Hey Yea Forums, I just broke up with my fiancee and I'm getting drunk to see if I can feel anything so AMA. Also...

Bro, that's your depression speaking. You did the right thing by breaking up with her. You feel bad about it because you liked having someone who cared about you, but if you didn't really care about her, then you were wasting her time. You are better off alone that with someone you don't really love. Strangely, I am in the same boat.

Contreau Noir atm, is good.

I appreaciate the advice, but I'm not quite at that level of emotional numbness... yet.

Emotional what now?

Just stick the coke up your ass and don't forget the mentos.

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OP here, I'm Scottish and I like whisky, but I've never tried this. What is it like?

Pretty tasty, nice and smooth, got a good bit of a honey/toffee flavor to it.

That sounds great. What is your favourite?

Hey there Yea Forumsro, my drink is in the freezer, in about 20 minutes I will join you

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Cao Ila 12 year is my go to, nice and earthy. Woodford Reserve or Blanton's if I'm going bourbon.

Cool, hope the thread is still alive by then. What have you got chilling?

Cheap vodka I had laying around then some shitty Natty Ice. I'm 47, got laid off, lost everything, got a job at Walmart just to keep the lights on. Went to the VA today. Arthritis in my neck and back, shoulders fucked up, bone spur on left foot, 3 bulging disks, blah blah blah.

OP, same boat 9 months in, still no feelings.

I'd off myself but even that seems like a wasted effort.

A local receipe for disaster, homemade green wine mixed with beer and a bit of gin and sugar

Again, never tried it. Talisker Storm, or Arran 10 yr are maybe my favourites, but Highland Park is my go-to. I'm not well versed in bourbon unfortunately. But I have tried a couple of Canadian malts that I liked.

Why don't you niggers ever take this over to advice. Those people actually care about your problems and will give you sincere, shockingly coherent advice and/or empathy.

Why don't you fuck off if you have nothing to contribute?

Why do you care faggot?

Drinking a very dry wine. Very drunk now. Why fif you break upbwith her? Is she a cheating slut?

Nah that's kind of the worst part. She was unswervingly loyal. She gave her virginity to me. But I just don't really feel a connection with her. I did at the start, that's why I slept with her. But it faded quickly, and a year and a half later, I didn't feel much for her. I don't know why.

How is your wine? a strong one I guess.

Why don't you go suck another dick

If you don't care about her enough to marry her then you did the right thing. Don't worry about "feeling something". You just ended a bad situation. Its good to not feel. Roll with it and move on. there's about 3.5 billion women on the planet. Surely one of them is right for you.

only 3.5 billion, I thought women were the majority?

She's a good person, loyal and beautiful. I can't think of a reason why I shouldn't love her. But I just don't. I don't even feel overly bad about hurting her with this break up. And I sort of feel like a cunt for that.

ok its an estimate there's a fucking lot

idk I'm retarded

Don't dwell on it. Fuck it, look forward

But I do know you are right here. I was wasting both of our time by pretending. Thanks for the sentiment user.

Can't really do much if you don't love her it happens, doesn't matter how good someone is if you don't actually want to be with them, I know i'd rather be by myself than with someone I don't actually love so that's how i ended up a similar situation

Woodford reserve is a brilliant bourban btw

Green wine? What is this and why have I never heard of it?

Are you Sorry Yea Forumsro didn't see your post. End it now. Take my advice, I left it too long and now I seem deceitful. You don't want her remembering all the shit that was special to her but meant nothing to you.

niggers don't count

Nah just saying I like the bourbon

But you do.

>Also, what is the internet drinking tonight?
I started out with some acid and a pre-rolled Chief'n Kief. Then moved on to some Milagro shots and now I'm 3 deep in a 4 pack of Dragon's Milk just waiting for the acid to kick in, listening to All Them Witches.

What are YOU drinking, OP?

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wtf you in prison or something?

So basically, she cheated on your with a black or brown guy, or both. Bitches. Gnomesayin'?

touchie

>i pushed the only girl that ever cared about me out of my life because of my depression
The only girl that ever really loved me was a junkie nympho and literal prostitute for heroin. I feel you, bro. I feel you

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God I wish somebody loved me

That's pretty hardcore user. I don't know what Dragon's Milk is, but it sounds awesome. I'm checking out "All Them Witches" now.

I'm being a normie and drinking Budweiser (it was on offer) thanks for asking.

No, she is actually Nigerian and justifiably dislikes black guys. She didn't cheat, I was her first.

>Woodford Reserve or Blanton
My dude! Both of those are some of the best bottles you can get for under $40-50. That is, if you can find a bottle of Blanton's. Shit goes for $34.99 but is rare as fuck at most liquor stores.

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Alright my drink is finally ready, first one going down right now. Green wine is variant of white wine that is only produced in Portugal, very acid shit, but it's refreshing af during summer melting hot nights

sup BRO (brother) I think you should try what I'm drinking rn (right now) #Bluepurp a legal high tbh (To Be Honest)

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I wish I was as cool as you, bro

lol there are no Nigerian virgins that make it to puberty, you child molesting fuckface

Hahaha, how fucked are you? Enjoy multiple organ failure my friend.

In case you are wondering, she grew up mostly in my country and she is 21. You clearly don't know shit about anything.

Wierd way to say I'm 16

Dragon's Milk is an 11% milk stout. It's delicious and super smooth.

One of ATW's best songs
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The acid has definitely kicked in now btw and smoking another pre-rolled. I lost the case to this one but it's a bit crazier than the Chief'n Kief one. Was a $20 pre-rolled as opposed to the $10 CK one. About to go get naked and hop in my pool

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Just listened to that, perfect for what I'm feeling right now. Also listened to "The Marriage of Coyote Woman" and I'm liking what I'm hearing so far.

Yo, dawg. You like Portuguese wine? Ever had Terra De Lobos? It's one of the best $10 bottles of red I've ever had. Super enjoyable, light, and not too crazy on the acid/tannins

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Bro, you are cool as fuck. Don't put yourself down. You're only as cool as you feel, and other people pick up on that. Be the awesome motherfucker that you were meant to be.

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We are joined by a Portufag? I've visited there. I went on holiday to Praia du Luz, not knowing that's where the little girl disappeared from. But it was absolutely idyllic so I can't complain.

Do you mix it with other stuff to take the acidic edge off?

If there is anything I know, it's shit. Take that, internet person typing at me.

Last time I visited Portugal, that shit was like 5 euros a bottle, they have some really high quality wine for dirt cheap. And alcohol laws there are relaxed af. Everyone drinks on the street and you can get good lager for like 0.50 cents in downtown Porto.

I never did understand why Spain didn't just stomp Portugal into submission. Anyone got a link?

Btw our planet on Netflix is really cool. beautiful shots

I'm kind of racist tbh. The hottest girl I ever saw/dated in my entire life was this Nigerian girl named Hadijzia or some shit. She came to the US straight from Nigeria and managed to not get struggle snuggled her whole life.

Girl was a literal brick house. Drop dead gorgeous face, unfuckingbelievable body with huge fat, plump, perky natural tits, tiny waist, wide hips, phat round gorgeous ass, and legs that you would want to just suck and gnaw on. She was sweet as fuck, smart, funny, sexy as all hell, and a virgin at 25. We hung out and she decided to give it up to me. Her pussy was just, wow.... the most gorgeous fucking thing I've ever seen. She was ridiculously tight and had a shallow vagina. There was definitely blood the first time. Got that girl pregnant and turned her into a single mother. Every now and then I wonder how her and my half-negro baby are doing.

Yes, you clearly know approximately shit, internet person who types when they shouldn't. If you want details, she bought alcohol with her ID in front of me (not underage) and there was a hymen that is no longer there.

How are you doing tonight user?

Because the Portuguese have been best friends with the Britts since Jebus walked the earth.

>Also listened to "The Marriage of Coyote Woman" and I'm liking what I'm hearing so far
That's fucking awesome, dude. I'm really glad you dig them. It's always nice being able to connect with people over music
>Wierd way to say I'm 16
I'm 39 and own my own house plus 2 rental properties that make me money year round with minimal maintenance/effort. Not everyone who likes to get fucked up is a kid, bro.

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Sounds similar to my ex fiancee. Except I wasn't a cunt and didn't get her pregnant then bail. From the name, I'm guessing she was Hausa?

True story about the rape thing though, my ex had more than one attempt on her and her mother was raped. Men over there are close to animals. Thankfully, there are some gems amongst the women.

Oh man, the rape thing is no joke. Niggers love to rape. I heard horror stories of how she had to fight dudes off with a machete. Completely fucked up and no joke, even though we are facetious about it. I didn't make her a single mother on purpose btw. I would love to be a good father, but she got pregnant and moved away. Like, she wanted an anchor baby, got what she wanted, and bounced. So it was kind of her being the cunt in that situation. I could have seen being in a long term loving relationship with that girl and raising my son right. I've seen pictures and he looks 90% white.

Checked out "Elk Blood heart" and it's my favourite so far. Think I'm gonna move on to something faster now though. Thanks for the suggestion, I'll be returning to this. Has the acid hit yet?

Portugal is hilly as fuck, not good for foreign invading armies. Portugal is one of the oldest countries in Europe - Having the same defined borders since 1249, almost 800 years ago. The name Portugal first appears in 868, during the Reconquista over the Muslims. Lisbon is older than Rome - Around four centuries older to be precise.

Just smoked a blizzard. Drinking a red apple ale cause I ran out of jim.

Bro, thats your depression speaking

What microgram is the acid?

>Has the acid hit yet?
About a half hour ago at this point.
>something faster
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I'm listening to Ween's Quebec now. That album is really fucking amazing, except for the last track which is pure forced depression.

Kind of mixing in Quebec tracks with other random songs that are far less fast paced
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what are you saying BRO (brother) I'm drinking this from yesterday and I'm enjoying a (legal) high since

Yeah they have a really weird attitude to it. The women really hate black men, because they know that they are just waiting for an opportunity to slip the dick, consentually or otherwise. Not one for generalising, and I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, but I've seen too much to deny that african men are pretty fucked tbh.

Sorry for presuming bro, and I'm sorry you got bailed on. That's a bitter pill to swallow.

thats interesting user

It's, um.... Phish level UM? Probably the best acid I've ever had in 39 years. Wish I could make that microgram backward y symbol. Went to my first Phish show with 2 coworkers not too long ago and picked up a 10 strip of just fucking amazing and wonderful LSD. Slowly working through that. Gotta go to Philly to pick up more from the dude, and I'm not looking forward to that.
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>Ween's Quebec
Fuck it's like you're sensing my mood haha. This shit is good. Still got 6 cans left. It's gonna be a long night ;)

Burn the bridge and don't look back.

Maybe

Lemon chu hi and Bulleit Rye whisky

What are you guys listening to/watching/playing?

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Listening to C2C Delta and drinking beer. Wtf is chu hi?

You listening to any good tunes?

>That's a bitter pill to swallow.
Real reality is always a bitter mistress. Most people are barely above the level of wild animal even though they wear people clothes and speak some approximation of human language.. It's a rough world out there. We need to be better to one another but that's not really an option when society has been conditioned to be narcissistic and sick.
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They're sochu (Japanese rice liquor) and fruit juice.
They're 9% and delicious.

I'm listening to Lights right now, but mostly Slayer and Metallica.

So youre an NPC?

>sochu
Do you mean Soju? Like, the Korean liquor that's kind of like Sake and is the best selling liquor in the entire world?

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Very similar
Soju is just the Korean version
But they're essentially the same

I used to live in Japan, and my friend just sent me a few in the mail

That's really cynical user. I think everyone is basically the same if left untempered by a solid upbrining and a secure society. Otherwise, there is a powerful milieu of selfishness and cruelty. I think this can be averted with the aforementioned conditions though. That requires a whole society to realise the benefits of it though, which pretty much every african country has failed to do.

Also, what the fuck did I just watch, and why was the dude actually a good singer?

Yo I used to love twiztid

I heard they had some controversy recently though?
Like they fell out with their label

There's a problem, though. There are people who are hostile toward everyone else who are in control of media, education, and entertainment. Those people promote and inculcate mental illness and personality disorders like NPD and BPD. It's not cynicism when it's based upon fact and reality. I'd love to believe the best in people, but that's not really how people work. It's a sad reality. Most people are littler more than wild animals, no matter how you cut the mustard. I hate it and wish there were a way to make people better. But at the same time I'm not really into controlling other people. If people don't realize they're being programmed by propaganda, and vehemently support that propaganda no matter how plainly stupid, destructive, and antisocial it is (see "man made global warming" propaganda) then what can a person do? You can't convince these people with facts and evidence because all of the media they consume says that lies are truth, and to say otherwise is to remove oneself from "the group"' that is the most terrifying thing to normies, it would seem. Just talking about actual reality with normies is a burden. They look down on your for knowing more and better than them. What can you do?

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I'm doing ok. Just brought in a rack of ribs off the Weber charcoal grill and drinking some cheap beer. About to steam some veggies and make some shit tier instant mashed potatoes but I can doctor them up to where they are ok. life is pretty good rn.

>grilled ribs & veggies
Dude, man. That sounds legit delicious. What time is it by you?
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>african men are pretty fucked tbh

ALL black men

Talisker Storm

I'm not dismissing your assertion that biased partes control mainstream media. And there are many destructive influences in the world. And most people unwittingly go along with it because they want to focus on their own bubble and don't put too much thought into where they get their information. All true and valid concerns.

But don't buy into fringe theories just because they seem convincing at the time. I fear you lack some of the objectivity that you crave.

2253 right now. I work 1400-2300 so plenty of time to eat, drink, and be merry. I just got the Witcher 3 dlc so when I leave here I'm going to play that.

Nice one. Also drinking cheap beer, but I'm looking to reduce my midriff, so I won't be eating tonight.

A fellow Talisker bro :)

I just started a new job and I end up walking 6-7 miles (9.6-11.2km fuck off) every night so idgaf lol.

When I was 22 my band opened for Dog Fashion Disco and Vanilla Ice in Virginia. DFD were fucking awesome! I was wearing a Mr Bungle hat and the singer was a huge Patton fan so we bonded over that. Vanilla Ice.... that's a different story. His manager was cool as fuck; little asian dude who liked to drink. But RVW himself was a huge cunt. My bass player and I were out back by the ;load-in area, where you could only be if you were in a band. We were about to smoke a huge blunt of some NYC high-grade shit when Vanilla Ice pulls up in a shitty old Mercedes driven by his awesome manager. He got out of the car like he thought there were hundreds of adoring fans. In reality it was me, my bass player, and the door guy. We told him we were opening for him, and that we were about to smoke some crazy fucking blunt and asked if he wanted to join in. He said "Nah, dawg. I only smoke the fiiiiiinest weed" then moseyed on into the venue. We were literally laughing in his face, but he was such a narcissist that he didn't understand he was being made fun of.

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I would say nice one, but that's fucking harsh. Why can't you get transport?

The only bad part is that I've been single for a long time and it didn't bother me at all. Over the last month I've started getting lonely. Worst part about that is that I've gotten too fat to get my minimum requirements and I won't settle so I have to improve my appearance to get a woman I can look at naked.

Sry I wasn't clear. I drive to work. I walk that much while I'm on the clock.

This has nothing to do with anything.

Tbh I don't "buy into" anything. I've done a lot of research. But the most telling thing is that I've grown up in an "occult family" with many other of those families as friends growing up. I literally grew up with the movers & shakers and know first hand what their plans are, how they're implemented, why they push certain things, so on and so forth. I'm not one for "conspiracy theory', more into fact and evidence. But I get what you're saying. Real reality is way too fucking hard for the average person to even casually contemplate. I get it, bro. Believe me. It's much easier to accept the Hollywood version of events because that's what everybody'd shown 24/7/365

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Fair enough, I've been there before. Acohol is your enemy in this regard.

Ah right. Don't overestimate that though. Walking basically doesn't do shit calorie wise.

All things are partially related to other things. That's how people connect, my dude. You have a story that interconnects to some shit I experienced and then BAM wow we're friends. The world is a weird place. The more stories a person shares, the more they open themselves up, the more likely they are to connect with other people

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100% my problem is the alcohol. I drink at least 2000 calories a day. My way of backing off some is to drink 7-8 beers instead of 750ml of vodka. Its killing me. I'm caught in a cycle that is hard to break. Wake up feel like shit go to work get home drink to stop feeling like shit rinse repeat rinse repeat

Sometimes women show their colours when you get engaged user.
My buddy just called off his engagement. She literally just got too fat and lazy once they got engaged.

He said it was like she just checked out of life. Stopped wearing make up, stopped putting any effort into her looks. Gained lots of weight and turned into a pig. It was noticeable.

He lost attraction to her and couldn't imagine being tied for life to that.

Next time you want to drink, just don't. It has become something that controls you. You are a slave to an inanimate object. You need to take back control. Show yourself that you are strong.

Fuck, this was part of it too. She was kind of slim and well-shaped when we met. A couple of weeks ago, she ate an entire fucking cake in front of me. There's no way I could tell her this without literally destroying her self-esteem, and it's just not in me to be that mean to someone.

It wasn't the only issue, but it contributed. I always liked how she looked without makeup mind you.

For some people they can't enjoy life without alcohol. Like never. It's the only time they can feel good or normal.
Especially people with bad anxiety or depression, it's the only relief they get. Either alcohol or other drugs.

They pretend to be happy or act normal the rest of the time but they fake it. The only time they actually feel good is with alcohol.

That's true until you stop it for a long time. Then you learn to be yourself again.

Heather Heyer was killed by Redneck Revolt.

When you quit for a long time you feel better physically. Your body starts to feel a lot better, you have more energy and clearer thinking. But you never really are able to enjoy yourself. It always sort of feels like you are empty and something is missing in your life.

Yeah it's impossible to bring stuff like that up too. Unless you're both fat then you can be like "hey we should both try to lose weight and get more healthy!"

But he was already skinny and in good shape and couldn't drop any hints. They stopped having sex cause she wasn't sexy anymore and things went downhill.

Yeah you are right, because you have already forged the neural reward pathways, and they are there pretty much for life. You have tied it so much to enjoyment (dopamine release) that you have become desensitised to other sources of dopamine release. You need to pick up a hobby that excites you, and you can turn to whenever the urge to drink returns in force.

I'm not particularly slim, but let's say I've never eaten a whole cake in my life. I didn't even require her to be super skinny, I like curvy too. But over the space of like 3 months she got visibly bigger and bigger, and eventually it became impossible for me to pretend I was attracted to her. I got floppy in bed and blamed it on other things. It was really unhealthy.