Share your saddest, darkest, or depressing memories

I tried to hang my self last month

When I woke up one morning and found my mother hanging from a staircase with a dog collar tied around her neck, I'll never forget how blue her face was

>be me get raped publicly for years as a by my classmates
>other classmates blames me says I deserve it
>no one ever helps me and suffer through this for years

Its weird to think people out there can watch someone suffer through these types of things and decide its their fault. I guess it really cements my hatred for people. I am going to die miserable and alone. At least I know who people really are.

My dad was a pretty hardcore drug addict. Took him to pick up his script one day. Methadone 40mg wafers feels goodman. He also had an 8 ball of coke. I had a weird feeling when I dropped him off at his house. So I told him to be careful and I loved him. Later that night I’m at a party at the river. My uncle calls and tells me my dad is in the hospital and he’s not gonna make it. I raced there as fast as I could. Ended up watching him die as soon as I got there. He just said “I’m sorry bubber” and was gone.

if i may ask:
age/gender when it was happening?
were u too scared to tell your guardians/teachers?
what happened after u left school?

porbably b8 but i'll bite

>age/gender when it was happening?

Male happened from like ages 9-10

>were u too scared to tell your guardians/teachers?

Yeah I was too scared to tell, and I would repress the memories so the few times I did try I couldn't remember what happened

>what happened after u left school?

Same thing a few my rapist classmates were my neighbors so would get raped by them everywhere from the walk home to anywhere I might be in school

My doggo passed about three months ago it was nothing bad he was just an old pup. He was my best friend for literally my entire life we grew up together. When we were in the room were he was to be put down he looked so happy to see his family around him, he didnt know what was going on I was holding on to his paw the entire time and I watched my best friend go I miss him and think if him everday all that's getting me thru is knowing hes not in any pain anymore it's good to get it off my chest thanks bros.

about how long ago was this?
Cuz if ur like 16-18 now theres still stuff u can do.
If ur like 30 you can still make their lives hell indirectly.

You made a mistake not going lefter than Hillary tbh, she's a shit candidate but Oranj Mannn wasn't the path

Dad got imprissioned injustly, i'll explain details if anyone wants to know, and my mother left him in prision to rot, turned out she was a money digging whore, started to tell my family I was an addict of many substances so they started to exclude me, everyone i know started to judge me cause of my dad, and was pretty much alone for all my childhod,(selfish bitch mother left me alone), thought about suicide manny times but couldn't do it for my dad, I was pretty much all he had.

27 police already told me to fuck off

if anyone asks, author of this painting is "beksiński"

Yours is the most pathetic story cause you went from dumb to full retard.

Few months ago I met a really nice girl online really started to like this person spoke to them for ages in discord and stuff like that just playing games everyday ditching the boys for "her" thinking it was a cute Asian girl turned out to be a trap, it still crushes me to this day for some reason I don't understand why.

im guessing the attacks have stopped?

How user?

yeah I am just left with my scars now

Why?

WITNESSED

do you seek vengeance or to let go of the pain?
or both?

Did she check your quads after that?

>Raped publicly
They stripped you and fucked your ass in public? What exactly happened?

I dont trust anyone please help.

going to wither away and die in my bitterness

pretty much that

You did good staying with him during the last moments of his life. Many idiot owners cannot/will not do that, and leave doggo or kitty to die with strangers, all the while wondering why their favourite human(s) left the room.

what country is this?

Do people stare at your scars? I can’t help but fuckin stare at the donut guy in the morning. Gnarly Supercuts. No pun intended

How nigga? You an oldfag?

Will try and keep shit straight through the tears.

Best friend said he'd teach me the art of smoking meats. Said put a bunch of shit out on the counter. After 5 hour blackout we commence the day drinking and smoking shit for a giant partty. Instead of going home he kys and my other best friend found him.

>btw to keep my sanity to write this and not even kidding. Buy a fucking shitload of slimjims. Dunk them in water and toss your favorite seasonings on them shits. Smoke them for about 20 minutes on medium heat. Only done it once. Best fucking jerky we ever had...

My now best friend is another bro. His kid closer in age to me than my bro. Like a little brother. Was at the dudes house 5 days a week wrenching on shit with my best friend. His dad.

His truck broke down so I randomly found him and drug it to his dads shop to fix it. He really wanted to go to a rodeo but I swear hes just like I was. I had a running truck but figured hed fuck it up. I said good luck and the next day his dad / my best friend found him.

I'm years latter still numb... watching my best friend try and scrub his eldest sons blood off of near white carpet was the worst thing I will ever see. What's worse is I used to clean motel carpets. Any stain comes out besides red. Blood you just start cutting carpet. But I couldn't tell him no matter how hard I tried.

We burned the chair he antihero in right after.

Worst hour of anyones life. I'd rather have cut my own dick off amd ate it than braved that and I'm just a bro

Well, time to track them down, then track their wives and daughters down, and dispense some sweet sweet revenge.

USA i am from cali but grew up around mexicans

they were very ingrained into anti snitching culture

I’m a engineering coop student and it’s just kind of been striking me that to the people i want to make an impression on, I’ll never be anything more than a number, and that I’m in too deep in a dead end specialization to change my path.
I’ve always been exceptionally mediocre compared to my friends and peers. I’ll never be the first choice, whether it’s for a graduate studies position or for a real job (which is non existent outside of academia for me).
I’m a complete waste. Probably sounds dumb

i dropped my hot pocket ;-;

Only quads can bring blue mommy back to life

I am not one of them I will never be one of them

>be me
>kid 2nd grade
>having trouble with spelling
>step dad gets mad
>punches me in the head as hard as he could
>my head hit the table
>knot the size of a golf ball
>everyone know what happened
> I cover for him say I did it myself
>He beats me almost everyday for 10 years
>16th birth day moved
I was stupid my mom use to say what happens in our house stays in the house.
I fight everyday I don't want to live anymore.
It isn't just this but other worse shit happened I feel though if I say stuff about it I will lose what little I am holding on to.

I think when people I’m close to die it all generally sucks to the same extent. The most recent being my grandpa who I can’t say I knew incredibly well but tried to talk with him more than my sibilings and cousins. After he had a stroke he kinda lightened up a bit. He was in the Korean War as a medic but he was South Korean and had to survive some messed up stuff to eventuall land himself in Canada and the US. Anyways, I just felt that he was kind of under appreciated and set off to the side from the rest of the family. After his second stroke it was much more severe and he had signed a DNR so this was it. I was stuck in an internship and the best I could do was FaceTime. I remember calling my mom to put him on the phone while in the parking lot at the hospital I was stationed and struggling to put my words together to tell him I loved him and appreciated what he had done for the family. Later that day he died. Idk. Just makes me sad that I didn’t do more to know him or spend time with him- he lived in another state so I couldn’t be there that much but still. Ok done rambling

Holy shit man. I’m sorry. How long ago was that? Anyone else fall into drugs? Who do you blame?

>was
He did in prison?

That's good. Stay strong, user.

I think the retard doesn't know coke and meth are a thing to OD on.
Or just doesn't know OD means Over Dose and you can do it on anything

I have a hard time Mexicans are into butt stuff

ahh i cant really relate to that extent.
I get anti snitching culture but this is cray.
eurofag reporting in.

Fuck.

Well, I got a shitposting group

It's a small as hell telegram group. But if you kill notifications and get blard we live al around the group. Sometimes i have nightmares or just hate myself. I roll out of bed and shitpost memes and bullshit for 2 hours and then try to go to sleep on soaking wet sweaty bed again.

They say everything happens for a reason. Not sure I buy it but there is always a silver lining.

Lost a few bros and understand exactly how they fealt.

My best friend khs and the next day our other best friend said as people we are physically incapable of understanding gods plan.

I was angry for a long time but came to realize my bro was in a hell you cant escape. He made everyone feel awesome because he knew how shit life can be.

Ruined mu y life but made me strong.

I pray daily no matter what my wife and family are okay.

Then I come home, drink a bunch, have my nightmares, and pray for death happilly knowing I did what bnb I could

Do you still keep contact with your mom and your step-dad?

She's still alive, but sustained major brain damage. Threw her in an ice bath and she came out of a coma after about 3 weeks. Quads ftw

Engineers love numbers. You’re number one!
You just haven’t found your why yet. Once you do, you’ll see things differently. Why do you do what you do, whats the point, who is it for, what is it for, how can you do it better, why are you here and in this moment right NOW you are like no other. Anxiety can only exist if you are future tripping on the past. Engineering Is only a dead end who for those turn into one. You’re an engineer. Construct a new path

Similar, kinda worse.
> Be kid.
> stepdad.virus
> violence, bruises, face fucked up.
> Hard as steel nuns cried when they saw me.
> This was the 1970s so no one did shit.
> Only one person I really want to kill.
> I'm a skeptic, don't believe in Karma, but HIS kids are fucked up and I'm more or less OK.
> I used to tell people my story until I heard ones far worse than mine.
> I know I'm not greentexting right, but again, only one person I want to kill on this earth, and God saw fit to fuck up his children.
> There is no right.
Good luck user, and cheer up.

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I once lived in a nightmare where everyone I called family, my race was being genocided. Where the water was poisoned with lead, the food poisoned with chemicals to pacify me. My children grew up learning only propaganda. The air unclean and ecosystems collapsing around me. And the world was run by a bunch of satan worshipping, blood soaked pedos. Where anyone who tried to whistleblow was killed. And I was forced to work most of my life making barely enough to survive. Except even the dating sites had algorithms to show me no white girls In my area. It was a world designed to pacify and leech off the masses.

Then I woke up and realized the ride never ends. Honk honk.

as a fellow engineer im very curious.
which subfield/major?
Roboticist reporting in.
Dunno about mediocraty but i guess my gpa would count as such. Dont really care for comparing myself to others. Then again were ur grades consistently average or were they polarized(mix of very bad and perfect)?

Shiiit. Fu k the retards. We can be inline friends and shitpost at random 24 7 if u want

How dare those cucks I hope they get beer bottle shanked. t.me/joinchat/IRGQGhFe7zdv2gsYssHJAw

It's a small shitpost grouo if you or anyone else wants in. Turn of notifications and let the feels or lols fly

My mom yes.
Step dad I keep track of where he is.
I lift and train one day I will go see him And make him feel my sorrow.
I have kids and am married I couldn't feel anything when they were born. My wife almost died I felt nothing I hate that man and want him to be destroyed for what he did to us.
After what he did he moved on to a new family I saw him once and he told the kid to listen "just ask him (me) what will happen if you don't" My brother had to hold me back.

Love you bro. Am there twice soon. Wont have any other pups. Sucks.

Stay strong man. Get some fish or something to hell keep you occupied but not worried much about them dying

was raped by my dad when I was really young, then my brother starting when I was around 9-10 years old. Mom forcibly outed me as trans when I was a sophomore in highschool, send me to a psychiatric facility where I was abused by the staff. I've had suicidal thoughts since like 3rd grade, and I pretty consistently wish I had done it back then. it would have saved me a lot of pain.

Thisand
I still cant calm down till he is gone.
He doesn't deserve life for all the shit he did to My mom and us kids.
I was helpless I am not now.

/thread

We found true suffering

FUCK THAT. MY DAD RAN AWAY AT 13 CAUSE OF THAT

NEVER EVER FUCKING TALK TO EITHER ONE AGAIN. DONT ONLY IGNORE THEM BUT VIOLENTLY REE AT THEM WHY AND THEN BLOCK THEM.

Git gud. Study personal finance and investing

Never give those fucks a dime and change you last name because I got friends that sint family and family that ain't friends and it's the best fucking thing you can do

Thanks man. I was into drugs hard but got clean about a year before this happened. I do blame myself a bit but it’s really hard to reason with an addict. It sounds fucked up but i feel he’s free now.

I'm 25, he would be 37 in August. He had cancer for about 10 years and it just got to be too much. I knew he was sick when we met, it didn't bother me. We had planned not to get married because he was in debt, but being engaged happened anyway. I miss him every day and am struggling terribly, but grief counseling should help somewhat

I moved to the other side of the country. My understanding is that he's fat. I have good relationships with his kids though. His kids, while fucked up, are wise enough never to bring him up. If I do see him, I don't know, I'm afraid all my fantasies will come true, but you can only pulverize someone once.

Anyway, nasty people attract nasty people. I'm doing fine. Perhaps two books would be helpful for you.
1) Victor Frankl's Man's Search For Meaning
2) Stephen Covey's 7 Habits of Highly Effective People

1) for people in pain. 2) for people who want to control their lives, and not be or feel controlled.

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When I was in high school a rumor got out that I name dropped my best friend for smoking weed. That was freshman year. The bullying drove me into a corner. I've never been the most stable person and I was going to kill myself. I had decided on it. One person chose to show me affection in order to "pull me back" out of my funk. Unlucky for me though, because it was an older girl. Shanghai'd me into dating her for 2.5 years. She was physically and emotionally abusive to me and I never fought back until the very end of our relationship. And because I fought back, she decided to leave me. Didnt end there though. She did the same shit through college. Shed fuck with me mentally and then take her clothes off and let me pound her afterwards. Kept telling me she still loved me while she whored herself around. While we were together she tries to drive me to hate my own family and friends, and most of my family still doesnt talk to me

I hate her more than anything else on this planet. I'm 28 now, engaged to be married next year; and I still cant let it go

Biomedical. My grades are usually pretty average with a few outliers. Meanwhile everyone I know has a perfect 4.0 and no matter what I try or how much I want it, I can never be as good as them.
Biomed is pretty research heavy with not a ton of firms. Most who pursue it either go academia or go into medicine eventually, which isn’t me. I live in the middle of oil country so what companies that do exist are almost all far away and take the best of the best.
I went into engineering because I wanted to make an impact, not just on some company, but on people’s lives. I’m just not seeing a lot of directions to go. I feel really boxed in and trapped on a narrow path of my own creation.

I know it is better to be something But all I think about is the day I see him. If my wife leaves I will have nothing to live for and it will be it.
Thank you I know. right now I am waiting for him to die on his own and trying to make my marriage work so I have at least one thing to live for ATM

My platonic love interest got brutally rape gangbanged at a party and gangbanged with dogs often. I refuse to believe this and it has traumatized me into calling escorts and asking.

To this day I'm afraid of my autism of doing that and i want to stop.

The day I almost went full Columbine. Will be the worst day of my life. Funny that the day after was the very best tho.

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It probably sounds like nothing compared to other anons in here, but school has basically become all that matters to me anymore.

Gangbanged with dogs?

Prolly wont help but mine about left. Figured if I cant sac ip and pull the trigger than I may as well help others be happy. Maybe get brownie points for the trip upstairs.

Wound up feeling a bit better and seeing a path to hopefully being happy

Hey, how about if I kill yours and you kill mine?

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Robert kiyosaki says everyone hits a low point. And it makes us or breaks us. Fight and live or suffer for eternity

hope you told his dumb ass that life insurance doesn't pay out in cases of suicide.

That's why you cash out and offer a psycho a bunch of money to an hero u.

Thanks!
I still have dreams about my ol' doggo.
It used to bug me.
Now I just give him thanks for checking up on me. You'll always have your friend, he ain't going no where without you.

Living in a one-bedroom furnished shithole apartment. I'm 10 or 11. In the middle of the night listeneing to my dad and his teenage gf have sex(the daughter of his former workmate).
Mom and I sleeping on the floor in the livingroom. She's just out of hospital after just being dagnosed with cancer. She's too weak to get up off the floor all day.
When you realize your own father is a narcissist/sociopath.

I molested my male dog numerous times when I was thirteen. I would force him into the bathroom then Jack him off while pretending to take a bath. Both of us licked his doggy gum off of each other.
I am 24 now. Goddamn I miss it.

I think the first time I cut myself was a really sad time for me, just because it was a pain I was inflicting to myself to block out another pain. My girlfriend and I went through a lot of shit, and I said some things. Bad things and her friends started hating me and she did, and I eventually decided to grab my razor in the shower and make a ton of cut marks on my left thigh over the nights. I actually did it again last night which was the first time in a year and a half because of more problems with her.

Holy shit you guys have problems that crush mine.

>be 16
>random femanon steals my shades outside of a movie theatre
>date for 3 years, lost our virginity together, realize she has a bad past, molested, ect
>start to get her shit together, she's doing better in life, school, ect.
>she moves to another city because of her moms work
>get a car, drive 300 miles every weekend to see her
>she meets a bunch of fuckups, starts hanging with them
>soon she's dropped out of school, a guy got her hooked on meth
>shes fucking him
>she comes to visit me
>he comes with her, hides around town
>I find out about all this waiting for her in my hometown with a wedding ring on valentines day
>only find out because someone she knew can't take seeing me not knowing about it all
>drive home late at night after finding out about it all
>throw ring out car window on the freeway turn
It's still out there somewhere.

I'm 33 now but watching someone you love turn to drugs and die inside at such a young age is fucking gut wrenching. I was too young for that shit...shouldn't have been dealing with it
>inb4 the cool kids tell me how that shit happens every day
Well it still sucks, so...

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She took a knot does it matter?

How did you get past it? I still have a similar problem. Whenever I’m feeling a lot of emotional pain, I heat up the head end of a nail and then jam it into my chest. I used to just cut myself and I’ve thought about switching back to that just because it heals quicker, but the pain from cuts in never intense enough anymore.
I don’t want to have to do this but I don’t know how to cope any better.

No. Sorry I asked. I’d just never heard of something like that.

What do you ask escorts?

i made a guy twice my age start cutting himself again. he offered to show me and i should have said yes but he was trying to track me down and i'm a pussy.

when i was around 9 or 10, i would do really fucking inappropriate chat roleplays with teenage boys. the oldest was 18. i just thought it was normal. i think some of it was because my mom was sexualizing me a bit, like telling me i have a nice ass and washing me in the shower. i would look at hardcore porn and seek out gore all the time and i feel like it messed me up.

no one knows this, either. it's the first time i've talked about it.

Nigga, it’s math. You’re an engineer. Wtf else is the problem. Can you use a calculator? Don’t you know formulas and shit. Math doesn’t change from place to place. If you can have that god given ability to understand numbers on that level it shouldn’t matter. You can go anywhere and do anything.

Tired of you white boys not knowing how good you got it. So you create your own bullshit and live in that privileged world. Gotfucking damnit.

probably the time where my uncle walked in on me dumping cum in my 14 year old cousin's mouth

I worked as a dog trainer and breeder for a while. One dog, Zeke was a headstrong old bastard. Used to make me chase him for hours while I took him out on walks. One day, he just sat down and wouldn't get up, so I carried this 110 lbs dog back to the kennel. Paralyzed in his spine. We gave him the needle, and he just laid his head in my lap as I rubbed his head until he stopped breathing. Don't think I ever cried so hard in my life.

I don't know. Talking to people can help, but it seems to just get worse whenever you bring up what you're feeling. So I try getting my mind off it by talking about other things with friends. None of my real life friends know about the cuts, not my family, just my ex and one friend online. I decided not to do my arm like other people because it isn't about attention for me. It just helps ease my mind. I do it at night so that I only focus on the cuts until I finally can sleep.

What the fuck is wrong with her. That's my question to other whores.

I'm afraid police will show at my door. It's an autistic tick that has to stop. I don't own any dogs, it's a prank call.

Go work in public service then fuck. Dude you CAN DO MATH! Math rules everything on some level. Go do engineering with BLM and manage water for people, just go outside and put your fucking foot out. Holy shit, it’s almost like you don’t deserve the ability to do numbers.

dude, get some self confidence. feeling sorry for yourself doesn't solve shit, you just look like a wallowing asshole

> Holy shit you guys have problems that crush mine.
That's why I don't talk about mine anymore. Perspective is priceless. So what, people would trade their left arm for a psycho stepdad.

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>I'm 10 or 11.
Hello youngun.

Your kidding. Your dad was pounding some chick and your mom was out with the cancer in the living room with you?!

Woooooow son!

My uncle went missing after work one day. My cousin, his daughter was only 10. She was crying and telling me how hard it was in her all these year (it had ben 7 years) she was saying how he would have never left and that he probably died a painful death. To make her feel better i told her that it wasnt that bag that he was choked to death and it didnt take long for him to go out. She asked how i knew that because they never found a body. I told her that there wasnt any blood or signs of struggle in his car when they found it but really i strangled him to death for child molesting my lil sister.. Vengence and making me feel a little better about not saving my sister ruined my cousins life.

I hope one day you find the courage to give your father what he deserves

>"Hello? This is [whore]? Why are you a whore? What the fuck is wrong with you?"

Good conversation/10. Godspeed, autistfag.

>Mom is dying of cancer
>I'm told she's recovering and is going to be fine, I'm only 13
>Mom is staying in the hospital, I have to visit her to see her, she can't leave
>Parents won't let me hangout with best friend, think he's a bad influence
>Mom says something like, "I love you, please don't ignore me. I just want to see you."
>Whatever, won't be visiting you again

Basically, she died and I didn't get to say anything to her, at least not while she was conscious.

Shoulda fucked your mom when you had the chance. She was into you.

I was a nihilistic, self centered, spiteful person. I really did hate myself at the time and wanted the world to know how much I hated it back. I got my hands on an unregerstered gun, and was about to do it the next day. That night I had a dream about the birth of my firstborn son. I woke up and bawled my eyes out for several hours.

I walked into a church for the first time in my life and confessed to priest everything, he got me in touch with a therapist. Had to deal with the police bit, but just got banned from every school and college campus until the therapist and a psychologist gave me a green light. I got baptized and turned my life completly around, still get looks from people in my hometown but since I moved out things have been doing great.

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This. You gotta off him or fuck him up. Hell I want to to know where he at, I’d do it for you. Unfucking believable..if true. What’s up with your mom now? She make it?

My infant brother died on Christmas eve when I was 3. It's my first memory. I've never really gotten over it.

>went missing
>turns out user murdered him
K.

When my dog got ran over. He was the best dog I've ever had, never really barked, jumped up on people, just a chill doggo. It was right outside of my grandma's neighborhood. I picked his lifeless bloodied body off the road and put him in the back of the Jeep so we could get him cremated. I will always remember the smell during that ride.

that's awful man, but on the bright side It didn't happen to you and you don't hav to deal with the shame of it so go to a specialist and talk about it

So many anons have issues that they abusolutelly wont share with anyone but yours shouln't be one of those

come in here to find out

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All around me are familiar faces
Worn out faces worn out places ohhhh

Not murder. Executed. He was guilty

pOLiCe tOLd mE tO fUcK ofF You're full of shit. This reads like some sub faggot-fantasy.

Walked downstairs this morning before work to hear my mother talking shit about me to my cousin very casually... as if its a regular thing. “He’s all creativity... no business.”

Funny to hear what your folks really think of you.

"Exceptionally mediocre"
For fuck's sake, welcome to 99% of the human population. You're going to end it all because you're not some unique snowflake. Go cry somewhere else.

Wow ungrateful little asshole.

Is she wrong though, user?

>2013
>get out of rehab
>stayed in touch with dude I met at rehab
>long story short he tells me this amazing story about how we can quit drugs forever and never have to feel guilty about anything as long as we become a part of certain
>suicidal at this point and don't really give a fuck so I drink the koolaid
>fast forward about 2 years, now in certain
>friend dies about 5 months after arrival
>95% of all the guys who were from muh part of world and spoke decent english die within 1.5 year
>town starts lacking in food delieveries, water gets cut off frequently, electricity is cut off 80% of the time, cell/internet signals are blocked
anyways, the worst memory I have from this time was when a guy got shot in the throat literally 1.5 meter away from me and it took him maybe a minute before he took his last breath, blood gushing like a fountain out of his throat, there was nothing anybody could do to save him so we just dragged him inside and just watched him bleed to death. I'm so fucking glad I made it out of that shithole, basically everyone I befriended died or were imprisoned

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This .
You may not be anything or anyone exceptional, but you can still be happy, you demented, self-important fuckwit. Stop living in fantasy and face reality.

Don't get me wrong, I felt like a piece of shit for the longest time, and considered suicide. I'm glad I managed to seek help.

i was sexually abused and rape by my own mother as a teenager and we entered a secret/sexual relationship when i was only 15. i'm a 25 year old woman now and haven't told anyone. i still talk to my mom frequently, and we talk to each other more as lovers than as mother/daughter. i believe i have seriously developed some sort of Stockholm syndrome over the years, because i deeply love my mothers as i would any lover. it's dirty, it's disgusting, and i know it's morally reprehensible. but i can't tell anyone because i don't want to paint my mother as an abuser, she has always treated me with all the love in the world and i refuse to ruin her life in that way. we still have sex when i come visit the family on holidays and vacations. i don't believe she's a bad person, but i believe i was taken advantage of at a very young age and some days i wish i could have lived a normal life without this secret that i'll have to take to the grave with me.

I guess maybe I’ve been starting to live in a bubble since I started uni. Sorry.

What the fuck man! You have a BF? Or has this shit warped you. I mean this is absolutely fucking batshit.

I was 14, virgin, I broke up with my bf at a military school. He would ignore me and we mutually broke up. (Apparently was telling people he only came over to fuck me even though I was a Virgin and so was he). Then his 18 year old friend at the same military school messaged me to come “braid my hair” and talk to make me feel better. Talked me into fingering my ass and eating me on my patio at midnight after he braided my hair saying I deserved better than my ex. Looking back he was 100% grooming to molest me. Statutory sodomy.
Anyway he wanted to date me and said he loved me. I didn’t want to.
He ended up lying and telling everyone he fucked me and I was a whore. Everyone at the school was bullying me even though I didn’t go there and complete strangers there said they fucked me too to “look cool” for months.
Anyway during the summer he was actually fucking a 12 year old so he got sent to prison. He has cancer now.....

What country.

the whole point behind Age of consent laws is that underage people are not mentally developed for sex

It really doens't matter that she was kind and didn't ""force"" you with duck tape and drugs its still sexual abuse

Could be a novel, but gonna make it one reply instead because eh
>be 16
>get in relationship
>onfidence increase, life is good, suddenly very happy
>get cheated on rather quickly
>break up
>month later ex shows up to class with disgustingly brutal self harm marks and makes sure i see them
>being a huge faggot i somehow care and end up confronting her
>says horrible things about herself and is suicidal
>continuing to be a faggot, i decide to make her mental health my responsibility
>become friends, later she flirts with me
>desperate, i take her back
>proceed to let myself get horrifically abused for 2 years both physically and mentally, as she makes me too afraid to leave by convincing me that no one will love me but her and that she'll kill herself if i leave
>graduate, get drunk for the first time, cheat on her that night
>tell her
>also break up
>mental wreck despite being free
>see therapist
>therapist who is a war vet consistently diagnoses me with severe ptsd and moderate ocd
>move hundreds of miles and years pass with different partners and never seeing abusive ex again
>still have nightmares

Way less of a faggot in adulthood though

Ironically enough, what I was working on at that very moment was marketing for my youtube page. So at the time that I was both engaging in business AND creativity I got to catch that... took the wind out my sails momentarily.

I can cop to it a bit, that yeah i prefer to make music not seek out talent executives... but It’s a bold lie to say a i don’t engage in business when I own a website, a brand, and regularly work in my creative calling to where I make decent side money and only have to work part time.

>Your dad was pounding some chick
yup, but not any chick, the daughter of someone he used to work with. So, you have to think grooming a little. He first met her when she would have been 14 or 15
> find the courage to give your father what he deserves
I'm old. He's now in his 80s. I cut him off about 15 years ago. I have nothing to do with him. My understanding is that it's been very hard on him. I hope so. She died in 1988.
It's funny how this shit never leaves you. It's always humming in the background.

After my parents divorced when I was 11 I was put on ritalin because i have ADHD and they didnt see me as "behaving correctly". I sat in a windowless room for 2 years, eventually after a year picking up the habit of snorting said ritalin and smoking weed and cigarettes, until one of my only friends introduced me to crystal. Did it on and off for a few months getting into more trouble than I can even remember before getting off both ritalin and crystal for nearly 5 months. Then of course did what all dumb chicks with daddy issues do and got involved with a guy who unbeknownst to me was a dealer. It didnt help that I got moved out of my grandparents into my verbally abusive father's house around 7 months ago now, who had made me sleep on the street more than once because he hated that I was too much like my mother and because I'm so hopeless I'll end up in a box on the street with a needle in my arm, when all this man knew was that I smoked weed and had depression. After ending things with the dealer I struggled another year with my addiction and my temperamental father, who I finally managed to stand up to, but only when he threatened my sister.

no I feel the exact same, im a physics major rn and if not hopelessly outclassed by others, I feel that teachers and faculty dont even remember me even if I talk to some of them almost everyday. I too feel like just another dime a dozen student and it rlly makes me feel like shit. Only teacher that rlly liked me was my freshman chem teacher, that guy was fucking awesome, he was always real nice to me and he always said I was one of his faves. kinda stupid but it really made me feel better about myself
well shit if I were you, I would do everything in my power to ruin these guys lives and make them kill themselves

>Unfucking believable..if true
It's just one story. He has so many. Like the time he put her in hospital with a single punch. Turned half her face purple.

But that's not the real hurt. It's the headgames and gaslighting that really hurt. He's a true master at the games. A liar with no parallel.
If you met him you would see a short chubby man, like bob hoskins, kinda bumbling, kinda funny, but totally harmless.

yes, my mother would actually encourage me to go and seek other relationships out of ours because we both mutually understood that what we were doing was wrong and apparently illegal (i didn't know during the first 3-4 years that it was illegal, only that it was gross). my boyfriend back in highschool would come to the house almost every day and they'd just have casual conversation about school. i broke up with him when i was 18 right after graduation and haven't seriously dated ever since. i think it has warped me because i don't WANT to date again, my mother is committed to me and i'm committed to her.

i know its sexual abuse and that i was raped user, that's why i don't want to tell anyone. because i wouldn't be able to see her again and it'd ruin both of our lives.

Fake

Im sorry

This one time I pirated a game and DIDN'T seed after.

Are you a father now?

My father molested me as a child. I wrote about it one time because I needed to vent but had no one to go to. My mom found it 6 months ago and confronted me. I didn’t want her to know because there’s nothing she can do about it now. I’m pretty sure she’s suicidal. She’s developed horrible anxiety. She cries constantly.
She’s still married to my dad and pretends nothing’s wrong. I told her not to do anything because she violated my privacy by digging through my notebooks/things. She’s nosy. I told her I was never going to tell anyone and that it was wrong of her to take that control from me. I don’t know.
My mom has always called me a slut and a whore even though she’s a serial cheater, and I don’t really do anything slutty besides having sex with my boyfriend. Which isn’t even slutty... she starts rumors about me. Says I’m a drug addict and alcoholic. My dad tried drowning me and my family when I was five. He was a coke addict. My brother beat me on a daily basis, my dad tried breaking my arm. My dad tried shooting me.
I’m 22.
My boyfriend saved me from them.

The biggest lie passed off on children in the last 50 years is that everyone is unique and special and has some special unique talent they going to change the world with.
Humans are just animals, pack animals at that, and really, more than anything, the vast majority of us find the most pleasure and contentment in simply finding your people and staying close to them, and procreating. There fucking NOTHING wrong with being basic - own that shit with confidence and people will actually like you more than if you were some uniquely talented unicorn.

This is seriously hot but fucking insane if true. How old is your mom?

I drank a fifth of Johnnie Walker and ate a handful of Etizolam. Made sure the screws holding the metal beam in my closet were in as tight as possible; placed my belt around the beam, and then placed my head within the belt and applied as much pressure as I could upon my airway. Those final seconds of consciousness was the purest form of hatred that I've since felt. I lost consciousness within seconds, and all of the sudden I come to with the beam bent and dislodged from the wall. I only weighed a buck seventy soak and wet, so didn't think my weight would be an issue. But here I am, living on in spite of everyone else. As dark as that moment was, it freed me of my fears.

I just hope you weren’t out there throwing your pussy around. It’s the worst.

Fucking tell someone if you regret it so much. You're an adult now and you need to think like an adult, what your mom did/is doing to you is wrong and you're too far out to see it.

Karma is a magnificent, malicious bitch.

Not always true. Many policies will pay out for suicide if the insured has the be policy for at least 2-3 years.

This is the wildest shit I’ve ever read. How old are you? Brothers and sisters? Are you a lesbian now or will you ever consider a real valid piping?

she'll be turning 46 this fall. i believe she was 35-36 when she began raping me. i remember her being 38 when we first "officially" entered our relationship.

>17 & alcoholic daddy issues
>meet 28 year old on tinder
>picks me up. We live 40 mins away
>start having anal sex after meeting twice
>begin dating
>all good but then start arguing constantly
>I’m a “actual virgin” we only have anal
>constantly would harass me for my virginity
>threatens to dump me so I finally give him my virginity, holding back tears the entire time but he still does it anyway
>turn 18
>hits me and doesn’t let me have friends. For a full year I didn’t leave his apartment to have friends only if I was with him.
>he was arrested for hitting me so bad and made me pay his lawyer to have charges lessened or he’d come after me when he got out
>20 now
>can’t find courage to leave

Hey, don't feel any guilt or shame over it - it really reeeally isn't your fault. I would suggest trying hard to move on though, because you're missing out on other shit in life, and you don't want to end up at 40-50 and realize you were tied up with this shit for the best years of your life.
Don't worry about it being a secret - that's your business, and it's simply not important for anyone to know.

For real though, don't let guilt and shame keep you from moving on; once you move on, you don't owe the past shit.

Girl what the fuck, RUN

Move, get the fuck away from all of them. Find new peeps elsewhere and start over you REALLY can, and you definitely can move on from it. You don't owe any of them shit. I hope life gets better for you - I definitely know it CAN.

already said i was 25 in original post. no, no, and i don't think so? i mean, i've always been curious about what it would be like to be physically intimate with someone else, but the thought of sharing a bed with someone who isn't my mother makes me nauseous (which is ironic considering it's supposed to be the other way around). i literally feel physically sick when i think about having sex with someone else. the bond that i have with my mother is immensely deep and strong, it goes beyond familial. she's my life partner.

I wonder if she thinks about when she’s older. Like a old lady bruh? Can you imagine eating the snatch that hatched you?

What's your kik my wife wants to fuck you, you hilarious bastard

post family pics so we can fap

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If you don't move on, you're truly fucked. When you hit that wall at like 35-40 you're going to start feeling like you wasted the last couple decades of your life.

Play this right and we can sell the rights to Lifetime. This movie would be incredible. We’d get Cathy Bates to play your mom and then Winona rider to play you. A pre-stranger things Winona. Y’all are white right? Cuz this is some wypipo shit for real.

i appreciate the comfort user, i know it isn't my fault and i understand i was taken advantage of, but the thing is, now that i've been compliant after all these years and have gone along with it, it started to become REAL for me. i started to develop actual feelings for my mom and i'm now at the point where i don't care about what she did to me or how fucked up i turned out to be because of her; all i know now is that i want to be with her for as long as i can and that i want this more than anything now. she's my entire life.

of course i've thought about this and i've already accepted the fact that i'm just going to off myself once my mother dies, what's the point? my life revolves around her and what we have, i know nothing outside of it. i genuinely can't imagine a world where i can't fuck my mom.

No, but considering it.
As fucked up as my parents were (I'd diagnose her as bi-polar), they were also from very diverse ethnic backgrounds. The building blocks are good. I'm in my 40s, fit, very handsome, big downstairs. On dating sites, the age scares women (too old), but in person, face-to-face, I have all the luck. (pic related, me last year)
My worry is passing on all the mental shit. the crazyness.
It's fucked up, through all of it, I am happy to be me.

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tell us more about the sex thats all we care about

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That kind of shit can poison you. You need to find a way to let that anger go.

i'd probably kill myself too if i couldn't get anymore mommy snatch

You think this is white people shit? Oh god that is fucking hilarious.

No, seriously, get some help because this isn't okay. You've been conditioned after all these years of sexual abuse to see this as normal and okay, but this is going to ruin your entire life. How fucking hot is your mom?

Lady, that is so bad. I’m not even going to joke or add to your shit. You the only child? Life could be so great but you lettin moms take your soul. If she knew you wanted to off yourself if she died then in all honesty what do you think her reaction would be.

Damn nigga, pull your pants up. If you do have a kid I hope you do your best and be the oppposite of what happened to you. One love bruh. And pull up your fuckin pants.

I'm a victim of the (((same people))), spread the word user, don't racemix.
t. Self hating mulatto

I’m trying to make us some money damnitt. This story is fucking incredible.

Sounds about white.

September 18th 2000, my Dad wakes me up at 7:28 a.m.. Cousin's husband at the time (detective) comes in fully dressed in a suit. Tells me the reason I didn't go back to my mom's last night is because she was dead.
Next week, go back to school. The story of my mom killing herself had already spread.

Don’t we all grow up on propaganda. What isn’t propaganda.

what the fuck user

My older brother raping me.

I’m sayin!

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How old were you? How’s her suicide effected you? She leave a note or anything? More importantly, How are you now?

>If you do have a kid I hope you do your best and be the oppposite of what happened to you.
I got a dog a few years ago to test myself. She's now my best friend ever (I cannot believe I waited until my 40s to get a dog).
I think I can do it. I have it in me to be a good caring person.
Thank you, user. Good luck to you too.

i've told her about offing myself once she dies and she cried. she told me this wasn't the life she wanted me to have and kept apologizing over and over for everything that has happened over the years and even threatened to end our relationship on the spot if i didn't promise her i'd try to make the effort of finding something else to live for other than herself. i promised her but lied; i genuinely don't know how to live a life that doesn't involve my mother in some way. we've considered having me marry just for the sake of normalcy and to cover things up a bit better. the entire family knows i'm a mommy's girl and it would look weird if i just didn't marry and stayed with my mom all the time.

Yoooooo what about Pops? !

don't you want kids yourself? what the fuck are you going to do with them, repeat the same mistake? your reason to live should be to become a better mother than your mother was.

Here I'll make up for your greentext bullshitting
>mother fucks a man after step father abandoned her in an uproar
>comes back to pregnancy because they already had 3 kids and he has no chance with other humans
>told she can keep me but she must raise me alone
>Shes kinda pleased since this guy had beat her and the other kids back "in the old country"
>drops me as a child as the alcoholic he is
>oldest son knows I'm a step brother, tries to drown me
>mother escapes the country with us, shes weak and ends up returning to him because he begged
>New home, all brothers are a decade older, only son living at home, I'm 7 with a bunk bed to myself
>guy gets drunk and bursts into my room at night to threaten me
>"I'll beat you so bad, I'll leave scars, and when people see those scars you'll have to explain what I did to you"
>Watched him beat my brothers
>get to 12 years old being a great kid, no issues, brothers liked me so much they fought over who could replace stepfather as a father figure
>step father gets into bed with me one night and fucks with my buthole
>Turn evil right then and there

>obtain scholarship, get this man to cry in my arms, pleading with me that I'm his son, thinking I dont know
>Leave whole family behind, they're fucking retards in comparison to the people I had become accustomed to
>explain to family what happened as my reason why

> return home to talk to the man, even though I went through all that shit without hurting him he just can't accept my accusation because the alcoholic cant remember
>So desperate he tries to blame son
> Sarcastically say OK I LIED
>he ignores the sarcasm, things I was serious cause he wants it so bad. gets me so angry I try and beat him to death
>only stop because I realize it will be worse for him to live
>no lawyers, trying to go straight to jail
>Mental health worker looks into it, meets the rest of the family and gets the charges dropped
He'll never see his family again and i got off scottfree

I finally had a chance to get naked with a girl i was so in lust with. We were in sixth grade and she was a goddess. The perfect tits, ass, face. The whole package in a 12 year old. I was going over to her house to get comfy with her. All I had to do was call my mom and say i would be late getting home. It was back in the days that calling meant the dial phone in the office. When my mom answered i just said i was gojng to a friends house, i would get home late. Thd secretary took the phone from me and told my mom she had seen that girl and I together all day and that was where i was going. Fucking cunt personally marched my ass to the bus going home, and told the driver to make sure i got there. Fucking puke motherfuckers. Long story short, she got pissed when i didn't show and never have me a chance to explain. Mg mom and dad gave me a stern lecture on being alone with girls, and just how disappointed they were in me. I was so close, and that cunt secretary botched it. Later on in high school that girl forgot why she was mad at me and asked me if i remembered. I gave her the story, she felt so bad about shutting me down back then that i got a whole night alone with her. I hate to say it, but, it was worth the wait.

Forget assholes and focus on those you care about.

man I thought you were trolling at first but this shit... I don't fuck with how genuine all of this sounds

ok write this down we're gonna have this lady marry some chad and then the mother is going to get jealous and crash the wedding, fucking her own daughter ontop of the wedding cake. we need to spice this up a bit

>don’t you want kids yourself
Bro this chick is fucking wreckt right now. Plus she said she couldn’t even bear the thought of laying with somebody not her mom
>reason to live
Bro, the reason it’s to have carnal relations Odysseus style with her freaking mom!
>was
Is

All you need is a good dose of vitamin D. Trust me. Get blacked.

grew in in a very abusive household, my father and brother would physically/emotionally/psychologically fuck with me everyday.
my earliest memory is my brother trying to bash my head in with a fake water squirting camera, just to impress his friend who was spending the night. luckily my grandma intervened. but she wasn't around all that often, and my mother couldn't protect me because she was busy being beaten by my father.
other early memories:
-my dad with a handful of my moms hair, holding a bbq fork to my moms eye, threatening to gouge it out, with my aunt trying to stop him my pulling his hair with a knife to his throat. it was like a mexican standoff with blades
-my brother walking into my room, kicking my bowl of cereal to my face, then pulling my hair, dragging me across the room. he would also encourage my cousins to do the same when they were over
-my father reminding us of his shotgun in the closet and that he could kill us all if he wanted to
-the day i was brought home from the hospital after my first very bad asthma attack, my dad blew smoke in my face on purpose and said "yeah, i don't care if you can't be around smoke"

there are many more, and the abuse only stopped when i got big enough to defend myself. even then shit still happened; i was thrown down a staircase at age 16 because my dad didn't like the way i was dressed.

i have all the hallmarks of a sociopath (poor impulse control, easily bored, shirks responsibility, obsessed with violence and suffering, parasitic lifestyle, incapable of guilt) and i know i'm this way because that house was so fucked up and i had no peace until i moved out. not a day goes by that i don't fantasize about murdering the various people that i feel have crossed me. i've never really loved anyone other than myself.

It’s not that I want to outshine everyone around me or be “special”. I agree with everything you’re saying. The biggest part of it all is that the only route I can see for myself right now is to pursue a masters but there’s a competitive gpa cutoff and decent outside universities will bump up the reqs for outside students like me. If I don’t make it I dunno what else to do. The number makes who I am.

I see all of my peers achieving the goals I dream of while I stagnate and I just feel like I’m completely worthless within the tiny world I’ve put myself in.

mommy's girl...huh? the sex must be WILD. do you call her mommy as she fucks you? does she call you her baby girl as you eat her out? legit this is hot

I haven’t been through much but when my (ex) girlfriend of a year left me and half a week later sexted some sore loser who had no friends, got beat up and humiliated, who pussied out on her in only like 2 or 3 months. All because he reminded her of “the old me”.

This. Tell us all about your mother and daughter "bonding".

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Are you fat? This reminds me of the movie Precious.

When I was a kid I used to be the smartest kid in class without even trying. I started not to care too much about grades sometime around the eight grade and it just went downhill from there, I never failed a class but my grades were mediocre. I moved to the US for college, the first couple semesters were okay, but it seems like I would fail or almost fail a class for every semester after that. I felt stupid and hopeless, guess I was depressed because I couldn't think about anything else but me failing, getting kicked out of college, but I could not keep decent grades to save my life unless the classes were easy. I got suspended twice due to bad grades and that's where I thought about killing myself. I can't say how many times I thought about jumping off the ceiling. It really sucked and I don't wish anyone going through that shit. I went to therapy, got some meds for the anxiety and felt much better. Somehow clutched college after six years and got a job back home. My girlfriend and I will be renting an appartment soon so I guess life ain't too bad. I'm stressed as fuck all the time though.

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divorced at a younger age and mother got full custody, but i message him on facebook here and there to keep in touch. he has absolutely no idea what's happening between us and he never will. sometimes i imagine how my father would react, he's a man with a temper and i believe he'd actually kill us both and then himself if he ever found out. i don't blame him.

basically what said.

sometimes we'll roleplay as normal people, but otherwise yes, we fully take advantage of our unusual situation and play around with our relationship in the bedroom. i do call her mom when we're intimate, and she calls me sunshine/darling/good girl. one of the best orgasms of my life included screaming out for my mom and having her hold me as i came down from it. it's INCREDIBLY intimate and very emotionally simulating.

bro... what

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i forgot to add that this environment led me to a serious suicide attempt at age 11. i used to practice writing suicide notes and then i would hide the drafts around the house. i don't know if any ever got found

youtu.be/xUuwZlov08g This

Found out my mother was sleeping with my half-brother and that my father knew about it, but stayed with her to keep our family together. Later came across the emails that my father had printed out of them discussing how they were going to fuck each other and what they were going to be doing to each other that night ( their was over 50 emails ) I read every single one of them.

Those emails should be burned.

share emails or gtfo

This was years ago. They're buried somewhere in the house. Will possibly post pics if I'm able to find them just for you anons. Swore I never would read them again. But hey. Fuck it.

KYS

I have a friend who is staying in town, I hadn't seen him in a very long time. Last night we got really high. Lit some incense and we were sitting in bed together hanging out and laughing and cracking jokes n shit, the incense is a floral love incense. He was doing a ritual charging Crystals on my windowsill cuz full moon, and we were chillin. He was super up close to me, he kept grabbing my arm. He leaves on the 22n. He is out rn staying with his grandparents for a night but hes back tomorrow. Idk what I should do. We gonna get high again i hope but I dont wanna blow this.

thanks. it seems like we're on a roll with the incest tonight, with lady up there fucking her mom and your mother sleeping with your brother.

Pseudoscience aside, do you want him as more than a friend?

MOMMMMYYYY FUUUUCK MEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I now have new appreciation for my life after reading about yours

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U gay nigga?

Bro I know. This thread is walking through Walmart

Nah, u. When ur fuck buddy croakes.

>be me, 18
>meet first bf, 26
>"i will anhero if you don't have my baby and love me forever"
>I get scared and just do it
>was on all kinds of furry dating sites telling girls he wants to meow@them or whatever the whole time I'm pregnant
>I get called an idiot and all kinds of names daily, self esteem is nonexistent at this point but I always stayed silent and never fought back
>have my son
>he leaves bite marks on my son, cares nothing about him, is no help
>my son gives me confidence
>finally one night it's the first time I'd ever been drunk
>after a year and a half of this miserable shit, I scream and tell him everything I really felt, breaking up with him
>I'm drunk and fall asleep afterwards
>2 hours later, I get woken up disoriented as all shit by my mom and a cop
>"user, your bf shot himself in the head in your driveway"
>Immediately feel so guilty it eats away at me for months and I can never get the image out of my head
>2019, have a new bf of over 2 years who is my best friend and will soon adopt my son officially
It was an awful thing that happened but I don't think I would have gotten out if it any other way. He also most likely would have continued doing the same thing to other women, he never would have changed. Me and my son are better off without him. The worst part is his family and friends feeling sorry for him, some even blaming me. Not my fault your guy was a bitch.

How do I start my own secret lesbian incestuous relationship with my own Mom?

i watch porn and it looks fun, but again, i got mommy issues

have her rape you at a very young age

1. Be born void of any shred of morality and/or/including human decency.
2. Become slithering liar
3.muff dive
4.?
5. Profit

Are you gay now? I'm not judging just sincerely wondering

this an incest thread now boys

Are you the guy who got arrested bc his bro ratted on him?

good job.

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I'd make you my wife, tbh. Are you decently attractive?
We could build a beautiful family in the future.

You charged crystals on the full moon eclipse? Are you retarded? Rhetorical question. Your love is doomed now dumb fuck.

I went through the same thing user and I started lifting weights when I heard my father was getting out of prison.

Yes

Not eclipsing faggit are you retarted this was last night. It was full.

Fucking kill him ill paypal you money for gun if needed

Everyone is gonna die and you cant do anything

You either die knowing you will make others suffer or live to suffer others death

Life is so horrible because it gives you the most beautiful things only for them to dissapear

your mom will die

your dad will die

your dog will die

your sister or brother will die

your friends will die

your son, grandson and wife will die

you, and them will be forgotten

and at one point you will do something shitty to them and it will be too late to apologize

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How did she start it? With dildos or mouthplay? How does a woman rape another? I totally believe you I'm just curious? You don't have to answer if you don't want, and I'm sorry this happened to you. Just genuinely wondering. Love is love. People sometimes forgive people who do terrible shit to them, it's not outside of the realm of possibility.

This is super ducked up I'm so sorry to hear this, glad your bf saved you.

If you're okay with it I don't think anyone else can say shit. fuck what others think and do you. Do you look like her when she was young? Wheres your dad? What was her motive in doing this to you origionally?

Some info on why I havnt chaded up to the plate yet: A year ago, I was in a relationship, I had a large group of friends. Then my life long best friend and girlfriend cheated, and got all of my other friends to lie about it. This put me in a situation where I now have 3 friends who I talk to once a month and a hard time trusting anyone. It doesnt help that my friend who is staying over stayed with ex best friend for a week before with me. I cant shake the thought that something happened and they are lying. The whole incident has left me really fucked up. I literally trust nobody. I dont even trust myself I get high and drunk out of my mind so often. Sorry for rant, just thought it would help if u understand the situatuon.

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My room is the only place I feel safe anymore. I fill up a gallon of water that i use to feed my cat and lizard. I keep food and shit so I have to leave as little as possible. I have a stereo and ps4 so it's not boring.

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if you're ready for a life of no sex and covering up for me while i fuck my mom, sure. i honestly just want a good guy friend i can completely and utterly trust that knows my situation and is willing to help me out. but i don't, and i don't think i ever will considering how much power i'd be giving that individual over both of our lives with this secret. my mom's safety and reputation comes first. i'm not the ugliest or prettiest, i'd say average. not self conscious at all.

it's hard to explain, but it started off as small and subtle things like quick pecks on the lips and touching my thighs to tell me they're getting bigger, regular actions that could pass off as just motherly affection. but the very first time i was molested by her was a day after we'd come back from ocean city, i had sand in my swimsuit and my mother cleaned out my crotch area from it with her hands.at first i thought this was just her taking care of me, but growing up and looking back now the way she was "cleaning" the sand from there even after the majority was out was obviously not exactly "cleaning". the first time i was actually full on raped was when she actually inserted her fingers into me which was a different time.

Yeah I was wondering if it began like that I had a weird touchy mom but no rape or anything like your story. Just always making excuses for me to be naked, grabbing boobs stuff like that...didn't know it was weird until I went to college.

the trump rally i watched live on youtube today. made me physically ill

this is a very sick thing to say and i understand this, but it makes me feel so special when my mom tells me about how much i looked like her when she was younger. she tells me i have her eyes and her lips but my fathers hair and nose. my dad is a fucking dentist living in the middle of nowhere in maryland and seems to be having a good life with his own family now. i'm happy for him.

how did you feel about it at the time? looking back on it now?

if we really lived forever though lets be honest wed all end up bored as fuck and in as muxh pain as we are now and end up ending it. the only reason you really like anything in this world is cause its gonna be taken away from you, crack on with it or die. i havnt got enough time to keep FELLING THIS FUCKING SHIT ALLLLL THE FUCKING TIME IS THERE ACTUALLY A WAY TO BE HAPPY WITHOUT GETTING OFF YOUR HEAD EVERY NIGHT AND MAKING OTHER PEOPLE FEEL AS SHIT AS I DO

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People are gonna shit on me for this but whatever.

It was a day or two after Trump got elected and I was walking home from class with my girlfriend. I'm a black guy and she's white, and we had never gotten hassled for it before. So we're right outside her place when this dude in the biggest pickup I've ever seen just leans out the window and starts screaming at us, like this fuckin blood howl. Immediately afterwards there was this group of white guys, and you're gonna think I'm making this up but I swear to God I'm not, dressed in all red just staring at us with the most dead and empty eyes. Just no empathy in these eyes even though they saw this guy just scream at us. And they just looked at us the rest of the block.

The shit honestly made me breakdown. I thought, holy shit, is this it? Nothing else has happened like that since then thank God, but I was just inconsolable for a couple of days. Just started dressing as prim and proper as I could--like civil rights era tactics--for a couple months. In retrospect it feels kinda ridiculous because nothing *really* happened. But christ man, I was so afraid. I was so fucking scared. I'll never forget that feeling.

sorry user. you really shouldn't have to feel this way in your own home country

Where they women?

Where they raping you at gun/knife/whateverthefuck point or where they just overpowering you by numbers?

>throw ring out car window on the freeway turn
Why couldnt you just sell it

Those shits are expensive

It's just crazy because I've honestly never really experienced racism until the last couple years. It'd be one thing if I had grown up to expect this sort of thing, but it really came out of left field.
But the thing I hate the most is how paranoid it made me. And I know that most people are such great people, but I've just become increasingly so nervous in public.

At the time it was a little annoying because she was super mean. But she did worse things to me so I'm more mad about that. I'm still really nice to her, but she still is not that nice to me. she had a fucked life too so I try and be the bigger person. I have learned not to tell people about the naked stuff bc it's weird to others, but I didn't see it as a super big deal at the time compared to legit physical and mental abuse, whom I would never tell someone about in real life. I don't really want to destroy her life either but I feel like Id someone else lived my exact life, they definitely would rat her out.

Yeah, I was wondering about her mindset I'm this user honestly I can't imagine it with my mom because mine was mean, but I can imagine that if your mom was super nice and loving to you....that it must be a super intense relationship due to the fact that she had you and raised you, and now you're in love with each other. The bond must be really strong when you mix in the familial bond, the love, and growing up together to be lovers as well. That's not something many people will ever understand.

I feel like I can comment on this thread. Just like op said I don't want pity or concern. I'm an alcoholic. I lost my job, I lost any kind of respect that my friends ever had for me. The only thing I have left is a wonderful wife and sometimes I want to kill myself because I've been such a burden.

This is really gay. I bet your whole bases of politics is surface level and basically just memes