or they burn out (50% rate btw) after 5 years and never go back into the field

I'm stuck on the toilet, I've thrown up twice, the last time was just yellow bile, and I have to shit but it just WONT. FUCKING. HAPPEN.
I KNOW ITS GONNA HURT BECAUSE I ATE A BUNCH OF FUXKING WALMART GENERAL TSAOS BONELES WINGS AND I COATED THAT SHIT IN ENDORPHINE MOTHERFUCKING RUSH HOT SAUSE. I KNOW ITS GONNA HURT. I JUST LIKE THE FUCKING SAUSE OKAY? OKAY?!? JESUS H CHRIST GET THIS FLAMING HOT DEMON SPAWN OUT OF MY FART BOX

I think user might be a bit... misogynistic.

The future is now old man

I'm scared living with my major mental illnesses are going to push me to suicide. I don't know how much more I can take. I find myself living for others when I lay alone every night wanting to die. The funny thing, the people I stay alive for never call or text. It's only when I have a major mental break down do they "care" and tell me how "strong" I am.

That's another thing. I'm tired of people calling me strong. I'm tired of them idolizing me because I failed at killing myself/letting myself die. I'm not strong, I'm a coward either way you go.

F

F

kys faggot

eh, life is hard enough as it is. getting up and doing shit every day does take some strength. Doing it all with a mental illness is a lot harder.

I've been taking classes and last semester 2 out of three classes ended up not being necessary so I wasted time and money and it's stressful because I'm trying to get stuff done as quickly as possible. It makes me feel useless that I cant get simple stuff like that done, and then I've been applying to a lot of places so that I can work and try to save up for classes, and different stuff that ill need soon but I don't seem to have luck anywhere. I sold nudes because I wanted to get a pen so I wouldn't feel like total garbage every 15 minutes. all of it just leaves me feeling like there's just no hope and I plan on becoming an hero before next year.

I'm so alone, i feel like im never going to emotionally connect with anyone again. I feel like my life isnt going anywhere. I just want one good friend. I just want to feel like a normal person. These days I hate myself so much i can't even look in the mirror.

google.com/amp/s/www.military.com/education/gi-bill/new-post-911-gi-bill-overview.html/amp
This can help if you are American
Crazy benefits for education if you serve for a few years.

the white race is dying and everyone around me are cucks and faggots

I miss eating my ex’s pussy. I miss fucking her. So much.

I feel completely empty and anyone that tries to be friends with me I push away because I feel out of place with other people

Also about a week ago I was trying to sleep and actually heard voices whispering in my ear and it hasn't happened since but it has gotten me scared that I'm actually schizophrenic or something.

Absolutely nothing, my brothers and I are succeeding in our lives and looking forward to the fun times we'll spend as bros. Good times.

I want to marry someone who doesn't believe in marriage

That's not bad if you're not with someone else right now

Psychosis in depression is a thing dude, could be that. Get some mental health aide if u can

I'm a failure

I’m not. But I also don’t want her back. She cheated on me. I’m the guy that...yeah.

At least it's just lust bro. That's much easier to get over.

Idk. Being inside of her just tasted and felt so incredible. I miss sex.

I'm not sure if the cia niggers like me or not and theres strange voices yelling at me

I feel like I'm wasting my life.

Sometimes I feel like I'm having a good time, creating something or doing something which will have some sort of relative impact on the world around me, or something I'll be proud of, and then when I'm finished with it, I'm reminded of its insignificance and I'm not proud of it.
It's hard to be proud of anything lately. It's hard to be inspired to do anything lately.
I don't know who I am anymore.
The girl who agreed she'd fuck anyone at this point, even specifically me, went back on that. I'm not even in it for the sex, I don't care about the brownie points from losing my virginity and I'm perfectly fine jerking off to my humble scat porn.
I just want someone to hold and appreciate in this fucked up disaster of a universe in which we live, where nothing you do matters in the long run and any impact you make will ever matter when humanity is dead.
I'll last, I'll live, I always have, always will, and recognize that none of my current problems are life threatening, but I sometimes wonder if that's even a good thing anymore.
Even if it's not, I'll live out of spite to those who would say I shouldn't. I'm fine, I'm ok.
It's just a little disheartening, to be quite honest.

As a dude who definitely doesn’t believe in marriage, I’m pretty sure I’ll give in and do it anyways after my gf has bugged me about it for 5, or maybe 10 years. Maybe that’s just me though

GF broke up with me for the 8th time

They glow in the dark. You can see them when you’re driving; just run them over.

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Lmao I get it

Bro there are nearly 8 billion people on this planet literally anyone that does anything is insignificant unless you're fucking zuckerberg. Enjoy the pathetic excuse for a human condition that we all share while it lasts. I mean that Yea Forumsro

i've never once replied to a "reply or your mother dies" post, and that bitch still won't die. i'm beginning to think the system doesn't work.

Hm. Tell that to the 2m going to Area 51

I just keep thinking on how I always hurt others, ruining the bonds we have made and the memories we share, all because I start thinking that they are better off without me dragging them down and preventing them from doing much better, and then by leaving them, I am preventing them from doing better since I left them and made it possible for them to go lower, and each time I try to talk or say anything to them to try and apologize for being such an asshole, I frieze up and just start thinking worse about myself

well before this thread 404's I just want to thank you all for sharing the shit that's been bothering you, it felt good to connect with people over my deepest concerns despite the anonymity and short duration. good luck Yea Forumsros, you got this.

getting mowed down by the US air force is very insignificant. In fact that is more insignificant that operating in the wage cage

Same man
I believe I drag others down so it becomes an aliénation effect
I believe it stems from my narcissism that again goes back to some Descartes
I think therefore I am
I know I can think, idk what to think but at the same time I overthink while thinking about nothing
All while thinking
It's retarded and I wish I was the best I could be

I'm the retarded hooker guy so eh, at the end of the day I'll die from aids like a fag

Do army and serve 4 years. You can get college paid off I think.

I knew a girl who said very similar things and acted very similarly to how you describe. Makes everything so difficult but I miss her every time she goes. Knowing she’s a good person deep down, beneath all of the insecurity and neuroticisms and avoidance techniques makes it all pretty easy to forgive. I wish she’d just stop.

Fuck that bitch. Forget about her.

Try fitness, it might help.